Sam's p o v
Young
At some point I got on one of the swings as Mel started talking.
Sam I can't take this house anymore
I know Mel but we have to stay strong life will get better
How? I can't Sam I tried but I'm too afraid one of these Days Sam she's going to kill you
I can't watch Sam I just can't
What are you saying Mel?
I pushed myself higher I could feel the wind ripping through my hair I could see the stars twinkling so bright the moon gleamed low and sad. It touched my heart as Mel's words were making it grow colder.
I saw myself among the atmosphere away from this place.
I'm talking to my teacher about going to a different school tomorrow Sam ..
But you already go to a different school Mel one that Momma says only takes good girls..which is just a nice way of saying she doesn't give a crap about me..and thinks I'm too dumb to get far in that school...which I am..
No your not Sam …
According to Momma I am
Momma lies
Why does she lie?
That's just what she does Sam and I'm sick of it
She treats you horribly Sam and there's nothing I can do to help so I can't watch I can't study I can't sleep I can't eat ...I need to get out and I have a way I'm smart Sam top of my class my teacher says I have an amazing chance of getting into this school it's out of state...
I felt my stomach drop even lower I stopped swinging did Mel really say she was leaving me? I felt sick a little dizzy she looked so scared she wasn't strong like me. She couldn't handle our life and she had a way out I shouldn't be sad should I ?
You should go Mel it sounds awesome you have a chance to do what I never will go for it before Momma turns on you next.
I hate leaving you by yourself Sam
But you will Mel so just do it I'll be fine..
She embraced me I hugged her back but something inside of me shifted I was alone now where before we had always had each other I now had no one.
We stayed in the park for hours till Mel asked …
Sam where do we pee?
I pointed to the tree's she blushed holding her hand over her bladder as she shock her head I sighed she was too prissy for her own good. Grabbing her hand I lead her away from the park to downtown.
Seattle was alive even at 1am in the morning despite the late April date the weather was still nippy as we walked the streets. I only had on a short sleeved shirt so I told jokes and made her laugh to take away the chill which she wasn't use to.
We passed the sections that had the closed shops and got into the section I was heading to it was alive and kicking bright colored lights filled every shop and club .
In every major city there's a section downtown where you can find the LGBT youth it's not always so flashy or transparent as Seattle's is but it's there you just have to know where to look.
For us here it's Capital Hill or as I call it Rainbow Ally. I can't even really tell you what Gay means I mean I'm only 8, I don't understand when people say their gay or transgender or Bi. I just know that whatever it is most grownups feel it's wrong . I've learned however that grownups aren't always right in fact 90% of them are not only wrong but their the kings and queens of B.S.
I like to Call it Rainbow Ally cause it's so colorful every place has a rainbow flag flying proudly in it's window or from the roof or both. Every place has a array of colors in it's signs and sides. Most have open doors with loud music and so many varieties of music you don't know where to go to first.
People littered the streets some holding hands others kissing some just on benches or side walks laughing, tickling, shouting, dancing plenty were drinking but unlike when mom drinks no one was yelling or being mean. Some were just acting silly which amused me.
I lead her past the dinner I often hide out in when mom becomes too much to handle. It's called Alliance Ally and it's run by this women Lisa Rose who's 42 and her daughter Sierra Rose who's 21.
Lisa is the president of PFLAG [ Parents, Families, and Friends of Lesbians and Gays ] Sierra is the president Gladd Teens (Gay & Lesbian Alliance Against Defamation).
I'm not sure what these two things stand for but I know their important. The dinner was packed as usual Sierra saw me through the window and waved I smiled back as I gave a nod I saw her.
We passed several places a few clubs and bars a few stores a adult shop which I covered Mel's eyes as we passed .
Finally we got to Uni-bow which is a awesome club that lets kids and teens into from age 12-18. I was
Still too young to really be inside but that never stopped me sneaking around back I dragged Mel who
looked unsure. We went up the fire escape which was old and creaked so you had to be very careful it was unsteady to say the least. Mel kept praying we wouldn't die I kind of wished I would.
I made quick work in prying open the locked window and shoved her inside she squealed as she hit the dusty floor boards. Once I was in she clung to me coughing as she looked around it was pitch black dark dusty and made my chest tight but I knew the way like I knew our house.
Come on Mel walk faster it's chilly in here
Sam we shouldn't do this
Shh it's fine
No it's wrong
Why?
It's against the law
So who cares?
The police do silly
Who cares about them?
Law abiding citizens
Bite them come on Mel I'm hungry I have to pee and you said you did to
Shutting the window I took her hand and lead her through the maze of old picture frames boxes furniture and other stuff. The music was so loud from downstairs it made the floor shake and vibrate.
Where are we Sam?
This totally awesome place hold on …
We got to the door quickly I opened it looking around to make sure the land lord wasn't around. Once I saw it was clear I pushed open the door.
Light poured through the crack as we stepped out into the hall, Mel gasped.
Wow this is gorgeous I love the colors and the fabric scheme!
The hall was beautifully decorated with a huge chandelier hanging from the middle of the hall . Gray and white Granite walls sparkled over a cherry hard wood floor. Which was polished every day so it sparkled.
Mirrors of all shapes and sizes lined the walls. Mel kept staring at them in awe as we hurried down the
hall when we finally got down the hall she stared at the huge fountain at the base of the wall two angels were on their knee's their hands in prayer as water shot down from the hand of the Saint. Nick the patron saint of gifts. The fountain was made of sparkling rainbow colored marble and glass. It was breathtaking.
Mel stared at it forever.
Your suppose to kneel in front of it close your eyes and make a wish
Say it out loud Sam?
No cause then it wouldn't come true
Does it come true?
In time in it's own way
Hasn't worked for me yet but that's what everyone here says
Mel knelled in front of it and said a prayer and made a wish. I thought about what she would wish for we had this strange ability to read each others minds.
I could tell she was wishing for me to be okay and to be safe to find love.
Don't worry about me Mel I'll be fine
I''ll always worry Sam were twins remember it's my job
Slinging my arm around her shoulders I lead her into the next room. Which was the living room already packed with people. A TV was blaring some baseball game .
Who's place is this Sam?
We can't just crash
Hey Sammy Girl
My smile was wide as I saw 18 year old Braydan McDonald
Hey baby Girl what's going on?
I smiled as Cassie Sanders 22 came over she's a sophomore at Anthem college majoring in criminal justice she hopes to become a juvenile justice lawyer. I keep her on my good side cause I think I may need her in a few years time with my record already.
She's really sweet always bakes me amazing cakes and cookies .
Hey just the taste taster I was looking for!
I grinned as she handed me a tin of choc/pb cookies and ginger snaps with cinnamon sugar .
Yummy!
I dove in before she could even let go of them making her laugh as she ruffled my hair.
Would you like some Mel?
She looked scared as she clung to me she has this questioning look on her face as if to say how did they know who she was?
No I don't like sweets
Freak of nature their god's gift to kids
They rot your teeth Sam
Aw you two are so cute
These are excellent Cassie
Why thanks Sam I knew you would enjoy them
I think she enjoyed them a little too much
I smiled as the 17 year old that made that joke Lucas Abraham Gabriel .
I got her lets go Sam
I let her take my hand leading me into the bathroom where she stripped me and turned on the shower.
Looks like you had an active day
Yea
Not very talkative today?
I shrugged as she lathered soap on my body her hands running over my body. I can't even explain the feelings that started to arise in me but it was strange I swallowed as she rinsed me and put conditioner in my hair.
What happened to your side?
Cassie was studying my body I blushed as I felt the effects of Mom's beatings from earlier.
Cassie didn't say much as she washed my hair closing my eyes I felt this strange sensation in the lower
Parts of my body but I didn't quite understand what was happening.
Wow Sammy your all cleaned up now
I grinned at Lucas who was in the kitchen with Bray getting chips and dips ready . Mel was helping to chop veggies for a soup Bray was making.
She looked at me as I came over I grinned eying what she was doing.
As soon as I came over she whispered to me.
Who are these guys where did you meet them?
Long story Mel
So Mel Sam tells me you excellent in school?
Bray flashed a smile in her direction I knew what she was thinking . She was going over all the lectures she could give me when we left but I didn't care I pulled up a stool and sat down. Taking the handle from Janelle's hands she squealed laughing as Cassie hit me with the some flour which I jumped out of the way just in time as she got Janelle who squealed.
It's on Sanders be prepared!
To out run you all the time!
They started chasing each other laughing as they tore through the living room hiding behind furniture and couches.
Their crazy chicks
Aren't all chicks?
So true Lucas so true
Bray and him pounded fists I rolled my eyes .
Sam I'm so glad your not insane like those two crazy broads
What's a broad?
A old women
I laughed as Bray wrapped his arm over my shoulders laughing as Cassie had Janelle trapped on the couch which was occupied by 19 year old Maria Chanters, 24 year old Dora Martinez, 15 year old Bert Sulawesi and 14 year old Terran Jackson who all scrambled to get out of the way. Laughing Maria hit Janelle's butt.
Watch out Cassie
No you ..aha!
Cassie was taking down by Terran who lifted her up over his head. Cassie squealed as Janelle started laughing so hard she lost her balance and fell over Dora's lap who smacked her butt.
Bad girl bad girl very bad girl get on your knee's and repent
Why I like being a bad girl and I know you like bad girls
I bet you do like it I bet your a real good at being a bad girl
As much as you like doing bad girls
Hey watch it there are Virgin ears here tonight
Bray laughed as he waved his hands at the girls who went right on talking getting closer and closer to each other.
Bray covered Mel's ears and mine but I still heard Dora reply to Janelle while grabbing her jeans and pulling her close Cassie stood clearing her throat staring daggers at Dora who smiled as she leaned in close.
Bray what's Virgin mean?
Nothing Sweetness nothing that you need to worry yourself over at least not yet
If it's nothing then why are you covering our ears?
Cause it's for grownups to know not for us
Shut-up Mel I am a grownup
No your not Sam your 8 just like I am
I'm a mature 8
Sam your not mature at all
Really cause it takes a mature person to deal with things head on not run away when chiz gets too scary or real...
So which of us is Mature again?
Sam be nice
No why is it nice of her to leave me?
Sam..
Shut-up Mel I'm sick of being put down by you
Just cause you go to that fancy school and make top grades who says I couldn't?
Mom never gave me the chance you were the favorite you were the one who had all the advantages
Sam Chill out baby I don't know what's going on but don't be mean to your sister she's the only one you'll have ..
Good cause I don't even want her I would be fine without her..
Sam I didn't mean..
Shut-up Mel just do it go ahead transfer schools just don't expect me to to cry for you
Sam..
Leave her alone she needs time to chill baby why don't you go see L'G
I didn't need another invite I stormed out leaving Mel standing there crying she could cry a river a tears and make a ocean then she could sail across it for all I cared.
The closer I got to the club the louder the music got my feet were already itching to get moving. Pushing my way through the crowd I could see it was totally packed tonight. I was jostled thrown and shoved grabbed and held only to be pushed away again as the crowd moshed to the band on stage . Every night was a different musical style some nights they had DJ's other night live acts weekends they sometimes had Celebrities preform. They also had open mic nights, tonight was a local heavy metal band.
Someone yelled something to me but I ignored them as I shoved ahead a few times I stopped to dance as the beat became to much to deny my feet. Shaking my head to loosen the cramps I swayed my body as I closed my eyes I was sick of being told I was too young everyone thinks young means dumb but sometimes young people know more then the oldest people around.
As I was dancing two kids caught my arms pulled me close before I knew it we were dancing side by side. I was sandwiched between them I was starting to get sweaty my breath coming in gasps as I moved my body against her's. I felt him in back of me as I leaned closer to her feeling her body pressed against mine the things it did to me made me dizzy and breathless. Just as I thought I was going to pass out she grabbed me and lead me the bar which was packed full of sweaty kids just like me well okay a little older . I knew a lot of them from coming here all the time 13 year old Michael smiled at me.
Sam dear it's about time I saw you been too long
I smiled as I tried to control my breathing as I looked at the young girl who I had been dancing with she was young too young to be in this club just like me but she was older then me she had a great body though. Thin but she worked out I could tell she was already developing she had a great chest why was
I staring at her chest? I wasn't suppose to look at girls like this was I? Was this normal?
Shaking my head as I heard a voice speaking to me again I cleared these thoughts from my brain.
Sam earth to Samantha..
It's Sam..
You know never to call me that name ever..
It got your attention didn't it?
I growled as my eyes flashed annoyance or at least I hope they did but one look from 16 year old L'G made me smile. Sliding me down a mixed drink of cranberry / orange/pineapple juice which I gulped down belching making him laugh as he ruffled my hair.
Your a class act Sam
Thanks
So your name's Sam huh you have some great moves
I eyed her she was cute dressed in tight blue jeans and a tight white tank with a pink/white flannel shirt she had her light auburn hair which had red streaks in it braided back she was soaked in sweat her bright blue eyes sparkled as she took a water bottle and placed it between her red covered lips. Why was I watching this? Why did my stomach feel like butterflies were flapping it's wings and trying to break free?
This is indeed Sam toughest eight year old in all of Seattle
So your eight huh
That's what the man said who are you?
She's brutal straight to the point to
I see I like..
Of course you like who wouldn't like me?
You be crazy not to cause she can beat your butt so fast you wouldn't even know it was happening till it was over
I may like that ..
You seem like you would..too bad for you I ain't in the mood
She grinned moving closer to me I suddenly started to feel scared my legs shaking my stomach twisted
I couldn't understand why. Swallowing I tried to slow down my racing heart my lower half had a tingle to it I was starting to get scared I would piss myself from fear I could feel my bladder swimming.
As she pulled me to her I could feel her breath sweet and hot against my check.
So what are you in the mood for?
Suddenly I couldn't talk my breathing was fast and hard she grinned seeming to enjoy this as she pulled me to her. I felt her hands moving up my body as she shoved my body against her's.
Before I could object not that I would of ...I don't think...I never had the chance cause she pulled me to her and shoved me on the dance floor where we started to move our bodies to the beat. I closed my eyes letting her lead me my body pressed firmly against hers I felt every bit of her as we moved she wrapped my arms over her shoulders.
I let go and felt the music the words weren't important as we moved dancing for hours and hours till we were both exhausted and fell into a booth. My eyes closed as I laid my head on her lap feeling her stroke my hair which was soaked in sweat.
At some point when the dizziness stopped and my breathing eased the tight feeling below settled I opened my eyes thankful the room wasn't spinning and saw her beautiful face a glow.
The crowd had thinned in the club the music was dying off it must have been late but I didn't care. It was perfect cause now we could talk.
I don't like it when people don't play fair
What are you talking about Sam?
That!
Huh?
She looked confused as I grinned good I had her now. She didn't even notice when I laced my fingers through her's.
I don't like cheaters
Cheaters? Hun I'm single I ain't cheating on no one
Not that way I mean cheaters at games and chiz
What games I don't play games I ain't a queen
Don't knock the queens honey! Were fabulous!
Who couldn't laugh as L'G passed he's so freaking hysterical plopping down by us. I finally got a good look at what he was wearing he was going all out tonight in a long red and black Gothic style dress and
Goth boots his hair was a mix of red and blond styled in a up due he had on bright but tasteful makeup. His nails were 6 inches and bright red.
Yes you are L'G
Damn right honey and don't you forget it!
So now don't keep Lil' Sam waiting what's your name sweet thing?
She right you cheating if you know her name and she don't know yours
She's good at that don't let her fool ya she says she hates games and drama
Yet she's the family drama queen always playing games and breaking the rules
Like you should talk lil dude who was sneaking out tonight? Who covered for who?
Oh please don't act like you weren't about to do the same I just beat ya to it
Until he spoke I hadn't even noticed there was anybody else with us now I noticed him he was closer to my age but scrawny looking his hair was a brighter blond spiked he had the greenest eyes I had ever seen. His shirt was a bright green power rangers shirt and tight blue jeans he was rolling his eyes at whatever the girl had said in response.
This little Devil
She pointed to the boy by her.
Is my younger brother Austin Stephen Noel
The rule breaker here is my sister Kennedy Amanda Noel Johnson
Well at east were on fair terms now
Not quite you know my age
True Sam
I'm 12 and Austin here is 10 you look older then 8 Sam
I'm a old soul
Yea sure you are...Sam well old soul you need to get to bed cause you have school in the morning all of you do
What school do you go to?
Ridgeway ..
Both answered I brightened..
No Chiz that's where I go as well
Awesome how come I never saw ya?
Big school sweetie I saw you though
You have?
Yes plenty of times I work in the Principle's office during 5th pr everyday
That explains it our Sam is a resident of that fine Establishment
Well Kennedy why don't you leave your digits and Sam will connect you I think you two need to meet up in a more quieter atmosphere.
Sounds great ..
Yea it does L'G thanks
She left her digits smiling as she did so.
We should go it's late Aus we need to get in before Mom notices were gone
Like she would care
Don't talk that way
Nice meeting you Sam
You two maybe we can walk to school together tomorrow
Sounds sweet I'll call you when we get up
I watched as she walked away Austin turned and saw me watching I don't know why I suddenly blushed or felt embarrassed. I wasn't doing anything wrong was I ?
Come on Sam time to go up
I sighed as he helped me up I was suddenly very tired
Thanks L'G
For what baby?
For not treating me like I'm stupid just cause I'm young
Why would I do that? Young is amazing Young people rule the world
As we got up the band took the stage again and the crowd went wild
Well we ain't getting through this crowd so we might as well join in
I laughed as he took my hand and we jumped up jamming to their song.
We are young, we have heart
Born in this world as it all falls apart
We are strong, we don't belong
Born in this world as it all falls apart
I see the children in the rain like the parade before the pain
I see the love, I see the hate, I see this world that we can make
I see the life, I see the sky, give it all to see you fly
Yes, we wave this flag of hatred but you're the ones who made it
Watch the beauty of all our lies passing right before my eyes
I hear the hate in all your words, all the wars to make us hurt
We get so sick of so sick, we never wanted all this
Medication for the kids with no reason to live
So we march to the drums of the dammed as we come
Watch it burn in the sun, we are numb
We are young, we have heart
Born in this world as it all falls apart
We are strong, we don't belong
Born in this world as it all falls apart
As we walk among these shadows, in these streets, this fields of battle
Take it up, we wear the medal, raise your hands with burning candles
Hear us whisper in the dark, in the rain you see the spark
Feel the beating of our hearts, fleeting hope as we depart
All together, walk alone against all we've ever known
All we've ever really wanted was a place to call our home
But you take all we are, the innocence of our hearts
Made to kneel before the alter as you tear us apart
So we march to the drums of the dammed as we come
Watch it burn in the sun, we are numb
We are young, we have heart
Born in this world as it all falls apart
We are strong, we don't belong
Born in this world as it all falls apart
We will fight or we will fall till the angels save us all
We will fight or we will fall till the angels save us all
We will fight or we will fall till the angels save us all
We will fight or we will fall till the angels save us all
We are young, we have heart
Born in this world as it all falls apart
We are strong, we don't belong
Born in this world as it all falls apart
We are young, we have heart
Born in this world as it all falls apart
We are strong, we don't belong
Born in this world as it all falls apart
Young By Hollywood Undead