Chapter 11
Author's Note: Thank you so much for all the support of this story! It puts such a smile on my face when I read a new review or see that someone added this story to their favorites or alerts =)
This chapter is longer than usual because of the long wait so I hope you enjoy it. Oh how I wish that the show were following this story's general storyline instead of the trainwreck they're presenting us with. Ugh, so much to rant about so please bear with me as I go off on the writers.
I know that Gossip Girl is just a television show but these new episodes really bother me. This show started out as a teen melodrama, now it's a full-blown soap opera and I don't like that. It's at the point now where I will physically cringe when I watch the show. I may tune in to 5x04 but I may not. Thankfully recaps and clips are available very soon after the episodes air so I don't have to wait long to find out what happened.
Now onto what happened in 5x03. Can I just say that when I read about Blair telling Chuck that Louis was the father, I wanted to cry? Chuck is totally her baby's father. You could see the regret flash in her eyes when she saw Monkey. I think she was afraid Chuck wouldn't be able to take on the responsibility of a child after thinking he returned the dog. But when he kept it and was "responsible," you could see how she saw her mistake. Why else would she hide the paternity envelope from Louis if he were the father?
And then when Chuck started crying alone with his new dog, OMG, tears! Blair is such a liar, and a total bitch as well. Out of everyone in this twisted love triangle, I feel the worst for Louis. It is not going to end well for him. We all know that Chair is endgame eventually and while I hate Louis in the picture because I love Chuck so much, he really is a good man and doesn't deserve the pain he's going to feel when Blair chooses Chuck. These writers may be evil but they do know how to draw viewers in and keep them interested.
I've said this before and I'm going to say it again – the writers on the show are incredibly cruel and I totally have a masochistic streak because I can't stay away. I may not watch the episodes live but I wait for the recaps and clips online like a junkie waiting for a fix. Please don't judge me. My rant is now over, I'd love to read yours in the reviews ;)
On a happier note, TheWayWeWere and OfCourse have been updated and I will have a new chapter of CoulditBe out within the week with my current rant on the episodes. Do you think Louis is really the father of Blair's baby? I don't, it's total BS in my opinion. That and I really don't see Blair's pregnancy going to term, babies and Gossip Girl just don't seem to mix for the long run.
Rajamoon – Thank you! So glad you enjoy reading and I can't wait to read what you think of this chapter.
Rose – Thanks so much for the feedback! I did my best in this chapter to get deeper into Chair's issues. Remember, I'm not a therapist and have no experience with this type of relationship. As far as the Empire fiasco, I've never gone into much discussion of that in any of my stories because Blair was ready to forgive Chuck for that before she found out about Gothic Barbie. I hope you enjoy this chapter as they start to move forward more. Also, I tend to look at Chair's relationship as purely fiction as I would never put up with that in real life. Looking forward to your thoughts on this chapter.
A fan – Thank you so much! I understand what you're saying about their love. It's tragically beautiful as they're fated for each other but it's taken so much to get them to finally realize that. I'm so flattered that this is the first GG story you check for updates =) Can't wait to read your review of this chapter.
88Mary88 – Thanks so much! There is so much I wish Blair and Chuck said to each other on the show but it will never happen, thankfully I have fanfiction as my outlet for that, LOL. I'm approaching Blair's breakdown a bit differently so what you read in this chapter won't unravel like you expect. Looking forward to your next review.
Kayla – Thanks! Chair meets up more outside of therapy in this chapter. I totally agree that Chuck has done worse things than Blair has but they need to work together to get back what they lost. Let me know your thoughts on this chapter.
Ellibells – Thank you! I haven't decided how I want their first time back together again to be. That being said, the scene you requested is in this chapter so I'm really looking forward to your feedback on it. The last chapter was emotional and I'd love to know if you shed tears for this one. Can't wait to read your next review.
Chairfanforever – Thanks! I always thought that Chuck saw that Blair was the only one he ever truly made love to so I had to get that into the dialogue in this story. Looking forward to your thoughts on this chapter.
Bloomerica – Thank you! So happy to hear this story is becoming one of your favorites =D Chair is moving towards their future and boxing up the past. With the show how it is, I think we all need it, don't you? Can't wait to read what you think of this chapter.
Trosev – Thanks! Chair definitely needs to start doing what a couple does, and they start in this chapter. They need each other more than ever now and I can't wait to read what you think of them in this chapter.
Pty – Thank you so much! I'm glad you like the friendship threads I weave in as well as the intensity of the therapy sessions. A lot happens in this chapter and I can't wait to read your thoughts on it all. Any spoilers on Louis leaving and Blair telling Chuck he's the father of her baby? Looking forward to those and your review of this chapter.
GGfan73104 – Thank you! Dramatic and explosive, just what I was going for ;) I totally get what you're saying about the sex and I think we may think alike. I'm a total sucker for romance, if you didn't already know that, LOL. Can't wait to read your thoughts on this chapter.
TriGemini – Thanks so much! What do you think of this new season? I'm not liking Blair's denial or Louis and am holding out hope for Chair in the future. I've always hated how the show portrayed Chuck as the type who couldn't handle a crisis. I think that given the chance, he could be Blair's rock if they both let him. As for Blair's spiral, it's drastic and it will definitely test Chuck. As for the sex, I'm liking that it should be casual, romantic but casual. As always, I can't wait to read your next review.
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LeftWriter224 – Thank you so much! They do talk more about Raina and Louis in this chapter. The breakdown is in this chapter so I can't wait to read what you think of it. And romantic sex would probably be best for them to start with. Looking forward to your review of this chapter.
Disclaimer: I do not own Gossip Girl, or Ed Westwick – sigh.
November 28, 2011
Chuck waited until later that night to call Blair. He could see that the wall she built between them was slowly crumbling and wanted to be there as it did.
"So, you've only ever made love to me?" she asked after a few minutes of small talk.
"That's right," he told her.
"Why?" she asked.
"What do you mean?" he countered.
"How was making love different than having sex?" Blair wanted to know.
"Sex was purely physical, an itch that needed to be scratched," he said. "Making love, with you, really was a way of expressing how much I love you. I'm sorry that I ever made you doubt that."
"I know, and I do know how much you love me," she said. "I also like hearing you tell me."
"Then I'll tell you," Chuck said. "I love you, Blair."
"You know I love you, Chuck," she told him, biting her lip as she tried to figure out why she was feeling so flushed.
"You really don't know when you knew you were in love with me?" he asked.
"What are you talking about?" she asked, now on-guard and knowing full well what he meant but wanting to avoid it.
"In therapy, you said it was a feeling you couldn't describe," he said. "I told you I knew when I saw you going off with Nate. You never told me when you realized you loved me."
"Our first time in the limo," she revealed.
"Really, you knew then?" he asked with surprise.
"You said it yourself, we were best friends since childhood," she told him as she felt herself blushing. "I knew how you were when it came to sex, and gentle wasn't a word I'd use. But that night, with me, you were nothing but. You kept asking me if I were sure, giving me an out if I wanted one."
"That's when you knew, because I didn't take advantage of you?" he responded, slightly put-off that that's how she came to fall in love with him.
"I fell in love with you that night because you showed me how you really are," she said. "You could have just had sex with me, but you took your time making sure I was comfortable, making sure I enjoyed myself. And I did, so much. It must not have been that pleasurable for you though seeing as I had no idea what I was doing."
"Oh, I got a lot of pleasure out of that night," he told her as he thought back to the moment that changed his life forever.
"How? What could you have gotten out of it?" she asked.
"What did I get out of it? I got to experience your first time," he said. "I was the one you trusted enough to give your virginity to. Even back then I knew what that meant."
There was a silence as they both mulled over before Blair broke the silence with the burning question of the day.
"What do you think of the therapist's idea to box everything up and never talk about it again?" she asked. "Is that really practical for us?"
"I don't know if it's practical but I do think it will allow us to move on easier," Chuck said. "The past can't be erased, Blair. It won't do us any good if we continue talking about it."
"We still have more to discuss though," she told him. "This last year was such a rollercoaster ride for us, I'm still trying to process it all."
"What do you want to know?" he asked.
"What do I want to know? I want to know everything," Blair said. "I've read your journal more times than I can count but I still have questions I need answered."
"Then ask me, I'll tell you anything. How about we try and talk about this outside of our sessions?" he suggested. "It couldn't hurt."
"No, it couldn't," she said, "But not tonight."
"We'll move past all this, Blair, I miss you," he told her. "I want nothing more than to have what we had."
"Can I tell you a secret?" she asked.
"Please do," he said.
"I'm afraid what will happen when we get together again," she said. "What if it doesn't work out, what then?"
"It'll work out, I won't stop fighting for us," he said. "And I know you won't stop either."
"Things will change then," she said quietly. "As soon as we sleep together again, I can't help but think things will get even more tangled."
"That's usually the goal," Chuck smirked. "Besides, that was one area we never had trouble in."
"No, we never did," she agreed with him as she fought back a yawn. "I'm going to go, are you free for lunch tomorrow?"
"For you, I'm always free," he said. "Our usual time and place?"
"Yes," she said with a smile. "See you tomorrow, Chuck."
"Sweet dreams, Blair," he told her before hanging up, "Sweet dreams."
December 8, 2011
"Can we expect you to sleep when classes are over?" Dan asked as he, Nate, and Blair sat around the kitchen table at the penthouse.
"Just because my classes at Columbia are over for the term doesn't mean I don't have other work to do," Blair told them as she took a sip of her latte. "I still have to study for the LSATs and go to my internship."
"No," Nate said, "You let it slip yourself last week that they give the interns off for winter break because they are unpaid and it's illegal to have you work without pay or credit."
"I didn't know this," Dan said as he looked at Nate and then Blair.
"I was going to tell you," Nate said. "But I've been doing actual coursework these past few weeks."
"It's rough when all of your professors are men in their sixties, isn't it?" Blair smirked. "You're not able to sleep your way to a good grade, or are you?"
"What? No," Nate exclaimed as he started choking on his drink. "No, I'm going to try and pass on my own."
"Good to hear, buddy," Dan smiled as he shared a look with Nate before turning back to Blair. "How's Chuck?"
"He's good," Blair said as she took another sip in an attempt to hide the smile on her face.
"And the therapy?" Nate asked.
"Good," Blair told them as she put her drink down and bit her lip. "I think we're ready to move forward."
"Explain, we need details, Waldorf," Dan told her with a grin.
"We're learning more about each other," Blair said. "Everything is happening slowly, we don't want to rush into anything this time."
"Are you and Chuck capable of moving at a slow speed?" Nate asked.
"It's not standard for us but we've made accommodations," Blair said.
"You're both in this for good?" Dan asked her. "Because taking him back is a big step for you."
"Therapy is also a big step for him," Blair stated. "Chuck has never been comfortable with his feelings or showing weakness, but he did both of those things when he checked into rehab this summer. Yes, it was necessary and the right thing to do but difficult nonetheless. And before either of you say anything, I know what I'm getting myself into and I want it."
"We know," Nate smiled, "We know."
"Are you both ready for finals?" Dan asked, effectively changing the subject as he reached for a croissant. "I know I am."
Blair smirked as she took another sip of her latte. "We know she is," Nate said as he looked at her, "All she does is study."
"It would do you good if you studied half as much as I did," she stated. "Maybe then you'd get higher than a C."
"If he studied a quarter of the time you did he'd be better off," Dan laughed as Nate rolled his eyes. "I'm just saying, Nate."
"Whatever," Nate shrugged. "My looks have gotten me this far."
"You sure about that?" Blair asked. "Because I think your hair is starting to thin out."
"It is not," Nate exclaimed as he ran his hands through his hair. "Don't say that, B. It's not funny."
"It's a little funny," Dan told him as Blair laughed and Nate's breathing was still fast.
December 12, 2011
With the therapy sessions starting to wind down, their emotions weren't so raw as they spent almost every night on the phone.
Chuck finally saw how hurt Blair was by Eva. It wasn't just that he moved on with her but that he did treat her so much better right from the start. Blair needed to know why he treated Eva and Raina so well when she had to work so hard for half of that treatment. She felt their relationship was cheapened by the way he was with Eva and Raina. Chuck had already apologized but that wasn't what Blair was looking for.
It took a few days before Chuck understood that he was wrong for what he did. Yes, he was lonely and they were there but so was Blair. Instead of fighting to get back what he had with her he just took the easy route with someone else. When he told her that, she was so grateful that they were talking on the phone because she couldn't stop the tears that escaped her eyes. That was all she wanted to hear from him about that and felt that they were one step closer to closure and sealing the box of their transgressions for good.
Another thing that really hurt Blair was how Chuck recreated Venice for Raina last Valentine's Day. She never thought he would develop true feelings for Thorpe's daughter and was devastated when he did. They already discussed how he only did what he had to in order to gain her trust but it still hurt. It made Blair wonder if what he did with her was something he did with other women as well.
Looking back at how he acted, Chuck couldn't believe his cruelty. That Valentine's Day recreation for Raina was put together by an event planner he hired. The extent of his involvement was finding out about her original plans and paying someone to set it up. It was nothing like what he did with their Bacchanalia the previous year and he assured Blair that it wasn't the same.
Not only did Chuck meticulously go over every detail of their passionate weekend, he personally saw that everything was perfect for her, down to the color and feel of the tablecloths. He was stupid, he knew that, but he also knew that the chance he was being given with Blair was a gift he didn't want to mess up.
Days went by talking about Chuck's behavior and Blair's feelings on the matter before they turned to her actions. He would never like Dan but he wasn't daft enough to make Blair choose between him and her friendship with the Brooklynite. Dan was there for her when he wasn't and Chuck decided that was something he needed to live with, just like Blair had to live with all of his senseless indiscretions.
Her relationship with Louis took longer for Chuck to come to terms with. He always thought Blair would wait for him, he never imagined she would move on. That selfishness cost him everything with her, and he finally got why. They talked about everything they were feeling and Chuck was at last able to voice how much he saw that now. While it hurt that she was with someone else, he realized that it was absurd to expect her to wait for him despite the fact that he was with other women.
Most of the bitterness from their early sessions had dissipated and now they mainly felt sadness over all that transpired. By the time they met with their therapist again, they were ready to move to the next level with each other.
"Have you thought more about what I suggested last week?" the therapist asked them when they were seated next to each other on the couch opposite him.
"Yes," Chuck said as he looked at Blair, "We spent the whole week talking about it and we've decided that boxing up the past is what we need."
"I think we needed to grow up," Blair said when they both looked at her. "Maybe everything that happened was necessary for us to know for sure how we felt. I love Chuck more today than I did five years ago. We appreciate each other more now, our priorities are in order and we know what we want."
"And what is it you want?" the therapist asked.
"Each other," Blair told him, glancing sideways at Chuck to see him smirking at her.
"This is good," he said as he wrote something down. "Are you ready to metaphorically tape up the box and move forward from it?"
"I am," Chuck said.
"So am I," Blair added.
"Wonderful," the therapist smiled as he closed his portfolio and looked at them, "I'll see you both at our next session to discuss how you two are doing."
December 15, 2011
"You used your key," he said when he came into the living room to see Blair putting down the phone.
While Chuck usually spent his father's anniversary with scotch and a darkened room, this year he planned to forget about it the best he could and go to the office. He still had a lot of work to get done and didn't want to fall back on any of his old, destructive habits. His alarm was set but he got out of bed early when he heard a woman's voice. Thinking it was Lily, he was happily surprised to see Blair instead.
"Room service will be up shortly," she told him as she turned around to face him. "I know how hard today is for you, I had to make sure you were okay."
"Don't you have classes to go to?" Chuck asked her. "You don't need to babysit me, I'll be fine."
"It's finals week," she told him. "And I don't have one today. Besides, I spoke with Lily and you don't need to be in the office today. I thought we could spend the day together, if you want to."
He nodded as she said, "I'm always your friend, Chuck. Today is the last day I'd ever leave you alone."
"Thanks," he said as he ran a hand through his hair and looked down at his black silk pajamas. "Should I get dressed?"
"You don't have to," she said. "We're not going anywhere. I thought it would be best to keep a low profile and just stay in."
"What exactly did you have planned then?" he asked with a smirk, happy that Blair not only remembered what today was but that she also made plans to ensure his mind was occupied.
"Just talking," she said with a laugh. "With all the talking we've done in therapy, our personal lives are still quite a mystery."
"What personal lives?" he chuckled. "I work all the time and you have more things on your plate than you should."
Her eyes narrowed at him when she heard the elevator ding. Watching each other as breakfast was set up at the dining room table, they quietly served themselves before sitting on the couch to eat.
They ate in comfortable silence, the air between them free from all the tension that had built up in the last year. When their plates were on the coffee table, Blair turned to Chuck and said, "Tell me what's going on with Bass Industries."
"What have you heard?" he asked, unsure how much she knew about his financial situation and how much he wanted her to know.
"Not much, just that someone bought the company and kept you and Lily on," she told him. "Why? What's going on?"
"I have a few projects I'm working on at the moment," he said vaguely.
"And they are," she prodded.
"One of them is the acquisition of a construction company," Chuck told her. "There was too much delay when we used a third party. This way, we keep everything in-house and it can move faster and more efficiently."
"Smart call," she said, "What else?"
"I'm overseeing a change in the booking system we use in our hotels in Europe," he said. "Each country has a different one, it should be streamlined so that each country is using the same one."
"Are you sure you don't have a business degree?" Blair asked teasingly as he smirked. "Anything else you're working on?"
"Yes, actually," he said slowly. "I invested in a hotel in Dubai."
Her brows furrowed as she looked at him, "You personally or Bass Industries?"
"You don't miss anything," Chuck smirked as she tilted her head. "Yes, I invested personally. I want my company back so it's my own money tied up in this deal, all of it."
"Wow, what'll you do if it doesn't work out?" she asked.
"Then I'm screwed," he said dryly as he took a sip of his orange juice and sat back.
"You don't have a backup plan?" she asked with surprise. "Why would you risk your own money without a contingency in place?"
"Because I don't like having to report to someone," he told her. "While I was at the Ostroff Center, the Captain helped me devise a plan to buy back Bass Industries within the decade. If this hotel in Dubai is successful, I could shave two years off that plan."
Blair wanted to go off on him but understood why he felt he needed to do this. Bass Industries was the legacy Bart left him and she knew Chuck felt the need to regain it to its former glory and make his father proud.
"I think Bart would approve," she said with a small smile on her face.
"Maybe," he said uncomfortably as he looked away from her, not ready to discuss his father.
When a piece of hair fell across his forehead, her fingers reached out to brush it back into place before she could think twice about it.
"I'm sorry," Blair told him once her hand was back in her lap and he was staring intently at her. "I shouldn't have done that."
"Don't be, I liked it," he smirked, causing her to roll her eyes as a faint flush crept onto her face. "Besides, I wasn't the one who implemented the no touching rule. In fact, I think we should be done with it."
"You do?" she asked with a playful glint in her eyes.
"I do," he told her as his hand rested on her cheek, "That way I can do this."
Chuck slowly leaned towards her and while she saw it coming, she just waited for his lips to touch hers. Blair could feel the electricity between them as much as he did and felt herself melt into him. After a few moments though, she pulled back with a shy smile on her face.
She shook her head and backed into the corner of the couch, "Not yet. I should probably go."
"Don't," he said quickly as his hand rested on her arm, "I won't do anything until you ask me to."
"Okay," Blair said softly, "I'll stay."
"Are you going to stay over there the whole day?" he asked her with a smile.
"Where do you think I should be?" she asked.
"Right here," he told her as put his arm on the back of the couch, "Come on. I promise not to bite, much."
She looked at him with hesitation before moving towards him and settling into his side. His arm wrapped around her as she rested her head on his chest, sighing quietly at how perfectly they still fit together.
"How are you doing?" Chuck asked as he began to stroke her hair. "Do you have any more finals left?"
"Two," she told him with her eyes closed, "Economics and finance are on Saturday. I've been studying all semester but I'll go over my outlines tomorrow."
"Will you take a break then?" he asked her.
"No, when classes are done I need to continue reviewing for the LSATs," Blair said.
"How much studying can you really do for that?" he wanted to know as he held her tighter. "You don't take that until next year."
"I'll stop when I get a 180 on every practice exam I do," she said. "Last term blew my chances at a 4.0 GPA but I can still get as close to it if I get straight As this year and next year. A 180 will all but guarantee me a spot at Columbia's law school. I can't jeopardize that."
"You won't," he said as he continued stroking her hair and felt her breathing slow as she began to drift to sleep. "I think you should take a nap."
"You're not getting me into bed," she mumbled as she poked him.
"Nap here," he said as he rubbed the spot on his ribs she just poked, "We don't have to move."
"Good, because I'm comfortable like this," she said quietly.
"I can see that," he smirked when he looked at her fast asleep on him. He laughed as his arms wrapped around her.
She was exhausted and slept for the rest of the afternoon. Chuck didn't move from where he was because he wanted her to sleep without disturbance.
"What time is it?" she asked with a yawn as she pulled back from him and saw that it was dark outside. "Why didn't you wake me up?"
"It's seven o'clock," he told her, missing her warmth as she sat next to him and smoothed out her hair. "And you're exhausted, I wasn't about to interrupt what was possibly the most sleep you've gotten this week."
"Drop it," she said as she rubbed her eyes and stood up. "Are you hungry? We could order in."
"Sounds good," he smirked as he reached for the phone. "Should I place our order for breakfast as well?"
"Nice try," she smiled. "I'm going home after dinner."
"You can't blame me for trying," he told her.
Blair rolled her eyes as she sat next to him on the couch again while they waited for room service.
December 18, 2011
Eric was home for winter break and spent most of his time catching up with Chuck.
"Blair spent Bart's anniversary with me," Chuck told his stepbrother with a smile.
"Mom told me," Eric said. "Blair's still a bit frosty to her and Serena but they're overjoyed with the progress you two have made."
"Do you talk with her at all?" Chuck asked as Eric froze slightly.
"I'm not asking you to divulge your conversations," Chuck added. "I just want to know if she has someone else to talk with. I'm worried about her."
"Why?" Eric asked.
"She's running herself into the ground," Chuck told him. "I don't think she sleeps, she lives alone at the penthouse, and Nate and Humphrey seem to be the only ones she's really friends with."
"We talk, about once a week," Eric said. "You know how Blair is, she always needs to be doing something. With the scheming behind her, she's throwing herself into school. Getting into law school is very important to her."
"I know," Chuck said, "She thinks last term destroyed her chances."
"She didn't," Eric said. "Blair may think that but now that her mind is focused on school nothing will hold her back. You know that."
"That's what I told her," Chuck laughed, amused how they were both on the same wavelength.
"Serena met up with her last week and you two are on the same page," Eric told him. "She did tell me that Blair looks more tired than usual. Not even the best makeup was able to conceal her dark circles."
"I'm so worried that it's only a matter of time before she implodes," Chuck said. "We may be talking more now and moving towards a real relationship but I've only seen her twice since we agreed to that in therapy."
"Why?" Eric asked as his brows knit together. "What's she hiding?"
"Nothing," Chuck said quickly, "At least I don't think she's hiding something. What do you know?"
"Relax, I'm sure she's fine," Eric said. "Don't you see her on Mondays in therapy?"
"Our sessions are on hold until after New Year's," Chuck told him. "I'm busy at work and Blair needed to study for finals before she leaves for France to celebrate Christmas with her parents."
"Are you coming with us to Martinique?" Eric asked. "We'd love it if you did."
"No, I'm going to work, get these deals moving along," Chuck said as Eric went to protest. "Please, I never liked the holidays, let it go."
"Alright," Eric conceded, "But this means I want all the details about what you've been doing at Bass Industries as well as how things are progressing with Blair."
"Only if you tell me how your first semester of college went," Chuck countered with a smirk.
"Deal," Eric smiled as they spent the rest of the night talking.
December 21, 2011
Chuck was at a business meeting when the gnawing feeling in the pit of his stomach wouldn't go away. He couldn't stop thinking about how Blair looked more and more exhausted each time he saw her or spoke with her. Even though he was in a meeting to discuss one of his projects with Bass Industries, his focus wasn't there and he needed to get to Blair.
"Gentleman," he said as he looked at his phone again before pushing back from the table, "I hate to do this, but I need to reschedule this meeting. A family emergency just came up and I have to leave."
"Is everything all right with Lily?" one of them asked.
"Lily is fine," Chuck told them. "My apologies for this, stay as long as you like on my tab. I'll have my secretary reschedule our meeting in the morning. Excuse me."
He had another round of drinks sent over to them before getting into the limo and telling Arthur to drive him to the penthouse. He called Blair but there was no answer, which made him even more nervous.
When Chuck stepped out of the elevator, he called out for her but was met with only silence. The first floor was dark and empty so he quietly made his way up the stairs, not hearing anything until he got closer to her bedroom. He could feel his chest getting tight when he slipped through the half-opened door and made his way to the bathroom where her sobs were coming from.
His heart stopped when he saw the bath filled with bubbles, a box of macaroons on the side, and no Blair. He breathed a sigh of relief when he heard her sobs coming from the shower.
She was sitting in the corner of the shower, shivering as the water continued to fall in front of her. Her knees were pulled up and she rested her chin on them as her arms were wrapped around her legs. Chuck grabbed a towel as he made his way to her, shutting the water off before he sat next to her and wrapped her in the fluffy towel.
"It's okay," he said soothingly as he pulled her to him and rubbed his hand up and down her arm. "Everything will be okay."
Chuck sat next to her in the shower, his suit getting soaking wet as she leaned into him and he sat back. They stayed there until Blair's sobs stopped and he lifted her in his arms and carried her to the bedroom. When he set her down on the bed with the towel around her, she stared blankly straight in front of her.
When Chuck opened the armoire to get a nightgown for her, what he saw was unexpected. Three pairs of his pajamas were neatly folded at the bottom. After quickly discarding his wet clothes and changing into one of the pajamas, he turned back to Blair to help her into a nightgown. She was eerily quiet and didn't fight him when he removed the towel from around her or as he gently slipped the nightgown over her head.
He would have been even more concerned if she didn't curl into him as he lay next to her under the covers. That told him that she was aware of what was going on, just not ready to do any thinking she didn't absolutely have to do. He had no idea what to say to her that would do any good. All he could think of was that she needed someone with her and how he wasn't going anywhere until they talked about how she was running herself into the ground.
He was broken out of his thoughts when she crawled on top of him. "Make love to me, Chuck," she pleaded as she reached up to kiss his neck. "Make me feel better."
As much as he wanted her, he couldn't take advantage of her during her obvious breakdown. Ignoring how painfully hard he was, he fought her off.
"This isn't how you want it," he said as he took her hand in his and pulled it away from his waistband. "We're not having our first time back together like this. You're too upset now."
"Which is why I need you," Blair told him, kissing the spot under his ear that always put him right where she wanted him. "I need you to make me feel better."
He groaned as he rolled onto his side and wrapped his arms around her. "Talk to me," he said quietly.
"No, get out," she cried as she went to pull away only for him to hold her tighter. "If you don't want me, then leave."
She continued to struggle out of his embrace as he told her, "Of course I want you, I just don't want you to regret this in the morning."
"I won't regret it," she purred as her face shone with her shed tears and she tried to straddle his waist once more but to no avail. He knew she wasn't herself with how her moods were changing so quickly. Doing his best to fend off her advances while holding her to him, his willpower was decreasing as his pants became more and more uncomfortable.
Please review if you'd like me to continue. And if I haven't heard from you yet, leave a review. Lots of you have favorited or alerted this story but have yet to leave a comment. I'd love to hear your thoughts and it's very easy to do, not to mention it would really make me smile =D
With the show currently depressing for Chair fans , I feel the need to move them towards their full reconciliation in this story. Also, my resolve will probably break down before 5x04 airs and I think I'll need to watch it live. Granted, I'll be cringing about Blair being with Louis but if I remind myself that he is just a distraction and Chair is endgame I'm sure I'll be able to watch the whole episode. No promises though, I'm very squeamish.
I didn't have a typical therapy session in this chapter because, quite frankly, I'm not entirely sure how to word it properly. I decided that describing their talks, their feelings, and the outcome of it was a better way to go. That way it's easier, at least I think so, for you to imagine what you want/think they should say to each other. I also wanted to include interactions with other characters and have Chuck and Blair interact in new environments to test out the waters of where they now stand with each other.
Their friendship seems to be very much on the mend and Blair's finally cracked. How do you think she'll react in the morning when she's had a full night of sleep and finds herself in bed with Chuck? Do you think Chuck will be able to resist Blair all night or do you think he'll give in? Let me know what you think as well as where you'd like to see me pick up with them in the next chapter.
One last note, I had to get in about their coursework. On the show, I'm pretty sure they're all still enrolled at college but we never see them doing anything remotely scholastic. Me being pragmatic saw to it that this was included.
Also, feel free to message me or leave your reactions to the new season in your reviews. I love hearing what other people think of it and I do make sure to watch clips with Blair and Chuck, but with one eye closed mind you. It's nice to know that I'm not the only one obsessed with Chair ;)
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