This is another big growth background for Alfred and Matthew. They get to build their character and bodies! Well please read and Review!

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Matthew's Journal, Saturday 3rd.

Dad is in bed, Alfred and I won't open the door. Last night, was all a blur, I remember feeling really full and warm. I felt that we were one under the full moon. Alfred is sad, the sun is not shining today. We didn't eat anything today just sat around at home. Alfred doesn't want to sleep together, so I'm going to be alone in bed tonight. I might cry again, I hope Alfred doesn't hear.

Alfred's Journal, Saturday 3rd.

This is a stupid journal I hate it.

Matthew's Journal, Sunday 4th.

Alfred got mad at me today, he noticed me crying and shoved me to the ground. He yelled at me to stop being so emotional. I'm sorry I couldn't help it, I feel so lonely now. Mom is gone, dad is gone now, well not gone…no never gone, just watching from somewhere. I guess, I will just have to be strong for Alfred and myself. I just don't really know how right now, today was hard. Alfred is still upset all the time, he's more angry then anything now. I wonder if he ever cried yet? I mean, it seems like he would but maybe it's just because I'm weak. I told him that he shouldn't bottle in his pain but he said he wasn't in pain and went to the bedroom.

Alfred's Journal, Sunday 4th.

I still hate this journal and Matt needs to stop crying all the time, right now we can't just sit around and cry that's all he did all day. It's annoying, does he know what it does to me, to see him crying? To see him all…soft it's hard! I'm not going to cry though, no way in hell will I cry! I'm super frustrated, why did dad do this? Why is life like this? It's so unfair…I have to..I don't know…do something but I feel like I can't…I feel stuck…it pisses me off! I just don't know what to do and dad said writing out my feelings in this stupid journal would help me sort out any problems but it's not! It just isn't anymore!

Matthew's Journal, Tuesday 6th.

Sorry I haven't written in so long! I guess father made a request to an old friend of his to come take us to his home with his wife. His name is Roderich, he looks like a rich man, like a king, it's really amazing. He came Monday morning and showed us a letter that dad had written to him, it was dad's handwriting I could tell. I guess dad could feel his death coming for a while now, he knew and that's why he wrote the letter. He wanted us to have a safe home so we're going to go live with him and his wife. They live kind of far though, and said we will need to get used to some hardwork but we will have food and a safe home so we need not worry. Alfred didn't like any of this, he wants to stay here with dad, but Roderich brought an undertaker to take our dad's body away. Alfred was hysterical, I had to hold him back and take him to our room to relax while the undertaker took our dad's body.

It was painful for me too, I wanted to so bad to tell him I don't want to go, I don't want to leave my home. I don't want them to take dad's body away. I don't want any of it, not at all. I just…I don't want this, to change but…it has too. Alfred is so upset, I'm upset too. While we waited we sat on my bed and cried, he finally cried. I was so relieved. He's been holding it in so long I was worried he was going to do something dangerous. After we finally relaxed and came to terms with what was going on we decided to come out of our room, Roderich was pleasant and told us to take our time getting our things to go. This is when I'm writing this entry and now…I have to go, we have to go…goodbye to this home.

Alfred's Journal, Tuesday 6th.

I rich stuffy man named Roderich came to get Matthew and me, and an undertaker came to get dad…dad's body. I got really mad, too mad, I'm sorry to Matthew he had to grab me from behind and hold me back from lashing out at that rich man. I would have knocked his head off…well figuratively I mean, I couldn't actually kill a man. When we got back to our room Matt and I cried, it was really uncool of me but I cried, it felt somewhat better afterwards…just letting it out. I mean it doesn't change anything but..it helped in a way. Stuffy pants said we can take our time getting our things, we're going to have a long ride to his house, he has two really big horses!

Well, I'm writing this journal now as we're getting our things, saying goodbye to this home is hard. So goodbye home,

goodbye my childhood,

goodbye forest,

goodbye river,

goodbye everything I knew of this place,

goodbye dad, Your spirit better be watching over us, Matt needs it more though,

goodbye mom, follow Matt and I too any home we go to. We'll keep the journals.

Matthew's Journal, Wednesday 7th.

Not in our new home yet, but we're getting there fast. The horses are big and strong Alfred keeps staring at them and the scenery that goes by, sometimes he gets excited but most of the time he's spacing out silently. I am too, so I decided to write, I'm sorry if my handwriting is shaky it's hard to write in this carriage. I'm watching the world fly by me as the horses race on. The forest is leaving and more open land and fields are growing on the horizon, I wonder what we will be doing out here. I wonder what I will do, what we will do.

Alfred's Journal, Wednesday 7th.

It's too hard to write! How is Matt writing so much! Well, we're going with stiff rich guy to nowhere land! Wish us luck! We'll need it. Dad you better have sent us to a good place or I'll be mad!

Alfred's Journal, Thursday 8th.

This place sucks…dad you suck.

Matthew's Journal, Thursday 9th

I'm sorry, yesterday came quite the surprise, the house is relatively big and clean, very clean but it's not well decorated like I thought it would be nor is it lavish or rich looking like I thought. He has a field for farming and a few chicks, cows and the two big horses to raise. He said he does take in orphan children but they've all grown and left. He says he and his wife, Elizaveta, she's really pretty and really nice, are the only ones that have been taking care of the place for a good two years. It's still really simple the only really beautiful item in the whole place is this grand piano, it's very sleek and well taken care of, Roderich plays all the time, I like listening when he plays, I want to learn but with the work he has planned for us it may not go that way. I will try though.

I have to go! I think Alfred is picking a fight with Roderich! Stupid Alfred!

Alfred's Journal, Thursday 9th.

Of all the low life! That stupid guy is going to put us to work! Work us like dogs! I mean I'm okay, but Matt wont be able to take all this labour! He's my younger brother I can't have some stiff, over dressed, piano playing weirdo telling us what to do. I have to take care of Matthew, he's not as strong as me so he shouldn't be doing as much work! I'm gong to give him a piece of my mind!

P.s. Elizaveta is really cool! She's awesome! Bye.

Matthew's Journal, Friday 10th.

Wow,I thought Roderich was going to punish Alfred but he didn't, it was Elizaveta who dealt out the punishment, she whacked Alfred with a frying pan! Twice! He passed out for a while but thankfully Alfred has a thick skull and came too quickly, even she was surprised by his rebound. Roderich took Alfred to the side and talked to him sternly. I could hear Alfred complaining about something but I was taken away to help clean up the house a bit. I don't know what actually went on but it looked like Alfred got what he wanted sort of. That day Roderich offered to teach me the piano, I was really excited but I told him I might not have too much energy. He told me that wouldn't be a problem. I was really confused.

Alfred's Journal, Friday 10th.

Uhhh..I can't think how to write, that beast of a woman I thought was cool hit me yesterday with a frying pan! A frying pan! Dad you have some weird friends! Anyway I was able to talk too stuffy guy alone for a bit but he was so….difficult. I told him I wanted Matt to have less work then me and that I noticed he liked the piano too. So I made a little deal, give Matt a little tiny bit less work to do and teach him piano, I'll cover any physical labor, I know I can do it. We've been dealing with a lot of stuff and I can sometimes hear Matt sniffling beside me. We have to share a bed, it's pretty big but still! Roderich says we'll start our work monday, i'm kind of excited for it. Something to do so I don't have to think about what's gone on and it will get Matt too tired to cry at night. I'm not sure how to comfort him…except just sit beside him and listen to him. I guess, all I can do is make sure he has something happy to do right? Piano is good…not something I want to do, I'd rather play with the horses.

Matthew's Journal, Saturday 11th

Roderich said I'm going to have an hour each day for lessons on how to play the piano, then an hour for regular schooling. I'm really excited because I've only learned what dad taught us, he had very few books to read, so I read them all a couple times. He mostly taught Alfred and I how to survive in the wilderness, but also manners when dealing with people. Always be kind and respectful, but Alfred never really took that to heart, he's never been mean to others but he can't help but speak his mind when ever he gets the chance. I could tell Alfred wanted to learn, he looked somewhat excited and intrigued but tried to play it off cool. We're not over dad yet and I think that's why he's a bit nervous being taught by another person, it was always dad. Still we owe a lot to them, they feed us pretty well and they have a nice home where it's warm and comfy. We're lucky…I guess. I'm not going to lie, I'm still very sad and I do cry at night all Alfred does is lay there next to me... I guess he wants to show he's there for me but doesn't touch me or say anything. It's hard ! I want to go back! Before any of this happened, I want to go home and go to my own bed! I want to go to the kitchen and make food! Go to the river and dip my feet in while Alfred jumps in completely naked and splashes me like the big jerk he is! I want to go back! I think, i'm going to cry, that's it for my journal today, goodnight!

Alfred's Journal, Saturday 11th.

I'm gonna have to work hard and fast, monday we'll start our chores and field work. Matt doesn't know I took on an extra hour for him and I bet he'll be upset when he finds out, he's weird like that. I just need to rush so I'm close to being done when he's done, which should be easy because he's not as strong! Well, that's kind of mean, he is tough, still not as big as me mostly because he's younger, anyway! Stuffy, stick up his butt is going to teach Matt the piano. We're also going to be taught by him and Elizaveta but I'm not really comfortable with that, I'm not sure why but it really pisses me off that they are going to be teaching us from now on. Maybe it's because I'm not used to being taught by strangers. Hmm…uh oh! Matt's really crying! He's crying really hard now! I think he's breaking down! I need to go! Mom, Dad! Wish us luck and watch over us! Night!

Matthew's Journal, Monday 13th.

Yesterday, I was kind of tired. Sorry about that but today was equally tiring too. We started our field work and today and I could tell that Alfred was putting in a 100% into everything he did, he seemed to have a small smirk on his lips. I sometimes watched him and I could tell he enjoyed pushing himself, I tried to push myself as well. It was difficult, I'm really dirty, I should take a bath soon. Back to the work, it was taking care of the animals and digging up the fields to plant crops, we got to use horses which was really exciting for Alfred. He just loves to see strong animals work. Still, does he think I'm an idiot? Does he think I can't tell he's doing more work then I am? I guess that's what they're deal was about, for my piano lessons Alfred will coverup an hour of more work, with out asking me. He's an idiot brother but I feel it's really nice he wants to do this for me. He's trying so hard to create our happiness again. Or maybe he just wants an excuse to tire himself out so he doesn't have to remember it, sometimes he seems so straightforward that I don't understand what he's really thinking. The rest of the day went on nicely, I was able to start my piano lessons, Roderich said I was really a good listener and I should be able to get the hang of it soon, though it's pretty hard. School was fun too, Elizaveta taught us how to write properly, math and science. She gave us books to read, they're pretty interesting so I'll enjoy reading them. Alfred wont probably even open one. Right now it's kind of late and he's already asleep in his bed, he still wakes and sleeps with the sun no matter where he is. I still like staying up late but I prefer not to look at the moon anymore.

Alfred's Journal, Monday 13th.

Haha, I woke with the sun rise today like always! I had to wake Roderich up, he was surprised at how early I was up, he got mad at me for waking him up so early though, said something about needing proper rest. Still I wanted to get my work done with right away so with a little breakfast he went and told me how to take care of the chores for the day and left me to myself. Matt woke up a few hours later and joined me, it was hard work but I think he was happy to put his body to use instead of sitting around. He would space out though and stare at me, weirdo! The horses were really cool! I want to ride them! I'll ask if I can take a horse for a ride someday around the area, maybe go on an adventure! That would be awesome! Matt and I had our first lesson and man was it boring and stupid! Well, it was hard but still I didn't like it! We were given some books but I don't think I will be reading them…except there's this cool adventure pirate one, I might read that. Dad was a sailor and would have many run ins with pirates, he said he kicked their ass though, he even got shot by one, I saw the scar it was really cool! My old man was amazing back in the day. I wonder what he's doing now?

Matt got his first piano lesson, he looks like he enjoyed it though he only played some random notes. He must really like it. Well I'm going to bed! Matt is still up getting clean and he'll probably want to write in his journal also before bed! He likes to stay up late as usual! Tomorrow will be another big day! Mom, Dad, I love you!

6 years later

Alfred's Journal, Thursday 23rd.

Big news! Mom! Dad! Buckle up because I'm joining the navy! About time I leave this place and get on with life, on the open seas! I mean i've only read about it and seen it on maps but I've got it covered! We do visit lakes sometimes during the summer for a little bit and Matt and I swam, I remember writing in past journal entries we would race, of course I always won! I'm so fast! haha! I just fly through that water, but there was a close call a year ago, not that I will ever admit it to his face. I mean the guy plays piano all the time! Well, he's really good, he always looks happy when he plays even if it sounds sad. Which is good, he can go be a teacher or a doctor or something, I'm going to join the navy and defeat pirates and the like! It's going to be awesome! I will work hard and make everyone proud, i'll have to leave Matt but I'm sure he's strong enough to go on his. He's good with people, he's smart too, who wouldn't want to hire him? I mean yeah he's not very loud or that outgoing and can sometimes be over looked but I'm sure he will be fine. Anyway, I've been waiting for the officer to come pick me up and take me to my new home…err…boat…home…thing. It's going to be tough work, I've never been on a boat before and I'm not sure if I get sea sick but i'll find out when I'm there, haha! All I can do! Matt hasn't talked to me since I told him a couple days ago, he's mad I didn't tell him my plans sooner but I didn't think when I told him would matter, it's my life and working for the navy is probably the only thing I would be good at. If I were to stay and get a job in town I would be pretty much useless, I hate to admit it. I need to be out and free not stuck in a town, day after day after day after day! Ugh…just thinking about it!

Oh shit! I got to go, the guy's here to take me! He's going to give me some awesome navy training! Wish me luck!

Matthew's Journal, Thursday 23rd.

Stupid Alfred! Stupid! Idiot! HE….Mom! Dad! I can't believe him! He decided with out asking or telling me, that he's going to join the navy! He's just going to run off from me and join the stupid navy! What is he thinking! Does he realize that won't make anyone happy. I wont be happy that he leaves and he wont be happy being all alone, we're the only family we have left and he wants to split up and join the navy and probably get himself killed. Well I'm not going to let that happen, whether he likes it or not! I've never been so mad in my life. Sorry Mom you have to see me like this, Dad I blame you... he's filled with the idea of the navy being a fun place just full of adventure. It's a place of handwork not to mention there's probably some deviants who are just trying to use the system or something. You never know with politics. He has no idea what he's getting himself into.

Alfred's Journal, Friday 24th.

For the love of! Yesterday a man named Vash came and picked me up! He's really harsh and really stern, He has blonde hair and green eyes, he carries a huge gun and one small one on his side, never seen a more bad ass dude. He didn't get along well with Roderich, or maybe it's because he did get along with him or something, Elizaveta said their past is bumpy but they used to be good friends when they were younger but that's not the problem! The problem is Matt! He's here beside me now! We're not talking! Yesterday when Vash came to get me Matt decided he wanted to join too! Right when I said my goodbyes he runs out of the house, yelling. "I'm going too!" We started arguing but he got me when he said he had a right to choose what he wanted to do with his life. I'm sure he's just worried about me going to the navy and he doesn't want to be alone, not like I wanted to leave him, that was never my intention but I thought he would be happier not having to support me if I couldn't find a job. I'm still mad at him though, I mean it's dangerous! Not like him to put himself in danger! This is going to be harder then I thought! Lets go mom! I'm counting on you to lift my spirits and let my body continue to work hard.

Matthew's Journal, Friday 24th.

Alfred's not talking to me, we're on our way to our navy training place, where ever that is. We tried asking questions but it just pissed Vash off, he told us to keep quiet and not bother him or he'll shoot us. Alfred just laughed and sat down, he wont look over at me though, he's upset I decided to come along but I'm not leaving his side, we're still brothers and I don't want to just find some job in town and waste years wondering if he's still alive. As if I could write to him, a letter could take months to reach him. He never thinks these things through. No going back now, I'm joining the navy and I have to try my best. We both need to try our best because it looks like we're going to get our butts kicked.

Captain's Log: Friday 24th.

I just got back from doing some quick re supply on land. Not staying long the navy is on my tail, good luck to them though. This is the fastest ship to ever sail with the hardest working crew of animal men. Really they are unbelievable, i'm going for another…treasure hunt..I almost can't hold back a laugh. This is delicious, running my course on the free open seas, nothing can stop me. Well, I'm going to go yell at my men and take a look at my maps before I take a little nap. This is Captain Arthur Kirkland, future Pirate King. Killer of any who oppose him!

overview: Alfred- America(17)

Matthew: Canada(15)

Roderich: Austria

Elizaveta: Hungry

Vash: Switzerland.

Arthur: England.(21)