Okay, I admit it. I've had this chapter finished since Thursday. But I was so busy that I never got the chance to add it. Don't hate me! Anyway, enjoy!

Recap:

"Rory? What are you doing here?"

"I needed to see you."

"Why?"

"Because…I fixed everything."

He just stared at me, his large dark chocolate eyes staring into my bright blue ones. I didn't see any emotion in his eyes, they just stared, like a corpse's. Slowly, he opened the large door and I walked inside. He shut the door with a quiet slam and started walking towards what I guessed was the kitchen, and I silently followed him. By the time I step inside the dark room, he's fiddling with something at the counter and I go and sit at the table.

He turns around and I relax when I see the two coffee cups in hand. He sits across from me and hands me one of the cups and starts gulping down the other. I take a small sip before staring at my semi-distorted reflection in the mug.

We stay that way for what felt like hours before I spoke quietly, "Mom and Luke are back together."

"Huh."

Him using his old evasiveness makes my stomach twist a little. "Yeah."

Another awkward silence follows, neither of us knowing what to say. Finally he speaks, "You fixed everything?"

"Yeah, I graduated last week."

"Congrats."

"Logan proposed."

I see him tense visibly and I take small comfort in the fact that he's uncomfortable.

"I'll be sure to send a salad bowl."

"I told him no."

"Really?" I see a trace of a smile appear on his face.

"Yeah, he was moving out to San Francisco and he wanted me to come with him. I wanted to try a long-distance relationship again, but he said it had to be all or nothing."

"So it was nothing?"

"Yeah."

"So, you did fix everything?"

"Yup."

Jess took a deep breath and I felt my pulse quicken, "What are you doing here Rory?"

"What?"

"What are you doing here?"

"I came to see you."

"You skipped out on your new job to come see me?"

"How did you know?"

"Luke wanted me to come to your good-bye party."

"Oh." I stare down at my hands, unsure of what to say. "I had to see you." I say quietly.

"Why?" He stood up and starts pacing the floor, running his hands through his mass of dark hair. "You've had a ton of chances to contact me in the past four years. I know I was an ass and skipped out on you. I hate that I did that to you. I regret it every day. I've come to you so many times, hoping, begging you'd take me back, or not hate me anymore."

"I don't hate you." I stand, hoping he'd stop ranting, but it just encouraged him.

"What did I do? Was it because I didn't call you all the time?"

"What?" Now I was just confused.

"Was it because of the thing at the party?"

"What are you saying?"

"Was it because I left and didn't say good-bye?"

"Jess!" I yelled and he finally stopped and looked at me. "What are you talking about?"

His brown eyes went from being on fire to becoming bright with hurt and pain, "Why have you never forgiven me?"

"What?"

"Why did you never forgive me? Dean broke up with you twice, once because you didn't say you loved him and once because of me, but then you hop into bed with him when he's married?"

"Hey, that was different!"

"Then you start dating that dick, the one that cheated on you, and you forgave him for that? Why did you never forgive me?"

I stare at the floor, unsure of what to say, he was right. Dean broke up with me three times, and I had sex with him when he was married. Logan cheated on me with a wedding party. Jess only left, that's the least awful compared with the other two. So why did I go back to them, but not Jess. I knew why. I had buried this feeling for months, years even. But could I really say it out loud, actually confirming it? I notice he's staring at me, unsure of what to say.

I take a deep breath and look up at him, his chocolate eyes full of confusion. "Because they never broke my heart."

"What?" His voice was so quiet, I almost didn't hear him.

"Dean was the first guy I ever liked. He was safe, dependable. He loved me. I was hurt when he broke up with me. Logan..Logan was an adventure. He was charming and unafraid of anything. He was fun. He cheated on me with his sister's bride's maids, but he convinced me that he thought we had been broken up when it happened.

But you, you were incredible; you talked with me about books and movies. We could just hang out and I would love it. I thought we would stay together. I truly loved you, Jess. Despite my mom hating you, despite Dean, Taylor, the rest of the town, I loved you. But you broke my heart. When I saw you on the bus, I knew you were leaving, I thought I would never see you again. But you kept coming back, for one thing or another: your car, your mom's wedding, your book. You never disappeared from my life. Of the three boyfriends I've had, the only one who hurt me, who made me want to swear off guys, hoping he would come back was you."

Jess just stared at me, his eyes wide. Before I could even contemplate, he grabbed me and pulled me to him. He crashed his lips against mine, and I melted right then and there. I buried my hands in his hair, and his arms went around my waist. After a moment he broke the kiss and started kissing my neck. Slowly we started walking backwards towards the stairs, our bodies never being an inch away from each other. I feel my back hit something hard, and I feel one of Jess's hands leave my waist and turn the door knob.

He pushes the door open and we stumble into the room. He slams the door closed with his heel as I start to lift up his shirt. His mouth reconnects with mine and we walk towards the bed.

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I stand in front of the mirror, trying to pick out an outfit for my back-together with Luke date. After discarding the fifth outfit, I set to work trying to finish my hair and make-up. I know he's going to be here soon, but I just didn't have the right outfit for the occasion. After finishing my mascara, I walk back over to my closet again and try to decide between a royal blue sweater with a black skirt, and a light purple dress with a white shrug.

I quickly grab my phone and dial Rory's number. It rings four times before she picks up.

"Hello?"

"Hey, Rory. What should I wear, the royal blue sweater with the black skirt or the light purple dress with the white shrug?"

"Is this for your date with Luke?"

"Yeah, he'll be here soon and I'm not sure which to wear."

"Well, I'd go with the dress."

"Okay, thanks hon. So, how is it?" I ask, trying to be happy.

"It's….completely not what I expected."

"Oh, are you okay, you sound funny."

"Yeah, I'm fine."

I frown, knowing something is going on but not quite sure. "Okay."

"Alright. Go enjoy your date. I expect details tomorrow."

"Okay, bye hon." I hang up the phone and quickly before changing. I check my reflection one last time before walking downstairs to greet Luke.

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I hang up the phone and run my hands through my now destroyed hair. I sigh deeply, now berating myself for my actions when I feel arms encircle my waist.

"You okay?" Jess asks quietly as he kisses my neck.

"She knew something was wrong." I lean my head back and rest it on his bare shoulder.

"Are you regretting this?" he asks quietly, trying to keep his voice and face neutral.

"No." I answer truthfully. I turn and look at him, "I'm not regretting..this" I say, motioning to us. "But…I'm regretting how this happened."

"I understand." He kisses my cheek and my stomach does flips. "What are you going to do now?"

"I don't know. I need to find a new job. I need to get an apartment. I need to tell my mother."

"He nods and kisses me softly. He pulls away and looks into my eyes, "You hungry?"

I smile, "Starving."

He nods and gets up to order pizza.

Hey, hope you enjoyed it. Next chapter will include Rory calling Lorelai and Lane. After that, who knows.

QOTD: Who was the best character on that show? Don't say Lorelai or Rory. EVERYONE says them. Be original.

Mine: Kirk, he was so zany and funny and creepy. All in one awkward package.

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