Corrina's Concern

Corrina pulled up in front of Manny's house thinking about what Jevena had told her. Was Manny really that different from her former husband? Not that she wanted to compare the two. Her circle of experience with men's sexual behavior was somewhat limited and she wasn't sure what to believe.

She parked the car and walked to the house. Jevena's concern made her a bit apprehensive. Her sister had been married for fifteen years and her marriage to Edward B hadn't lasted but a few years. She didn't have a lot of experience with men prior to her marriage. Her focus had been on her education!

She walked into the house and wondered how she could broach the subject with Manny. She was surprised when he peeked his head out of his bedroom and came over to her with just a towel wrapped around himself. Corrina felt herself go instantly hot when she saw him and his kisses only added to the fire. All the things her mother taught her ran through her head. They weren't married yet and she didn't want to appear too easy.

Manny wasn't helping matters parading around the house half naked. He was all over her and when he pulled her on top of him, she was just about ready to give in. Most likely she would have if the thought of Molly catching them hadn't kept her in check.

She got off the bed at looked at him completely naked grinning up at her and she felt herself sweating. Her eyes roamed over his body. He was a handsome specimen of maleness. He had hair on his chest but not too much and it ran all the way down to the prize.

"Now you get to see what you're getting into" Manny said giving her a sly look. She knew that he was watching her looking at him and she felt her face get hot. Could he tell that she wanted him too?

He was larger than she had imagined…longer and thicker than Edward B had been. Damn! She tore her eyes away from him. Her knees felt weak looking at him. She had to get out of that bedroom. He lounged back on the bed not making any attempt at covering up, his legs gapped open provocatively. Had he no shame!

"I can see it's a pretty impressive package" she replied stealing another glance at him.

He began caressing himself while he watched her. He was already hard and she resisted the urge to walk over to him.

She knew that she had to get out of there before she did something she might later regret. Somebody had to keep a level head!

Manny seemed sincerely surprised at her comment. "Really" he asked. He glanced down at his erection and then back at her. Corrina could hardly tear her eyes away from him.

Didn't he know what he had? Maybe not. She doubted if men did comparisons in that area. If she hadn't been married before, she would never have realized it. Could she handle all that? Well she certainly would try. She just hoped that he was patient. She knew she had to be good and ready in order to accommodate him.

A part of her wasn't quite ready to leave the room. She sat beside him on the bed and resisted the urge to take him in her hand. Instead she put her hand over his which was still holding his member. She leaned over and kissed him.

"Yeah, you really have quite a bit for me to handle. I'm pleasantly suprised. Now get dressed before your daughter comes home and catches you in your birthday suit" she replied joking. She quickly got up and walked out of the room without looking back.

Corrina walked into the kitchen and saw the hamburgers and hotdogs and knew that Manny wanted to cook on the grill. She decided to make a salad and busied herself doing that. She wanted to talk to him about what Jevena had said, but how could she bring up the subject? Would he be insulted? What if he confirmed what her sister told her? How would she handle that? She sighed thinking that maybe all of it was just being blown out of proportion. She and Edward B had never discussed such things. Sex just happened. She had followed his lead. She didn't know what else to do. She had never been aggressive in the area of sex. She had always waited for him to approach her.

She thought about the other night and Manny and his magic fingers. Edward B would touch her, but only long enough to get her aroused so that they could get down to business. He had never made her feel like Manny made her feel and she had never reached a climax that way before. Seeing him stick those same fingers in his mouth and then look as if he was enjoying it totally unnerved her. She had heard of men who did that...use their tongues...but Edward B had told her that only a man who didn't have sufficient equipment needed to resort to that type of attention. The few times she had overheard conversations about such things among her peers the women thought it was nasty to put their mouth on a man down there and most men certainly didn't do it to their women!

Her thoughts were interrupted by Manny coming into the kitchen.

He looked at her like he wanted to have his way with her right there in the kitchen.

To try to keep her mind off of his package, she decided to bring up the fact that she saw Jenny. If there was anything that could kill a mood, Jenny was it! She was happy that he had told her the truth so quickly. Maybe now Jenny would just back off, but a part of her doubted that the woman was out of their lives yet.

He walked over to her and rubbed her arm which sent pleasant chills all over her. If he was affecting her with a simple touch, she wondered what it would be like to make love to this man.

Talking about Jenny could kill anyone's libido and so she tried to concentrate on what had happened earlier.

Manny walked over to the refrigerator and bent down to get a beer and she found herself staring at him. "How was the rest of your day?" he was asking. She couldn't help herself. As she was staring at his butt, she told him what Jevina had said.

He stood up and shut the refrigerator door. He seemed surprised and gave her a lopsided grin. "Do I exude sexual magnetism or something?" he was asking. He was kidding her, right? He was Mr. Sexy himself. She found herself clearing her throat and concentrating on the salad in front of her.

He came up behind her and bent down and kissed the back of her neck which somehow made her nipples ache. "Are you afraid of me, Corrina?" he whispered. "I promise you that I'm not that deviant."

"You're not" she found herself asking.

"Depends on what you call deviant" he chuckled in her ear. This type of talk was not helping. She turned around and looked at him and he reached up and touched her face. She was trying not to get lost in his stare, trying not to let him see the war that was going on inside her.

"It depends on what you think is deviant" he said watching her.

Somehow she knew that this man could teach her things that she couldn't begin to imagine. He took his fingers and brought them to his lips and licked them and then put them to her lips. She was getting wetter by the minute. Did he want her to suck his fingers? Damn! Her mind was on overload. She knew he was thinking about last night.

"If we have to talk about it...then it probably is" she found herself saying.

He snickered at her response. "That's a mighty closed minded answer, Corrina" he murmured, his voice low and husky. "I see we will have to have a talk."

Talk? Who could talk or even think straight around him? What was wrong with her?

Just then she heard Molly come in the door from school. Al told them that he couldn't stay because he had an appointment. Corrina watched as Manny swung his daughter around. She took a moment to get herself together and opened the refrigerator to retrieve the lemonade.

Manny tried to broach the subject again as they were eating, but she didn't want to get into it while Molly was still awake. She told him that she would talk to him about it later. He didn't push the issue and dropped the subject, but she knew that it would come back up again. Instead he insisted that they pick their wedding date and she settled for May 18th.

She called Molly into the house and told her to get ready to take her bath and go to bed.

"Tomorrow is a school day" she said smiling.

"Did you finish your homework?" Manny asked swinging her around.

Molly broke out in a fit of giggles. "Yes, Daddy!"

"Alright, then get ready for your bath." Manny replied.

Corrina filled the tub and got out some clean pajamas for her.

"You're going to be my new mommy." Molly said. "Can I still call you Corrina?"

"Yes, if you want to." Corrina replied.

She helped her out of the tub.

"I want Daddy to read me a bedtime story." she said after she climbed into bed.

As if on cue, Manny came into the room.

"I want a story, Daddy." she said.

"Alright then." Manny replied sitting on the bed.

Corrina left the two of them and began cleaning up the kitchen. May 18th was not the far away. She wanted a simple ceremony...just family and a few close friends. She wondered how Manny's family would react. How would her family's friends react. It was not something that she was looking forward to. She could just imagine some of the things they would say.

Manny came into the kitchen just as she was finishing the dishes.

"She's all tucked in" he said as he reached in the cabinet for a cigarette.

"Good"

He grabbed her hand and pulled her into the living room. He pulled out the piano and began to play and she sat next to him.

She thought about the first time they did this. The song was slow and romantic. It wasn't a piece she was familiar with so she just listened. She closed her eyes as he played.

"It's beautiful" she said as the piece ended. "What's it called?"

"It's my own composition. I haven't given it a name yet" he replied.

"You wrote this?" Corrina said shocked.

He turned to her and took her hands in his. "I need you to trust me, Corrina"

She was surprised that he would say something like that. "I do trust you, Manny."

"Really? Then what are you afraid of? Why do your sister's comments bother you so much? Don't deny it. I can tell. There's some concern there. I can see it."

Corrina looked away. How could she explain her feelings to him without feeling stupid?

"I guess I...I just don't know what you expect from me." she said finally.

"I expect you to be honest with me. I expect you to tell me what your needs are...what you like and what you don't like." he said watching her. "That's what it's all about. Communication."

She didn't say anything and he lifted her chin for her to meet his eyes.

"You've been married before...I mean...it was good wasn't it? I want it to be good for you."

"It was alright...I mean I enjoyed it" she said obviously embarrassed.

Manny was looking at her strangely. "I remember your little comment about 'slow down' when we were in the back yard...was he selfish?"

"Sometimes" Corrina replied clearly uncomfortable. She didn't want to talk about Edward B.

"Well, I try not to be." he said putting his arm around her.

"I really don't want to talk about him" Corrina replied.

"Fine. Let's talk about us then." he said. "Are you open minded Corrina."

She laughed nervously. "Now that scares me. What exactly do you mean by 'open minded'?"

"Corrina, no disrespect, but you sound like a virgin. Surely you know what you like in bed? I need to know in order to please you." he said sounding patient.

"I don't know...just take your time, I guess" She fidgeted on the stool. "Sometimes I guess I'm slow...so I get left behind and it's over before I know it."

Manny stared at her reading between the lines on what she was telling him. "Oh, Corrina" he said sympathetically.

"I won't leave you behind...I want you to get yours first...you know because a climax is so much easier for a man." He brought her hand to his lips and kissed it. "Just let me know...give me direction on what it takes."

Corrina stared at the floor. She felt so stupid. "I'm not exactly sure. When it happens...it just happens."

Manny stared at her and didn't reply for a moment.

"Corrina, as your husband I want to make it happen...every time."

She didn't know what to say to that. She glanced at him. "Like you did last night?"

He smiled at her. "That's one way. I enjoyed that, but I want a direct taste next time."

Her mouth fell open and she looked away.

"Uh, I've never...I mean...I thought men didn't like doing that." she said still fidgeting. "At least colored men."

Manny laughed. "Why not?"

"It's not sanitary."

Manny laughed again. "Don't you bathe?"

Corrina stared at him. "Of course I bathe! What has that got to do with it?"

"Why do you think that your body is dirty?" Manny asked.

"Well it's not dirty but that doesn't mean you want to put your mouth on it!" she reasoned.

"Why not" he pressed.

"Well...uh," Corrina was speechless. Suddenly a thought entered her mind.

"Alright, Manny. Think about this. My behind is clean, but that doesn't mean that you'd want to kiss it!" she said confident that she had made her point.

"I might. I'd love to kiss it and lick it too." he replied grinning.

Corrina jumped up off the stool and almost fell backwards. Manny caught her and couldn't help from laughing.

"I don't see what's so funny" she snapped pulling away from him.

He was too strong for her and pulled her into his arms. "Corrina, Corrina. I asked you if you trusted me, remember? What are you afraid of?"

"I'm not afraid" she protested. "It's just that...I'm used to normal sex."

"What's normal?" Manny replied. "Man on top with the lights out?"

"Yes, that's normal" she snapped.

"But normal wasn't cutting it for you was it, Corrina?"

She didn't know what to say to that. She got up and reached for her pocketbook.

"I think I'd better go." she replied.

He quickly pulled her to him. "You liked what I did last night, didn't you Corrina? You liked it and I liked it so what's wrong with that? I want to give you so much more than that."

"I think I'd better go" she said again.

He gave her a quick kiss. "Alright. Take the car. I'll drop this conversation right now, but we will talk again tomorrow. You're still a virgin in so many ways Corrina. That's not a bad thing. Annie was a virgin too. I'm a patient man."

She opened the door and looked back at him. "I'm not Annie, Manny."

"I know that" he replied. "I just want you to have an open mind and trust me."

She didn't know what to say in response to that, but she quickly exited the house knowing that she had a lot to think about besides the plans for their upcoming wedding.