Sorry it took so long, but my computer hates me. Also, I started another story, Highway to Hell, with Xanaimpala and CayChaotic, its a Supernatural fic, you should go check it out. (yes, I am shamelessly plugging my other stories.) Well, without further ado, chapter two.
DISCLAIMER: I do not in any way, shape, or form own Charmed or The Covenant
"Does he know?" Paige asked gently. I shook my head.
"I never told him…" I tightened my grip on Jeremy a little bit, trying not to let the tears escape.
"It's been so long and it still hurts this much?" Pheobe asked from the stairs, a hand over her heart and tears glistening in her eyes.
"Pretty much," I laughed bitterly, a couple traitorous tears leaking from my eyes.
"Oh, honey!" she cried, coming over to hug me and shooing everyone else away. "You go ahead and cry." She said, bringing me over to sit on the stairs.
I shook my head, trying not to wake up Jeremy as I placed him on a blanket.
"I resigned myself to it when I was thirteen. No use crying about it now…" I said, letting the middle sister further into my past than anyone else in the family.
"But I thought you were fourteen when you slept with him?" she asked, picking up on the number scheme. I laughed bitterly, the tears now coming in a steady flow.
"Yes, but it wasn't just a random occurrence. I was born here, Pheobe. I lived here until I was fourteen. I grew up around those four boys, and then right before we turned thirteen they began to shun me. It was always the five of us; we did everything together from the time they saved me from some bullies in kindergarten. I thought of them as my brothers. I developed deeper feelings for Pogue. I fell in love with him when we were ten." I said, the pain in my chest sharpening. It felt like someone had a tight grip on my heart, and just kept squeezing tighter and tighter.
"So how did you get to the point of sleeping with him if they were ignoring you?" she asked, the tears rolling down her face too.
"I was at Nicky's the night before we were set to move. I was there with my parents. Pogue and Caleb and Reid and Tyler were there with their parents as well, the four families had always been close, to the point of the four boys' dads considering each other brothers as well.
"Their parents had grown close to my parents, due to the five of us being together so much. We had been adopted into the Ipswich founding families. So they came to say goodbye. It was the first time I had actually seen the guys in over a year. I saw them around, sure, but it was the first time I had really been around them. The guys all looked guilty, and sorry, and I had always loved Pogue and… well, I guess it's not that hard to figure out what happened.
"He brought me into a corner to 'talk' to me, and then he kissed me and we slipped out the back and found an old abandoned shed and… I woke up the next morning very early. Pogue was my first love, my first kiss, my first everything. It took all I had to quietly slip out of that barn that morning, without waking him up.
"I never regretted one moment of it, or my twins, but I do sometimes wonder what would have happened if I had stuck around that morning. Would it have been different? Would he have regretted it, or been as loving as the night before? I guess I'll never know… and now I'm ranting about something that happened almost four years ago…" I stopped talking and just looked out the front window, wishing I hadn't opened that can of worms, my chest hurt so badly.
"I am so, so sorry." Pheobe said, pulling me into her arms. "Would you like for us to go with you to meet them? For moral support?" she asked, smoothing my hair back over my head. I nodded, afraid if I spoke any more, I would break down completely, every wall I had built around myself was in danger of crumbling to pieces, and I could do nothing to stop it.
Okay, so I hope you liked the chapter, please take a second out to review, and hopefully next time I'll update sooner.