The Very Secret Diary of Severus Snape
Chapter 2
September
Dear Fluffy,
Potter and Evans broke up. It's all over school. Apparently, they got into some big fight over the "slavery and mistreatment of house elves" (these, of course, being the words of Evans). I was in the owlery at the time, so I didn't see anything, but Lucius was there and he said it was pretty bad… and loud. Most of the Slytherins have taken bets on when they will or won't get back together. Lockhart and Goyle think they'll be back together by the end of the week. I chose to stay out of this conversation.
Maybe now that Ja… Potter is single, I'll have a chance with him (I can't believe I'm even considering this as a possibility). I suppose I'll wait and see what happens.
-Severus
Dear Fluffy,
I just woke up from the strangest dream. Bloody hell… I've never felt like this before. Fifteen minutes later, my breath is still ragged and I'm drenched in sweat. I'm only hoping everyone was deep enough in sleep that they couldn't hear anything (Not that I make any noise in my sleep).
It was a very… interesting dream. I remember everything. It's as if the images are permanently etched in my memory.
I was alone in the Great Hall. It was well after midnight, I expect. All was deathly quiet except for the fire crackling in the hearth. As I looked over my surroundings I saw lit candles (Yes, lit) hovering overhead, casting shadows on the stone floor.
Footsteps came towards me from behind. I reeled around and saw Ja… Potter seemingly emerging from the shadows. He was giving me his usual arrogant smirk, eyes alight. As he glided towards me, his smirk only grew.
Before I realized what was happening, Potter was on top of me. He pushed me onto the closest table, my back pressed flat against the top. Potter pressed himself against me and groaned. My breath started coming short and my pulse raced through my veins. James rocked his groin against mine, causing moans to erupt from both of us.
He grabbed both of my arms and held them above my head, then knelt down to kiss me (sweet torment).
That's when I woke up (Seriously? So close…). I jolted out of bed, still vaguely disoriented, and now freezing as the night time breeze came through the open window (although, in retrospect, that may have been a good thing. And yes, though we are in the dungeons, the Slytherin dorms are just above ground. So we do, contrary to popular belief, have windows.).
Blast that infernal window for ruining an overall pleasant dream. I mean….
Damn.
I can't really deny it anymore.
I'm really in love with James Potter.
I'll admit it.
But I don't like it.
Now to figure out how to get him to like, or even tolerate, me back.
Also, I think I'm very much in need of a cold shower.
-Severus
Dear Fluffy,
After a lot of research (a LOT of research), I've finally found a potion that may get James to like me. (After looking raiding the library for a week for love potions, I really cannot deny that I like him anymore, and I henceforth give up trying to). It's called Sincerus Amor. It's going to take a month to make it, but if the potion does what I think, it'll be worth it.
Some of the ingredients may be difficult to get a hold of. Specifically, the horn of a female unicorn, 3 strands of a mermaid's hair and a blue dragon's scale. Well, scratch that. The mermaid hair won't be too hard to get (that floats around in the lake all the time), but the horn and scale are both incredibly rare. I may be able to get the horn from Professor Flammel's private stock. I've not the foggiest idea as to where I can find the scale. The nearest colony is in the mountains, and there's no assurance that there are blue ones there. I may be able to find one in Knockturn alley, but I'd rather not chance a trip down there.
Everything else I should be able to attain from the student storage. The last problem is finding where to brew it. I was going to find a spot in the room, but Lucius has been asking me why I've been 'behaving so oddly'(no idea what he's talking about), and I really would rather not chance him or someone else tampering with it. Lucius is my best friend – only friend – but I don't think I can tell him about this. Not yet.
-Severus
Sincerus Amor
12 lacewings – 7 butterfly eggs – 2 grams chopped mint – sandalwood – horn of a female unicorn – 3 strands of mermaids hair – 1 blue dragon scale – 5 grams lavender oil
Place dragon scale in the center of a standard sized cauldron, then fill halfway with water and bring to a boil. Water should turn a reddish color. While water is boiling, add 1 lacewing every seven minutes until all have been added. When the final lacewing has been added, wait five minutes, then add 3 butterfly eggs and the chopped mint. Let simmer for fourteen days, stirring clockwise thirteen times every night when the moon is at it's highest point. On the fifteenth day, mix in the rest of the butterfly eggs, two at a time, and 3 strands of mermaids' hair. Add lavender oil until the potion turns deep crimson in color. Let it sit for sixteen more days, again stirring clockwise thirteen times every night. On the final day, when you're finished stirring, pour the finished potion into the hollowed out unicorn horn and serve to whomever's love you desire.
Dear Fluffy,
Either I am a very lucky man or someone in the heavenly spheres loves me. I have obtained all the ingredients needed for Sincerus Amor, including the scale and horn. Last night, I went to the lake to scoop out the mermaid's hair. When I started walking back towards the school, I heard a loud roar coming from the Forbidden Forest. I was going to just ignore it (my previous experiences into the Forest have never ended well), but I heard the roar again, only this time more desperate than before. Letting my curiosity get the better of me (seriously, it's going to get me killed one day), I made my way towards the Forest and the source of the noise.
I was deep in the forest before the sound got any louder, now accompanied by splashing. I continued walking towards the noise and gradually it got louder, closer, and frightened and just beyond my sight. I threw myself into the bushes blocking my way and fell into a shallow pool of water. When I looked up, in front of me was a small, ice blue dragon being attacked by an incredibly large spider (a spider roughly five times the size of the dragon…). I was frozen for a moment, not quite comprehending what I saw (Do spiders really come that big?). It was only when the dragon gave another terrified cry that I came to my senses and hit the spider with a particularly strong and old curse (sectumsempra), making it let go of the dragon and scuttle off, crying in pain as pus or blood oozed from fresh wounds. The dragon sat there for a moment, panting, before turning its cobalt eyes on me, again freezing me to the spot. Light blue started emanating from the dragon's body, and then I was lying down next to the lake, slightly scratched up (probably from stupidly jumping into a bush instead of trying to find a better way in), with no dragon in sight. I moved to get up, and my hand touched something hard and cold. Next to me were three blue scales.
But that's how I got the dragon's scale. Getting the unicorn horn… both disturbs and worries me. I was looking through the students' storage during lunch, gathering all the ingredients I would need for the potion. As I was walking out, Professor Flammel (forgot to mention… potions teacher) walked by. He stopped and looked over the contents in my arms while I tried desperately, and probably failed, to keep a straight face. He smiled and dropped a unicorn horn into my pile and said, and I quote, "You may need this." Then he continued on his merry way.
Does this mean he knows what I'm doing?
I'm not questioning this….
I'd rather not know the answer….
Either way, I have everything I need to start the potion, and I'll be doing that tonight. I've found an abandoned room in the dungeons that not even the ghosts use, so I shouldn't be disturbed.
-Severus
A/N:
Chapter 2 is finished :D That's good, right?
To Trii-Chi, I know Lily and Severus were originally friends, but I started this fic long before book seven had come out, and I had kind of based the story around the idea that Lily was a psycho bitch. Sorry
As always, comments, both good and bad, are greatly appreciated and loved 3 Chapter 3 should be up by the end of the week.