Freddie's P.O.V

Wish

A/N Still Not Owning Nothing...

It was just last year that we had been dating. It's funny they say if you wish upon a fallen star your wish may be granted .Well I have wished on many stars that Sam would change and be less painful less violent and less rude. I never really expected that wish to be granted I mean face it Leopards can't shed their spots rivers can't stop their currents and waterfalls can't stop falling.

My wish however came true. After she kissed me at the lock down something inside of me softened towards her. I think it was the look in her eyes the way that she held onto me and grabbed me ..I can still recall it like it was yesterday how chilly the wind was how haunted her eyes were sad. I was so damn sure she was in love with Brad and Carly kept trying to tell me to drop it but I was just so sure I had to be right. I was a hopeless romantic, I was so in love with Carly and all I ever did every night was wish she would someday be mine. That didn't seem likely to happen but when my pear pad said Sam was in love, I just assumed it was with Brad. I fought with Carly over it and she got pissed so I had to confront Sam. She was sitting on the steps looking exhausted and ready to cry. She toughened up when she saw me I can still recall what we said. She was groaning when she saw me coming.

HHH Ugghh!

Groan all you want

I said impatiently yea I still had a ways to go before I would ever be fully patient with Sam.

I don't care what your stupid pear-pad app says about me being in love, I'm not into Brad like that.

She could be so frustrating dang just admit your in love already. I remember thinking Gibby and I had a $100 on this.

Lately every time I tell you that Brad and I are doing something together you wanna come hang with us.

She looked at me like really that 's the best you have rolling her eyes. I heard her sigh finding myself noticing how dry her lips looked her lower one was cracked from biting it.

And that means I'm in love with him?

I threw my hands up whirling around to stare at her like she was insane what else could it mean right?

Well you hate me!

She was mumbling

Never said I hate you

I rolled my eyes as I replied looking at her.

Yeah, you have. Like 900 times. I still have the birthday card you gave me that says "Happy Birthday, I hate you. Hate, Sam!"

Pleadingly she threw down her bottle getting agitated.

Just leeaave!

I was starting to think it was a bad idea maybe I should of heard Carly out for what ever reason Sam wasn't ready to deal with her feelings yet whatever they were or for who ever they were for.

Fine I'll leeaave

Sam sighed in relief as she happily called out sarcastically.

Bye!

I wasn't going to make things that easy no not for her.

But before I go-

Sam gets up and charges over pissed oh man maybe I had pushed her too far after all Carly help!

That's it. Get out of here before I do a double fist dance on your face.

I would not back down she would not see my fear. I would not piss myself from the mass amount of fear I was feeling. I was not moving mainly cause I couldn't fear had me gripped. Not that I would ever show her that, I was a man well almost right.

You can threaten your double fist face dancing all you want, but Carly's still right.

Look, I know it's scary for you to put your feelings out there cause' you never know if the person you like is gonna like you back.

Everyone feels that way but you never know what might happen if you don't-

Suddenly before I could even finish Sam grabs me and kisses me and I'm not talking our first kiss which was quick and awkward. I mean a real full lips punching lips mouth fully open as she takes my air away kiss.

Out the window Carly is watching with a shocked expression on her face which I find out later as she laying into me for playing with Sam's emotions yea somehow this is all my fault. She later told me my eyes were open with shock.

After eleven seconds Sam pulls away and it gets awkward

I tried to say something but I was to shocked to so I just make a noise

Sam looks panicked all of a sudden as she shoves her hands in her pockets and looks down face red.

Sorry

Long moment of awkward silence as I was trying to proses what had just happened . I follow her lead shoving my hands in my pocket as I turn away.

It's cool

It wasn't though she went a little crazy and checked herself into a woman's health center . I had never seen her so broken like that so lost. Carly sat with her for hours talking to her. I wasn't included in those conversations but I wanted to be cause no matter how hard I tried to not care. I did deeply and I was even starting to think I was fallen in love with her.

When she got out I swore I would be there for her and I would protect her. My wish every night was that Sam would see how special she was and how amazing, I wished upon every star to be able to be the one to help her see that.

She was different when we dated she was quiet and reserved she asked my opinions and listened when I talked. She was always asking if I needed help. She held my hand in public,Shared food with me we had real conversations.

She trusted me she opened up to me she gave me her heart which when you really explore it you discover there's a lot more to her then what meets the eye .

She's funny. I mean really funny quick witted and she's genius smart she just doesn't apply it 99.9 % of the time. She can do some of our homework quicker then Carly and I combined she just chooses not to.

She's stubborn and she inserts that. She's tough cause she has had to be she's endured so much pain and sadness she's been abandoned by her dad who chose drugs and money claiming the love of his gang he chose sex with various women over his own kids he would bring all kinds of random girls home some as young as 14 just so he could parade them in front of Pam. Sam's mom which always started fights. Sam would hear them late at night as they screamed and cussed throwing things she would see her dad beating up on her mom as her mom tried to stop him. Sam would scream and try to help her mom and he would turn on her , Mel was always crying and Sam had to protect her she was so young only 3 or 4 . Her mom drank more and more every day she started bringing home random guys. She was always having sex even with Sam in the other room. Sam learned to create a imaginary world in her mind to escape she latched onto music she used it as fuel to someday get out of that house. Music was the one thing she really went all out for but she was super secretive about it Carly of course knew all her songs and the meanings behind them. I was always excluded until we started dating and she started trusting me slowly she opened up to me and I saw just how talented she was.

She had to hear her whole life how she was never going to be good enough the way Mel was she was never going to be pretty enough smart enough, she was hopeless and useless and her mom hated her that's what she told her every day of Sam's life.

She watched while her dad shot a rival gang member who broke into their home while the kids were asleep well were suppose to be Sam couldn't sleep. She saw her dad shoot the unarmed kid he was 16

This was his Initiation he was shot dead she watched while her dad called his fellow members and they disposed of the body.

Sam watched while the police raided the house in the middle of the night trashed it and beat her mom and dad. They came in with guns drawing shields up bullets flying she had to protect Mel. They threatened her and Mel. She learned early on to keep secrets to yourself.

From that day on her mom did nothing but drink and beat Sam. Mel got away she got to go to a fancy boarding school but Sam she was stuck in the moment stuck in hell. That's why she spent so many nights at Carly's apartment. Carly never did much asking she just seemed to know when Sam needed an escape. She always provided it without asking her to spill the details which Sam never wanted to talk about.

Sam has the biggest heart she loves with all of it without asking questions without judgment but you have to earn that right from her she doesn't trust easy. When she gets a broken heart it devastates her.

She's learned to cover up her feelings and put on a smile she had to protect herself.

It took awhile to get her to trust me but she did and I was rewarded with sweet kisses and plenty of hugs. I got to hear her giggle and laugh she taught me to take chances and go after what I really wanted she taught me love is about trusting you won't get hurt and trusting yourself to know if you do that you can be okay she taught me love is about asking about the other person's likes and dislikes … Well okay Carly really was all over that but Sam she was willing to do it so we did and we learned a lot.

She taught me about living in the moment ..

Perfect example last Christmas the six of us myself Sam , Carly Wendy , Gibby ,Spencer all went to watch the Christmas parade which Sam made us late for , so Carly just shrugged it off hugging Sam [who never did apologize all cause she wanted extra bacon].

Carly was happy just watching in the streets even though she couldn't see with the mass of people. She just danced to the music, Gibby was all over the place searching for Tasha ,Spencer was hiding from Santa who he was convinced was really his ex-girlfriend who was out to get him. Wendy had a broken ankle so she was flirting with a cute teenage elf trying for sympathy.

That left Sam and I and Sam wanted to see up close and personal so of course I got dragged along. Even as I was screaming that I didn't want to end up in Juvie she just kept telling me to be prepared to man up as she found the biggest float and got us on . The damn thing was moving it had dancing elves a Elvis style Santa with a sax, singing reindeer's. She looked gorgeous that day I remember that she was peaceful as we settled behind Santa's chair to watch the show I held onto the chair trapping her in my arms so we wouldn't fall off.

Slowly my fears melted away as we got into the music I watched her she was loving it so I just held her kissing her head and her face which relaxed her more as we wrapped ourselves up in each other our cold became a thing of the past.

Sam was having a blast throwing salt down on the ice where the dancing elves were shaking their butts on skates. Then she was throwing out fire crackers it was a riot watching everyone jump scream squeal and try to cover up their vocals.

I almost didn't notice her taking my hand placing it over her stomach which sent shivers down my whole body then I looked into her eyes. I saw them glimmering without me moving my hand she glided it over her stomach and over her whole body which made me gasp she felt rock hard and soft she felt amazing when my still somewhat cold hands were met with her wet warm stickiness from down below, I swear I almost came right there.

As hark the herald angles sing was being preformed she turned to me lifting both my hands to her hips our eyes locked I swear I could see her love shining through her eyes.

Slowly at first but with more passion then I ever thought she could have she placed her hands over mine and lifted her own shirt off. My eyes scanned over her amazing breasts hiding behind her hot pink and green bra.

Kissing her was almost like a magic spell she went from a rough tough tomboy who loved making people the butt of her jokes to being a sweet fruit who was ready to be pealed. Pulling me down sliding her hands under my sweater I felt my nipples harden. The sweater came off as her tongue played with my nipples.

I am your typical teenage boy I love girls I was in love with exploring their bodies and knowing how to please them. Unlike most however I was raised to respect them and to wait till the time was right I wanted to be in love and to be with someone I could trust before I well you know.

Sam was guiding me as we undressed each other she let me feel every part of her kissing her deeply. I was excited and scared chizless at the same time. I didn't want to mess up or hurt her or do something stupid. My heart was pounding and I was sweating , I was anxious yet I could feel her having a effect on me. I was tight down there my nipples were harder and my mouth was dry. Then there was the fact we were on a float were a million plus people could see us if something went wrong.

Sam was not afraid she was kissing me warming me up whispering to me guiding me inside of her where. I could feel her tightness and her warm wetness , her breasts were pressed firmly against my nipples as I heard her gasp. I felt myself enter her tearing her she cried out as she lowered herself down on me holding me. I clumsy wrapped my arms around her pulling her close wanting her to feel safe. I was trembling as I gasped out starting to move in and out of faster and easier as she loosened up.

She seemed to know what I needed as she rocked her hips our breathing was labored my trembling got worse as her hips rocked harder and her moans started which turned me on so bad I couldn't help but pull out and shove inside of her harder.

Even simple words or phrases had a intense effect on me..

oh god o-h-u-h-a-h your doing gre..a..a..t..u..h..

I was getting so hard I thought I would explode as I grabbed her finding my own stride as I started to gasp and groan. She was warm and sweet wet and I was riding her so hard I am shocked even now no one on the float felt it.

I ran my hands through her hair over her face kissing her when she was exhausted she fell on top of me breathing so hard I was scared she had hurt herself.

I felt lucky though and I wanted her to know it so I kissed her .

You okay babe?

She coughed I rubbed her back laying with her to comfort her. I had heard somewhere girls liked that kind of thing. She closed her eyes I whispered to her hoping to soothe her.

You okay Sam?

She didn't answer which worried me I felt her swallow I kept talking to her.

Babe I hope I wasn't to hard on you I'm sorry I'm new to this ..it's...

Well don't laugh but it's my first time and I really wasn't prepared chiz Sam we didn't..oh..god..we didn't use..

Oh god my mom will kill me!

Relax Fredward you were great

So what's wrong? Sam?

Nothing uh we need to go before someone catches us..

I tried to stop her but I was still slightly shaking and she was fast she made no haste in dressing and getting off the float while I was still trying to find my clothes she was halfway down the street shoving people . Damn her I muttered to myself ..

You what are you doing?

Huh? Oh no uh this isn't I mean..

Ah sick freak alert help!

Oh no lady I mean ...you..don't..no!

Too late the lady was already swinging Santa's bag at me as two cops hurried over I hadn't even pulled my pants up yet my hand was over my lower half as I tried to run to no avail.

I can't believe you ended up in Juvie! Fredward what the heck is wrong with you !

Uh Mom I said I was sorry relax

No freddie I won't relax you ended up in Juvie on Christmas Day if your uncle Kelvin didn't work for King County you would still be there...You realize you could be charged with a …

AH! Get out of my lobby! I hate you people with your smiles and good cheer ba-hum-bug! Get out! AH!

Suddenly Lewbert charged at us I ducked under his arm as he swung a jumbo turkey leg in our direction just making it up the steps as Mom started talking about germs from uncooked meat.

By the time I made it into the Shay's apartment Spencer was watching Celebrities Underwaterwith a huge bowl of popcorn.

I was wondering what happened to you Sam came back hours ago what did you do to her?

Huh? Why am I always to blame?

She was really upset all she kept saying was Freddie..

Where is she?

You look nervous Freddie my man what's going on?

Nothing

Spencer squinted I shifted feet looking down I wondered was it possible for the floor to open up? Swallow me whole? I wish it was ..

Freddie get back to your room now you are so grounded till ..

Mom please...

No please Fredward I do not appreciate being hauled down to the police station..

Police!

Yes Spencer Freddie was arrested and I know that little Taco wielding sister of yours had something to do with it..

Mom stop Carly had nothing to do with it!

Well will see about that you would lie in church to cover for that hussy..

She's not a hussy mom!

Yea watch your lip that's my little sister your talking about!

Well maybe if she had parents around she wouldn't be such a trouble maker

Carly is not a ..

Hush Freddie you did enough tonight!

Mom...

Carly Shay get your...

She barged into Carly's room stopping dead my mouth dropped open Sam was in Carly's arms completely wrapped up bawling her eyes out. She cussed when she saw us come in Carly scooped her up and tried to cover her with a blanket. Her eyes wide ..

Get out …

Her tone was harsh and demanding her eyes cold ..

You are the most rude self absorbed brat I have ever met you do not talk to adults that way

When they barge into my room unannounced uninvited screaming. I will talk to anyone any way I want and I want you to get out! NOW!

Your done Freddie you will never see her again she's a hussy and I know you did it with her it's inexcusable Fredward you were taught better then that! She is a witch she did something to you I know that Carly forced you to do this ...You are a …

Shut up Lady Carly didn't do anything stop pointing your finger calling her names you know nothing!

Samantha you stay out of this...this is between me and this hussy ..

I will do whatever with whoever I want lady and you will not come into my room calling me names whatever happened Freddie was very much apart of it as well..he's not innocent in this..

Wait that means...

Spencer twisted around looking at all of us his eyes landed on me and Carly then Sam who was pale and shaking but holding onto Carly very tightly.

Wait you two ..Freddie you and ..Car..My sis..

Carly lowered her eyes her confidence suddenly started to waiver. I saw her swallow as Sam looked at her. She hated Carly lying for her but Carly hushed her kissing her forehead.

Sam you need to ..Melissa I need to talk to Carly ..

Too late for that Spencer you should have had that talk with her years ago..

OUT!

Freddie not you …

Crap I thought as my mom spun and stormed out there was a tension in my head as I sighed it was pounding.

Carly I don't even know where to begin ..Your 16 for god sakes why the heck are you even thinking about sex!

I trusted you Carly I...your so grounded..your going to the doctors and I'm calling dad...

No Spencer please you don't ..

You had sex with him Carly you could get pregnant or god knows what std ..unless Melissa is just assuming that there was sex is she wrong?

I couldn't speak I was ready to drop Sam lowered her eyes as Carly shock her head no her lips trembled but she wouldn't rat Sam out.

No Spencer she wasn't wrong...I wish she was but she wasn't...