Part Twelve

Finn woke up on Sunday morning after a nightmare, Brittany had the baby, but she stayed with Santana and he was never allowed to see Brittany or his son. Rachel broke up with him when she found out and left for New York, and Quinn told him she wanted to be with him and then changed her mind when she found out about the baby and left for Yale.

- Finn, need 2 talk 2 u in person. B x

- Be at yours in 10. Finn

"Oh, crap…" He had been dreading this for two days now, 'Man up Hudson, you were ready for this in sophomore year, you damn well better be ready for it now.' He pulled on his jacket and half ran to the car. The drive there seemed to take forever, the faster he drove the slower he felt like he was going.

He knocked on the door when he arrived and was greeted by her mom.

"Hi, can I see Brittany,"

"Sure Finn, just go straight up, she's in her room,"

He climbed the stairs and knocked on the door before entering, she was sitting on her bed, and stood up when she saw him enter.

"Hey…" he said.

"Hey…" she replied

"Listen," he took a deep breath before continuing, "before you say anything I just want to say that I promise I'm going to be there for you, it doesn't matter what Rachel or Santana says I'm going to be there, I have my job at Burt's shop, I can save up money, Burt and my Mom would help, even Kurt would, we just probably shouldn't ask him to buy our baby clothes, I love you Brittany…" he walked towards her and looked into her eyes, "You're my best friend, maybe we wont ever be more than that, but we're freaking awesome, friends can raise a baby together. Look, I even wrote down some stuff I remembered from when Quinn was pregnant, I can-"

"Finn, stop!" she took his hand, "It's okay, I'm not pregnant… I got my- well I'm not pregnant, Finn."

"Oh…" something welled up in him that he didn't expect, disappointment. He felt hot and cold at the same time and tears built up in the corner of his eyes. He let go of Brittany's hand and turned around to try and hide the tears from her but she realised what he was doing.

"Finn… what's wrong? Did you…" she turned him around to look at her and his tears were already running down his cheeks, "Did you want to have a baby?" she asked him. He gave a non-committal shrug and looked away again. "Finn, we're not old enough to want to have-"

"Don't!" he interrupted, "I can take it from other people but not you, don't tell me what I should want… Everyone does it; like with football and glee club, everyone tells me I should be the glee guy. What If I don't want to be the glee guy? I love to sing, but I love football! I love being quarterback! I really wanted that scholarship! Everyone; Rachel, Mr Schue, everyone! They all tell me glee is where I belong. Nobody ever lets me make my own mind up!" he took a deep breath realising he was starting to scare Brittany slightly with his rant he had seemingly pulled out of nowhere.

"I'm sorry… I…" but she didn't know what to tell him, she hadn't seen him this upset since he found out Beth was pucks baby, then the pieces started to click together in her head before he even told her.

"And the baby… my baby… Beth. She was mine! Do you have any idea what that's like?" he began shouting again, not caring about the torrent of tears falling down his face, "I loved her! I still do! I love that little girl way more than I'm supposed to because she was supposed to be my little girl! That day Rachel told me about Puck, I lost the love of my life and my best friend, but more importantly it was like I lost my own fucking daughter!"

"Finn… I never realised… nobody did…"

"Yeah well, I didn't expect them too, it was obvious that I was going to be written off…" he calmed down slightly, "I guess maybe if we would have had this baby, it would have taken my mind off Beth, given me a baby I could have instead of one I can just imagine a life with…" he sighed and collapsed onto her bed, "I know, it's pathetic…"

"It's not pathetic," she told him, lying down next to him, "At least we don't have to worry about Santana and Rachel now,"

"Yeah," he said, his mood lightening slightly, "how about we watch a movie?"

Brittany was in a good mood at school the next day, Santana even made a point of eating with her at lunch and she never had a chance to throw up. Finn had cheered up majorly since the day before and they spent their last class together drawing cartoon versions of everyone in new directions. They walked through the hallway laughing at how bad Finns drawings were on their way to glee club when she realised whom they were walking behind.

"I got a text from Shelby last night," he told her, "Beth has been drawing a lot apparently, mostly cats, at least Shelby thinks they're cats, she's not too sure," Quinn laughed a little, "she's so much like you," he finished.

"When have you ever known me to draw cats?" she asked him, smirking slightly.

"No, not the drawing, she just looks a lot like you, and she reads a lot, for a toddler at least. Well, Shelby reads to her while Beth looks at the page, but she's your baby, so she probably can understand it without Shelby reading…" he laughed lightly, "It's kinda weird, Beth takes after you so much and Berry takes after Shelby, I wonder if other adopted kids take after their birth mom or dad,"

Brittany turned to look at Finn, his face was blank and almost unreadable but she knew exactly what he was thinking, she grabbed his hand and squeezed it before letting go and hurrying forward to talk to Quinn.

"Hey Quinn, can I talk to you for a minute," she glanced at Puck, "In private,"

"Sure," Quinn said, looking concerned, Brittany took her hand and led her away from the two boys.

"Sorry, I just needed to end that conversation or Finn would probably explode or something," she said, glancing over towards him.

"Finn?" Quinn asked confused, turning round to look at him but only just catching a glimpse of his back as he hurried into the choir room, "why would Finn explode?"

"Oh, never mind, lets head to rehearsals," she said smiling innocently.

"Brittany, you know that look doesn't work on me, what's wrong with Finn?"

"I shouldn't say…" she said, but the look on Quinns face told her that if she didn't tell her now Quinn would be worrying about it until she heard it from Finn himself, she sighed, "Oh fine, I just don't think he likes hearing about Beth,"

"Is he still upset that I cheated on him?" Quinn asked, looking terrified.

"No, honey," she smiled sympathetically, "Don't let on, but he's kind of completely forgiven you for that, I think he's still upset about it sometimes, but something tells me he totally understands about how unfair it would be to hate you for being taken advantage of when you were drunk," she explained, guilt once again resurfacing as she remembered their indiscretion.

"Then what is it?"

"You really can't work it out?" she asked, Quinn shook her head "He loves her…"

"He loves my daughter?" she asked looking slightly alarmed.

"No, not like that, this isn't twilight or something, he doesn't want to marry her," she hesitated as she tried to think of a way to explain it, "To him, she's not just your daughter… or yours and Puck's, she was his remember?"

"Oh…" Quinn seemed to realise what Brittany was hinting at.

"Don't tell anyone, but he kind of cried about it yesterday, he really misses her, he like wishes she was his daughter and not Puck's. He really loved her when he thought she was his baby, did you really expect that to go away just because he found out he was wrong?"

"I can't believe I've been so stupid…" Quinn said her eyes watering, "He sang to the freaking sonogram! He sang to her sonogram and I never even thought… He kept quiet all this time?"

"What else could he do? 'Oh by the way Rachel, you know that baby your mother adopted? Well I wish she was my baby, hope you don't mind.' 'Oh Quinn, you know that baby you gave up for adoption because you knew you couldn't raise it at sixteen, you know the one, the one that isn't actually may baby, the one I have no parental rights over, yeah that one. Well I think you should have kept it and raised it with me.' It wouldn't exactly go down very well would it?" Quinn shook her head, biting her lower lip as her tears were on the verge of falling, Brittany pulled her in to hug, "Don't worry about it; just be careful around him, okay? You and Beth mean a lot more to him than you think."

A/N: As I said before, I might not update for a while as i try and figure out how to continue/end this after the whole proposal thing and all that. I might just make this completely AU even though I normally don't like it. Anyway i apologize in advance for the lack of updates in the next week or two, i'll try to get at least 2 or 3 chapters out but hopefully I'll be inspired and manage to end this properly. Thanks for reading, love you all x