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Blackraven777- Well, even though I'm probably not doing any different POV apart from Echo from now on, you'll still get to see Kendall and Echo finally talk! Thank you and thank you for the review : )
BigTimeStarKid-1- Well you haven't had to wait very long, awkwardness is just a mouse scroll away. Well, I'm not going to lie to you it's going to take a long time. Ugh, I hate physics so much, it's so shit. It should be made illegal. Well, good luck for your German speaking, mines March 23rd I think. I know how hard German is, it sucks. Good luck to you too. I don't know how I've managed to write another chapter but I have, so yeah…Thanks for the review : )
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Anonymous Skrtle- Well you know media these days, making everything out of anything. They over exaggerate far too much. The guys aren't really in this chapter, everyone's just getting a big heaping of Kendall and Jo. Well, they may get back together, you never know! Kendall is just being plain strange at the moment, it's gonna take him a long time to change back to his fully perverted ways. Thank you and thank you for the support! I really, really appreciate it so much. Thanks for the review : )
brightSTAR- Aww, thank you so much. Well I think it just shows how Echo is still vulnerable and Jett didn't really think it was a big deal, you know how the male population are ; ) Don't worry, I hate her in my story too, she's not even evil either. Aha, that would be hilarious if she trips and falls into a bus. Honestly, if I could write that as well as it is in my head, it would be great. Like mean girls! Yeah, you got it right, everything coming out and showing this chapter. Like a mini smackdown. Well, go put your popcorn in the microwave because you're in for a treat. Aha, see what I did there? Yeah, they weren't really supposed to be anything big and the rumors will die down, it was just a way of showing how the media can makes anything big over nothing. No she's not going off the show, her character is just going in a different direction as they focus on Jo and Jett. He has a youtube channel? What's his name on it and I'll hit him up! Thanks for the review : )
Carlenna55- Well you've got your wish, they are talking! Thanks for the praise and thank you for the review : )
Alice- Well you know they are going to start talking again soon. Echo is getting feisty again so I don't know whether she'll grope him or shoot him! Thanks for the review : )
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BigTimeFan50- You haven't seen uncomfortable yet! Yeah, she has to watch her current boyfriend make out with his ex who is currently going out with her ex. Complicated stuff. Thank you, I really appreciate the support. Ugh, I hate everything about exams, I just freak out and then forget everything I've revised.
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Lostinyou14- Mate, you haven't seen anything yet! But thank you nonetheless. Everyone likes Kecho more than Jettco, believe me. Well I think they will, but it's going to be well down the line. Ugh, I hate exams. Thank you for the support, I appreciate it. Well here is the next chapter, I'm surprised with how fast I wrote it so here you go, thanks for the review : )
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whatIfeel- Well, if you thought last chapter was a filler I sure hope you don't think this one is. Well, you may hate me more because I'm not gonna tell you whether they talk or not. Standing in silence sounds good to me! Well, if Echo and Kendall ever get back together it will be far down the line. Jett is a sweetheart, he's just caught up in it all, he has good intentions at heart. Yeah, I can see where your coming from by saying its weird after all, they are Godbrother and Godsister. Well in a way, with their argument I just wanted to show that even though Echo has matured she still gets riled up and agitated easily. She's still like any other girl and Jett is just like any other guy, didn't think that it would bother her and yeah he would feel the same if Echo did that with Kendall but you know how they are. Well I've got a lotta twists in store for you over the next few chapters. One moment you're going to love me and the next I'll be public enemy. Who doesn't love Jett? He's just so amazing. I think the actual guy who plays Jett is so talented to make his role so believable. Aha, we love each other! Yeah, we basically have the three different accents; you got Irish, Welsh and English. Irish are amazing, they speak really fast it's hilarious. Welsh people have such sexy accents! They're my second favorite accent and then you got the plain boring English accent. I'm a brummie which basically means I'm from Birmingham so I can't exactly say I have a fancy accent, Londoners have posher accents than the brummies, we all sound like we will mug you if you look at us for longer than 3 seconds. It's funny because Southern Californian accents are my favorite along with the Colorado area. Yeah, I don't think I have an accent then you meet a foreigner and it's like 'woah! You speak weirdly.' See, I'm too lazy to go sightseeing in England, it's boring. The only decent tourist place to go is Big Ben and I haven't even been there. Everything is old in England, stuff dating back to like the 1800's and 1700's it's ridiculous. Oh I wish celebrities did that! All the decent ones are all in America, it's so unfair. Awww, it's cute you haven't met a famous person and I know you're going to hate me for this, but I met Big Time Rush at a CD singing. To me, they were really orange, like really orange. But then again the weather is pretty much always shit over here. And when I got my CD singing I was talking to Kendall and I was just saying that I respect his talent and he's not another mindless person who's autotuned and that he can actually sing, play and write songs and how he had badass eyebrows and he put on the CD he signed for me 'I 3 you' but obviously hearts don't come up on this damn sight. So yeah if you can't see it, it's a heart and if you can then I feel like an idiot. Baha, don't they do signings in America? I found out they're going on tour with One Direction. Let me tell you one thing about English boy bands. They are shit. End of. I just hate them. Well thank you for the long review! : D
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Hi I'm Chelsea- Hi! Thank you again. It's fine don't worry, at least you reviewed the last chapter. Thank you for the support for exams and all, I really appreciate it. Well, I hope I don't get sick again but unfortunately, I'm prone to it. Thanks for the support again and thank you for the review : )
TheCooliest- Thank you. Nawww, well if it does happen, you've got a long wait ahead of you, sorry! Well I try not to mess up my story line, just make it more complicated works for me. Oh, I get you with the whole not sure if it's on the TV show or just something you read. I get that sometimes, it's really weird feeling. Here is the update you've been waiting for and don't get me started on exams! They are my personal enemies. Yeah, I'm feeling a lot better now and thank you for your concern and support. It's nice to know that someone looked at the dress on my profile, thank you! Well, it's not going to take long, maybe a few chapters? I'm trying to focus on Kendall and Echo and I've got a massive plot surprise appearing soon so I really don't know yet. All I'm going to say is that their friendship is going to be strained and tested. Thanks for the review : )
EvilMonkeyBabyD- Well you got some Kendall in this chapter so hopefully I won't ruin your feelings this time. A*? I would freak out if I got a freaking A*! I'd freak out if I got an A to be honest. I just don't revise or pay attention in the subject because I know there's no point. Well good for Friday, hopefully this isn't stopping you from revising for too long! Well, you'll see my twist on the episode, it's only a brief part of it really. Thank you for the review and once again, good luck! : )
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TheClaire24- Aww, thank you. Yeah, she's still human, she's still a girl that gets jealous extremely easily. Well she's attempting to be independently successful in this chapter but it depends how you define the two terms. Well the media do make something out of completely nothing, I just wanted to show the extremes they do actually go to. I don't think so about the TV show, she's not going to be in the public eye directly for a while. She's going to be working a lot. Yeah, I think that Echo would corrupt Carlos within 3 seconds yet what goes on in that mind, no one will ever know. Of course we can trust Jett. I never meant for him to come out as a shady character. He's genuine and kind, but he's just caught up in everything. You got it, that is exactly the same reason Kendall's at the studio, he thinks Jo has something going on with Jett. Well, he doesn't drink much anymore since he's came back, but he still gets angry very easily. You'll see in the next few chapters, but I think it's just the anticipation of being in front of Echo again, the same with Echo, being in front of Kendall again and the next thing you know she's shouting at Jett like a madwoman! Yeah, Physics is murder, I hate it. Well it's an English band and it's my favorite. It's why I'm called Finders Keepers because of that song. So do you like them? Thanks for the review : )
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Still got that same look that sets me off.
Can't say it, just something about you.
I got these feelings to let it show cause I wouldn't let you go.
I shouldn't have let you go.
You asked me for closure before and girl I told you it's over, it's over,
It's not over.
So here we go again.
Big Time Rush- All Over Again
"I'm sorry Mark but Kendall decided to tag along, is that going to be a problem?" Jo asked innocently. I stared at their entwined hands, my eyes rolling up from there, past his usual black skinny jeans and flannel shirt rolled to the elbows to his face.
My brain registered him, but my heart registered a lot more, once again.
It was almost painful to look at him.
I was just thankful he wasn't looking at me, otherwise I wouldn't be able to stand here in such an awkward silence that I'm pretty sure Mark can feel the tension, all four ex's, standing and staring at each other.
"No problem." Mark cleared his throat and spoke cheerily to try and clear the air.
"He needs to be here because I want to prove to him that even if I kiss my co-star, I still only love him." She said that word about him, to him. Love. It was a powerful word and I'm not sure what hurt more, that she loved him or that I was in denial…
"Well, let's get right down to it, I'm sorry but we don't have any spare chairs, we broke most of them in the fight scene earlier this week. You two are just going to have to go and stand next to the camera over there." Mark pointed over to the spot where one guy was checking his camera and another guy was cleaning one of those overhead microphones that had a grey, fluffy end.
As Jett and Jo walked on sett, I walked over to the spot specified by Mark, mixed emotions hit me as Kendall stood about 3 feet away from me, and it was like I could feel the heat rolling off his body.
The warmth I used to be oh so familiar with…
"Alright then!" Mark announced as he sat on the director's chair, script ready in hand.
"New Town High make out scene, take one!" Someone came onto the set of Jo and Jett sitting on the car bonnet with one of those black and white clippy things.
"…And, action!" Mark announced, the camera started rolling and the guy with the fluffy microphone held it up in a ready position.
"There's something weird about this town since Hayley's got here, it's like it doesn't want us here anymore." Jo said as he character as the two sat next to each other, close to each other.
"But I want to be here, with you." Jett said looking to Jo, she looked up at him and her eyes flickered down to his lips.
"But what about Hayley?" Jo asked, her voice as soft as a whisper, the two were so close to kissing that I actually felt angry and jealous all over again.
"What about her?" Jett asked. I stood stiffly, not bothering to look at Kendall as I could tell he was standing as stiffly as I was as they leaned in closer to each other…
Then just as their lips were about to touch, Kendall started coughing, extremely loudly.
"CUT!" Mark called out slightly agitated.
"Sorry!" I looked over to Kendall as he held his hand up as a sign of his apology and for the first time of Kendall's return, he actually did something that made me secretly glad.
Jett looked slightly angered that Kendall interrupted him while Jo just sent him a warning look and once again, Kendall was careful not to look at me.
"New Town High, make out scene take two!"
"Action!" Mark called.
"…What about Hayley?" I watched in agony as the inevitable began to happen.
"Ow!" Jett suddenly shouted out as the fluffy grey microphone hit him square on the head as Kendall hit the rod of the guy who was holding the microphone, causing it to hit Jett.
"Cut!" Mark called out again.
"Sorry!" Kendall said to the microphone guy, "sorry!" He repeated to Mark.
"New Town High, make out scene, take three!"
"Action!"
"…What about Hayley?" Why was Kendall prolonging the awkwardness? Even without maturity a freaking monkey can realize that they are going to kiss no matter what so we might as well get it over with now and let them kiss.
An air horn blew through the set and everyone's eyes turned to Kendall accusingly.
"Cut!" Mark called for the third time.
"…Well this isn't root beer…" Kendall said casually, pointing to the air horn he had in his one hand with his free one, a seemingly innocent look on his face.
Where the hell did he get an air horn?
"New Town High, make out scene, take four!"
"Action."
"…What about Hayley?"
"Hey mom, yeah I can talk, no I'm not doing anything!" Kendall suddenly said very loudly.
"Cut." Mark said with a tired voice
"Oh, okay maybe not." He ended the call on his iPhone, "…sorry?" He asked sheepishly.
"New Town High, make out scene, take thirty two!" Yes, you heard that right. I have been standing here for God knows how long, trying to watch my boyfriend make out with his ex though they are being constantly interrupted by my ex doing ridiculous things by stopping them kissing.
I mean stupid things like; 'stub his toe,' 'being blind,' sneezing, talking to Mark, talking to Jo, walking onto the set, spilling water on the floor, need I go on?
Mark has just got steadily agitated throughout to the point that he looks like he's going to blow.
Jo keeps looking at Kendall desperately while Jett just glares at him while Kendall and I try not to make eye contact.
"…and action," Mark spoke out dully for the thirty-second time.
"…What about Hayley?" Jett said another time.
Surely he wouldn't do anything stupid now, I mean once more and I'm pretty sure Mark is going to combust, literally.
Oh, but it seems like I underestimate Kendall a lot. As the next thing I know Kendall accidently 'bumps' into me –more like shoves me- and I go hurtling into the camera man and he camera swerves and the line of sight turns from Jo and Jett to a random spot on the set.
"CUT!" Mark shouts, his anger seeping out of him in a free flowing waterfall which was actually quite intimidating. "SECURITY!"
Well, I can't say that I didn't see that happening.
As I brushed myself off, I watched from the ground two security guards grab Kendall by his shirt and drag him away.
"What the-"I suddenly exclaimed as I was thrown over a security guards back. "I didn't even do anything! Mark! Tell him! I work here!" I began to shout.
"Sorry, Echo, I think it would just be better if you weren't here for this scene." Mark called out as I looked up from the security guards back to see a confused Jett and a… smitten Jo?
"I'm sorry! I'm sorry! It was a mistake, a mistake!" I heard Kendall babble endlessly as the security guard deposited me on the floor and shut the door behind him, locking it soundlessly.
"No, no! I promise I'll be quiet!" Kendall suddenly exclaimed and threw himself at the closed door as a ringing bell went off and a red light appeared on the door to show filming had started.
We were both locked in a small box shaped room.
We both watched in horror as I got up and dusted myself off of the floor -once again- the flat screen TV perched on the wall suddenly come on.
"…What about Hayley?" And then there was the anticipated action.
The kiss.
Though it turned into a French kiss and I actually felt sick as I watched the two passionately make out like Jett and I had last night, like they were lovers again.
"Eurghhhhhhh!" Kendall exclaimed, throwing his hands up in the air in a distraught manner.
"No one is that good of an actress!" I exclaimed angrily, rubbing my hands over my face in an agitated manner.
Was I the only one who thought Jo was two-faced? She can't possibly be so innocent yet throw herself at Jett like that.
"No one can fucking hold their breath for that long!" Kendall exclaimed again and I found myself laughing lightly as the duo still continued kissing.
"True." I agreed, though as our eyes connected, it was like we both finally realized who we were speaking to and we lapsed into silence once again quickly and looked away from each other.
I sighed as the scene continued, walking over to a corner of the room and sliding down it, sitting against the wall with my knees brought up and my elbow resting on one of them as my hand pressed itself to my forehead in a tired way.
Kendall imitated me, though he slid down the wall furthest away from me which happened to be opposite me so I was forced to look at him, no matter what.
We sat in silence for what seemed an eternity but in reality, it was only a few minutes, the only sound was the saliva exchange between Jo and Jett which was making me sick to my stomach.
Ignoring each other wasn't going to solve anything, clearly.
I sighed reluctantly. "You know I really hated you for a long time." I said filling the silence, mentally cringing. That was the worst sentence starter in history.
Kendall didn't respond, he just stared up at the TV to which Jett and Jo were still in their heated exchange.
"But I respect you." I continued, "I know why you did it."
"And why is that?" Kendall asked he suddenly responded and looked at me, his piercing eyes clouding my mind for a few seconds that caused a prolonged silence before I finally realized what he said and continued speaking.
"You were proving your loyalty to Gustavo. You wanted to continue to produce music, I'm not going to hold you to that." I shrugged, looking up at the ceiling, afraid to look into his eyes to whether I would break down or just start shouting at him.
"You respect me?" Kendall asked incredulously and I nodded, still locking my eyes to the ceiling. "You fucking ended up in hospital, anorexic, nearly dead…and pregnant and you fucking respect me?" Kendall suddenly boomed and jumped up from the floor.
I looked at him, he looked angry, angry at me but I didn't care. I let my emotions take me where the conversation was flowing.
"Well what, do you expect me to hate you?" I asked slightly offended and got up off the floor, folding my arms.
"No, I expect you to wish I never lived."
"That's what hate means and it's a strong word."
"So is love." Kendall challenged as we stared each other down.
"I'm not going to lie, you hurt me." I said calmly, barely stopping myself from all out shouting at him. I just wanted to at least vent and shout my feelings out to the right person.
"I hurt you? That's it? Did I mean nothing to you?"
I suddenly lost it. "Why does it matter? I never meant anything to you anyway!" I growled at him, sucking in a breath. "You broke me, Kendall, okay! You fucking broke me in two and I don't think I can ever heal from that, is that what you want to fucking hear?" I shouted at him.
"No." Kendall shook his head, "Because you're not the only one who got fucking messed up!"
"What do you mean?"
"You fucking hurt me, too! You were pregnant, Echo, pregnant! Don't you get how serious that is?"
"Oh, so now you're the victim because you weren't the one who ended up in hospital with a miscarriage with not even a call to see if I was okay."
"Well you could have called me to tell me you had a miscarriage."
"You wouldn't have cared anyway!"
"Don't fucking tell me what I wouldn't have cared about."
"Well it's true, you don't care for anyone but you're fucking self."
"Says you! You're the one who started dating as soon as she got out of hospital!"
"I'm a grown woman, Kendall! I'm entitled to date who I freaking want!"
"No! Not him!"
"Why does this even matter to you, anyway?"
"Because I don't like Jett."
"Yeah? Well he doesn't like you so you're even there."
"You were pregnant."
"Why does that even matter to you?"
"I was a dad? Don't you get that?"
"You were never a dad!"
"Of course I fucking was."
"No, a dad is there for his son but the thing is the baby was never truly a baby, only an embryo so you never were a dad!"
"Why are you crying?" Kendall's eyes softened ever so slightly.
"Why do you think? This hurts to talk about to anyone, let alone you!"
"What's that supposed to mean?"
"Even though I respect you, I still can't stand you, you completely disgust me. The fact that you would use someone just to get popularity, fans, publicity… and at the cost of what? Nothing to you, but it had devastating effects to me."
"But why are you crying?"
"Why wouldn't I cry?"
"You're crying because you still feel something for me." I chocked on my tears.
The nerve of him.
"I'm crying because you fucking killed my life, you changed me. If you think I still feel anything towards you, you're sadly mistaken." I said venomously.
"But I still feel something towards you."
"You can't get something out of nothing." I growled standing my ground as Kendall stepped closer.
I flinched away from his touch slightly as he wiped my tears away, "I'm sorry." He whispered.
"Sorry isn't going to change what you've done."
"I know, James reminds me enough. He's a good brother."
"I don't need you to state the obvious."
"Echo, stop shutting me out when I'm trying to mend us."
"There is no 'us' and there never fucking will be. I'm happy with Jett and you're clearly happy with Jo so just leave 'us' fucking out of this whol-"
His lips.
Why? Oh God why? My weakness when we had our arguments, the mender of everything between us, it seems like Kendall still knows that.
It felt deliciously wrong as Kendall pulled me into that embrace that I craved… or used to crave.
Why did I have to enjoy it so much?
I didn't protest, I couldn't. As his arms wrapped around my waist and pulled me closer to him my arms threaded through his hair and I moaned lightly as his teeth nipped my lip roughly. Our lips mashed and it was like my body just suddenly set on fire. I was an inferno of emotions. The apex of my thighs were blazing with intensity and my mind had burned out and couldn't even comprehend how wrong this was. The sparks in the room seemed to set alight the whole world as I gasped when his tongue thrusted into my mouth and we met each other for every lick, curl and turn. His tongue mapped out my mouth, not missing a beat, like it was normal and we still knew each other's bodies like a musician knew his instrument. My nails dug into his skull as he squeezed my ass and sucked onto my tongue, I seemed to be drowning in him, his smell, his warmth, his taste.
It all felt…wrong.
And then I realized what was going on, I jumped away from him, our lips parting with a smacking sound and then another smacking sound, though it was me slapping Kendall harshly across the face.
He got me when I was vulnerable, he swooped in and kissed me, just to test whether I felt for him and I failed. Because now he knows just the intensity of my feelings and how fragile I still am. He doesn't feel for me, he was just testing me. With him I'm not sure whether he's telling the truth or just total bullshit, but probably the latter of the two.
Looks like he's just torn me down again, just within one moment. All those months of healing, just to be ripped down to nothing, again.
Our heads snapped to the door opening, the security guards stood there and I instantly saw an escape and ran out, rubbing at my eyes and fleeing to the toilets to fix myself up.
This is the shit that happens when you feel.
Sometimes you never learn from your mistakes.
Shit.
Shit.
Shit. Shit. Shit.
What the hell have I done?
I growled to myself as I paced the bathroom like a caged animal. I felt dirty, tainted and disgusted with myself.
How could I have let him get to me? How?
Looks like he still knows how to push my buttons, even though it's been like nearly two years… it was two years this month that I met, the 28th of March to be exact.
I ran my hands through my hair and looked into one of the toilet mirrors, my cheeks were still flushed and my lips were plumper than usual.
The thing that hurt the most was when he kissed me… I nearly orgasmed right at that moment. The kiss was so intense and passionate… I've never experienced anything like it.
Would he tell Jo?
Jett would be so angry.
I loved Jett dearly, but I couldn't mentally stop the way my body physically reacted to Kendall, after just one look my panties already dampen.
What the hell am I going to do?
The thought suddenly came to me.
Looks like I was going to have to talk to a few people…
When we finally left the set, I was glad. I had hid in the toilets and make-up for the whole time, I didn't want to face Kendall, I didn't want to see that smug look on his face that would break me in two.
Jett didn't seem to notice anything different about me while he drove me home, I put on a fake smile that was almost painful to act normal.
And then, he kissed me goodbye…compared to the exchange I had with Kendall I felt nothing.
Nothing!
I had been dating him for nearly 5 months and now I realize I feel nothing towards him.
This is his entirefault. I was happy with Jett, I really was. But after that kiss, I know that I've only ever seen Jett as an extremely close friend, I just needed someone to hold me together.
…Griffin was right, Jett is a rebound.
I sat in the living room at 9pm, sick to my stomach at the new realization. Asha was tired after her singing lessons and school today so she was surprisingly already in bed.
Griffin was up in his office –or study- upstairs while I was mindlessly flicking through the channels, thoughts running constantly through my mind until I turned the TV off and stared into the silence for a few moments, thoughts buzzing around my head in a whirlwind until I got up off the couch, grabbed my car keys and then sneaked my way outside. I needed to talk to someone, anyone.
I knew where I was going, but I didn't want to fully comprehend why I was going there or what I was going to do, I just numbly drove, thinking about possibly just turning around and going home, but I knew I wasn't going to let myself do that.
I needed to stop being so self centered and get what I needed to say out, honestly.
When I reached the Palm Woods I took a deep breath as I took the elevator up to the specified floor, I walked down the hallway until I came to the door.
Another deep breath was took as I knocked hesitantly on the door.
I waited for a few moments, confused to why no one was opening the door, but then I heard a dull thud that sounded like it was coming from inside the apartment.
Beginning to get confused, I opened the door, surprised that it was open, it wasn't usually open. As I walked through the familiar layout of the apartment I began to hear voices.
"I can't, Jo." I walked over to the door, seeing it open ajar I peeked through.
"Why not?" Jo asked, my eyes widened at what I saw. Jo was straddling Jett's lap.
What the hell was going on?
"Because, I have a girlfriend and you have a boyfriend, this is wrong." Jett gritted out as Jo wiggled her behind on his lap.
I knew that bitch was two-faced.
"Don't tell me you don't feel anything towards me, because I wouldn't be feeling your hard dick right now if you didn't."
"But I don't love you."
"And you don't love Echo either, c'mon Jett. You can't say we don't have chemistry." She whispered seductively.
"What about Kendall?"
"You want to know a secret?" She asked but didn't wait for Jett's answer. "Hawk wanted me to be with Kendall, I mean he's super hot and everything but he's so broody, like constantly. All he does is sulk and it's obvious why. We both know he still loves your pretty little girlfriend but he's in denial. Anyway, Hawk told me to get with him to see if Echo can really stay loyal to us and to get Gustavo where it really hurts."
"So you're telling me you're dating Kendall so that Echo can write good lyrics for Hawk?" Jett asked, I could hear the anger in his voice.
"Don't be angry sweetie, it's not my fault Echo's a talented and wanted girl, it's just that you don't want her, I know that. We had a good thing; let me show you what you've been missing out on."
I couldn't bear to stand at the door any longer, I turned and ran out the door, tears cascading down my face as I stupidly slammed the door shut which alerted Jo and Jett that I was here.
I knew why I was crying, I was hurt that Hawk was using my bad relationship with Jo to make me write good lyrics and I was angry because I suspected that Jo wasn't the good girl she made herself out to be and yet I did nothing.
I was crying because as I saw Jo on Jett's lap, I felt nothing. Jealously didn't surge through me whatsoever.
And yet, when Jo was holding Kendall's hand I felt like I was a green, jealous monster.
And I didn't know why, but I was worried for someone else, too. I wasn't the only one who got fucked up and knowing that Kendall was with Jo to try and get on with his life was respectable, but knowing that Jo was doing it for publicity and work purposes made me have mixed emotions. I was still angry at Kendall from when he kissed me when I was fragile, but I couldn't shake the feeling of evil happiness, as now Kendall would know how I felt.
I contemplated going to speak to James, but I knew he would tell Kendall and Kendall would think I'm talking bullshit.
I already needed to talk to James, Carlos and Logan and apologize to them, but there was someone else who I could tell everything to and wouldn't look at me in such a disgusting way that I would if someone told me the whole fucked up situation they were in.
By the time I was knocking on the house door it was 10pm and I was just desperate to vent my feelings to someone who would listen.
"Echo, what are you doing here?"
"I need to talk to you." I said honestly.
"Of course, come in." Tracey said to me, opening her door wider so I could walk inside.
Her house was warm and cozy yet it had modern touches around the room. She led me into the living room and sat me down on the leather couch.
"What's wrong?" She asked in a motherly tone.
"I don't know what to do!" I exclaimed loudly.
"Take a deep breath and tell me why you've been crying." She told me and I was surprised she knew I had been crying; I had put a load of make-up on my face before I came here to hide the fact that I had been crying.
...something inside me was telling me that a mother always knows…
"Well…" I began, beginning to tell her everything over the past few days. I told her about the awards, meeting Kendall again, how berserk the media was going over how weird Kendall and I acted towards each other, how Carlos and I are apparently 'together,' how James announced we were siblings, how I kissed Kendall, how I feel around him, what happened with Jett and Jo and how confused I was.
And what did she do?
She did exactly what I wanted her to do. She offered me a hot chocolate as I told her the whole story, she listened, let me cry on her shoulder, wiped my tears and didn't even interrupt me once.
When I was finished she passed me another tissue. "Well, you always get yourself in the difficult situations, don't you." She sighed to me with a smile that was trying to cheer me up. "You wanna know what I think you should do?" I nodded. "Well, first thing I think you should go home and sleep, then, first thing in the morning go and talk to Hawk, it's not wise to be working with someone who is trying to manipulate you. Then, after that go and talk to Jett and then talk to Carlos, James and Logan, but take your time. Even talk to Jo or Kendall, even both if you want but just remember, baby steps."
I sniffled and nodded again. "Thanks, you're a good mother." I told her as I gulped down the delicious warm beverage.
The smile she had on her face was like I had given her a new life.
When I woke up the next day, I felt like I had planned out what I was going to do for the day in my head.
Though, I began to get confused when I received a text off Hawk himself.
Echo, finally recorded all of your songs with the girls, the rights and your other songs are on a grey hard drive, come down around about 11am to talk with me- Hawk
Well at least this gave me a chance to talk to him myself.
I parked outside Hawk Records at 11am sharp. I got out of my car and made my way upstairs, still apprehensive about all the things I had to do today.
And then I still had to worry about Kendall and how I needed to stay away from him.
As I came up to the main doors on floor 3 I heard voices.
"Our hard drive!" …Was that…?
As I opened the doors I gasped at what I saw.
Seriously, what the fuck?
I know I tried to not face the truth, but no one can touch me like you do.
Your love is static, it pulls me in like a song when it first begins, I
Just don't want to let this end (No)
You're kissing me over and you are my controller.
Big Time Rush- All Over Again
I must say, I'm quite proud I got some BTR lyrics that fit that well with the whole situation that Echo and Kendall are in.
I'm sorry, I just keep leaving you all on bigger cliffhangers.
A lot of people are asking where Camille and Asha are...I'm trying my hardest guys. Everyone was asking for Kendall so Kendall here and I'm focusing on him and Echo for a few chapters, Camille will be in it soon but Asha won't be in it for a while because I'll be focusing on Echo's 'teen life' her parties and socializing. Sorry about that!
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I don't know how I updated so quickly this week, it's quite weird how quickly this chapter is up.
Anyone in the UK or possibly anywhere in Europe might not understand the ending to this chapter. All I'm going to say is you NEED to have watched Big Time Superheroes before the next chapter. Go into google and type in TV links, they have pretty much the whole season 2 on there and if you haven't watched this episode, next week's chapter really isn't going to make any sense.
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