Fighting Temptation; doubting

When I got home, I immediately called Vee. She was my best option in knowing these things. I did feel love flowing in my body when I was with Patch. But after the war, the army, the; I am now Nephil and immortal, I knew that it was more than love.

But this thing I'm feeling right now; it was something new to me, a tingling sensation I felt in my stomach when he did innocent touches along my body. I sent shivers down my spine, It made me..want him, in ways I couldn't understand.

To my sudden realization, I found out what my feelings were…I was falling, not just in love. I was now, lusting with desire over my fallen angel boyfriend, and it scared me.

Because I've suddenly realize I wanted him, not just emotionally, my body….is now, lusting?

Such a foul word to say really, thinking about it even.. Sends unwanted shivers along my body. Since I called Vee, she brought up the possibilities that I needed to get laid and that we were going out tomorrow night. I didn't want to upset her, but I declined her offer of finding a guy along Portland, just to get one night in bed when I got Patch, or should I say my darling Jev.

After talking to Vee and pondering all these crazy thoughts; I decided to call Patch. Problem is, he wouldn't pick up, I left him twenty messages and ten missed calls still wouldn't pick up, I didn't end there either, I tried calling all night until I feel asleep.

When I was in my dreams, I tried looking for Patch too, telepathy came easy to me now, only problem is, I couldn't reach him through that either, it was as if, he was blocking me, avoiding me even, and that hurt. So, I drifted off into my own dreams.

I dream of Patch, he was at the cemetery, it was a cold dark night, but the moon gave out as much light, enough for me to see him. I was thinking maybe he might see me, so I hid behind a tree about ten meters away. Patch was sitting on top of a grave stone, looking at something far away, I didn't know what, cause when I tried to look at which direction he was staring at, there was another tree covering my view.

But all too soon my question was answered. As Patch stood up and gave a slight nod to a man wearing all white, and I meant it, his shirt was white, his pants and shoes, wouldn't doubt if his socks were white too.

But what caught me most were his eyes. They were shinning, like gold. Being this far, I knew I couldn't have seen his eyes, but they were bright, and I meant it. It was as if they were golden fire. His hair too was golden, he was tall and masculine, standing around six foot two I presume, almost as equal to Patch. If you'd ask me who was taller, I wouldn't know.

" Michael…" Patch said, his voice warm and welcoming, I've never heard of him spoken to anybody else like that, I only heard it when he was with me.

"Jev…pleasure really..how's that mortal girl of yours? I hope you've been happy with this life. you've gotten quite popular among us I believe…" Michael said, his voice sounding dark and yet, warm.

"what are you doing here Michael?" Patch asked, he was always straight to the point, something that annoys me sometimes.

"hmm..impatient are we, I have a mission for you, a little assignment."

"what's my profit in completing it?"

"hmm…quite eager aren't we Jev.."

"the exchange Michael, what are they?"

"alright, You spy for us, just about a few weeks. If anything else we need of you we shall send you a message. We need an eye on Dabria…"

Patch gave out a low chuckle " I want to know the benefits on this quest you give me, Michael…"

Michael just laugh "very well, you get a choice; regain your wings as a guardian, or retain a fallen and be forgiven of every crime and sin you've committed.."

"hmm..such large prizes for a little task…" Patch tilted his head a little to the side " what is the reason of this assignment? What did she do Michael?"

"I am not allowed to say this, but since it is your new assignment, I will tell you my reasons…" Michael flick his wrist in the air and a scroll simmered in his hand " I have been granted a search and arrest warrant, for thief."

"what?...on what grounds does this stand? I've not seen her done anything illegal to our laws…." Then in a low voice Patch said "well..not just yet I presume, since my guard on her has died.."

"She has stolen my most valuable procession Jev!" Michael boomed in anger that the skies rumbled with thunder

"calm down Mike…..you are going to make it rain…" giving a low sigh "very well, I accept the task…but only if you shall make an oath to grant me the reward I choose…"

"I will do no such thing!" Michael now growled " that is asking too much Fallen!" he hissed at Jev

" If you will not grant me of the reward I ask, then I will not complete this mission…Go find someone else to do it!" and that hit it, Michael calmed downed, gave a low sigh and nodded "very well, Jev….after all, it is only you that she trusts…I assume your little girl won't be giving any trouble?"

Patch nodded "that is my problem, old friend. Although I wish I could have advice, but she truly is quite feisty…" giving out a low chuckle..

" be glad you have the gift to love her Jev…it is something we cannot find in the heavens.." He and Patch shared a brief hug and Michael shimmered and disappeared.

The vision ended at that point, I was consumed by darkness, as I sleep through the night in dreamless sleep.

"Maybe his just busy Nora…you know him, he just disappears at most inappropriate times.." Vee said as we closed our lockers and made our way to fifth period.

" but he hasn't answered any of my calls, or text..its getting me frustrated…" I told Vee about last night's events, aside from the dreams that is…

In truth it hasn't only gotten me frustrated, its gotten me feeling miserable and lonely too. I missed him, and he wouldn't answer my calls.. hmf, some boyfriend…

" oh..give it a rest babe, tell you what….we'll go shopping after school, we can catch some coffee, and maybe you'll run into him along the way, you'll make up and your problem's solve…huh?"

"alright..fine." maybe I do need a little break, after all, what I saw last night could be real. He hasn't told me anything, I haven't told him anything, cause well, obviously, he doesn't want to talk to me. Ugh- man and their alter-ego.

" great, meet me at the library after class, I got this paper I need to get than first, then we'll go…" she said it in a very dreamy voice that somehow made me think, she wasn't going to the library for paper work.

"uh-huh..yeah…..since when do you do homework?" I was at utter shock at her weird behavior, and it hurt me, because my best friend finally find love, and I lose mine. I should be happy for her, I know…its just that, I couldn't believe what I'm about to say..

"I think his cheating on me Vee…" I was crying now, there was no more courageous Nora, it was now just plane Nora. Heartbroken…as I felt my best friend arms wrap around me for comfort.

"hey..don't jump on conclusions..Nora. He might just be busy..You know how he is, better yet..you know him better Nora, and let me tell you. You are not the only person in this relationship that is in love. Because I know full well, he loves you Nora, he always tries to protect you, and his there for you..so don't you dare think that he doesn't love you, because I know he does….alright?"

"Thanks Vee..but how do you even know that..?" as I sniff

"easy…guy told me…" she was grinning at me ear to ear, I was caught off guard that my eyes grew wide in shock..

"What?..."

"he told me…last week.. and don't ask anything more, we had a long conversation about you..but I am keeping it a secret, all I'm saying is…he loves you Nora, and his willing to get killed just for you..so don't go blaming him on cheating just because he doesn't answer your calls.."

For once in my life, Vee was serious, she was as serious as mom.

Mom finally accepted Jev after Hank and everything; she even had Jev over every time she was home from work. They were so close that they've even cook together.

I just nodded at Vee, smiled at her and wiped my tears away.

Maybe he is, maybe his not. At I know is, this new assignment he has, is going to break my heart..again…

"tell you what babe, why don't you go home after class, relax a little and I'll come over around seven, bring some DVDs and a manicure kit, and maybe even pizza. Alright?"

"yeah..that's great Vee thanks…" I hugged her, letting her know that I was comforted and smiled at her as we broke the hug

"I'll ask my mom if I could stay over. God knows Patch doesn't want you alone in that house…."

I just laugh at her and nodded; Jev was over protective, he wanted me at his place every time mom was gone. He even went as far as getting a second bedroom with a walk in closet just for me, as fun as that was, I tried to avoid my new bedroom and slept with him at his bed, cause well..it smelled like him and why be away from him when you're just five meters away from each other?

How I miss my angel….

When school was over, I texted Vee and Jev that I was going home, I didn't care if he ignored me, I just wanted to be sure that he knew my where about.

This is a bit too short for my own liking and I am so sorry that it too long for me to write this; being in school and having this hobby isn't really good, when exams are torturing you everyday...anyways' I hope you guys enjoy…READ AND REVIEW PLEASE…and a very large thank you to all my readers...xoxo