Approval

Freddie's P.O.V

It got late fast but I didn't feel like going home after our pillow fight we lay there staring at the computer. Sam seemed quieter then normal just laying there Carly kept trying to get her to talk but she just wouldn't open up. Which was unusual she was always willing to talk to Carly. They just had this connection.

So I did what I always do I started a fight with her which worked like a charm within minutes we were wrestling and trading insults.

Rainbow Freak

Nub

Come on be original nub is older then my grandma

Guys stop Spencer is going to wake up and kick you out Freddie and Sam you still need to do your homework.

Yuck I have a headache don't make me sicker

Sam please

Carly stop nagging your not my mom

Well someone has to be yours sucks

Come on lie down

I'll get you some aspirin and some soup

Thanks Momma does love her soup and pain pills

Carly sighed getting up and going downstairs Sam settled deeper into the sheets shivering in a display of rare affections. I pulled one of Carly's big throw blankets over her. She glared at me as if she was trying to see if I had other motives but when she saw me shrug she smiled and cuddled closer.

I felt her breathing start to ease as I massaged her shoulders why was she so tense? Since when did Sam care so much about people she didn't know?

Sam do you wanna talk about the blog?

No drop it Benson

Sam something is bothering you what is it?

Nothing Benson

Stop lying Sam I know you and I know that this kid effected you somehow what is it?

Freddie just stop please

Sam when you tell me what is wrong

Freddie nothing please just drop it I have a headache I'm going to bed

Sam stop denying there's a problem and talk to us

No leave me alone you wouldn't understand

Why? What wouldn't I understand?

Sam was on her feet glaring at me seething fists clenched I was pissing her off big time and as much as I currently feared for my life which was in danger by the death glares I was receiving. I needed her to spill what was wrong I was starting to get really worried about her.

Nothing it was before your time just leave it alone

Sam what are you talking about?

Come on Sam were friends right? You can trust me

She glared at me but I could see her start to weaver her shoulders slumped down and her fists opened and closed and opened.

Freddie it's time to go it's late and we need to get to sleep

Carly stood in the doorway looking pissed as she held a tray with soup crackers water and pills on it.

Carly I'm sorry but we..

I asked you to leave her alone Freddie she'll talk when she's ready just leave her alone

Sam was shaking as she looked at Carly then attacked the tray oh man Carly was pissed at me now she motioned for me to follow her into the hall.

Carly I'm sorry I just look I worry about Sam to it was really strange what she did this afternoon

I mean she's Sam she's rude she's abrasive and she's loud she doesn't cry over some kid's blog or go and change her hair into some freak show just because some kids who she don't know say chiz about her.

Freddie Sam's going through a really hard time right now just let her go I can take care of her she'll be fine.

Carly I really think..

I think you should go Freddie it's late your mom will be back soon and she'll be pissed if she finds you not home. If Sam wants to talk she can talk to me we share things ..things you can't understand..

Carly please don't be..

Freddie please go …

Sighing I leaned in for a kiss but she pushed away turning to go back into her room my heart broke did I just lose the girl I loved more then anything?

She closed the door which echoed in my mind shuffling back to my apartment I shock my head was I stupid and overreacting?

Sleep came hard what would I do without Carly? She was the love of my life, my very heart and soul.

Morning came too bright and too early even after a long shower I was still barely awake. What was I going to wear?

Morning Fredward honey I have your outfit all ready

Oh uh mom how thoughtful really

The outfit she held up was so brown and tacky it made me sick .

Really mom it's uh great but I already had a outfit picked out

What could be more perfect then this? This was the same outfit you wore as a baby when I brought you home just in bigger sizes since my wittle baby boy is all grown up now...

She had to pinch my checks didn't she?

Now I had to find a outfit and fast what was I going to do?

Well lets see it Freddie

Quickly I ran to my closet and pulled out the first shirt I could find ..

Freddie what are you wearing oh my god do not...

Mom was flipping out as I ran out escaping into Carly's apartment everyone looked up as I entered already exhausted. Sam who was stuffing food in her mouth as I came inside. The look on her face was priceless as she saw me, Carly's eyes went wide and Spencer busted out laughing.

Carly came over laughing as she ran a hand through my hair fixing it just the feel of her touch made me

Relax as I gently grabbed her and held her close. She smelled amazing and looked gorgeous in a cute red top that came to her waist it was held tight by a black and sliver metal shiny belt and black and red

skinny jeans her hair was in a half messy bun with a baret in the middle of her bun. Black ankle boots with red shoelaces she looked well hot..t!

Sam had a flannel shirt on which was black and had a rainbow on it with the letters 2QT2BSTR8 then she had on a black vest which was leather black skinnies which were tie-dyed with so many splotches of colors she had her hair up like Carly but it was tied with a bandana of purple and white.

They were expressing themselves in their own ways and I thought they looked absolutely amazing ..

Freddie what are you wearing?

My mom tried to dress me again...

Aw wittle baby needs mommy to dress him?

No!

Well I think it would have been a better choice hun..

Carly hugged me which I sank into I knew she couldn't stay mad at me. Risking the possibility of ruining it all I leaned in quickly sealing my lips over hers.

Spencer cleared his throat causing her to back away.

So uh Freddie how does your mom like your choice?

I don't need her or anyone's approval to dress how I want..

So this is what you want?

Carly fingered my shirt as I saw myself in the mirror and felt myself pale. No wonder why they were staring. I was wearing the shirt Sam had gotten me as a birthday present this year it was white and had a Rino on it with my head for it's face. She had the words " Face it Fredino your the butt of every joke"

Blue jeans completed the assemble I groaned ..

Wanna borrow one of my shirts?

Sam arched a eyebrow she was testing me .. after the hard time I gave her yesterday she was just waiting to attack me.

No Spencer I'm fine

Sam snickered as Carly shock her head grabbing her bag.

Lets go guys we need to get to school

Gre...a..t.. Sam moaned Carly laughed wrapping her arm over Sam's shoulders .

I was already dreading this and I was right to do so as soon as we walked inside the kids started to snicker and whisper. Carly wrapped her free arm around my arm ..my face was heated up as I heard whispers of..

Look at the iCarly freak

Idiot

Screwball

Ugly

What a loser they think their so cool cuz their on a web show

What a start to a year this was going to beI just wanted to get through this year get good grades and get into a college that would help me further my education. I wanted to get into TV production and web design. Why did my mom have to be on my butt this morning? I could have had a great outfit and been accepted by the kids now I was the laughing stock of the whole school. All I wanted was to be able to go to the dances and hang out with my gorgeous girlfriend who I loved more then life itself.

Carly rolled her eyes as she whispered to me to just ignore them …which was harder to do then say. I avoided looking up as I felt Carly loop her arm around my left arm Sam was grabbing books from her and Carly's lockers as Carly wrapped her other arm around my neck pulling me close damn she was gorgeous and she smelled amazing, her smile made me melt as she leaned closer and kissed me fully on the lips. Her lips tasted like strawberries and cream my whole body was aroused as I pushed her against the locker , Sam groaned ..

Get a room hormones

Go away Puckett

She moaned as she went down to the gym.

Sam's P.O.V

The bathroom in the locker room was was empty as I came inside I was livid all I could see were the questions and and pain in Freddie's eyes as he stared at me. Why did I have to be the freak show? My chest was on fire as .I coughed and tried not to gag, my face was blazing my head was swimming . I went to wash my face … why was my life so hard? Why did I have to run ahead to the locker rooms to change ?

Look who it is girls the school Lesbo is here

Watch your self ladies she'll try to cop a peak at you she's sick

Like any of them would catch my eyes?

Cover yourself Kristen she likes big breasts

I heard she's just waiting to get a hold of you

Shut up Krystal I'm not a dirty freak

Hey Puckett did you forget something?

I looked up just as I slide my underwear off feeling myself burn up they were surrounding me I swallowed feeling nervous ..

Lesbo over here Vagitarian.

Before I could even turn around I felt myself fly through the air my head smacked against the locker gasping. I tried to get up but my body was on fire before I could respond Jocelyn was on top of me.

That's right Butch I'm back and I am pissed your going to pay for beating me up

She smashed her fist into my face she pushed my face down into the concrete floor kicking me her friends helped her hold me down someone slapped my butt which was bare they were laughing.

Get this on video Ashley look she's getting turned on sick dyke slap her a...

You like it Puckett you know you do..

Jocelyn coach will be coming …

Don't worry Ash were almost done we just have to wash this dirty Lessbo off

I screamed as I was picked up my feet kicked but all I got was air Jocelyn was so much stronger then me she carried me her arm pressed into my stomach making me sick. The kids were laughing as she carried me into the shower and threw me down I hit the tiles so hard I started to black out suddenly they were kicking me in my ribs and my head my face.

Turn it on Melissa lets wash the gay right out of this rainbow freakoid

I screamed as they turned on the scolding hot water holding me down.

What's Going on in here?

I Gasped as I saw our gym teacher Lindsay Sanders come inside as Jocelyn sat on my face I gasped not being able to breathe as I felt myself starting to get dizzy .

Nothing Coach Sanders Nothing at all Were just teaching Sami here a little lesson

She had to see through them didn't she? They were holding me down for god sakes but she looked right through them.

Fine just clean up the trash and get out to class

Yes Ma'am...

I tried to scream but I couldn't …

Ya heard Coach Girls Clean the trash up..

They laughed..

I could barely stand or see straight I was so mad as I stood outside the shower they were all laughing standing there recording it …

Forget Something queer girl

Ashley stood there by Jocelyn waving my clothes swallowing I tried to run but Melissa blocked me shoving me back.

Say your sorry Puckett say it Say I'm sorry for being such a reject I'm sorry for being such a..

Freak come on say it so we can all hear you I'm sorry please forgive me I don't mean to be so dirty

I'm straight now say it Samantha say your not a dirty wh..e anymore that we can all breathe better now

Nah man Ash the stank in here is still too strong

Ah man Jocelyn she still doesn't get your approval?

No man we need to do more she still reeks of gay..

It was useless to fight them off as they grabbed me shoving me into one of the stalls. I saw every single kid just standing there some whispering some pointing others shouting for them to kill me. Jocelyn grabbed my hair shoving my head into the toilet as Ashley flushed it.

I kicked her grabbing her hair she screamed as I manged to get out of her hold grabbing her leg and pull her down gasping as I tried to get up my lungs burned.

Freddie's P.O.V

I watched Carly turn her attention from me as Sam came into view she was still damp from her shower Carly ran to hug her but Sam shoved her away she looked pissed at something her face was red even her eyes looked red rimmed.

What's wrong baby?

Nothing Carl's nothing at all

She slammed her books into her locker dodging Carly's attempt to kiss her check.

Loser...

Someone coughed sighing I rolled my eyes ..

What a trio ..

Gay Boy Rainbow c..t and Miss Prissy..

Carly rolled her eyes as I turned to kiss her all I wanted was to go home.

Oh Chiz she just punched him!

I looked up to see Sam had just punched the leader of the kids and all the kids were gasping and talking as Sam stared him down.

Shut-up you stupid jerk no one says chiz about my friends

Freddie doesn't take himself too seriously he isn't afraid to poke fun of himself

Unlike you freaks he knows what it means to be real

Look the freakiest freak of all is defending him

Figures the dyke defends the geek

Sam stop!

Before we could stop her she was punching him and shoving him against the locker kids started shoving to get into the action. Carly screamed as we saw one big football player charge Sam and slam her into a locker she fell in a heap as other kids started to kick her and spit at her.

Get the dyke

Beat her I wanna see her bleed

Sam no! Sam someone help her!

Carly was crying hysterically as the kids all tried to get a shot in no one expected what happened next.

In a flash I had the biggest football player trapped under my foot as I went to town punching him. I heard his bones crack as I slammed my foot into his hand crushing it under my foot suddenly the teachers were out in full force. I was pulled back as the football coach freaked out that his star player was bleeding from his nose and mouth.

Get that delinquent to the principal's office now I wanted him punished!

Serves you right Henderson you think your a man for beating up on a girl?

All I could think about was why was he smirking? He was probably going to be suspended and then he wouldn't be able to play in Friday's game. Didn't he get how serious this was?

Sam was only getting up with help from Carly she was bleeding from her nose and mouth the side of her head and she was holding her side. She had a confused look on her face as she looked at me. Carly whispered to her she nodded and looked at me worried. Why was she worried about me? She was the one who got her butt kicked all I did was punch the star of the football team and possibly break his hand.

Oh yea that was why she was looking at me cause. I just beat the chiz out of Tommy Henderson every girls dream the star of the school. Chiz..I was going to pay dearly for this wasn't I?

At least he would get what was coming to him.

Henderson get to the nurse see if she can get ice on that hand till we can get a x-ray Benson office now!

Me?

Why me he was beating a girl!

What girl? There was no one but you and him! I didn't see anyone else did you?

Coach Johnson had a very challenging mean look on his face as he looked around Carly was shaking from anger but no one else spoke up expect Wendy and Brad .

Sam he beat up Sam!

Who?

Oh that dyke well I see no one backing you up Benson so it looks to me that your lying Puckett prob got too frisky at one of those sick clubs last night and now she's looking to blame a innocent kid for her disease,

Shape up Puckett this worlds tough especially for freaks like you Benson office now!

Everyone else get to class now!

Coach Johnson roughly grabbed my arm as kids snickered Sam's eyes were filled with so much anger as she was burning holes through the back of his head . She kept trying to say she was sorry to me but she couldn't talk . Why was she sorry? As hard as I was shaking inside I had to be strong Carly was crying openly as she held Sam up. Wendy was by her in a second to keep her from collapsing. Brad looked so pissed that he had to walk away I heard him slamming things on his way out.

Coach Johnson yanked me away as Carly lead Sam to the Rn's office.

I was shaking and yes I was scared I knew what happened to kids who got into fights on school property I mean I had seen Sam suspended plenty of times to know.

Principal Franklin came in shaking his head as Coach Johnson was ranting and raving about what a poor innocent victim Tommy was and how his entire future was in jeopardy because I had gone off and attacked him unprovoked . I couldn't even get a word in otherwise. Worse yet the police were called. Yes seeing them standing there with their handcuffs made me want to wet myself.

I was getting a headache as he kept yelling demanding I be arrested and thrown in Juvie . After what seemed like hours Principal Franklin asked him to leave and I finally got to tell my side.

Rubbing my head all I could think about was Sam was she okay? What had happened? Why wasn't anyone telling me anything?

Freddie I believe you I think every word you said was true but unfortunately there's no witness to back you up that aren't your friends.

I have to go by what the coach said even if I think it's B.S

But that's not fair!

No it's not Freddie quite frankly it sucks

What about the camera's?

Will go over them and see what we can use but with the crowd I wouldn't be shocked if the picture was too blurry to see clearly for now I'm afraid I have to suspend you..

Ted don't he didn't do anything wrong..

Sam came in looking pretty rough her face was bloody and bruised she was holding her side which was wrapped in white bandages and her head was wrapped as well.

I started the fight when Tommy was making comments I swung first Freddie was defending me if someone has to be punished it's me not Frednub.

Sam don't..

Shut-it nub

Well it's very noble Sam and yes I am afraid you will be suspended as well both of you will be..effective as of right now I won't press charges cause I believe you but I have to take action. I am sorry and I will look into this.

I was speechless Sam was pissed we didn't talk as we waited for my mom and Spencer to come. I watched her and I saw another emotion in her eyes pain..pure and undeniable pain. All she wanted was

To be accepted the same as any kid she wanted love and approval and what did she get? Hate and ignorance all because she chose to stand up for what she believed in all because she chose to be true to herself and not live a lie hiding in a closet.

We were different and we were being punished for it by the very people who were suppose to protect us.

What was wrong with this picture? I had a lot I had to figure out this year it was going to be a very eventful one I could see it already ..one why was Sam being so secretive? What were her and Carly keeping from me? They seemed so close more then most girlfriends I was starting to wonder. Was there something going on there?

I mean they had always been best friends Carly and Sam..Sam and Carly ..I even had a special name for them ..I called them Cam ..

Was there something they didn't want me to know? Well I was going to find out. With or without their Approval one way or another their secret would be mine to.

Carly's P.O.V

I was shaking and crying but not for just watching what happened to Sam my best friend but for why it happened ..and for the fear...as much as I hated living with this awful secret how could I possibly come out? How could I handle that kind of harassment everyday? I felt sick I just wanted to make my parents proud I just wanted to be happy to have their love and approval. How could I do this?