Trying to get these out quicker and make them longer but it's hard when I'm this depressed. I can't stop thinking about my ex, and it's slowly eating away at my insides. Especially since he barely talks to me but gives me that look like he wants to devour me. He used to look at me like that when we were together and I'm just trying not to look back but thinking, "What do you want from me?" I'm getting ready to jump his bones if I don't get some sort of relief. (WHY CAN'T MINORS BUY DILDOS?) Seriously, what the fuck man? Anyway, sorry to bother you with my personal issues. I really shouldn't bug you guys. I just don't really have anyone else to talk to that gives me any good advice. * puts in ear-buds and listens to Insane Clown Posse *

BTW I can never get used to typing "Mustang" all the time, I need to start typing Roy. I'm sorry. But I have to. XD

ANOTHER BTW I see all you little ones putting this story in your alerts, yeah well, it'd be nice if you reviewed! Dx

His mind was awake, but Roy didn't want to open his eye. Why was his patch on still? He sighed and opened his eye, he glanced at the blonde head on his chest. That's why. So he wouldn't horrify Edward with his disfigured face. But the boy claimed to love him. He didn't know what he was thinking. Roy wanted to keep the boy forever, now that he thought about it...he could. Only he and Alphonse knew he was alive and here. Edward was dead to the rest of the world.

Roy thought and thought about it. Did he really want to keep Edward from the world and to himself? In his room forever? Yes and no. He could worship the boy everyday, but knowing Edward he'd want to go out and see the others and Roy couldn't stop him. Without hurting him at least, and hurting Edward was Roy's worst nightmare. Oh, but he wanted Edward to himself. Roy didn't find himself selfish, but when it came to Edward he would admit that he was. He had good reason though! Anyone in there right mind would want the boy, he was so gorgeous.

Long flowing hair, golden like the sun. Eyes to match, molten gold pools. Eyelashes so long to adorn them. His face was absolutely beautiful. Smooth tan skin, along with a cute little nose, up turned at the tip. His lips were so kissable, pink and plump and perfect in shape. His body was one to worship, muscles that weren't to large but enough to protect himself and to trace. (with a finger or...a tongue.) Edward's hips had to be one of his best features. Wide and curvy, so beautiful. Roy had always loved a nice ass, but he had never seen one as nice as Edward's. From what he could see, from all his staring and fantasizing, it was round and toned and anyone that was curious would want to know if you could bounce a quarter off it. Edward reminded Roy of a cat, so flexible and graceful. He liked the thought of that, his kitten.

Roy didn't just love Edward for his body, oh no. Edward was beautiful inside and out. So determined, always willing to help his loved ones. That was an understatement. Edward had literally ripped him self apart for his brother. Lost two years of his life for him too. Helping anyone on the way during his long journey for the Philosopher's Stone. All of that time and pain. They could only pray that all that was equivalent for the Gate.

Edward dragged his hand down next to his face on Roy's chest. "Mustang..." he quietly moaned. Roy smiled and kissed the top of Edward's head. He supposed it would be okay if they were close and in a relationship. Roy would have to try to stop drinking, but it was so hard to stop. He had at least five bottles of whiskey and two bottles of scotch in his cabinet. The alcohol helped him cope. Cope with all his mistakes, and well losing Edward at the time. But Edward was in his arms, breathing and there.

Roy drank for a lot of reasons, Hughes mostly. Roy missed Maes every day. He would always know what to do, and how, and just be there. Maes was Roy's rock, sturdy and anchored Roy to the earth. Maes knew about everything, he knew how to talk to Roy when he was trying to commit suicide. He knew what to say when Roy wanted to turn himself in for loving Edward. He felt like a dirty, rotten, pedophile.(Despite the fact of how kinky it would be if he could get Edward to call him daddy or papa.) He still did, but he loved Edward and Maes tried to understand. Maes was practically Edward's adoptive father, they just never got the paper work. Roy now had to stop thinking of the man before he was reduced to tears again. Besides, Edward was moving and fussing.

Edward's eyes opened and smiled at Roy. Roy gave a sad smile back.

"Hi there," Edward said sleepily. "Hey," Roy replied softly. Edward nuzzled Roy's chest and hummed happily. Stop. Being. CUTE! Roy screamed in his head. Roy would have to jump him if Edward continued to be so adorable. Edward leaned up and yawned, and stared at Roy with love in his eyes. Roy smiled and hugged him in return, unsure of what to do. He had never really been in a real relationship other than just a date or a fuck-buddy. Maes had always said just to do what felt right, he supposed that's why Maes and Gracia had been so in love.

Edward sighed happily, "do you have to go to work?" he mumbled into Roy's neck. Roy kissed the top of Edward's head and shook his head. They pulled apart from the embrace to better

"Not until tomorrow, why?" Roy asked. Edward shrugged, "I wanted to spend the day with you," he smiled. Roy twitched inside his mind. This kid really wants to get fucked, huh? He has to stop looking at me with those eyes...and those eyelashes He thought. Roy nodded ignoring his inner thoughts. "Well, there's not much to do unless you just wanna lay in bed with me," he said with a smirk. Edward nodded, "But only for a little while, what do you have for food? We didn't eat yesterday," Edward asked tilting his head.

"I only have bread, but I can order some Xingian if you want," Roy said. Edward nodded again but then looked at Roy curiously.

"Why don't you have any food?" he asked innocently. Roy opened his mouth and closed it again. How to answer without making Edward upset. He never bought food because he usually went out on dates. Roy looked away from Edward as he answered, "I usually go out."

Edward nodded and then looked sheepishly at Roy, "well, you don't have to do that anymore if you don't want to. I mean...if you'll have me..." Edward said quietly blushing. Roy licked his lips and leaned forward pressing them to Edward's plump ones. Edward moaned quietly and kissed back.

Roy licked Edward's lip, asking for entrance instead of taking it. (like the last time.) Edward opened his mouth and let Roy explore his palette. Roy ran his tongue over Edward's before breaking apart and pressing his forehead to Edward's. Edward closed his eyes and smiled. Roy kissed Edward's forehead and looked into his eyes.

"I've been waiting two long years for you," Roy whispered, pulling Edward close and kissing him.

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Kitty-I WANTED TO MAKE THAT SO MUCH LONGER! But I'm getting writer's block and it's driving me crazy. I had to give you guys something.

Edward- You could give us a little privacy, neh?

Roy- * busy giving Edward hickies *

Kitty- Do you two ever stop fucking?

Roy and Ed- Not really...

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