The One That Got Away

Carly's POV

" Carly I need to talk to you..

What's up Freddie?

I can still remember it like it was yesterday instead of nearly a year ago as I lay on my bed trying to find some reason as to why Sam felt so alone my memories bring me back to that week.

It started on a Wednesday Freddie and I had met at our lockers and were heading to The Groovy Smoothie to wait for Sam who was in her fifth detention that week. The second bell had just rung seconds before so the halls were jammed pack as we exchanged books and did the usual after school things.

As soon as I saw his eyes I knew he was serious about what ever this was that he wanted to talk to me about my heart was beating so hard I thought it would pop out of my chest please don't let it be what I thought it was. My mouth felt dry and my throat felt clogged he looked so scared. He was playing with his hands all nervous like Sam would say he was being a total nub.

I thought it was kind of sweet, even a little cute. My stomach was all nervous doing flips and other chiz it shouldn't be doing. I almost felt bad for him he was having such trouble getting whatever it was out of his mouth he was even starting to sweat as we shoved our way through the crowds his hands reached out to steady me as I was shoved.

Finally we reached the sun outside it was slightly windy but still felt great against my bare legs my tiny gym shorts were soaked in sweat.

We stopped at the fountain and sat down a few splashes of water landed on my back cooling me off.

Freddie was looking around I had to smile god guys were so funny trying to act all cool and like their this hot stuff but under it all their just scared little girls...

Yo Benson! Hit that Mark fast man ya got plenty of guys lining up!

I felt sick as one of the football players let out a low whistle his eyes wandering up my low cut shorts. I almost started to wish I had changed but I had been so hot and tired and frustrated that Sam had gotten through the whole day with no trouble then went and kicked the soccer ball so hard it flew 100 feet and hit the gym teacher so hard she fell over the bleachers and broke her arm. Sam was so lucky no one but me saw her do it on purpose or she'd be facing criminal charges. Pissed off hot and tired was not a good combo for me wanting to get out of there I just grabbed my bag and stormed out.

Now I rethought it I hated how guys looked at me just because I was hot didn't mean I was easy or that girls were a piece of meat that needed to be devoured.

Benson man hurry up before she gets away fro real man Zach is after that bone

I'm not a piece of meat or a bird

Could of fooled me yo cuz Shay you are fly...

Okay so yes it was a lame joke but it did make me giggle which seemed to make Darrel happy cause he did a little MJ dance backwards. Freddie looked even more nervous so I put my hands on his arm trying to calm him but that made him even worse cause he jumped a million miles and his books fell to the ground as he cussed softly and manged to trip over his now scattered books.

I felt even worse cause I knew if he said what I think he was going to say he would feel ten times worse with my answer.

Why you so nervous Freddie we've known each other for years

We always talk what's different this time?

I massaged my own neck feeling even more tired from the day gym had whipped me good that day.

God coach Wilson is insane he made us run for the whole 45 minutes no rest my legs are on fire

I'll massage them for you!

Freddie dropped to his knee's before I could say no and took my left leg in his hands slowly massaging it as much as I wanted to tell him to stop. I didn't want him getting ideas I couldn't cause it felt so amazing.

Aw Freddie that's sweet

I shivered feeling his cool hands touch my very warm skin as he grasped my left calf working out the tense muscles. I was still sweating and breathing hard from class. So his massage left me feeling so relaxed. I couldn't help but moan slightly as he worked the tension out of my body his hands worked through my legs and back to my neck.

Dang boy work those muscles!

Yea you go son but wrong muscle you should be working the lower one dawg

Don't be rude Zach

Zachariah Reilly aka Attack Zach Senior Captain of the Football team gave a sly grin. He stood behind Freddie who tensed up Zach had his boys Kyle and Ernie with him. His eyes were checking me over I quickly stood up feeling my body shake there were a lot of rumors about Zach.

Girls were all whispering as they stopped to watch this little show. My checks colored not from flattery but fear and embarrassment, I felt dirty.

Freddie moved closer I buried myself in his arms.

" You know Shay when you feel like a real man I'm right here baby I can make time for you Julie won't mind..

The blond girl attached to his right arm glared at me but smiled all sick puppy eyed at him shaking her head.

I'm good I have a real man right here

Nah see Carly Freddie here he ain't nothin' but a little boy tryin to be a man but he ain't done grown yet right Freddkins..

Zach shoved him hard I yelped Zach and his friends laughed high fiving my fear was rising as I fought of tears ...whispering to Freddie.

Don't fight please you'll get pounded just walk away

Yea man walk away just like a little b...h..I'll show Shay here what a real man does give us 10 minutes in the backseat of my BMW and she''ll be a woman in no time..

Ew No..

Excuse me?

I would rather swallow toad vomit then have sex with you and your thousand of diseases...

A few kids snickered but most girls oohed and gasped. He looked beat red as his fists became taunt and clenched. He stepped forward towards me as I wished I had kept my mouth shut.

I think this dog needs to be taught some manners boys..woof woof

Back off Reilly

What are you going to do Fredictorian

Don't tell me your going dyke to Shay cause your too damn hot to be butch

Dude the Lesbo's coming better leave Zach if she see's you effing with her girl she'll flip

Let her I'll eff the dyke right outta her up tight …

Don't be a jerk you can't change Sam she is who she is and there's nothing wrong with it

Yea you should know Fredictorian she turned dyke after you tapped her

The guys laughed and slapped hands at Zach's nasty remark which made me so mad I always hated how the guys talked about Sam but this burned me up so bad I couldn't even stand I was shaking so hard I just felt so angry I wanted to hit him. She wasn't even in ear shot she was still in the building and as scared as I was I was so glad she didn't hear him. She would act tough and pound him silly but I

Know she would feel so ashamed and depressed over it she didn't deserve it. Freddie's hands clenched I knew he still felt so many conflicted emotions over the whole incident , it had only been Four months since him and Sam had sex and since she told him she was gay.

He still liked her in a way I knew it but he wanted to respect her and not hurt her in anyway. As confused as he was he knew she had too much on her plate to handle his own problems.

I hated how the guys teased him though he didn't deserve it any more then she did.

I ran my hands over his arms trying to calm him still amazed at how much he had pumped up over the last year or so …

No worries Carly the minute you feel me working that tight …mmh mmh you'll know your straight

Then maybe she'll come crawling to you Freddie left overs are always good warmed up...

I let out a scream as Freddie slammed his fist into Zach's jaw line the loud crack could be heard throughout the crowd.

Freddie stop your going to get hurt!

Yea Freddie go back to playing with the wittle girlies the big boys will hurt you

Freddie!

I screamed as he charged Zach who shoved him to the ground but Zach's friends Tommy, Ernie and Kyle grabbed Freddie and held him as they took turns hitting him. I heard Freddie grunt as he was pounded in his stomach I screamed trying to grab him but instead felt myself being lifted up.

My heart was pounding as Zach slipped his hand over my mouth pulling me up I was shaking and felt sick. I wanted to cry.

I couldn't fight him as he threw me in his car undoing his belt the sound still made me sick to my stomach every time I hear Spencer undoing his..

I pounded his face and chest trying to rip his hair as he hit me hard across my face holding me down his grin was so cocky so sure of himself it sent shivers down my spine.

I started to whimper as I cried out No but he shoved his hand up my legs. I could feel him gripping my panties as I closed my eyes scared to death feeling like I was going to vomit.

Let her go you ape!

My eyes flew open just as I saw Sam rip the door off his car which he yelled a few profanities out at her her eyes were in a dead cold stare as she grabbed him yanking so hard his head hit the top of the jeep. Before I knew it she had kicked him over 20 times in his lower region and had him crying on the ground grabbing that part as she hit and kicked him non-stop.

Freddie who was pretty rough looking himself hobbled over and had to pull her off. He literally had to hold her up in the air over his shoulder carrying her to my car. I was shaking as I followed when we got to my car. I lost it I watched as Zach and his friends were hauled off in handcuffs his glare following me. Then the damn broke I threw up all over the pavement as the tears poured out.

In a instant Freddie and put Sam down and both were by me holding me pulling my hair back arms around me talking softly to me.

Their talking styles were so different it cracked me up ..Freddie was so sweet..like a parent comforting a child.

It's okay baby were here relax Carls no one is going to hurt you ever again let it out it's Ok

Sam's was more direct and quick

Shh it's Ok ..Jesus kid shut-up you know Momma won't let anyone hurt her baby stop crying already you ruing my shirt it took all day to get this masterpiece

I picked my head up to see that Sam's new white undershirt was now a canvas of brightly decorated colors the front showed Freddie and Mr. Howard being gobbled up by a three headed monster the back showed Mrs. Briggs coming out of the monster's butt..I groaned..

Sam they didn't see that did they?

Who gives a chiz

Sam!

Fine it's not my fault those dweebs have no taste

Sam!

Three weeks detention every night

I groaned

That means iCarly will be late three weeks in a row

Nah I'll just skip Fridays

Sam you can't do that!

Can't says who cupcake?

I do that's who then you'll get ISS and we both know you'll flip on that poor teacher and get OSS which means …

Yea I know my parole officer finds out I violate my probation and I get sent back to Juvie chizblankets

So what class did you do that master piece in?

Well thanks for asking nubsuckle home Ech whatever chiz that is

It's for kids who want to be functional adults that can run a house hold

See that boring chiz no one will ever need

Yea cuz we all know Sam's future home will be 8x10 bars

See these nubby McNub?

She held up her fists he gulped backing up..

These are all I need and since your face already saw your fair share unless you wanna look like a crater I suggest you shut your lips dweeb..

Freddie drove my car to get smoothies. I was still shaking as Sam held me in the back seat my head was pressed against her chest. I felt her heart pounding full speed. Her arms held me strong comforting me. We didn't need words to know how scared we both were I saw it in her eyes as she held me close her eyes never left me as she ran her hands through my hair and over my back, arms, thighs and butt legs..it was like she was making sure no one ever touched my body besides her like she owned me, as much as that thought disgusted me with Zach with Sam it felt right. That scared me even more how could it feel right? Sam was a girl I was a girl...I wasn't..I mean I was straight right..

Inside Freddie went to order and Sam pulled me into the bathroom she shoved me inside a stall I saw her fall against the wall as she pulled me close and held me the tears came at last now it was my turn to hug her. Feeling her body shake and her sobs fall against my shoulders was strange I mean I was the only person Sam ever let see her cry but it was rare she did it which scared me more cause it meant she knew things I didn't . things like the stories I heard weren't rumors that Zach had raped three girls that year alone.

When she was calm again she held my face in her hands..

Cupcake tell Momma the truth

What is it butterscotch Krimmpet?

Did Zach I mean..Did..I..

She looked angry and scared my heart was pounding so hard...

No..he didn't..you saved me Sam your my hero...Thank you...

She sighed so hard her legs gave out so I held her up just like we always do to each other. After washing our hands and mouths we checked each other out..

Cupcake you should see a doctor just to be sure

I'm fine Sam really ..just drop it and don't mention this to Spencer

Carl's you..

Sam promise me pinky swear!

Okay I promise but promise me your okay and that you'll talk to me or see a doctor if anything..

Promise...

We went out Sam attacked her smoothie with a vengeance and had it drowned in seconds then sat there looking at the cup with these sad puppy dog eyes..which was so cute I couldn't help but pinch her checks..that of course made her blush insane and Freddie roll his eyes as she searched us for money with her eyes..

Go get yourself another one you earned it today Sam..

I handed her some money she jumped up excited pumping her fists ..

Thanks cupcake!

She kissed my check I laughed slapping her butt she yelped ..

Hey no one touches that cute butt but me..

Sam whirled around to see her girlfriend of two and a half months Elysa Storms 16 who goes to Blair-wood Academy coming up behind us she grabbed Sam and spun her around planting her lips firmly against Sam's juicy plump pink lips. Sam's whole body tensed up as she wrapped her arms around Elysa. My whole body became a inferno as I watched them. I didn't know why but I never liked Elysa and it had nothing to do with the fact that Sam was gay. I just didn't trust this chick as far as I could throw her.

Elysa deepened the kiss so hard Sam almost lost her balance but Elysa held her up by squeezing Sam's butt checks. Pressing her body as close to hers as humanly possible.

Oh gross get a room

Get some balls and a backbone nub I just saved your puny shriveled up..

Heeyyy..

Elysa stopped further insults as she kissed Sam again how they went that long without air was beyond me ...I tried not to gag as I chocked down my smoothie..

At some point we manged to all get upstairs I took Sam's bag and ushered them upstairs to my room Sam gave me a shy smile and her eyes signaled thanks as she grabbed Elysa's shirt ripping it open pulling her up the steps. Freddie grabbed some water bottles from my fridge as we sat down on my

Couch to watch Celebrities underwater.

You okay Carls?

I sighed laying my head down on his lap the day seemed to catch up to me as I stayed silent. His fingers played with my hair.

Why was everything so complicated ? Freddie was one of my best friends..he was sweet he was caring smart cute in a Tech geeky best friend next door kind of way. He was loyal and stood up for me he would protect me..I could feel him tense up as he held me.

My heart was beating a bit faster as I thought of him being so close I hadn't felt like that in awhile so what was going on?

I closed my eyes as I remembered a conversation from earlier in the day..

Sam and I had been in the changing room getting ready for gym of course Sam was eating her pre-gym triple ham sandwich. When Michelle, Faye and Wendy came up all looking identical.

Carly is it true?

Is what true Wendy?

That you and Arron broke up?

Yea..

I sighed still down over the fact that Aaron Rogers one of the cutest boys in Ridgeway had broken up with me just a little over a week ago. Not only was he cute he was smart and so good at soccer and he had a job he worked hard.

Yea his parents said I was distracting him from his school work

Well he did get all goggle eyed over you and start tripping over things that weren't even there

Well who can blame him Carly's hot

Aw thanks Sam

Girl I would die without a bf how are you holding up?

Please remove your hand from my shoulder Michelle and I'm holding up fine I don't need a boy to define me

Michelle and Faye gasped covering their mouths Wendy rolled her eyes

She has a bf that's me..

No let me explain in straight talk little miss dyke bf means ..boy friend

Bet ya don't know what B.F.L means Faye

Huh?

Sam hauled off and punched Faye so hard she fell and landed on top of the bench cracking it. Michelle backed up a bit..

B.F.L Big. Fat .Lip

Oh Sam really right before class

I sighed pulling out the first add kit to clean up her now blood covered hand and check for broken bones or bruises..

Nice slug Sam

Thanks Wendy

Yea sure Michelle go pick Faye up before Sam gets busted

Thanks for the cover

Wendy shrugged turning to me

So what are you going to do? Carly your class president your in student court Jr. prom is in two weeks.. you need a date and face it every girl needs a guy by then

Why is it so important? Sam and I will go like we always do

Uh yea that's not really going to fly this year

Why …

Cause well you know Sam being out and all ..you'll be kicked off of the court and ..well who shows up alone Ew...were all bringing dates...

Sam's eyes had gone cold her body had tensed I knew she was fuming inside and I felt so bad for her. I wanted to hold her and punch Wendy even though I knew she wasn't being mean she cared for Sam she was just saying what everyone else thought well it didn't hurt any less.

I know someone who wants to go with you

Who Wendy..

I sighed all this was making me really not want to go I was starting to think Sam's idea about renting a movie and popping some popcorn wasn't half bad.

Freddie..

We both chocked as Sam's eyes popped out of her head...I spit out my water staring at Wendy who grinned.

See I told ya you would want to know

Katy heard Megan talking to Amy who heard it from Brenda who Megan told Joan who told Laurie who..

Okay we got it

Just saying he told Gibby that he still has feelings for you he figured it out when him and Sam you know...

Sam's checks burned I slipped my hand into hers...

You better act fast girl cause Lelia told Jamie she wants Freddie and plans to make her move by Jr. Prom..

He's sweet Carly he cares for you he's smart give him a chance..

Leave her alone Wendy she doesn't like Freddie like that

Sam threw her arm over my shoulders. I sighed leaning my head on her shoulder exhausted already.

Just cause your not normal Sam doesn't mean...

Enough Faye she already rearranged your dentistry does she need to knock your teeth out to shut you up cause I will let her …

Chill Wendy I'm good I like my mouth it's pretty like my face..

They walked away I leaned my head back against my locker hands over my face..

Sam hugged me laying her head on my shoulder.

Ignore them Carlotta what's important is that you find someone who loves you for you cause if they can't see how amazing you are then A their blind dumb and deaf and B if he don't value you he ain't worth a grain of salt and momma likes her salt...

Don't rush anything cause some silly girls tell you what's socially acceptable cause you'll regret it keep your innocence as long as you can..

Thanks Sam..you okay?

Yea I'm good lets go kick some balls...

Opening my eyes to see I was on my couch in Freddie's lap I jumped up scared till I saw his eyes on me worried and I remembered what had happened and why he was there.

Carly I'm just going to come out and say it after what happened I'm not afraid by your answer cause it won't be as heart breaking as seeing that animal putting his sick hands on your amazing body..

What is it Freddie?

Please don't say it please don't say it..

I'm in love with you Carly I never stopped your my everything I think about you all the time your my reason to smile to laugh breathe you inspire me ..

He was sweating as he took my hands getting on his knees..my hands rested on his shoulders he looked so cute I couldn't explain what I was feeling.

Carly what do you think?

I think I need to think about it Freddie.

He swallowed as we got up he took me in his arms holding me. I closed my eyes leaning against his chest.

He tried not to grunt as I let my full weight fall on him feeling the full effects on me ..picking myself off him. I fought off the dizziness to see he was in pain. Making him sit down I forced him to take his shirt off why it left me suddenly off balance even more was beyond me, as I ran the alcohol pad over his chest I couldn't help but feel how strong his abs were and how thick his muscles were...

Well looks like Tommy Lee won't be marrying Pamela Andersen again

I turned to see Pam was now floating lifeless in the water blue as the game show host was staring at her chest.

Baywatch won't be doing any reunions without their star..

Freddie stop..

I laughed he shrugged ..

I love your smile Carly and your laugh it's intoxicating..

He touched my face I blushed shrinking back I could smell his black cherry aftershave ..it started to make me uneasy.

Freddie I'll be back..

Okay Arnold

I ran upstairs breathless shaking my whole body was on fire trying to calm my racing heart and stomach unsure which would win in coming up first I collapsed against my door.

It's every girls dream Carly what he just did so why are you running away?

My mind was screaming at me I needed to talk to Sam shaking my head I opened my door..

uh..o..h..a..o..h..g..o..d

My legs gave out as I walked into my room to see Elysa had Sam pinned on the bed both naked Elysa was on top her hands holding Sam's legs apart to the sides Sam's hands were gripping my seats as Elysa's mouth was fully working her lower region making Sam grunt and groan softly but long. Her breathing was so fast she couldn't catch her breath her eyes closed...

What the hell should I do? I mean it wasn't like I hadn't ever walked in on my best friend having sex in my bed before. Yet this was awkward no matter what even more so since I really felt disgusted that she would let Elysa touch her.

Why did my heart suddenly feel like it was ripped in two? I covered my mouth and stumbled to the bathroom..placing my head on the toilet seat I emptied my stomach into the bowel.

Cupcake?

I felt my hair being pulled back as I coughed and heaved a cool hand rested something wet against my forehead..

Relax kid I'm here Momma has you..deep breath calm yourself

Lean back slowly

I listened to what she said leaning against her chest as she sat against the wall eyes closed I coughed she rubbed my back. When the room stopped spinning and I felt less like hurling. I opened my eyes to see Sam was in nothing but a thin bed-sheet, my bed-sheet which did nothing to hide her curves ..why did I notice her curves?

Talk to me Carly what's going on?

My head was pounding as I looked into her eyes the most perfect crystal clear blue I had ever seen they sparkled like diamonds. God now I knew what they meant when they said the eyes were the key to a person's soul cause I saw straight through to her heart and soul.

I know something's bothering you kiddo talk to me

Slowly I tried to explain it to her leaving out all the chiz I was feeling when I saw her and Elysa. I broke into tears in her lap. She rubbed my back soothing me.

I don't know what to do Sam I like Freddie as a friend but lately I don't know I think I'm feeling more for him but I don't know..

I don't want to hurt him

You like him maybe really like him but it's not heart pounding frozen in time forever love is it?

I don't know I mean I'm only 16 I've never been in love

So take your time Carly there's no rush go out with him see what happens if he loves you he will understand you need time to figure this all out if it's meant to be it'll work out if not well then let the bird fly if it's meant to be it will fly back..if not it will be free to find true love somewhere on some horizon...

Aw that's pretty Sam where did you find that?

My cell last summer it was there form the inmate before...

I shuddered poking her side she blushed we both giggled.

Bottom line kid you'll never know if you don't try it's better to try and fail then to never try at all cause then you'll look back in twenty years time and wonder could it of been? What if I had tried a little harder?

It's hell to look at the one you love with some else cause you didn't have the guts to try harder

To see them laugh at some other person's joke to see them smile that special smile at another fool who wasn't too scared to try to know that you could have been happy to know that their the one that got away cause you just didn't try...Well it's a living breathing fire pit of hell and endless guilt...

I looked into her eyes and saw more pain then anyone should ever be asked to bare and I knew...