Letting Go
Chapter 24
"Hey Jason, it's me again, I tried the restaurant and the house and no luck. I mean not that I can blame you the way I ran out the other night, it was just a lot to take in. I never meant to hurt you Jase; I need you to know that. Anyway I just wanted to let you know that I am going out of town for a little while; my father had another wacky plan, so we are on our way to Florida driving in a motorhome." Sam rambled into the phone as she sat on the bed, "I didn't want you to panic when you found out I wasn't in town, I am not running away Jase, not this time. I know this is something I shouldn't be saying on the phone and that it is the easy way out, but I need you to know that. I am going to go, because Matt is allowing Maxie to drive, so I hope to hear from you but only if you want to." Sam finished before she hung up.
"You okay?" Robin asked as she joined Sam on the bed.
"I am and I think this trip is going to help, give me some space to clear my head and figure things out." Sam replied as the motorhome came to a sudden stop which caused the woman to slide off the bed.
"That idiot, did he not see that I had my blinker on? That means I am trying to merge into that lane." Maxie screamed as she honked the horn and then yelled out the window.
"You are not in a smart car Maxie; you are in a MOTOR HOME!" Patrick yelled as he held onto the armrests, "Why did you let her drive?" He asked as he turned towards his brother who sat behind him.
"I was hungry." Matt said innocently as he held up his sandwich, "Which Sam was nice enough to make for me, unlike other people in this family who only care about themselves." Matt added as he glared at Maxie who was watching him through the mirror. This caused Maxie to swerve into the other lane.
"Not smart to aggravate the one driving the large vehicle." Patrick advised as he made sure his seat belt was secure.
"What the heck is going on back there?" A voice spoke up from the walkie talkie that rested on the dashboard.
"Daddy, the boys are picking on me." Maxie cried into the phone as she grabbed the walkie talkie in one hand.
"Both hands on the wheel!" Both the men called as Robin and Sam came out of the bedroom.
"Whose idea was it to let Maxie drive?" Mac's voice crackled.
"Matt wanted to take a snack break." Maxie answered with a smile.
"Patrick, get behind the wheel. Maxie you are not forbidden to drive for the rest of the trip and if there is any damage on these vehicles you lot are going to be paying for it." Mac ordered.
"He can't even see us and is giving us orders." Matt mumbled as he leaned back into his seat as Maxie pulled over so they could switch drivers.
"I think we picked the wrong bus." Robin whispered to her sister as they both turned to go back to the bedroom and watch a movie with Lila.
Three days later the Scorpio-Drakes found themselves outside a rest stop in South Carolina. "Who thought this was a good idea?" Maxie asked as she sat on the bench, "I mean I am all for a trip to Disney, but this is ridiculous Dad has us stopping at all these crazy places, I mean the world's largest ball of yarn." Maxie added as Sam came over caring Lila who was eating an ice pop.
"Now you can die happy." Sam said in a sarcastic tone.
"Oh is baby making Mommy hungry." Robin laughed as she rubbed Sam's little bump.
"No, Mommy is just tired of being dragged along the east coast on a bus that smells like feet." Sam replied as she set Lila on the bench.
"Join the club, I cannot stand one more rest stop, you are just lucky Dad didn't insist on showing you how to empty the fickle matter from the motorhome." Maxie agreed with a frown.
"Williamsburg was nice though." Robin commented as she watched Kristina on the phone as she paced back and forth.
"She has not put that phone down for the whole trip." Maxie stated as she followed Robin's gaze, "She is up to something."
"Sam has also not been off the phone either." Robin added with a smile as she looked at her older sister.
"Who is she talking to?" Sam asked as they watched.
"Ethan." A little voice answered bringing their attention down to the smiling little girl.
"Really and what is she planning?" Maxie asked as she looked at her niece.
"She wants him to meet us in Disney; she doesn't know I have already arranged that." Another voice answered causing the three to turn.
"Mom." The all said at the same time.
"When are you all going to learn I know everything that goes on in my family." Alexis said with a smirk, "Sam you and Lila go back motorhome and rest." Alexis started, "And you two can go fetch the boys, we need to get on the road." Alexis finished as the blonde started to laugh.
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Sam carefully sat up on the bed once she was sure Lila was asleep, she leaned over to the night table and grabbed her cellphone and quickly dialed the number.
"Morgan." The voice answered.
"Work mode, is everything okay?" Sam asked as she heard the tiredness in his voice.
"It just got a lot better." Jason replied with a smirk. This has become habit for the couple, it had first started when Jason returned Sam's call, which than led to Jason calling to say goodnight to Lila and Sam and he started to talk late into the night. Now they talked at least three times a day, "Things have just been busy lately." Jason answered, "So how is the trip coming?"
"Good, Dad wants to drive straight through so we can make up for all the lost time. So we should be in Orlando by tomorrow morning. Lila is so excited; she wishes you could come though." Sam said with a sad smile as she glanced at the little girl.
"I wish I could be there, but things are hectic here and I don't think Mac would be too happy."
"I understand." Sam said in a monotone voice.
"Hey, don't do that."
"Do what?"
"Say what you think I want to hear."
"You have a responsibility to Sonny."
"I also have a responsibility to my family, something that I have been neglecting. I talked to Sonny and that is why I have been so busy lately."
"What are you talking about?"
"I talked to Sonny and told him that it is about time he took care of his own problem, I have also told him I need to step back from the business, I can't always been on call, I have a family that needs me. I have been teaching Shawn the ropes."
"You talked to Sonny?" Sam asked shocked as she sat at the chair.
"I made a promise to you Sam that you are going to come first. This is something that I should have done a long time ago. I know you lost faith in me and I will spend the rest of my life making it up to you."
"Jason." Sam interrupted.
"No, I need to say this; since you ran out the last time I tried this." Jason started," I never wanted to give you the idea that I was only with you because of Lila, but I can see how you could feel that way. I never wanted you to feel like you were an obligation to me, I love you so much and that scares me. I wonder how the hell you ended up with someone like me and by trying to prove that I was good enough for you, I always messed it up. It made you think that I was putting you last when I was only trying to make you proud."
"Jase, I never needed you to prove anything to be. I love you, no matter what you do. It wasn't just you, I let what people were saying make me second guess us. I got scared that maybe you were getting tired of me and that if I said the wrong that it would push us even farther apart." Sam explained as she crossed her legs.
"No one could ever take your place Sam, you have been at my side through everything; my accident, memory loss, marriage, and you have made me a father and have never tried to change me. I could not love anyone more than I love you. Which is why I am willing to give you all the time and space you need until you're ready to give us another try."
"I don't need space, I need you." Sam cried as her eyes stared to water.
"I need you too babe, don't cry."
"I can't help it, it's your son." Sam laughed as she placed a hand on her stomach, just as the baby kicked, "He misses you two, he just kicked."
"Really?" Jason asked and couldn't help but grin.
"Really." Sam yawned as she leaned back in the chair.
"I can't wait to see you three."
"What?"
"Nothing, go get some sleep. I will call you in the morning." Jason replied.
"No, I am fully awake."
"I love you and you are practically falling asleep."
"Love you too." Sam mumbled as she heard the line go dead before she crawled into bed next to Lila.