Disclaimer: I don't own twilight nor its characters. If I did I wouldn't write fan-fiction on it now would I?
A/N: I AM SO SORRY! I know its been forever since I've published a chapter and I deeply appologize! A lot has been going on and I just haven't had time to write and I had major writers block. But I finally got it done and I swear I'll won't have this long of a delay ever again! I will finish this story! Anwayz I'll move on to chapter four!
Chapter Four: Final Phone Call
B.P.O.V.
I sat on the edge of my bed staring at the floor. Jasper was back but Edward wasn't. It was funny that the one person that I wasn't really close to came back. Its ironic really. I felt a hint of a smile on my lips. And the person that had tried to kill me was the one who put it there. I shook my head and laid back on my bed staring up at the ceiling.
What I really wanted to know is why Alice didn't come back with him or why she sent him in the first place. Not that I wasn't grateful but I missed Alice almost as much as I missed Edward. I need to talk to her. That's the only way to figure it out. But how? I don't have her number. Wait a second!
I jumped up off the bed and started going through my desk. She had written down a number for me a while ago. I had it somewhere. My fingers brushed over a small piece of paper. I picked it up and scrawled across it in her tiny writing was Alice's number.
I ran down the stairs and picked up the phone punching in the number quickly. I held my breath and counted the rings. One. Two. Three.
"Hello?" I let out my breath and flopped down into the chair next to the phone.
"Hi Jasper," I said disappointed.
"Bella? Is something wrong?" My eyes suddenly filled with tears. Alice had given me Jasper's number, not hers. Why didn't she want me to talk to her?! I just didn't understand what was going on anymore.
"Bella?" I took a deep breath and stared down at the tiles ready to just go to bed.
"No."
"You're a horrible liar Bella. What's wrong?" I sighed frustrated. I felt like a emotional wreck and I didn't really want to explain everything to Jasper. I didn't feel like being told I was being stupid. I knew in a far corner of my mind that I might be over-reacting but I was hurt. I didn't answer I just kept staring at the tiles. I heard him take a deep breath. "Go to your bedroom. I'll meet you there." I hung up the phone and just sat there for a second. I didn't understand why he was trying to help me and comfort me, why he cared. We barely ever talked when everyone was still here. So what made it different now? Was it because Alice asked him to? Did he just want to help me to make Alice happy? I flinched at those thoughts. Maybe Jasper really didn't care about me but was helping me because Alice asked him to.
I felt the tears slide down my cheeks and got up to go upstairs. I didn't even bother wiping the tears off my face. I knew I was probably going to cry again any way. I walked into my room and saw Jasper sitting on the edge of my bed. I felt my heart beat speed up a little bit seeing him sitting there. I shook my head. What was wrong with me lately? He looked up and patted the space on the bed next to him. I went over and sat next to him, looking down at the floor. He held his arms open to me and I just laid against him tears filling my eyes again.
"What has gotten you so upset Bella?" I felt his arms wrap around me and he set his chin on top of my head. I closed my eyes and felt the tears once again running down my cheeks.
"I went to call the number Alice gave me and it turned out to be yours. I wanted to talk to her. Does no one want to be with me anymore? Am I that useless?" I sobbed into his chest. He stroked my hair gently.
"Your not useless darlin'." I sighed and pushed away from Jasper gently. I wiped at my tears frustrated with myself. "Why are you frustrated?" I sighed and looked down.
"It seems all I'm good for is crying now-a-days," I looked back up at Jasper tears still streaming down my face. "Why did he leave me here like this? Alone and broken. Jasper reached out and brushed some tears off my face.
"Your not alone. I'm here for you." I looked into his eyes. He smiled at me and pulled me back against his chest. I was comfortable here. I felt like myself again in these arms. Whole. That thought made my closed eyes fly open. He's not Edward! My mind screamed at me. I pulled out of the hug and Jasper looked at me surprised.
"Bella?" His voice was thick with concern making his southern accent more noticeable. I couldn't help but smile a little at his concern. I caught myself again. Stop it Bella he's not Edward and he's never going to be. Even though that thought echoed through my head I knew I wasn't thinking he was Edward. I looked back over at him and smiled at me. He was nothing like Edward. I smiled back weakly.
"I'm fine." Though my voice sounded nothing like it. Jasper stared into my eyes and I felt butterflies in my stomach. I looked away and shook my head.
"Your such a bad liar so why do you even try?" I smiled slightly and shrugged. He reached into his pocket and pulled out a silver flip phone. He held it out to me. "You can use my phone to call her if you want." My smile grew bigger and I hugged him.
"Thank you!" I flipped it open and went to the contact list. I halted when I came to Edwards number. I felt Jaspers eyes bore into me.
"You can call him if you want. I can't promise he'll answer. But bella," I looked up at him. "Don't let him hurt you anymore then he has." I looked back down at the phone and stared at the number. Should I? My hands shook as I pushed the send button and brought it up to my ear. The velvet voice answered in one ring. The voice I had been in my dreams for so long now.
"What Jasper?" I was struck speechless for a moment and I felt my chest constrict painfully.
"Edward?" I flinched at my voice. It sounded desperate and lonely. I heard a sharp intake of breath.
"Bella?" I barely heard his whisper.
"Edward please come back. I miss you. I need you." I tried as hard as I could to hold back my tears. I needed him back. I wasn't the same without him.
"Bella," his voice sounded detached, lifeless. "How do you have Jasper's phone?" I blinked. I just told him I needed him and wanted him to come back and all he wanted to know how I had Jasper's phone?! Is that all he cared about?! Didn't he care that I've been crying everyday for him?! That I've been broken since he left?! I felt Jasper's hand rub my back comfortingly. I looked up at him and he nodded encouragingly. My voice was colder when I answered Edward.
"He came back to help me. To take care of me," unlike you. I finished in my head.
"Bella do you not remember he was the one who almost killed you earlier?!" I glared down at the carpet.
"That was then. He's not going to hurt me. Not as much as you did." My eyes widened when I realized I had actually said that out load to him.
"Bella," his voice was still detached but I could hear a bit of pain in it. "Let me talk to Jasper."
"No." He stayed quiet for awhile.
"Bella please give the phone to Jasper." I ignored him.
"Why Edward? Why did you leave? Was I not good enough anymore? Did you not love me anymore? Why?!" I tried to hold in my tears.
"Bella please." His voice was full of pain. But I didn't stop.
"You took everything I had when you left! You took my heart, you took my love and you took my friends. Is this my punishment for being human? You broke me Edward. I can't even smile anymore. Is that what you wanted? Because you got it." I finally broke down crying. I couldn't say anymore.
"Bella I-" I didn't even listen to what he had to say I just held the phone out for Jasper to take. He took it but looked at me concerned. His arm went around my shoulder's and pulled me to him.
"Edward, Bella gave me the phone." There was a pause. "No I haven't done anything to her. You're the only one who hurt her." Another pause and I wiped my face after I had finally stopped crying. "Why don't you just come back?" I studied Jasper's face. His eyes were downcast. He glared at the comforter. His eyebrows were scrunched together and it made his eyes more noticeable. They were a bright gold. I wondered what color his eyes were before he changed.
"No Edward I don't understand and I'm not going to leave her. I'm not going to be you." Jasper snapped the phone closed and looked down at me. I sat up and moved so I was fully on my bed and laid back down. Jasper just sat there and I felt his eyes on me but I just stared up at the ceiling thinking. I tried picturing him with different eyes trying to figure out his eye color before he changed. Anything to stop me from thinking about the phone conversation with Edward. I wondered how Jasper's life was before he changed. I imagined that he was probably a ladies man back then.
"Why are you jealous?" I looked at him in shock. Did I just feel jealousy when I was thinking of Jasper with other women?
"There it is again. What are you thinking of?" He reached down and brushed my cheek lightly. I felt butterflies in my stomach again. As if he realized what I was thinking he pulled back quickly.
"You had something on your cheek." I nodded but part of me hoped that he was lying.
"What'd Edward say? Is he coming home?" He looked down and I knew it was a no. I waited for the tears to fill my eyes again. But oddly enough they didn't. I didn't feel as much of a constriction in my chest when I thought about Edward. It felt like I had some closure. Even though the phone conversation was everything but that. But I finally accepted that Edward wasn't coming back. Except this time when we talked I got to tell him everything I was feeling before he left. I looked over at Jasper. At least I had someone that cared for me. I now knew he wasn't here just because Alice told him to be. I had the feeling that there was another reason and I held on to that feeling.
He looked at me and caught my gaze on him. He smiled.
"Its getting late. You should go to bed." I nodded and pulled my comforter over me. He got up to leave but I reached out to grab his arm. He looked down at me confused.
"Please don't leave."
"I'll see you at school tomorrow Bella." I still held on to his arm.
"I don't want to be alone tonight. Please?" He had a small smile play on his lips. He flicked off the lights.
"I'll stay for tonight." He climbed in next to me and I laid my head on his chest.
"Thank you." I felt him start to stroke my hair and I fell asleep quickly.
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J.P.O.V.
I looked down at Bella sleeping peacefully next to me. I couldn't help but watch her sleep. She had yet to call out in her sleep or to even move for that matter. Maybe she was finally getting better. I reached over and brushed a stray piece of hair out of her face.
"Jasper…" I froze when she said my name and looked at her. Her eyes were still closed. I smiled. She was sleep talking.
I sighed and laid on my back and stared up at the ceiling and thought back to earlier. When Bella was crying all I wanted to do was hold her. I liked having her in my arms. I looked back over at her and smiled again. I looked down at her lips and wondered what it would be like to kiss her. I jumped up and shook my head. What was I thinking? This was Bella. I didn't like Bella like that. I felt myself looking back at her sleeping face.
Did I?
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A/N: Heh. Well there's Chapter Four! I know you guys are probably glaring at the computer screen wanting to kill me for ending it there. I'm sorry but I had to. It's the perfect chapter ending! Anywayz I'll get Chapter Five out soon I promise! Send me lots of Reviews and I'll make the chapter's longer!!! XD
~Wolfie~
