Day: 357 as a comrade
I felt like we hadn't been back to HQ in years when I finally got back. We'd said our goodbyes to the people of the Asia Branch probably only seven hours ago, and now w e were in the underground waterways in to the order on a boat. The cast on my right arm felt a little heavy, but overall it was okay.
"So Link. Did you get all good reports on the Asia Branch?" Allen asked Link.
"Overall the Branch is working hard like it always is," Link replied. "Though I was thinking that I should've gone with you guys to the Shaolin Wong's house. I could've gotten a report of what happened that night." He shot me a glance and I completely froze up. Did he suspect something about me?
"We're here exorcists," the finder rowing the boat announced. We thanked him and hopped off the boat.
"Let me carry your suitcase for you Sephiria, you shouldn't be holding anything heavy right now." Allen said picking up my suitcase.
"No it's okay, I'll hold it with my left hand," I raised my working hand.
"But Sephiria-"
"I'll carry it," Lavi snatched the case from Allen and walked off.
"Lavi," I whispered quietly so that no one could hear. He was still upset about something.
"Hey Sephiria, Lavi's running away with your suitcase. You should go after him," Allen laughed.
"Oh yeah," I hurried up the stone stairs to the inside of HQ after Lavi.
"Welcome back Sephiria! What happened to your arm!" Reever asked.
"It's a long story, sorry I'm in a bit of a rush right now," I told him continuing to go after Lavi.
"Don't push yourself too hard!" He called.
I finally caught up to Lavi when I reached my room. "Lavi please don't walk so fast. I'm no completely better yet," I panted and coughed. He opened my door for me and let me in. then he began to walk away. I quickly grabbed hold of his hand. "Lavi, can you come in?" I asked. Without even as much a shrug he walked in and shut the door.
"What is it?"
"Lavi, is there something wrong?" I asked him back.
"What are you talking about. Everything's fine," he forced a smile.
"No it isn't. Did I do something? If I did-"
"I'm not mad, it's just that..." he didn't continue.
"It's just that what?"
"Looks like you'll need a new uniform, yours is completely ruined." He changed the subject.
"No, I won't be needing another uniform."
"You think you can still fight in that one? You should bring it to Johnny so that he can patch it up."
" No, I won't need to fight in that uniform anymore." I said. A heart wrenching sadness pulled at me when I said those words.
"Hey Sephiria, if this is about your innocence still not reforming it's okay. Allen and Lenalee lost their innocence's before too and then they got theirs back. You're still an exorcist." Lavi laughed showing no signs of humor whatsoever.
"Lavi," I said sadly. "I'm tossing this uniform aside." Then I told him my plan.
Lavi chuckled, and fell on to my bed. "You're kidding me right Sephiria? Please tell me that this is all some lame joke that you're playing on me."
I looked right in to his eyes and said, "it isn't."
A surge of anger flushed through his face and he shot up from his sitting position. "You're frickin' kidding me Sephiria! Why the hell! You're so damn random!" Lavi screamed at me. I flinched. "You're so messed up," Lavi groaned.
A sharp pain stung at my chest. "Hey, Lavi maybe you don't agree with what I'm doing, but you can't say that. We're best friends, we know everything about each other!"
"You know nothing about me!" Lavi snapped. Another sharp pain. "You know everything about my occupation as Bookman but nothing about me, and how I feel." I saw the pained expression on Lavi's face and my feet took off towards him completely off instinct.
Holding on to him tightly with only my left arm around his back I looked at him with pleading eyes. "If I don't know anything about you and your feelings then please tell me." I buried my face in his chest. I couldn't stand seeing Lavi sad, it hurt me just as much to see him like that. Before I knew it Lavi's hand was holding on to the back of my head with his other arm around my waist. His lips were on the top of my head and I could feel him breathing in my scent. "Lavi?" I asked feeling my cheeks flush over.
"I love you Sephiria. God I love you so much." Lavi said kissing my head.
I stood there frozen. Lavi, did he really just say that? How did I not realize it? I thought that I knew everything about Lavi but he was right, I didn't know anything about him. I shut my eyes and held on to him even tighter.
I'm sorry Lavi, I'm so sorry. I thought. His hand slipped on to my cheek and I looked him in the eyes. I never noticed how sad his emerald green eyes were all the time. He always looked… lonely. Then his lips were on mine and I didn't do anything about it. Lavi, he was my best friend. Lavi, he was like my brother. Lavi, I would never love him in the way he loved me. Never. An image of Allen formed in my mind. His snow white hair and platinum blue eyes that were a liquid silver. A smile that could light up a town, and a voice like calm waves crashing on to a beach. Allen, I loved him so much.
"Don't leave Sephiria, please don't leave me here." Lavi whispered in my ear in a painful pleading voice.
"I'm so sorry Lavi, I really am so sorry."
Sephiria is moving forward and throwing away her uniform… but where will she go? Find out in the last chapter of Days as a Comrade.
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