Thanks everyone for your continued support. I have decided to lose 45 lbs. I need to be healthy for my kids and myself. :) Whose with me?

Day 1 Continued...

Wow, I have been in New York all of 2 hours and I already feel myself extremely overwhelmed.

The folks around here are rude, but surprisingly friendly. If that makes any sense at all.

It is now 1 A.M. and I am just now getting to my home for the next few months.

Since landing at JFK international I have had nothing to eat except an apple that I picked up from one of the vendors there.

I knocked on the door, just to be polite in case one of the others just happened to get here earlier than planned.

I let myself in with the key that I had picked up earlier from the front desk.

The skank there had been a real pleasure. She eyed me up and down before promptly turning her nose up in utmost disgust.

FUCK you too bitch, give me a few months and I will look better than you.

I would kill for a Reeses peanut butter cup right now.

NO BELLA!

Those days are over. For now atleast, until I get the weight that I want to be. Then, I will be able to exercise and keep it off, and eat the right porportions.

I am a teenager, of course this weight loss is about vanity to some degree. But, more importantly it's a lifestyle change. I am sick and tired of getting embarrassed when I get out of breath from just walking from my truck into the front door of school. I'm sick of my back and knees hurting every single night.

I might have a lot of meat on my bones, but I have a very small bone structure.

I will get there.

After getting all of my luggage stored away and the new sheets put on my bed, I plopped down and turned on my phone.

Immediately, I noticed that I had 6 missed calls waiting for me.

Well, dang.

Four of them from my daddy, one from bubba, and one from E.C.

Sweet baby Jesus.

Well, I should probably call Dad and Em first.

"Hello? Bells?" Dad asked anxiously.

"Yeah, dad.. it's me.. sorry it took so long to call you, I wanted to get settled in first." I said, to ease his fear.

"I figured." he said, pausing and taking a deep breath. "Look, Bells.. I don't know how to tell you this, but I know that you have befriended that new kid Edward."

My heart just dropped in my stomach.

Holy fuck.

I can feel my heart pounding in my ears.

"uh, um.. yeah." I said nervously.

"Well, I hate to tell you Bella, but his mom was killed in a car accident today." He stated sadly. "I worked the scene and it wasn't pretty. His dad was in the car too and got some pretty nasty injuries as well and it in a coma."

My heart ached for Edward as my dad was telling me all of this.

"How is he?" I asked simply.

"He's fine considering the circumstances." he took another nervous breath. "Look, here's the thing... the kid has no place to go, no other family... no one."

"Okay, dad.. your pausing is killing me."

"I'm letting him stay in your room Bells." he said.

Say what?

"Oh" I said, as the shock ran through me.

"...I'm sorry, but I couldn't let him go into the system, when his dad could be fine in less than a month and your gone and all.." he stuttered.

"Look, Dad... It's fine, I promise." I said assuringly.

"I should go call him Dad."

"No, Bells. He's asleep, had an exhausting day and crashed as soon as we got back here around 11." He said.

"Oh, Okay. Well, I'll talk to you later dad."

"Okay, Bells... I love you honey." He said softly.

"You too, dad."

I hung up the phone and curled up in bed and cried for Edward, whose whole world just got flipped upside down.

Once I finally settled down, I text him to let him know that I had talked to my dad and was here for him.

Then I was out.