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He was going to try again today, even though his gut hurt every time he got closer to the other man, he had to try again.
"Alfred...can we talk? I have something important to tell you." It was another calm day on the ship, Alfred was working steadily but at a moderate pace when Arthur approached him.
"Yes Captain." Alfred said monotonously putting down a coiled up rope and looking blankly at his captain.
Arthur shuddered in response then swallowed in his already dry mouth. "I- I wanted to explain myself...my behavior, can we go to my room? You don't need to sit down...you can keep by the door even..."
"No need to explain yourself captain, now I'll just get back to work." Alfred said and shortly went to picking up the rope.
"Alfred, please...please I just need to at least tell you. I don't expect you to forgive me...I just..." Arthur was struggling with his words as he saw how unresponsive and uncaring the other man was being towards him.
"It's fine captain, I'm working hard now so you don't have to worry. I can become just another person in your crew." Alfred said and began to walk by the man.
"No, Alfred! Listen to me!" He said his body panicking as he watched the retreating figure, walk down the ship to the other side to continue his work. His chest hurt and he let out a groan of pain and frustration. This has been they're routine for a few days now and they will be making port in about two to three days depending on the wind and he would then let him free. He had to tell him, he had to at least make the other understand he wasn't himself and that he truly regrets what he did but the other would not budge. As Toris had some blatantly put it, he had broken the man and now he was a shell of who he once was. When they first met this would have been perfect, but now it was only anguish and pain. He wanted those defiant eyes back so badly, that gorgeous smile that put the sun to shame. It was gone though...it was all gone.
"Alfred! As your captain I order you to come here!" He yelled out and saw Alfred come running towards him, looking at him with a slightly curious look.
"Yes Captain?" He asked.
"Good, now you are going to come with me, that's an order!" Arthur's emerald eyes were strict and demanding and he stared hard into the others deep blue who finally showed some emotion.
"A-Ah, yes captain." He muttered and walked with the man to his room.
Once inside Arthur slammed the door shut and pushed Alfred against it. He was shaking and his face looked hesitant and guilty.
"Please, listen to me...I was drugged. I was drugged at the bar I was drinking at, and I lost control, I never meant to hurt you like that. I'm truly sorry Alfred." Arthur finally spit out as his throat squeezed tightly making every word hurt.
Alfred's face showed no hint of change, it stayed very stoic and he peered into the glassy green eyes of the man before him. " It's okay captain I understand, now can I get back to work?"
Arthur released his grip and took a step back eyeing the man in horror. "Alfred? Is that all you have to say? No! Alfred come on! You idiot! Get angry at least! Something Alfred, let me know the man I once knew is still in there!"
"Captain, calm down...you've finally broken me, isn't that a good thing?" Alfred asked tilting his head, and from Arthur's point of view could see a smirk though the man's face hardly changed. Arthur could feel a smirk underneath laughing at him and the damage he has caused to someone he actually cared about.
"No, I know what I did before...but I really liked you, I was scared and!" Arthur shook his head and slumped down on his bed in contemplation.
"Captain may I go now?" Alfred asked a bit more softly.
"No you may not!" Arthur growled so Alfred stayed by the door and waited until Arthur spoke again.
"I...I'm sorry for everything...at some point...I think I fell in love with you then I went crazy at the thought of losing you. The drug only made it worse...then I saw you and your brother and I thought I would never see you...so...I had to take you for myself. I'm sorry...Alfred." Arthur looked up and his eyes unwavering his voice was soft but he looked so broken.
"Arthur..." Alfred whispered, he closed his eyes and opened them to show some actual emotion.
He walked over and gently pressed his hand against the other's chest and laid him back against his bed, Arthur looked up at the man in shock but did not push away from him. He could finally see conflicting emotions in Alfred's eyes and that made his heart race in itself. Alfred lowered his head and then went to leave hot kisses on Arthur's neck who wiggled in response closing his eyes tightly. He didn't understand what was going on, why was he doing this to him? To torture him? He felt his shirt being unbuttoned slowly as the taller man left trails of kisses on the man's neck and exposed collar bone. Arthur gasped when his sensitive skin was given a teasing bite then licked as Alfred's hands roamed his chest.
"I-I don't understand..." Arthur finally let out, he was happy for these loving touches but they didn't make sense at all.
Alfred stayed silent then made his way down his chest and licked Arthur's nipple like a lollipop before let his mouth rest on it and flick it around with his tongue. He could feel Arthur shiver and wiggle around in pleasure and kept his work before lifting his head and removing the coat and shirt that was on Arthur.
"Captain, let me have this...my last selfish wish." Alfred said softly then worked on Arthur's other nipple.
Arthur shivered and watched Alfred lustfully, still not understanding the man's motives but too enthralled to stop and ask about it any more. He felt Alfred's hands room down his body and outline his figure before settling at his belt and unbuckling him, as he let one hand massage Arthur's nipple and his mouth tease at his neck. Arthur was panting and trying to keep quiet but his mind was beginning to fill up with his wanting need growing in his pants.
"A-Alfred..." He whispered and craned his neck so Alfred could kiss it more.
Alfred complied and left many kisses on his neck sucking once in a while aiming to leave a mark, he then left and let his his mouth roam down the others body, shaking and whimpering from every breath. Alfred found the scar above Arthurs hips and left small soft kisses over it, barely letting his lips touch the skin, it tickled Arthur greatly. Alfred after tracing the scar with his lips, let his tongue lick at it for a while before he slowly inched Arthur's pants down.
"Ah...ahn! Alfred, please tell me why you're doing this?" Arthur gasped in between a moan as he felt Alfred's hand palm the erection in his underwear and begin to stroke him gently, long smooth strokes that made him feel unimaginable pleasure.
Alfred remained silent and removed the mans shoes and pants all the way and removed his shirt as well. He want back to stroking Arthur's length before he finally looked to see Arthur's confused blushing face. He leaned forward and kissed the man softly on the lips slowly adding more pressure and licking the other's lips for entrance. Arthur oblidged and let the other fill his mouth with his tongue, letting them dance and swirl as Alfred continued his stroking on his length.
"Alfred...t-tell me." Arthur was insistent on knowing the reason, though if Alfred just kept going he wouldn't stop him, this was all so beautiful. Every touch was soft and gentle but yet strong and possessive, a truly loving touch he's never felt before that made his body react so excitedly.
"Ah...I'm go-going to..." Arthur said and Alfred quickly took his hand away from Arthur's bulging underwear and waited a moment. Arthur surprised and bit upset let out a hiss. Was this what he was going to do? Torture him?
He was about to sit up when Alfred swiftly brought the man's underwear down leaving him completely naked and exposed to the blonde man above him. Arthur let out a gasp and then turned his head into the sheets when he felt the cold air on his aching cock. When he felt a calloused hand grab the base he snapped his head back to stare in awe at the sight before, Alfred slowly brought his head down and sucked and licked at the man's tip before sucking more of the man's length in his mouth. Arthur blushed furiously and tried not to buck his hips up and couldn't help but arch his back in ecstasy.
"Ah...ah ...uhnn!" Arthur panted as Alfred bobbed his head slowly up and down his length, they were long and slow before he changed up his pace with short and fast.
"N-No good, I'm going...ah, Alfred." Arthur moaned as he reached his peek, Alfred back away and put his hand on the mans tip as he released his seed all over his hand.
With his fingers coated in the mans juices, he leaned over Arthur and kissed him on the forehead before kissing his lips as he placed one finger in Arthur's entrance. Arthur gasped at the intrusion and then wrapped his arms around Alfred shaking with each push and twist of the man's finger inside him. He felt like such a little whore for not bothering to fight this at all, he just clung closer to the man above him ridding out the feeling. Alfred after a moment pushed in a second finger, at first it was just simple thrusting before it turned to twisting them around and finally scissoring them. Arthur was trying to keep himself from moaning too loudly through it all but couldn't help spread his legs out further for the man to have more room.
Alfred went back to kissing his neck and massaging a nipple as he worked the other man's entrance and stretched it out, he pushed in a third finger and groped around inside Arthur's ass, Arthur gasped in pain at the third finger and wrapped his arms tighter around Alfred's neck. He closed his eyes as he began to get used to the intrusion and could almost hear himself panting into Alfred's ear for more. He couldn't believe what a little slut he was being.
"You have to tell me...uhn! Why uhnn! You're doing this..." Arthur said huskily into the others ear and could feel the three fingers leave his ass, making it feel cold and hallow. Alfred looked at him then stood up taking off his pants and underwear. He got on the bed and sat down and motioned Arthur to come closer. Arthut without thinking complied and crawled to the man, he noticed that Alfred was very hard and his cock standing proudly. It was bit too big for Arthur's liking but he couldn't really care too much because when he got close enough Alfred grabbed his head and kissed him this time a bit more roughly and dominated his mouth quickly.
He brought Arthur closer and brought the mans legs to straddle his side, he looked deeply into Arthur's eyes before kissing his neck again and lowering the other onto his twitching length. It hurt but thankfully the stretch didn't make it feel too bad, it still stung and he was quivering as he was pushed lower down the man until he hit the base of his cock. Alfred let him adjust for a moment and Arthur put his hands around Alfred's neck for support.
Alfred grabbed Arthur's ass with both hands roughly and started to slowly bring him up and then slowly back down, that was his rhythm until Arthur wanted more.
"You know...Arthur...I admired you for a long time. I really liked you..." Alfred whispered into the others ear as he started to quicken his pace.
"Alfred-"
"...I even fell in love with you. I'm giving up though..." Alfred said and his pace quickened and Arthur was moaning into his neck.
"W-wait...please don't...Alfred I'm sorry...I-I... AH!" Alfred hit the spot that sent Arthur's mind into a daze and his eyes widen as small tears form on the sides.
"After this...I will just be another man on your crew. I need this...Arthur...ahhh..." Alfred stopped as his wanting feeling for more was building up so much he couldn't stand it and thrusted in at a much faster and harder pace, making Arthur moan out in every pump.
Arthur couldn't stand this feeling, he felt so good so hot but he felt so much weight and guilt. His head was resting on Alfred's shoulder as his hips were guided up and down Alfred's length and he looked for a moment with cloudy eyes into a mirror that was nailed to the wall. He looked and he could see on Alfred's expansive back, scars from his lashings and a few small bruises he left when he forced himself in so roughly.
"Oh...Alfred." He whispered softly and he could feel his face heating up even more.
"Arthur, I fell in love with you and I want...ehn! I wanted to make love to you the way I wanted you to make love to me." Alfred said and laid Arthur on his back and went full out, hips smacking as he kissed Arthur's nipples again. He breathed haughtily on the man's chest and then brought his head up to his ear where his panting made Arthur shiver.
"A-After this...Arthur...we can forgot...ah! About everything...I will just be another part of your crew. I-I just need this to say g-goodbye." He said huskily into the others ear who had his arms and legs wrapped around the taller mans body.
"D-don't, say that." Arthur said and repeated the words as he felt Alfred's thrust become sporadic and hit his prostate.
"Alfred! I! Ahn! I do!..." Arthur's mouth trailed at another hit to his prostate.
"Al-Alfred...Idiot...I love you!" He said and with another well placed hit to his prostate released his seed unto his and Alfred's stomach, Alfred soon came as well into Arthur and he then rested his body not pulling out just yet. He laid his head on the bed next to Arthurs panting a bit as he regained his breathe.
"Alfred?" Arthur asked and tilted his head to look at the other more closely.
Alfred didn't say anything but lifted himself up and pulled out quietly without another word, he didn't even bother to look Arthur in the eyes. There was a moment of silence as Arthur looked at the man confused and hurt. The awkward silence grew as Alfred gathered his clothes and Arthur sat up on his bed staring at the other who would not even look at him.
"Captain, I just wanted this...so I can replace it with the one from before. Now, I'm done...we're done...we can pretend nothing ever happened." Alfred said getting dressed and approaching the door.
He looked back at the man sitting on the bed wide eyed and confused. Alfred's heart seemed to ache but he kept his face calm and left promptly to be met with the cold night air he took a deep breathe in and let out in a long breathe, he could see the cloud forming in the cold air. Shaking his head he walked down below where the crew usually bunked. He walked quickly scanning the sleeping faces and finally found the man he was looking for, Ivan. He was sleeping soundly and Alfred knelt down and jostled him.
A hand shot out and wrapped around his neck and pulled him close as Ivan sat up. He was smiling darkly and his killing aura set ablaze.
"Nice to see you here...comrade." Ivan spoke icily obviously beyond pissed for being woken up.
"Heh...It will be worth it, just listen to what I have to say." Alfred spoke as sweat dripped down the side of his face, he smirked through it.
"It better be." Ivan said releasing his grip around the others throat.
Uhhh...yeah. I hope you guys enjoyed...uhh...What can I say, I like smut. Well it has a reason so it's not pointless smut. Still this is my first fanfic involving these...details.
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