Random Kat- Well, only time will tell whether they'll get back together, they have both changed a lot since the last time they've seen each other. Thanks for the review : )
brightSTAR_ aha! Here's the chapter you've been excited about. And yeah, I love Carlos so much! Just cause he's a little kid at heart, I think he's such a cutie. Well that's how I operate! I make most of my drama from awkward situations so you've come to the right place. Naww, thank you for the praise, it warms me up inside knowing you like my story so much! Thanks for the review : )
TheFonzGhandi19- Well…I don't want to give anything away, but I just think you may like this chapter ; ) aww, thank you! I thought Griffin deserved to win something; after all he is a pretty damn amazing father to Echo and Asha. Thanks for the review…well I've just realized, it's really thank you for the reviews! Thank you for reviewing twice, I know it's a lot of hassle but I want you to know it doesn't go unseen or unrecognized! So Thank You! : 3
BigTimeFan50- Aha, you're just going to have to wait and see, I don't want to ruin the future chapters for you. It makes me really excited when people notice the lyric choices! I don't know why, maybe it's because it's in every chapter and not very many people actually realize how long it takes to find a song that actually fits with the chapter! Thank you for seeing that the lyrics fit! You don't know how happy you've made me and thank you for the review :3
Anonymous Reviewer- Thanks! Well here's the update you've wanted and you're just going to have to wait and see if there's going to be a reunion. Thanks for the review : )
AlmostHalfwayThere- Aww, thank you! The idea for me was a little sketchy cause I was mixing the fictional TV show with what actually happens and I wasn't sure whether anyone would like it. But it gives me a chance to add great drama! Thanks for the review and here's the update : )
TheNamesMrsSchmidt- Aha, I appreciate you're enthusiastic response to me updating quickly : ) I thought the last chapter was a little boring actually, well compared to this one anyway! Aha, thank you. All this praising makes me blush though you can't see it, obviously. Thanks for the review, you've brightened my day : )
Anonymous Reviewer- You've reviewed twice! Aha, I've responded to your review up there ^^ and whoever you are, thank you for reviewing twice! I appreciate it. : )
msdancerchick15- Aww, thank you. Aha, I just love giving everyone a little bit of angst, it's what I do. Yeah, Cecho would be super cute but I think anyone with Carlos would be super cute, they really would! I've just got to create him the most imperfect girl ; ) but Carlos' story is way way into the future! I've barely even written James, let alone Logan's! Aww, thank you for noticing If I Die Young, I really do like the song and I thought, 'hey! This would look great in my story' so now here it is, aha. I hope you've had a good 2011 then and say hello to 2012! Thanks for the review : )
Kiki61058- Well you'll know the winner right here, right now! Naww thank you for all of this praise, I really appreciate it. My vocab just comes to me as I write, it's no big deal but I always proof read the chapters at least twice to make sure there are no mistakes. You're starting to know me now, there's always a twist in my story somewhere along the lines. Thanks for the review : )
iiRusher- Wow! Someone is very enthusiastic! I love you! Paha, I love reviews like this, it makes me know I've done something right. Aha thank you, but because I'm English I've had to watch a lot of the episodes online as we've only just seen Big Time Break-up I think it's called; the one where Jo moves to New Zealand for like 3 years. Aha, half-broskie! That's gold. And yeah, this story is pretty much just filled of tension and drama, it's just the way I roll! Haters gonna hate ; ) Don't hurt your computer! What has it done to you? And plus, if you break your computer, you won't be able to read updates, would you? Don't leave me forever, as I said I love reviews like this! I think they're amazing! So thank you, you little amazing person for reviewing : )
TheClaire24- You know how to get into Echo's head. She's feeling all of that and regret on top of that too. Well I'm not going to tell you who wins, but you do know me well…it's like you're predicting all the twists I'm going to put in the story. I'll just have to catch you off guard ; ) I seriously miss Kecho too! I miss writing them, but I just can't upload a random chapter of Echo and Kendall chilling together after all this drama. No matter how fun it would be to confuse everyone. Echo's changed, everyone has but I think she's definitely matured the most, Kendall has changed the most…possibly for the worst. Here's the next chapter and thanks for the review : )
EvilMonkeyBabyD- Everyone's missing Kecho! Don't worry, they will reunite this story, it's whether they both like each other. They've both changed dramatically so it's going to be very weird seeing the new characters clash together. I know, Michael Buble rapes Justin Bieber any day! Michael doesn't need an award to know he's amazing. He just is ; ) thanks for the review : )
ToLazyToLogin- Well I wouldn't want to tell you what happens and completely ruin it for you now, would I? Here's the chapter you wanted and I hope you enjoy it! Thanks for the review : )
harley- You know it's going to happen sometimes, hence the name of the story! Thanks for the review : )
Carla- Well, it's happened! And here's the next chapter, with shit loads of drama just for you ;D Thanks for the review : )
TheCooliest- Ahh! I would never murder anyone, I promise I'm innocent. I'm glad you liked the whole concept of mixing the two realties of the awards show and the TV show, it makes me feel a whole lot better. Well here's the next chapter you've been waiting for and I hope your still intact enough to read it ; ) thanks for the review : )
whatIfeel- Why would you feel upset for? It doesn't matter about who reviews first in my opinion, it matters about who constantly gives me quality reviews that make me smile and give me good material to respond to! Well, I love leaving people wanting more because it gives me good reviews : ) I'm thankful you thought it was all a good idea to mix the awards show and the TV show because I was really unsure about it. Aww, I would love to visit LA and see Hollywood but apparently it isn't as posh and great that everyone makes it out to be, not that I know it's just what I heard. I used to read stories so much and never write I thought that it was too much effort and there was no point in it and I don't know, this was just a little story I did to amuse myself and look at what it's turned into! Aww, thank you and I also hate it when people just do a shitty ending to an amazing story or just suddenly turn around and make their story so unrealistic that it's just pathetic. Well thank you again, I try to keep the cheese rating to a minimum and keep to a vague plot line I've made for myself. I mean everyone says they want Kecho but I can't just turn around and make Echo tell Kendall she loves him more than before and Kendall agrees and the whole miscarriage and shit that's happened between them just gets ignored because it's unrealistic. Yeah, well my aim is to write a story for all of them but by the time I've finished it will be well into the future, maybe end of 2013. The James OC story will be the next one to be up but I'm nowhere near finished this story, it's got a long way to go yet and maybe a possible third sequel depending on how I leave it off. Actually, that was just a little drabble I wrote a year ago, I first kinda liked Logan so I had a little daydream then wrote about it but after about a week I saw Kendall and I was like, woah! I guess I never actually deleted the little story, it's not doing anything it's just on my computer somewhere. I actually have something else planned for a Logan story, something that is going to be so realistic, it's something that I want people to really think about but that story is after the James OC one. Well here's the update you requested and thank you for giving me such a long detailed review! I really appreciate it : )
Hi I'm Chelsea- Aww, thank you! Well here is that update you wanted and that's just how I work my stories, a whole load of cliffhangers. I just love making people uncomfortable and on edge, I don't know why. Ah! I don't want to murder anyone, I wouldn't! Honest, I'm innocent! Well here's the next chapter and I hope your heart is still beating and you're still conscious! Thanks for the review : )
socoolio- I'm guessing you want an update ; ) Well you get to see what happens now and there's a whole load of drama going down, just saying. Well you know they are going to reunite somewhere along the lines because of the name of the story! Well, thanks for the review : )
Anonymous Skrtle- Yeah, I really wanted to do the storyline of the KCA's 2011 awards but I couldn't find a link that would let me watch it in England anywhere so I ended up watching the 2010 ones but filled in Big Time Rush and stuff. I don't like Black Eyed Peas to be honest, well I used to like them back when they sang 'Shut Up' I think that was the only song I liked from them so yeah, I would say Big Time Rush is a hell of a lot better! Well that is something you will never know ; ) I won't be writing anymore 3rd POV stuff because they aren't on tour anymore. Aha, why 104 times? Why not 100 or 105? And how can you not think Carlos is a little cutie? He's amazing! And to be honest, Logan can be cute at times as well but never as cut as Carlos. She may not hate Carlos but that doesn't mean she doesn't hate BTR, because that's a combination of Kendall and let's just say she doesn't like him that much. Well thank you for the review and here's the chapter : )
anonymous reviewer- I've never seen that TV show, thank you, thank you, thank you. Here is the chapter you've been waiting for, so you better enjoy it! Happy new years to you! Well I am in England so I think I'm like 5 hours ahead of you or something? I'm not sure. Aha, don't worry, we know how to throw down mate! Thanks for the review : )
ally0101- I had a great Christmas, thanks. I hope you had a good one, too. Thank you, I wasn't sure whether the KCA's would be stupid to put in or not. Well, even though Echo hasn't won like every award she's been up for –because it would be really unrealistic if she did- she still gets credit for what she's doing, after all this is her first one, there are many more to come. And the whole thing with Drake Bell, well who wouldn't? He's fine! Aha, I had a crush on him too in the times of Drake and Josh. Yeah, I think my Jecho/OC is a lot more…'raunchy' if you get what I mean ; ) Happy new years to you and thank you for the review : )
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I shall leave you with this- Thank you for looking at Echo's choice award dress! I appreciate it. Here is the update and happy new years to you, too! Thanks for the review : )
Gummy'Fish'Lover- Aha, well I hated Degrassi so I hope that's a compliment! Well, I'm glad I made you so interactive with my story. Really? 20 minutes? I'm sorry! Well, I've tried to always make her the opposite of a Mary-Sue because I cringe at all of those stories, I mean the character's life wouldn't be as perfect as they make them out to be. Aha, well writing is just my hobby, I doubt I have enough skill to become a professional. Well, I thank you for reading and reviewing. Woah, lotta love for me then? Thank you so much! I really hope you enjoy this chapter and thanks for such a detailed review : )
ATL-KSIMSO3- Aww, thank you. I'm glad you enjoyed that story, favourite author? I'm flattered! Here's the update you wanted so you better enjoy it and thank you for the review : )
BigTimeGinger- Before I respond to anything, I just wanna say that I love gingers and I think that they are amazing. Anyway, back to responding… I didn't realize I was spoken about between people, I don't have anybody I know on here so I guess I can't really talk to anyone about it. Well I say thank you to you and your friend…whichever reviewer your friend is! Don't worry, I'm always inside writing and responding so you're not a loser and gingers can never be losers! I hate it when I make people cry, it makes me feel so sad, but I guess it's a positive thing…but I'm sorry for that nonetheless. Well here is the reading of the envelope in this chapter so enjoy! Thanks for the review : )
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RoseSchmidt- Thank you! I'm really not that good of a writer, I'm sure there are better writers than me out in this site. Don't worry, it'll be going for quite some time…between you and me there may be another sequel, but no more after that. I liked the idea of a trilogy…but I'm not sure yet because I don't think this story will be long enough yet. I'll just see how it goes. Believe me, you're not a loser! And even if you are, I'd be a loser with you and we can be the coolest losers anyone has ever met. Well thank you for such a lovely review and enjoy the chapter : )
xKiki . Bonn- Yes, yes! It's my bro-skeeeeee! Hey, a review is a review, I'm not complaining. Well I wasn't sure about the whole KCA thing originally because it's like mixing reality with what actually happens yearly. I used to have such a massive, embarrassing crush on Drake Bell. They don't make TV shows like Drake and Josh and Kennan and Kel anymore. Thank you for realizing that, even though she has probably matured more than anyone else in this story, she's not the only one who has actually grown up. Well, obviously Carlos would never fully mature! I totally agree with you…though I guess he would be great with kids. Baha! Goatee, it's all about the 5o'clock shadow, mate! Maybe you are really there… o.O is there something you haven't told me? ; ) anyhow, I'm glad I'm giving you the visuals. Creepy, you…psshh ;D gosh, stay out of my mind! Stop reading what I'm going to do…I'm not making anything obvious, I swear! D; Black Eyed Peas are just horrid now, I mean back when they were telling people to Shut Up, they were good back then and now they're just annoying to me. Ouch, that's waaaaay too early. Baha, my heir is learning things quickly then! Maybe your baby is trying to tell you that something big is gonna happen in this story soon…or maybe it's got like a secret laptop inside your stomach and writing a badass story right now, you never know! Paha, nah it's not creepy! Well you're boyfriend is just jealous of your psychopathic ways ; ) well here is the update you wanted, thanks for the totally 'non creepy' review! ; )
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Look up at the picture hanging on the wall
Me and you when we had it all
Funny oh that money I can recall

Then one day you just up and gone
Round about the time it all went wrong
Leaving me all alone
Lee Evans- 9 Times Out of 10

Fuck my life.

Really? Really God?

"The winners are, Big Time Rush!" I exclaimed into the microphone happily when in reality, I just died inside.

I watched with a smile in my face –when really I was watching in horror- as Big Time Rush made their way up on stage.

I picked up the blimp off the podium.

WHAT THE FUCK DO I DO?

If I don't hug them and kiss them on the cheek, it looks weird!

If I hug them and kiss them on the cheek, it feels weird!

My eyes locked on them as the jumped up the stage stairs and bounced over to me, Logan came over first, I presented him with the blimp and he grinned at me.

"Congratulations!" I told him, actually meaning it as Logan pulled me into a hug and we kissed each other's cheeks.

"Echo!" As soon as I stopped hugging Logan Carlos catapulted himself onto me, kissing me repeatedly on the cheek and hugging me tight and I laughed lightly.

"Hey, Carlos." I said with a grin as he went to stand by Logan.

My smile faltered as James stood in front of me. I held my breath as we both hesitantly went in for a hug and as we were about to kiss each other on the cheek, James' breath suddenly fanned out on my ear.

"We need to talk." He said simply and I nodded against him in our hug and when we parted he gave me such an un-James like look that it was weird.

And then, I looked up at Kendall and all the emotions I had been feeling and being tormented with over the past 9 months came rushing back and hit me like a blow to the stomach and my breath hitched.

Seeing him so up close and personally made all the emotions hit me over again; anger, hurt, anxiety, nervousness, depression, embarrassment, betrayal, stress, shock… but most regrettably, care and that feeling hit me harder than the others.

It was then that I realized a tiny part of me cared for Kendall Knight, still…after everything that he did to me, everything that happened; I still cared for him. Was that pathetic?

But I was still partially broken from the mess he left me in.

His eyes connected with mine and the forest eyes looked straight into my soul, we both had forced smiles on our faces and as he reluctantly went in for a hug, I panicked and quickly shot up my hand for him to shake it, some sort of anger flashed through his face momentarily but he took my hand.

And from that touch, it was like I had flash backs, the times we had together, the sex, the relationship…the break up.

I had to avert my eyes, the intensity of his stare was just too much for me, I took a step back as the guys crowded around the microphone and Logan began talking again.

"Third blimp of the night!" Logan said cheerfully and the crowd yelled in return, showing them their love.

"It seems like we can't get off this stage, but I don't blame you, I mean, look at me." James grinned to the audience though I could see straight through his act. He made himself out to be a pretty boy even though he's matured.

Indeed, we really did need to talk.

"We honestly don't know what to say, we've said all our thank yous in the rest of the acceptance speeches and I don't want to bore you to tears with another one." Logan said shamefully.

"Believe me, he can do that!" Carlos said seriously into the microphone and I grinned at what he said.

"So, we are just going to graciously show our thanks." Kendall said and the rest of the guys nodded, as they followed me back stage before any of them could say a word to me, I did what I was aching to do when I saw their band name on the envelope: escape.

I quickly got out the same way I came in and returned straight to my seat quickly and quietly. Griffin gave me a fatherly look while Jett gave me a look I had never seen before.

Let me guess, we would end up 'talking' too.

"Now, I know what you're thinking, 'Kevin, what are you doing on slime island? You're too cool for that!' Indeed I am, but I have been giving the great honors of presenting the next award. The award for Best Onscreen Kiss. I've had many kisses in my lifetime, mostly to my mother, but hey, a kiss is a kiss right? Am I right?...no? Am I not? Okay then, anyway, the nominees for this category are… Jett Stettson and Echo Kimberleigh on New Town High…Nathan Kress and Miranda Cosgrove on iCarly… Nathan Kress and Jennette McCurdy on iCarly... and, Jett Stettson and Jo Taylor on New Town High. Now, I'm told a kiss cam will come up with the two people that have won the award, so, camera, do your thing!"

I waited in anticipation to who was going to win the Best TV Kiss.

And then, just like that I saw on the screen who had won the onscreen kiss.

The first thing I saw was Jett's happy smile and then…Jo's smitten face.

What?

Jo?

I watched in actual horror as Jo and Jett got up out of their seats. "Jett Stettson and Jo Taylor!" Kevin yelled out.

I watched as Jo took Jett's hand and led him up to slime island.

"Wow, I wasn't expecting to win this award!" Jo said happily as Jett held the blimp and she spoke excitedly into the microphone.

"I was, it was just to which lucky lady got to win it with me and kiss me." Jett said arrogantly.

…What did he just say?

"That's right!" Kevin said winking to the pair. "Kiss! Kiss! Kiss…" He trailed off as the audience chanted 'Kiss' and I found that I was digging in my nails into my own hands as I watched in fury as Jett literally grabbed Jo's face and pulled her to him.

It wasn't just a kiss, oh no.

It was a full frontal, tongue sandwich.

What the fuck is that bastard doing?

So, I wasn't a completely reformed woman, I still got jealous extremely easily.

The thing was, yes I was angry at Jo but really what was my reason? It's not her fault she won the award, it's not her fault she's dating Kendall I mean, we're clearly not dating anymore. But I was angry at Jett, yes I knew he was Florida's bad boy but he fucking grabbed her face and stuck his tongue down her throat!

What the fuck is going on?

I gritted my teeth together as they finished and the audience cheered and Jett winked at Jo as he led her backstage.

Probably to fuck her.

Yeah, we were definitely going to have a 'talk.'

"And now, presenting the next award, Cherry Boom." The over voice said and I watched in pure anger as Jo walked back out seconds later, smoothly rubbing the corner of her mouth, making it look like she had an itch when any female knows that she was rubbing the smudged lipstick off the corner of her mouth.

Deep breaths, in out, in and out don't imagine ripping her head off; you've changed, you're mature.

Just. Breathe. Don't glare at her.

"Our next award is a big one." Jo said.

Yeah, just like Jett's dick, whore! Breathe, breathe goddamnit!

"Jo's talking about the Big Help Award. The Big Help is a mission where all of us do good on our own, but the big help puts us all in one big united team and with the Big Help Award we honor a person who has really been making a difference in changing the world." Kat explained.

Suddenly, compared to Blondie and Jo I worshiped the ground she walked on.

"And we're so honored to be here to tell you about this year's recipient." Blondie put in.

"Mr. Justin Timberlake." Jo said as a VT of Justin came on in the background on the two large screens.

"Not only is Justin Timberlake a singer, an actor and incredibly good looking man, but he has been constantly travelling to Africa over the past few years." Kat began.

"He first went for a charity organisation 5 years ago, but since then, he's continually gone back upon his own accord to the less fortunate than us." Blondie continued.

"He spends months at a time out in the wild with these people, offering support and brining them food and clean water, Justin has also helped build several water pumps for large villages that are desperately in need of water. He's courage to continue to help these people and live in such drastic conditions in order to offer help is absolutely amazing and needs to be applauded, so this year's Big Help Award goes to Justin Timberlake." Jo finished, suddenly a VT appeared of Justin holding the blimp.

"Wow, thank you for such amazing support Nick, I'm truly gratified to receive this award. I don't think that a lot of people fully comprehend and understand just at how shocking the conditions are out in these less fortunate towns. There's no electricity, no proper food, no clean water, no TV's, no rooms, just a mud shack for most of them. For the people out in Africa, they live every day as a challenge and doubt to whether they will make it to the next. I took so many things for granted before I went 5 years ago, I mean we can go to the tap and take water out and we don't have to go very far, people walk for as long as a day, just to collect dirty water that they are forced to drink. Going to Africa has actually given me an insight to how cruel life can be to people who are no different than you and I, just unfortunate. So, when you drink that water, or when you turn on that TV or when you used that computer, just think to yourself, how would life be without it? Thank you."

"And now, presenting the final award of the night, Big Time Rush!" The over voice announced and I forced back a mental groan in my head, still painfully aware that neither Jo no Jett had returned to their seats.

"The last award of the night." Logan mused, shaking his head sadly as him, Carlos, James and Kendall all stood on slime island.

"Don't worry Logan, there's always next year's KCA's." Carlos said, reading off the prompt.

"I'm sure we'd be welcomed next year." As Kendall said it many girls screamed around the room.

"You're right." Logan said smiling. "But enough about me, we're here to present the last award of the show and it's the most honoring."

"Yes, in fact this award is new to the KCA's, the Inspirational Award." James said. "It literally is what it says; an award for amazing inspiration and the recipient for this award could not be more inspirational. The inspiration award goes to, Echo Kimberleigh."

What?

"From the very first time we met Echo, she was definitely unique." Carlos said, grinning into the microphone. "She was a guardian for her sister and was living alone with her."

"But thanks to her sister's obsession to Big Time Rush we finally got to see the true person Echo is." Kendall said and I couldn't believe what was happening.

"Echo is a dear friend of ours who always thought irrationally, made enemies easily and was prone to accidents and mistakes, but that is what made her like anybody else. She admits the mistakes she's made and at times, tries to learn from them." Carlos continued.

"The past few months have not been easy for Echo, everybody here knows that. For such a young woman, she went through a miscarriage, an eating disorder and a near death experience, all at the same time." Logan said tenderly.

"But then, she began to recover and from the support her fans gave her, she became stronger and began writing songs and got into New Town High." Carlos said.

"But then, it all came crashing down again when her father, Arthur Kimberleigh was involved in a terrible accident that saw him on the brink of death." Kendall said.

"She neglected her work and her lyrics to be with her father and didn't leave the hospital for 4 weeks." Logan said.

"In fact, throughout the time we've met Echo she has not only gone through all of this but she was reunited with her father, early on last year. From an outside view Echo's life could be viewed at an extremely dramatic soap opera that's overly exaggerated." James said.

"But that's what makes her truly inspirational, she faces things head on without thinking which is what a lot of us secretly do, but she makes no secret about it." Kendall said.

"So, please put your hands together for the Inspirational Award recipient and my sister, Echo Kimberleigh."

Oh, that's not good.

Did he just call me his sister?

I took a deep breath as I got up, most of the things they said about me were true but the way they put it made it seem like I was Virgin Mary but most importantly, it made it seem that they never left me hanging like they did.

Why did they, out of all people they had to present the award?

I put on the best fake smile I could put on as I high-fived the kids and waved to several of them.

And now I was faced with another difficult situation.

How do I accept the award?

Do I do what I did last time when I was presenting the award?

I had no time to think as Logan wrapped me up in a hug and kissed me on the cheek. Then Carlos jumped at me and nearly squeezed the living life out of me. "I've missed you so much!" He exclaimed in my ear as he kissed me on the cheek multiple times like a happy dog liking its owner's face.

"Sister," James said to me as he hugged me with a smile and kissed me on the cheek.

The worst thing was, I still felt an immediate attraction to James, which kinda freaked me out, we were half siblings after all.

"I thought you were mad." I whispered in his ear while we embraced.

"Why would I ever be mad at you?" He asked in a clear rhetorical way as we parted.

And then, I faced Kendall once again.

I hated the way when as soon as I looked at him my body would warm and my heart would beat loudly in my chest and the way my breath hitched and how I still managed to get lost in his eyes.

But the reality was, we were both committed to someone else.

And even though in my heart I still felt a little for Kendall, my brain didn't want to go through the pain all over again.

After all, it nearly killed me. No pun intended.

Kendall saved me by sticking out his hand to me as a friendly hand shake and I felt relief rush through my body.

I took his hand, ignoring the way my heart would twinge at the contact and how all that crappy love story sparks ran down my hand.

Either that or Kendall was a wizard.

But I couldn't blame magic for the way I felt -or still feel- about him.

Then, it was like the worst thing could happen. Kendall took my hand and brought it up to his lips and kissed it.

The fucking nerve of him!

My hand burned and I instantly pulled it out of his grasp like my hand was on fire.

Either he was still a massive pervert or Kendall was feeling the same as I was; outrageously angry and jealous to what our 'other halves' had just done on live television.

And I knew it was the latter.

That's what hurt even more, the fact that he was playing with me was one thing but he was using me to make his own girlfriend jealous is just another thing entirely.

Carlos thrust the award in my hands with a massive smile on his face as the four stood to the side of me.

"Wow, I can't thank you enough, that speech alone makes me seem so amazing, but it's obvious I'm not. I'm not sure what inspiration I've given to people when most of the things I've gone through are self inflicted and my own fault, but that's where I learn from my mistakes. Once you get something wrong, don't do what you did again, it will probably end in the same way. So, thanks to Nick, Big Time Rush and all the fans I have out there for supporting the throughout the last few months. You honestly don't know how much I appreciate this award. Thank you!" I held the blimp up in the air and smiled as the audience clapped and cheered for me.

"So, that's the KCA's 2012." Kevin said, up on the main stage. "Looks like I couldn't achieve super awesome…but say if I slimed 5 celebs on slime island, do you think I could get it then?" He shouted to the kids.

Ha, people on slime island are going to get-oh no.

1, 2, 3, 4, 5. Shit. There's freaking five of us standing on the island now!

Please, no!

Please!

"What do you think, kids?" Kevin asked them with a grin on his face.

"Slime, slime, slime, slime, slime!" Not only the kids but the audience chanted to.

I looked to Carlos for help but he was just grinning, Logan was smiling, too. James kept touching his hair and I didn't even want to look at Kendall.

"Look, they look ready for it." Kevin announced and a look of pure horror appeared on my face. "5…4…3" Kevin began a countdown to which the children and many other people in the room –even Carlos- joined in. "2…1…SLIME TIME!"

And the pool of slime that was next to slime island suddenly spurted green goo towards us.

Need I say no more to the fact that I went from being a human to a reincarnation of the Grinch.

As cheers filled the room, Carlos whooped along with Logan while James and I looked more horrified than anything.

"That's it for this year's Kid's Choice awards, I've been your super awesome host-" Kevin cut off as slime covered him from the small fountain squirter things at the front of the stage. "Kevin James…goodnight!" Kevin managed to say as he turned as green as a Christmas tree.

As the cameras cut off Carlos turned to me and laughed. "You're green!"

I rolled my eyes but smirked. "So are you." I told him.

"Echo… I think we need to talk, all of us." Logan said, all of us covered in the gloop so now wasn't a good time, I looked over my shoulder as Kendall was standing to the right of me but he was nowhere to be seen.

"He's gone to go get the goo off." James explained. His hair seemed to have taken most of the goo, much to his displeasure. "Look, we'll go get cleaned up, we've got our spare clothes with us and we'll meet you at the after party."

"There's an after party?" I questioned.

They brought spare clothes?

Great, just great.

I had only planned to stay in L.A for just tonight so all I brought was this dress. And now it's green!

"Yeah. We'll see you there, let's say in about an hour?" Logan asked and I nodded dimly, not entirely sure what was going on, but I had a burning desire to talk to every member.

As I made my way backstage, I had to stop frequently to smile at the kids, give autographs and even take pictures…me and kids, both covered in slime.

By the time I made it backstage, 20 minutes had already past and backstage workers flooded me.

One guided me to a luxurious room with a shower and another said they would send another dress up along with a stylist.

Through my shower, I couldn't stop thinking about how much more piercing those green eyes were.

He had changed.

He didn't seem to be the fun loving teen I knew last year.

He was the complete opposite.

By the time I got out of the shower, the stylist and make-up artist were waiting for me, talking about the after party and telling me that Griffin came to pick up my inspirational blimp and 'retire' back to the hotel.

After another hour of people attempting to revive my hair and redo my make-up, I was finally ready for the after party.

But I wasn't happy.

"Do you not have another other dress that is more…modest than this?" I asked, not sure what word to use as I stared at the dress I was wearing in the mirror.

"Do you not like it?" The woman asked.

"No! It's not that, it's just that it's very short and my boobs are pushed up a lot and it's quite tight…" I trailed, trying to pull the strapless heart-shpe neckline to cover up more of my bust, but the dress wouldn't budge. It was a trio of colours: white, grey and black.

"Well this is the only dress we have available in your size, this is the smallest thing we've got." The woman informed me.

Goddamnit.

I sighed. "Fine, okay. Where's the after party again?" Staring at the dress still in the mirror, not particularly pleased about how it barely covered my ass.

It's weird though, I would used to love to wear dressed like this, show of my body. But now I see it as pathetic, I don't need people to see my body and stare at me to have confidence, I just need to be who I am.

"In the Ballroom Rose, just down the road. Jett Stettson was going to wait for you but Jo Taylor persuaded him to take a ride with her."

I bet she did.

Jesus Christ, her virgin little hands has her own man, why can't she lay of mine?

20 minutes later I had finally got to the place. A large hall decorated for the night, stairs went out to tables and a balcony while a bar and dance floor occupied the bottom half.

Everybody who had won an award or presented it or who was just there were mingling together. I felt out of place, in a room of celebrities when I'm nothing like a celebrity.

"Wow, Echo you look great!" I turned around to see a certain adorable dimple smile of a certain Latino that I loved like a brother.

"Hey Carlos." I smiled to him.

"Logan and James are up sitting at a table, come on." Carlos beckoned me to follow him and I did. I walked up the steps with him, smiling to people who waved at me along the way until we came to the table.

"Guys, look who's here!" Carlos grinned to Logan and James. I smiled to them and waved as Carlos pointed to a chair opposite Logan and I sat down, Carlos sat next to me.

"Echo, looking beautiful as ever." Logan said with a grin.

I laughed. "Save it for Camille, Logan." I told him.

"You're still you." Carlos said with a beam to me.

"I always have been me, Carlos…" I trailed, confused.

"You've changed." He told me.

"Well so have all of you."

James half-scoffed. "Some of us not for the better."

Logan gave him a pleading look as I looked at them confused. "Where is he?" I asked them.

"Who?" Carlos asked, as soon as he asked he jolted next to me and gave Logan the evils for kicking him discreetly under the table.

"Well…" Logan began, scratching the back of his head sheepishly. "As soon as we had gotten back to our hotel to check if he was coming with us he was already gone, we thought he had come here but he hasn't…"

I sighed. "I should've known he wouldn't turn up…"

"Speaking about Kendall, Echo, can I talk to you outside for a second?" James asked and I looked up at him but nodded.

I got up and followed him out to the balcony. The air was cool and it was dark outside. James turned and closed the doors behind us.

There were a lot of private things we needed to talk about.

We both leant on the balcony with our elbows and stared out to the dark. Moments of silence passed before any of us spoke, just the dull sound of music and our breathing occupied the air outside.

James cleared his throat finally. "So, we're related." That was a good start.

"Yeah, who would've known?" I asked, tired of my life being so much like a soap opera.

"Well, half related…" James said and the silence swallowed us up again.

"How was the tour?" I asked meekly.

"Do you want an honest answer?"

"Why would I want you to lie?" I asked rhetorically.

"It was shit."

"Why?"

"Kendall and I hated each other, we despised each other. All of us would argue constantly. We didn't want to be in the same room together. We put on a show for our fans, but we were broken. Then… then when you went into hospital… everything in a way got worse."

"How?" I asked, afraid of actually asking how.

"We were all so scared. We thought we had killed you and yet Kendall still acted like a complete douche or void of emotion… I thought you were going to die."

"I'd rather not re-live that part of last year." I sighed, knowing that I was going to have to when speaking to all of the guys.

"You nearly died." James gritted out as he repeated himself.

"But I didn't." I told him.

"It's all because of us." James shook his head in shame.

"It's not, it's because I was stupid and reckless."

"Don't you get it, Echo? You were fucking pregnant!" James suddenly shouted and I recoiled from him.

"You don't think I don't realize that?" I shouted back at him, both of us standing up straight and glaring at each other.

We needed this, to vent our feelings.

"You've changed." James said steely. We faced each other and stared into each other's eyes.

"I'm not the only one." I told him.

"You're with Jett now."

"I've moved on."

James suddenly laughed sarcastically. "You're kidding yourself, right?"

"James, me and you-"

"I'm not talking about us."

"I am." I said to him strongly and he sighed in frustration, holding the bridge of his nose briefly.

"Fine, you want to talk about us? I love you, I still do even though you're suddenly a part of my family. It hurts to know you're my sister, but not that I look back on it, we were young."

"You're sending me mixed messages here, James."

James sighed. "I love you, yes. A part of me always will but I'm learning to love you as a sister more than anything."

"You don't want to be with me?"

"Of course I do. But when you love someone enough you have to let them go."

"And if they love you enough they will come back to you." I whispered to him, placing my hand on his arm attentively.

He jumped away from my touch. "I've been building up the strength to let you go, letting you go doesn't mean I'm weak. It means I'm strong enough to let you go and know where you belong."

"Where?"

"With Kendall."

My eyes widened. "You're kidding, right? There is no way in hell I'm going back to him!"

"You say that now-"

"No James, its period."

"Just hear me out, okay? Ever since we got on tour, he hasn't been the same. He's changed into some monster none of us recognize. He goes on binge boozes when we're supposed to be rehearsing or be somewhere, throughout the whole time while we were touring he was a fucking wreck. Anyone can see it Echo, he still loves you."

"He never did love me."

"You've had an effect on him more than you think." James shook his head. "Through his denial, he still cares, we all know apart from him."

"But Jo-"

"Is a way for him to block out the pain."

"She's so much different compared to me."

"He doesn't want to be reminded of you. It hurts too much to remember."

"He didn't come to visit me like you did."

"The other guys didn't want to disobey Gustavo. Kendall wouldn't have enough strength to let go of you again."

"He didn't let me go, he threw me to the ground."

"So it wouldn't hurt you as much when he left."

"James… I ended up in hospital, does that prove to you how much it hurt?"

"Believe me, you're not the only one hurting over the break-up. Kendall's better than he was when we were on tour but he's changed beyond recognition to us. He's secretive, he gets angry easily, he doesn't turn up to the studio most days, he picks a fight with anyone he can…need me to go on?"

"That's not my fault."

"No, it's his. He says he never loved you, but no one is that good an actor."

"James, I don't know why you're telling me this, I don't love him anymore."

"Because you're with Jett?" I nodded. "Okay, just think about it for a second, okay. Jett is blonde, Kendall is blonde. Jett acts like he's a bad guy, Kendall acts like he's anything but himself- when he was with or without you, Jett is genuine inside, Kendall is genuine inside, Jett hurt you tonight by kissing Jo, Kendall hurt you tonight by kissing your hand… you've replaced Kendall with Jett, you think you're over him, but you're not."

"James, I'm not going back to him! I don't love him!"

"So are you saying that when you saw him tonight you felt nothing, nothing at all towards him?" James challenged and I averted my eyes towards the floor.

"That's unfair." I mumbled.

"Exactly."

"But I felt something for you when I saw you."

"But it was nothing to what you felt towards Kendall."

"…James, what's the point of this?"

"Kendall found out he was a dad from the TV, he had to find out from the TV, Echo."

"So you expected me to call you guys up and happily tell you I had a miscarriage?"

"I'm not saying he didn't deserve it, but you shouldn't have stooped down to his level."

"Firstly, I could never stoop so low to his level and I wanted everyone to know the truth of why I was in hospital."

"But don't you get it? Kendall's dad died and knowing that his son had died before he was even born hurt him."

"That's not my fault; you think I'm not hurting from that?"

"I didn't say that you weren't, but seeing you tonight, all of us have been feeling overwhelmed especially him."

"Whatever you say, James it's not going to change how I feel towards him now." I said, tired of the conversation. He was making Kendall seem like the victim in this whole mess!

"He still loves you and you believe it."

"I'm not sure whether to believe anything that any of you say to me anymore. How do I know it's not a lie?"

"You don't. You just have to have faith in us."

"Just like I did before? I'm sorry James, but I don't think I can let myself be hurt like that again…"

"Why not?" James boomed.

"Why do you fucking think? Did you think you can all just waltz back into my life and everything will be okay?"

"…"

"Oh my God, you did, didn't you? Are you not even sorry for what any of you did?"

"Of course we are-"

"Then stop bullshitting me with all of this and start showing me you are. Goodbye James." I said, turning to go, James called out to me as I opened the balcony doors and walked away, I walked straight past Carlos and Logan, even though they, too called after me. I just walked outside and caught a taxi home.

… I couldn't describe how I felt when I saw Kendall tonight, I couldn't describe how I felt when I saw any one of them.

Though I felt many emotions towards James; anger, sadness, hurt, stress, relief, love and yet, I respected him, in more ways than one for what he said.

He was a funny man
He could make you laugh, make you cry
My, my oh my,
He would roam from town to town
And the folks would come from miles around
Killer routines, the songs he sings
Lee Evans- 9 Times Out of 10

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