Some touching moments in this scene, you get to see a very different side to Fin which is adorable and so I hope you enjoy it! To my reviewers I hope this chapter pleases too!
Olivia was woken up quickly, but it wasn't from the nightmare that she had been having, she hadn't quite gotten to the bit that woke her. Something else made her jump from sleep to waking in seconds. It took her a moment but then she realised what it was. It was a cry that she recognised and had fallen in love with the first time she ever heard it. She crawled to the end of the bed and leant over lifting her son into her arms. The formula bottles were already on the cabinet beside her bed and sighing she grabbed one and made herself comfortable. He took the bottle immediately making Olivia smile.
"Hello little man, I hope you haven't forgotten who I am already. But I am your Mommy and I hope you know that I love you very much. You are the most beautiful little boy that I have ever laid eyes on and I can all ready tell that you are going to be exactly like your big brother Dickie, which means you're definitely Elliot Stabler's son!"
"I bloody well hope so!" Elliot laughed watching his wife and son. He got up and sat at the side of his bed.
"There's no chance he's anyone else's!" Olivia laughed enjoying her carefree moment.
"I know. I don't think I've told you how much I love you in a while." Elliot sighed.
"You don't need to tell me because I already know." Olivia smiled leaning in to kiss her husband.
"Good, because I don't ever want you to forget it either." He smiled kissing his wife so passionately.
"I love you Elliot Stabler."
"I love you more Olivia Stabler."
They pulled apart as Craig began to choke on his feed. Olivia giggled and removed the bottle and brought him up to be burped. She did it like they had never been apart.
"Hey El." Olivia said not moving her eyes from her son.
"Yeah?" He asked.
"Why don't you go home and get some sleep and then later on you can bring me some clothes so I can get out of here." She laughed as she had just realised how much she'd been in and out of the hospital lately.
"Are you sure you'll manage?" Elliot asked not wanting to put too much stress on his wife.
"I think me and Craig are going to be absolutely fine." Olivia smiled.
"Ok." Elliot smiled and he leaned in and kissed his wife and then his son. "I'll be back in a couple of hours."
"Oh and El." She said just as he grabbed the door. "Bring me some chocolate ice cream too." Olivia smiled.
"Hey you're not pregnant anymore!" He laughed thinking of all her random cravings at the most ridiculous time of day.
"I know but I am still a woman." She smiled and with that he left glad to leave her now that she was laughing even though being away from her scared him so he grabbed his cell phone.
"Hey Fin, could you come down and sit with Olivia? She's sent me home for some rest and she seems happier but I don't feel happier leaving her alone." He smiled as he hung up the phone, he wasn't going to leave the hospital until Fin arrived, just so he could have some peace of mind.
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"Twinkle, twinkle little star. How I wonder what you are." Olivia sang as she rocked Craig gently to sleep. When he finally drifted off the door open causing her to jump and wake him.
"Oh Fin!" She groaned.
"Sorry baby girl." He sighed forgetting how jumpy she still was.
"It's ok just sit down and be quiet for a moment." She smiled before turning her attention back to Craig.
"Rock a bye baby on the tree top..." She sang with such a sweet and melodic voice even Fin felt his eyes getting sleepy.
When Craig finally fell asleep Olivia gently placed him in the crib before sitting down and relaxing.
"So when did Elliot call you?" Olivia asked turning her detective interrogating skills on Fin.
"The second your door closed." He smiled.
"Yeah? And where did he wait for you?" Olivia laughed knowing her husband too well.
"Just outside the ward doors." Fin answer not wanting to lie to her.
Olivia raised her eyebrows.
"You can't stop him from worrying especially with everything that has happened in the past couple of days." Fin shrugged and Olivia felt herself feeling guilty.
"I know Fin." She sighed.
"Hey baby girl, none of this is your fault don't you start that bullshit." He said grabbing hold of her hand as tears slipped down her face.
"I can't help it Fin." She said trying to wipe away her tears.
"I know." He said kissing her hand. "You just gotta be strong baby girl be strong."
"Fin, I know that, I just don't think I can be."
Fin couldn't stop himself from sliding beside her on the bed and pulling her into his arms. He felt for the girl, she was like the sister he had never been blessed with and he was going to make damn sure she was taken care of.
"Knock knock." Casey's voice came as she pushed the door open. Neither Olivia nor Fin moved as they both got to let out a bit of their anger and fear. When Casey arrived the side of the bed she dropped her briefcase and joined them so Olivia was in the middle between Casey and Fin.
No words needed to be exchanged between them. They all even thought words would ruin the moment and when Olivia began to sob they just held onto her tighter and sobbed with her. None of them heard Captain Cragen come in through the door and just for a moment he watched the beautiful yet painful scene that was in front of him, just for a moment.
"Well isn't this touching?" He smiled as all three of them jumped.
"Captain." Fin said immediately climbing off the bed and taking one of the empty chairs beside it. Casey didn't but she did release Olivia and move up a little.
"How are you doing Olivia?" Cragen smiled coming to give her a hug. As he took her into his arms she started to sob again and just about managed to sit on the bed and hold her as she continued to sob.
"I'm fine." She mumbled with her head still buried in her shoulders. He stroked her hair and comforted her as any father would a daughter.
"I know it's tough Liv but you will get through this." Cragen said as he gently rocked her backwards and forwards.
"I know." Olivia cried. "I know, I'm just ..." She pulled away from his embrace and took his hand. "I'm just being silly." She tried to laugh and wipe away her tears.
"That's the one thing you are not being Olivia, crying is good and it's healthy for you to let it all out. Don't you dare think that you're being silly." Cragen stated firmly but Olivia could feel the love.
"Thanks Cap'" She smiled pulling him in for a real cuddle.
"Always here for you Liv. Always." He said as planted a kiss on his cheek.
"I know." She smiled. "Now then Casey to what do I owe the visit?" She laughed knowing what it would be about but wanting to keep it as light hearted as possible.
"They err ... they set a court date today." Casey sighed. "I don't know how you are going to feel about it though."
"Go on." Olivia said clutching Cragen's hand for some moral support.
"They decided tomorrow because he apparently is allowed a speedy trial." Casey moaned.
"That's the Law Casey." Olivia laughed. "You can't change that easily."
"I know but I also was told that Tucker put pressure on Pond to have the date set for as soon as possible in the hope you wouldn't testify." She said trying to hide the fact that Miranda Pond had been the one to tell her from Fin and Cragen.
"I will be testifying and anyway it's not like you don't have enough evidence and witnesses. You even have conversations taped, he's obviously getting cold feet Casey, me testifying won't make much of a difference but I know a lot of women and men and children who have felt better telling their stories out loud. They were victims ... and I'm a victim and I can't keep telling victims to be strong if I can't can I?" Olivia sighed.
"That's a very mature decision Olivia." Cragen smiled kissing her hand.
"Spoken to me as if I was a terrible teenager Cap'" Olivia giggled.
"So you're fine with that?" Casey asked and Olivia nodded.
"I'm doing this if it is the last thing I ever do. I keep telling rape and abuse victim that they did the most important thing when they survived, well ... I survived even though since getting back here I wish I hadn't I did and now I need to show that I am a survivor." Olivia said her voice sounding stronger now than it had done in days.
"I'm so proud of you Olivia." Cragen said giving her hand a squeeze as tears ran down his cheek.
"I know." She smiled.
"Me too baby girl, I have never been prouder." Fin said and Olivia noticed that tears had formed in his eyes.
"Ok so we need to talk about the trial, mainly what you are going to say." Casey said pulling out a yellow notepad from her briefcase.
"Well what are you going to ask me?" Olivia asked.
"I'll start with some questions about the tailing and things then move on to the kidnap and then the attack, are you ok with that?" Casey asked.
"Yes." Olivia answered even though inside she was screaming no.
"Ok, I have a sneaky suspicion that the defence aren't going to challenge you as a cop or mother, so I have no idea what they will ask you." Casey said and seeing that neither Fin nor Cragen were looking she gave Olivia a wink, meaning she knew exactly what the defence was going to ask.
"So when am I testifying?" Olivia asked.
"I want you to decide, either go first or last. If you go first Elliot, Fin, Cragen, Porter, and a few others who worked the case won't be able to be in the court room but if you go last you can't be in the courtroom whilst they're testifying." Casey explained even though Olivia knew the drill she still felt the need to ask questions.
"So who will be allowed in the courtroom when I am testifying?" Olivia asked hoping someone would be there to give her some support.
"Well Munch wasn't really involved in the case so I haven't called him to testify and I heard a lot of judges, ADA's from the past and even some defence attorney's that you know are going to be there and some old pals from different units. A lot of people are going to be there to show you they love and support you Liv."Casey smiled knowing that being supported and loved was something Olivia needed at this moment.
"I'll go first then and get it out of the way." Olivia sighed.
"Another thing, I got a phone call today from Kathy and the kids asking if I would ask your permission for them to be there too." Casey added remembering quickly.
"They don't need to see what happened, not the kids Case'" Olivia groaned, it was something Elliot and herself had spent their careers protecting them from.
"Liv..." Cragen said giving the hand he was still holding another squeeze. "They want to be there and if it gets too much they're sensible to get themselves out of there and quickly, they're not exactly kids anymore."
Olivia sighed as she thought of the kids seeing what Tucker had done to her.
"No Cap' they can't see this, Elliot ..."
"Will understand, they will always be filled with unanswered questions and will be too scared to ask you, if they are in the courtroom when you testify then there will be a lot less questions."
"Fine, I'm convinced but I'm not telling Elliot." She sighed knowing that he wouldn't take it easy.
"He doesn't need to know until the day. It's your permission they wanted not his." Casey said.
"I'm not hiding this from my husband." Olivia said angrily.
"Sorry, ok I'll speak with him later."Casey sighed knowing it wasn't going to be pretty.
"Right so that's about it really, I mean unless you want to go and sit in the box and practise?"
Olivia laughed.
"No I think I've been in the box enough times to know exactly how it works."
"That's good so when you thinking of getting out of here?" Casey asked forgetting that Cragen and Fin were there and jumping straight into the way they spoke when they weren't around.
"Today I hope." Olivia smiled just as Craig began to make noises.
"I think someone's awake." Cragen smiled leaning over the crib. Olivia was about to get up when Cragen shook his head.
"I'll take him for a moment, if you don't mind that is?" he asked remembering this wasn't the same as with Serena.
"Of course you can, Craig needs to know his grandpa so that he can know why he should be proud of where he got his name." Olivia smiled.
"Liv." Casey said sounding very serious. "You know if you have any more kids and don't name them after me I'm going to be seriously pissed." She said pretending to be serious but laughing almost instantly after finishing.
"I named him after Cragen because it's like tradition in families to name a child after a parent or grandparent and believe me when I say I do not want another Elliot Stabler and I named him Warren after Melinda because she delivered him." Olivia explained.
"I know I was just kidding." Casey laughed.
"Guys could I have a moment alone with Olivia." Cragen said sounding like he had some important things to say.
"I best be off." Casey said slipping her hands around Olivia in an embrace. "Take care of yourself. I'll come and see you tomorrow."
"I'll just go to the cafeteria or something best stick around till El gets back or he'll have my neck!" Fin laughed before following Casey out of the door.
"So what is it Cap'?" Olivia asked not sure if she should feel worried or not.
"It's nothing really, I just ... when Serena was born I was so happy especially when you handed her to me and told her to meet her grandpa, I just realised everything I missed out on." Cragen smiled. "I mean I'm relieved in some way that I never had kids because I'd have messed up their life ..."
"Cap'"
"Let me finish. Anyway, well I was so pleased, I've always felt like a father to you and sometimes I wish I could have had you as a daughter and really see you grow up and do everything a father does with their child but I didn't so I am trying to be a real grandfather to the kids. Between Maureen, Kathleen, Dickie, and Lizzie I know things can be tough for you guys. So anyway I should stop mumbling and just give you this." Cragen said pulling an envelope from his pocket and handing it to Olivia. She opened it and pulled out to slips of paper. One with Serena Alexandra Stabler and one with Craig Warren Stabler and then she looked at the more closely.
"Captain I can't take this!" Olivia said trying to hand the papers back.
"Yes you can. I need you too, as you can see Serena's is a little higher than Craig's but that's because it's been sitting there a little longer." He smiled.
Olivia just stared at him in shock.
"This is too much, you already give them everything they need from you, and you're their grandfather." Olivia said.
"I know that and I'm doing what a grandfather should do." Cragen smiled.
Tears built in Olivia's eyes.
"Don't cry or you'll set me off!" Cragen laughed.
"I'm sorry this is just so generous." Olivia said.
"When they are ready to leave for college, there will be more than enough there to pay it all off for them and if they get scholarships which ... I am sure they will ... then they have their own trust fund when they turn twenty one." Cragen explained.
"Thank you so much." Olivia smiled and took his hand to her lips. She wanted to throw her arms around him but Craig was fast asleep in his arms.
"And if you and Elliot have any more little ones there will be the same for each of them." Cragen added.
"I don't think there will be any more but thanks." Olivia smiled and looked him in the eye wanting to say something to him that she had wanted to say for a very long time.
"Don't mention it."
Olivia took his hand and made sure he was looking her in the eye.
"Thanks Dad." She said firmly trying to make it sound as natural as she could.
Cragen said nothing but just beamed as the tears spilled down his face.
"I love you Olivia." He said after a small silence.
"I love you too."
AWWW I KNOW I KNOW IT WOULD NEVER HAPPEN BUT FOR MY FAN FIC IT JUST FELT RIGHT! I mean it just shows how much Cragen actually means to Olivia by her finally saying that remember that the person she knew as a father or didn't know was a rapist! So I just thought this moment had to happen. I was also fed up of writing like a father so from now on when they are off duty or in private moments she will call him Dad or something similar. But in work it and in front of colleagues it will still be Cap or Captain. Very emotional scene right?
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