Olivia's in recovery! Let's hope she can get her life back together! Some beautiful moments in this chapter I hope you will enjoy!
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"Not my baby! Please don't touch my baby! Serena! Craig! Get away from my kids you bastard. Elliot? El? Where are you El?"
Huang just watched as Olivia tossed and turned, Elliot was in the family room with Craig and was staying well out of the way until Huang came to tell him he was finished.
"Get away from me and my family! Kathleen! Mo! Lizzie! Dickie! Touch my kids and I'll kill you! Serena! Craig! Elliot! El?" Olivia screamed.
Suddenly she was sat bolt upright screaming her lungs out. Calmly George Huang sat down beside her and placed his arms on her shoulders.
"Olivia, you're safe, the kids are safe, and so is Elliot. Everyone is safe just open your eyes and you will see." He spoke softly and calmly trying to soothe Olivia.
Slowly she opened her eyes and saw that she was safe in a hospital bed.
"Are you ok now Liv?" Huang asked as she wiped her tear stained cheeks.
"Nightmare" she muttered as she sat back in the bed and pulled the blanket tight around her, slowly trying to catch her breath.
Huang moved over to the arm chair and turned it to face Olivia.
"So what did you want to see me about Liv?" He asked making himself comfortable.
"I ... I err ..." Olivia stammered trying to form the words in her mind.
"If you want me to recommend another shrink that's fine, I have some who owe me some favours." Huang smiled but Olivia shook her head.
"No! No. I want to talk to you. I trust you." Olivia sighed knowing Elliot would disagree with her.
"Ok what do you want to talk about?" He asked in his soothing shrink voice making Olivia feel more comfortable.
"I err, I need your help to err, get me through this trial. I don't think I'm going to cope emotionally." Olivia managed to stutter almost inaudibly.
"Ok, that I can do. Why don't you tell me how your feeling right now?" Huang asked. Olivia sighed realising this wasn't going to be as easy as she first thought.
"Scared." It was the easiest way to sum it up.
"Ok what's making you feel scared Liv?" He asked leaning forward so he could hear her better.
"Err well, I'm scared for my kids. I'm scared that I can't bond with Craig and I'm scared I'll turn into my mother like the way she was with me. I'm scared every time someone opens the door and every time I close my eyes I flash back to the storage unit." Olivia mumbled. Huang was nodding gently as she spoke.
"Olivia everything your feeling is natural, don't be scared of what you're feeling because I think that is what you are most scared of. You have classic PTSD and I know that you know that already, you've dealt with hundreds of victims who have suffered ..."
Olivia went to interrupt but Huang put his hand up to stop her knowing exactly what she was going to say.
"I know you don't see yourself as a victim Olivia but the first thing you need to do is understand that this time you are. You're not the cop this time around, you are the victim." Huang said and Olivia nodded weakly, she didn't want to face the fact that she was victim but Huang was right it was about time that she did.
"Ok." She whispered.
"Good. Now if need be I will prescribe some anti-depressants to cope with the PTSD with therapy, I need to know though, if you are breast feeding and I can prescribe anti-anxieties too." Huang said and Olivia felt another surge of guilt hit her.
"I guess you haven't seen the victim photos then." Olivia sighed. Huang shook his head.
"I haven't yet." He said.
"Well I won't be able to breast feed Craig and that ... that hurts I mean I know formula these days are just as healthy but when I breast fed Serena I felt us bonding every time she fed I ... I dunno ... I just felt closer to her and I'm worried that I won't get that with Craig." Olivia felt tears running down her face and was quick to brush them aside.
"You will still get that connection Liv, it happens to all mothers whether feeding by bottle or breast, because you still get to watch as your baby sucks and hold them close." Huang smiled weakly. "That's honestly something you will realise as soon as you hold him and feed him."
Olivia nodded but she wasn't too sure, she decided that she would have to wait and see.
"George, I don't want to go on drugs to cope, I just want to do therapy sessions." Olivia said after a few moments silence.
"That's fine Olivia." He smiled trying to reassure her that she was allowed to make decisions for herself.
"Ok." She said.
"Do you want to continue talking?" Huang asked and Olivia nodded. Even though she didn't feel any better yet she had some new found hope inside of her.
"Ok let's go right back to when Tucker first came here after Craig was born. Tell me what happened." Huang suggested and Olivia nodded and pulled her knees up to her chin so that she could hold around them.
"Ok I err I ..." She looked at Huang.
"I can't remember properly!" She said beginning to panic. Huang jumped to his feet and took a hold of her hand, he might be breaking patient doctor barriers but Olivia was still his friend.
"It's ok Liv, it's ok it happens, your brain has repressed some of the memory and PTSD can causes slight memory loss too, don't panic it will come back to you. Why don't you tell me what you do remember?" Huang suggested and Olivia nodded.
"I remember he came in and I think I was holding Craig. He told me to put him down and get dressed and leave with him. I said no and he said ... he said he had Serena and Simon and the FBI Agents that had been watching the house were dead..." She began to sob.
"Just take a moment before carrying on." Huang suggested but Olivia wiped away her tears as she began to speak again.
"He err he then said if I didn't go with him he'd kill Simon and Serena and then he pulled out a knife and said that he would kill Craig too. So I got dressed and he err ... he put his arm around my waist so the knife dug into my side as he lead me out of the hospital. He took me to his car and then err ... he made me lie down in the back. We drove for a bit and I remembered I had two cell phones so I used one to call Elliot and one to call Cragen as I only needed to knock one number and the call button on each phone. I err ... I placed the phones back into my pocket and then I managed to get him to sorta tell me where he was taking me and I knew that Elliot and Cragen where listening. I remember that he slashed my ankle with his knife at one point too." Olivia said feeling calmer talking now.
"Go on." Huang said reassuringly.
"We got to the storage unit and of course my stitches had fallen apart so I could barely walk and with the slash on my ankle so he carried me inside like a man would his wife across the threshold in old movies. The he tied my ankles together and my wrists and then we just sorta talked. I remember him lighting up the first cigarette ... and then ... I remember him lunging at me and I screamed even though I tried not to and then I ... err ... I could smell my flesh burning, I've smelt it before so I knew what it was." Olivia was getting worked up again but Huang rubbed her hand which he was still holding.
"I remember him stabbing me with the cigarette repeatedly but I don't remember him slashing me with the knife again." Olivia shrugged.
"Ok, do you have any idea when he might have slashed you?" Huang asked wanting Olivia to find the memory.
"I don't think I want to remember." Olivia whimpered.
"It will be better for you to remember now then have a flashback of something you can't remember. Close your eyes and hold onto my hand tight." Huang said.
Olivia did as she was told, holding onto Huang's hand as tight as she could she shut her eyes and felt like she was falling back into the moment when it happened.
Once again the Cigarette was thrust into her chest and as she screamed she could feel another pain, further away. Olivia closed her eyes not wanting to look at her abuser. Again the cigarette stabbed her skin and again she screamed this time the other pain she had felt was stronger and so she opened her eyes.
"It's every time I screamed, when he burnt me, I was too busy focusing on the burn to even feel the pain in my legs." Olivia explained.
"Well that explains it, at least now you know." Huang smiled at her trying to boost her confidence up a bit.
"George." She whispered looking him in the eye. "I think that's enough for today, I need to sleep." Olivia said just before she let out a large yawn.
"Ok, I'll come by tomorrow." Huang smiled kissed her hand and left without saying another word. Olivia placed her head back on the pillow and instantly fell asleep.
I love Huang! I hope I do this scene some justice! I really want to show the affects of trauma on victims and that's why I started with the nightmare, there are more Huang/Olivia scenes to come for those of you who are enjoying them!
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