Chastity & Virtue; Two words that pained my heart. Of all the things to do, it was summer, it was Monday morning, and of all the things that I should be frustrated about. It was those disdainful words.

Ugh- he simply refused to touch me. We were engage for almost three months, I was now officially seventeen. I was going to turn eighteen next year, and graduate, leave for college and move on with my life.

'Without the experience of losing my virginity' I half cried in my head.

I may be immortal; I may be engage to the most handsomely fine bachelor in Coldwater. But my wedding night wasn't to come for the next century, I think.

Because for all God knows, my fallen of a boyfriend, was afraid to take my virtue away, despite my pleas that I was now an adult. He simply refused me and walked out the door last night.

'some boyfriend you are, Jev…'

He fell because of lust, and now he was fighting lust? What the hell….Jev

' I am being a gentleman, Nora….you will be the death of me, I swear it. But you simply do not know what you are asking for. '

Ahh- the man of my dreams has finally made himself known in my early morning musing.

"you left…." Was all I said to him, not even turning around to see him. As I sat beside my bedroom window, feeling the morning breeze and sunshine.

As gentle tears fell from my eyes; I was being ridiculous. Scandalous even, but I wanted him to know how much I loved him, I did not have the material objects to praise him with, like he does to me. Because he simply has everything, and I had nothing else to offer, but myself and yet, he refuses.

What sane man refuses that kind of offer, from the very one he says he loves, from the very person that he wishes to claim as his wife.

"Angel…" his voice sounded sad, but I did not care. He refuse to marry me by the end of my senior year, he refuses my virginity. I was starting to believe that he did not want me, as much as I wanted him.

Yes, I'd admit that I was being irrational by rushing things.

Even if I had forever with him, I did not wish to be his fiancé forever.

Because I was eager for the taste, eager for that first breath of sin.

I wanted to be his and his alone.

"..leave..please…" it hurt to make him leave, I wanted him to stay, but I was stubborn, and so was he. "…just leave me alone…." As I fought back a sob, gulping it down.

"..angel…..i'm sorry…" I turned to look at him and stood from my post, feeling angered.

He was sorry; his posture said it all, his face that very mask of calm and seriousness. But I could not care any less.

"..you're sorry?.." I yield at him, as I felt more tears came "..for what..Jev? for what exactly are you apologizing for?"

He did not say anything, as I just stared at him, as my heart fluttered in pain.

"…you're sorry…for hurting me Jev? You pushed me away! Telling me it was not worth it..telling me that it wasn't right!...do you know how much- that pained me….?...I AM UNWANTED BY MY OWN FIANCE!..." I was crying now, I could not hold back the tears any longer, collapsing back to the seat by the window.

I did not want to fight with him, I did not have the strength anymore. I was giving up, if he refused me. Then so be it. 'he does not want me then..' because of all what I said, Jev stood silent. Watching me, when I looked at him.

My heart shattered.

As I slipped the heavy weight jewelry I had on my finger for the past three months. I looked at it for awhile.

"..Nora..don't…please don't…" Jev plead, but I did not feel any hint of emotion in his words, it was as if, it was scripted, played by an actor.

I looked up at him, I stood and as I made my way towards him; the most painful three steps of my life.

I stared at the midnight eyes that I love so much. I do love, I still love him, and I could never admit it, even to him; that I was still falling for him.

I held his hand in mine, as I caress his left with my right. I opened his hand, palmed up. As I gently place the ring in his palm. Followed by a few drops of tears, I was giving up.

I was not ready for this type of commitment; young and naïve. In love with the thought of marriage and happily ever after, he was not my prince charming.

He was a fallen, an angel, but he wasn't mine to keep.

Because I knew; that both he and I were not ready for this, that we were just in love with the thought of love.

Love; such a fragile thing it is, delicate as fine glass, shuttered with just a flick of a pebble.

"…Nora…." As I let go of his hand, he fisted it to his sides. I looked up at him, and nothing.

Nothing in this world will ever claim my heart but those dark eyes, but this promise, was not ours to fulfill just yet.

"…I…I don't…think that…I am ready for this Jev…..this is….." looking at his clench fist, I felt more tears sprang free, as I trembled.

Shaking in anguish…..'if I go through with this…he'd leave me..forever…'

" is utterly insane…angel…" I looked at him, his eyes was filled with tenderness, and what I thought would be pain. " but it is true…..you and I…we may not be ready for this, Nora…but is this not what our hearts want? –is this not what your heart wants?..." I did not answer him, because I knew he was right, I wanted him, my heart belonged to him, and giving it up was the most stupid thing I've thought of.

"…..I…." I trailed off in a whisper ' I want to marry you, but what was supposed to be the most grand gift I am giving…you declined….'

Am I being irrational? What I was doing, was it thoughtless? As I looked back at the fist that held my ring.

My ring' yes….i've agreed to be his, we compromise on a marriage that was to be done, when I was ready, when we both were…

I looked up at his longing yes, as my questions were asked. 'do I love him? do I want him forever, even if he hurts me?'

'I forgave him before, of his every wrong..what was so difficult in forgiving him now?'

I looked at him, as my tears dried. I gave him a weak smiled, as I jump up and locked my arms around him. as I answered my question

"I love you….forever.."

" I knew you were being childish….you are, by far..the most stubborn person I've ever met…and yet…I love you still, my sweet angel…" Jev murmured as he kiss atop my head.

"…..i'm sorry…." I whispered

"Nothing to be sorry about, angel..you were mad, I didn't comply to your wishes….which by the way, I still won't.."

I giggled at his reply, but all the while, held him even more tightly, I didn't want to lose him, not ever.

" how bout a deal….?" I thought out loud, there was no way he was going to deny me on a deal. This was Jev for goodness sakes, he betted on everything.

"hmmm….tempting..what'd you have in mind, angel.."

" I marry you by the end of senior year…." I was about to say the deal, but he cut me off.

"..absolutely not….."

"why not?"

" Blythe's going to kill me...and aren't you afraid what they'd think about?"

" nope…because what I was going to say is..we get married then…I wait for our wedding night…"

" DEAL!...by the angels…Yes….God knows how incredibly hard it is to run away from you, angel…"

' did I just hear what I think he said?'

"angel…I am a fallen, I have sinned just like any mortal. I've lied, I've steal, I do not wish to covet…"

"..I beg your pardon? Covet Jev? "

" you are not mine yet angel….your virtue is not mine to keep….besides its bad omen…"

"bad omen? How?"

" Michael…he said about you having a pure heart…..you are a virgin, making you even more pure…and taking that before our bond be blessed by God….That is coveting…because by the laws of heaven, you are not mine yet…sweet angel…"

'he does have a point…'

I just frowned at him, as I pouted. He laugh at me, and that made me even more guilty.

" let's not wait then…if you are as eager as I am…."

" ahhh- I'm afraid you have just stated that this eagerness was one sided, just about an hour ago. What changed?"

" angel, that body of yours is made for sin…..i've been eager since the day I knew I loved you…"

"how?"

He arched an eyebrow " you're sure? No turning back on this, Nora…you will be a part of me…forever.."

"..yes…."

" well then….lets not wait….shall we?"

As he tag me towards the door, down the stairs, out of the house and in the SUV.

"..what are you doing? And where are we going? "

"…it's a secret…after all, the bride and groom is not suppose to see each other before the wedding…but since we're doing this Vegas style…" he grinned at me "…I am keeping it a secret….."

'a secret….Jev and Secrets usually mean dark and mysterious…'

I saw him flip his phone and started texting someone. By the time he ended, and an hour later, he drove us in the middle of nowhere.

" c'mon angel…."

I just started at him and arched a brow; was he serious, there was nothing here but mountains and wheat fields.

But it was beautiful, as the sun shone, and gave the wheat its golden like colors.

" whatever you say…." I muttered as I got out of the car. Jev was by my side within seconds, as he held me by the arm.

He led me at the top of the hill, under the shade of the tree.

" about time you two came….I have business to attend to.." a gentle velvet voice said

As I turned around I saw a man with golden eyes as his hair shone like his eyes.

He was grinning at us; he was familiar. I just did not seem to remember very well.

" forgotten me already I see.." was all he said as he chuckled and approach us

" hello there, young one…I am Michael…"

I felt my eyes bulge and my jaw drop. Of course; the golden boy, my dreams….

That voice, I know that voice…the night I dreamt feathers and that baby.

" you…you're the one who….."

He held a finger to his lips as his eyes twinkled in mirth

"that'll our secret, young one…let's not have Jev hear go into a mysterious heart attack shall we?"

I just stared at him, 'it can't be…' as I felt my body stiffen, my mind reversing its decisions.

'maybe a century from now won't be too bad..'

"shall we get started….?" Michael ask

" yes please do so, my dear brother…it seems my girl here could not wait any longer…."

Jev chuckled

But I did not even react to his words, I just stared at Michael and wondered in my head.

" Nora?...you alright angel?"

"huh?- uhh….yeah…yeah…." I nodded absent mindedly

"alright then…" Michael said, as he held out a quill made of gold, and a large brown book, that lay afloat in front of him.

" sign here, Jev…" As Michael gave the quill to Jev and pointed a part of the book.

Jev moved forward, as his other hand squeeze mine tightly.

When it was my turn, I didn't even look at what it said, I just signed it before I could chicken out.

"alright…." As Michael then flick his wrist and the book disappeared. He then gave the quill to Jev.

" you know what to do, Jev…" grinning wildly

Jev took my left hand as he drew something at the inside of my wrist. It was a symbol, of a weird A like drawing.

"these our runes…of love…"

I just blinked at him, as I watch him finish the drawing.

He then gave me the quill and lifted his wrist to me.

" just like yours angel..do one on me…"

I was never that good at drawings, but I tried my best on it, as my hand trembled slightly, and before I knew it. I was done.

" and I pronounce you husband and wife…you may kiss your bride…my dear brother…" was all Michael said, before shimmering out of existence.

" what?..." I was in shock, was that it? I didn't even paid much attention to it.

" he'll be back…." Was all Jev said, as he turned me to look at him, and kissed me senseless; as I felt my body radiate with heat.

The most pleasurable heat that I've ever felt, and I didn't want it to end. As I cling on him, pulling him towards me, wanting more and more.

' you do realize we have to tell mom..' was all I thought, as I felt him smile in our kiss, he just murmured "she can wait…for the real one in her eyes….." As his lips met mine again.