Chapter 28 Jump in head first

While the others were at Twiggy's funeral Jamie was visiting Jilly, she wasn't told why Storm was so sad but Jamie figured it was bad because it usually took alot for Storm get that sad. After eleven years of hell sadness usually took a while to get through but this was something different. Jamie hugged her and told her it would be ok, Storm didn't say anything and just followed Raven to the funeral. All day they had been in Jilly's room doing the usual girly things and slowly driving John insane. Partly from all the girly talk and partly from Jamie being so close yet so far away. He could only hope that Jamie would wind up in the spare room again at least that way he could sneak in and see her. He had stupidly told Randy about what had happened, after about twenty minutes of Randy laughing at how drunk he was he finally sat up straight and told him that he was going to be in a lot of trouble when her family found out. So far John was still alive so he figured that either Jamie hadn't said anything or she had forgotten. Was it wrong to feel slightly annoyed that she had forgotten that kiss so easily? It was like it meant nothing to her. He shook himself, he had to stop this he was slowly becoming a man obsessed and that was never a good thing. Ever. Around midnight he finally heard the sounds he was waiting for, Jamie saying goodnight to his sister and going into the spare room. Now he just had to wait a little longer and then he could go in and say goodnight. That was alright wasn't it? He just wanted to make sure she was alright and say goodnight. That was all it was, a purely innocent gesture. Yeah right.

"Jamie?" John whispered tapping on the door gently, he really didn't want Jilly to hear what he was doing because that was just bad for everyone and by everyone John meant himself. Silently he pried the door open to find Jamie was in the middle of getting undressed. Quickly he shut the door so they were alone. Going up behind her he put his big hand around her mouth. Jamie let out a muffled scream before elbowing him in the stomach, whipping around she punched him as hard as possible in the stomach making him fall to the bed. Of course Jamie only realised it was John after she had hurt him.

She looked at him sheepishly "Sorry I thought you were a british guy"

John sucked in a couple of big breaths, the girl had been taught well, John made a mental note not to do that again, his stomach felt as though it was about to explode.

"Sorry I snuck up on you Jamie" John said weakly still holding his stomach, he knew it was very wrong to be turned on by her rough reaction. "I wanted to say goodnight"

"Oh. Goodnight!" Jamie kissed his cheek and climbed into bed. Finally his breathing returned to normal and he was able to concentrate on what he really came in for.

"Jamie about the other night"

"Which night was that?"

"The night I crashed in here drunk"

Jamie's face screwed up trying to remember that night, it was hard because in her mind all her nights ended with John.

"We wound up sharing a bed and making out" John pressed feeling a little put out that she didn't remember.

Jamies' face brightened "Oh yeah the night you said this was your room, I liked your boxers they were so bright"

John laughed feeling better and a little proud, she did remember. "I wanted to say I'm sorry and I made a mistake"

"Why did you make a mistake? Wait does this mean I'm not really really really pretty?"

He stroked her face lovingly "Of course your still really really really pretty Jamie"

"Well I don't get it, how is it a mistake?"

"I shouldn't of kissed you, I was drunk and your not able to understand what was going on" John said then mentally kicking himself. Sure thats what he was thinking but he could of thought of a better way to say it, one that didn't hurt her feelings.

Jamie's face darkened, those twinkling blue eyes suddenly going very dark. "I cannot believe that I was that stupid, stupid for thinking that you would be different. Here I was thinking that you would get it but no your just like the other boys. Well I say good day sir"

"Jamie" "I said good day!" Jamie snapped pulling the covers up over her head. Much to her surprise and his John didn't leave, he stayed there on the bed trying to think of what to say. He hated that he had hurt her feelings and been thrown into a catergory that clearly wasn't good.

"Jamie I'm sorry I didn't mean it like that"

She popped her head back up reminding John of a jack in the box. "Mean it like what? That I'm just some stupid girl that doesn't know anything, well let me tell you something Mr John Cena, I do know things and I'm not dumb as you think"

"I never meant that you were stupid Jamie but do you understand why I kissed you?"

"Because you were drunk?"

"No that just gave me the courage, I kissed you because I like you. I like you in ways that I shouldn't and its slowly killing me because I want you so badly but I know I can't have you"

"You like me?" Jamie asked confused, through his speil that was the only part she had locked in on. "Oh dear God why do you like me? Your John Cena you could have any girl you wanted like that chick down the street who does this" Jamie did some weird symbol that John didn't get. One would think that that would of deterred him, seeing as how she just randomly went off on tangents that made little to no sense.

"I like you because I do, its just something I thought you should know even though I can't really remember why"

Jamie layed down thinking about everything and at the same time nothing. "If you like me does that mean you want something from me? Like how Raven is with Randy?" When Jamie didn't get something she always likened it back to Raven, it always seemed to make sense that way.

John thought about it for a while, the whole room was silent and John was sure he could hear Jamie's heart pounding. Did he want a relationship with her? Yes. It shocked him how he managed to answer that question so fast.

"Yes but Jamie it has to be our little secret, you can't tell anybody but only because I would get into a lot of trouble and you don't wanna get me into trouble do you?"

Jamie shook her head "Of course not but can you do me a favour?"

"Anything"

"Kiss me again" Jamie grinned making that dimpled smile burst out. She loved his smile it made her so happy, it was better knowing that she made it happen. John captured her lips and lay gently on her, badly he wanted to push but he didn't, for one thing she could easily tell her sister and then it would be his funeral they attended next but more importantly it would hurt Jamie and he didn't want that.