A/NSo I kinda forgot all about this story haha sorry to those of you who were following it.I just kinda read over it and remembered how much I Loved it and couldnt wait to write it(: So here is Chapter 5? Yeah Thats about Please Review and tell me what you think (:

Disclaimer:I Sadly do not own Big Time Rush...:( But wouldn't it be SO AWESOME if id did?(:

"Hello Internet"Carly said to the waved smiling widely."Im Carly that's Sam and if you don't know us"

"Your a Hobknocker!"Sam said coldly . Carly turned to her wide eyed.

"Wow really Sam?"

"Eh"She shrugged."What are you gonna do about it?"She asked in a fake italian accent they Both Shrugged.

"And this is iCarly."They shouted together.

"And tonight we have Special Guests Big Time RUSH!"Sam all ran out smiling and waving.

"Aren't they pretty?"Carly asked smiling flirtatiously at Carlos . Carlos shrugged.

"Eh Ive seen better"She said walking out of view from the screen.I smiled.

"Hello Internet Viewers."James said waving."Im James

"Kendall"

"Carlos

"And Logan and Together we make Big Time Rush"Logan shouted extending his arms all sat down in the chairs that were assigned for us.I took my seat next to James grabbing his hand he smiled running his thumb over mine.I blushed lightly he leaned over kissing my cheek . He turned hearing Aws' from the side of us.I blushed more.

"So how about we start the questions with you two love birds over there?"Sam asked pointing from me to James and back over again . By now I must've been like tomato red . James just nodded his head ,he motioned for me to sit in his lap at first I shook my head no but eventually he pulled me over to his lap.I smiled leaning into his touch and he happily wrapped his arms my waist pulling me closer . We heard more aws' so I hid my face in his neck he just laughed kissing the top of my head.

"Ok Ok Ok"Carly said trying to stop from smiling at us.I looked over at Freddie he looked like he wanted to kill me but I just remembered what James said shaking off his evil little glare.

"So how long have yo been together?"Carly finally asked trying to keep her attention off of Carlos who keep giving her little googly eyes . She smiled at him shooing at him.I smiled looking at James who just smiled back.

"11 Months 2 weeks and 3 days"James said kissing my nose gaining even more Aw's.I smirked at him

"You know that by heart?"She asked

"No I count every minute,hour,day,week,and month and soon ill be counting the Years."He said looking me in the eyes giving me a bright smile.

"Awwww"I said laughing and he kissed me lightly.

"Ok SO how did you guys get together? And PLEASE don't say fate brought you together!"Sam said in a irritated voice. All four of us laughed loudly.

"Yeah Right"I exclaimed loudly.

"No,he knew I liked him when we first met Because I asked him out"James said calmly trying not to smirk.

"But I didn't buy it so I ignored him for awhile . Until I agreed to be friends"I said nudging him softly.

"But I kept flirting with him anyways like id use the corniest pick up lines ever!Like If I could rearrange the alphabet id put u and i together."James said laughing loudly.

"You know what the worst one was?"Logan asked trying not to laugh."I remember once he ACTUALLY SAID If You were a booger Id Pick you first!"He said making everyone laugh loudly even Freddie couldn't help but smile at the joke.

"Yeah Yeah but Hey he was cute and I wanted him so I used every trick in my bag!I didn't even flirt with anyone else besides him!That's how crazy inlove with him I am"James said nuzzling in my neck.I smiled running my hands threw his hair which is a privilege only I have.

"Yeah so one day I just screamed and said If I agree to go on a date with you will you STOP! And he goes depends on where it leads . So I gave him a chance and now here we are."I said smiling he looked up and kissed my lips . He hummed making me giggle and smile.I pulled away facing the ground my face began to burn he just kept smiling kissing my cheek.

"Ok you two are OFFICIALLY ADORABLE!"Sam shouted."So I think you deserve an"She hit a button on her little blue remote suddenly the room was filled with AW'S.I couldn't help but laugh.

"So while we take a quick break please enjoy this video of our good friend Fred."Carly said pointing towards Freddie who nodded and clicked some stuff on his laptop turning on the video he placed his camara down . Walking over to everyone.

"Really good show so far you guys."He said complimenting us he looked at me and gave me pleading eyes.I looked at him confused before nodding and getting off of James lap and sitting in my own chair. I watched James look from his lap to me then back to his lap then back to me he kept repeating the motion before shaking his head and bringing me back into his lap wrapping his arms around me tightly.I groaned loudly.

"Let Go James."I said but he just tightened his grip.I whispered"Freddie"Quietly in his ear he looked at me confused I gave him an irritated look before nodding my head towards Freddie he looked up and frowned slowly releasing me from his grasp .I sat back down in my chair giving Freddie a shy smile he smiled back at me maybe me and him would actually get along?

"Uh Kendall?"Freddie asked quietly I turned looking at him"Is it ok if I talk to James in the hallway?It wont take long just kinda wanna apologize and stuff."I fidgeted in my seat for a taking a deep breath.I put a smile on my face to be nice."Oh I Don't Care"I said trying to force the smile to stay on my face . Freddie smiled softly James got up kissing me softly for a minute before he pulled away leaving me with a goofy smile on my face he smirked.

"Ill be right back beautiful"He said kissing me lips quickly.I giggled.

"Yeah Ok"I said trying to remember what we were talking about he smiled before walking out the door behind Freddie.

"Your not worried?"Logan asked switching his seat next to me.I shook my head still smiling like an idiot.

"No I trust him.

5 Minutes Later

"What are they doing we need to get back to the show!"Carly shouted furious.I shook my head.

"Ill go check"I said smiling.I got up walking out the weren't outside the door so I walked down the hall a little.I turned the hall and stopped dead in my tracks.

"J-J-James?"I asked trying not to had Freddie pressed up against the wall . Freddie had his grabby little hands wrapped around his neck and James had his arms around his waist pulling him close . He practically had his tongue down Freddie's throat.

James turned and looked at me horror shot through his eyes when he saw me.I shook my head he dropped Freddie running over to grabbed onto me whispering in my ear.

"Its not what it looks not what it looks not what it looks like"Over and over again.I finally came to my senses and tried to push him away from he was to strong.

'"LET GO JAMES!JUST LET GO!"I shouted at him he just shook his head a tear falling down his pulled me close pressing his lips to mine.I pushed him away getting ready to yell at him to go he just went back in to kiss me again pushing his tongue in my mouth.I felt the tears that fell down my face combine with his and it made me cry even more.I opened my eyes his were closed.I could see Freddie in the back round smiling.I pushed James off of me . Wiping at my tears I looked at James and shook my head.

"I HATE YOU!"I Screamed at him.I heard footsteps behind me but I didn't care.I could see the heartbreak in his eyes.I turned running into Carlos.

"Whats wrong Kendall?"I sobbed louder I fell crying into his shoulder wrapped his arms around my waist.I heard someone clear their throat.

"Uh Kendall kinda...uh caught me and James making out"Freddie said quietly as IF he was ashamed of what he did . Nobody said anything for awhile all that could be heard was my crying until Carly finally spoke up.

"Im gonna go cancel the show it's no longer important."She said softly.I was surprised when Carlos didn't bother to go with he just rubbed circles in my back.

"Dude not cool"Logan said shaking his head we all walked away leaving James with Freddie.I can't believe I love him .I just can't believe he would do this after everything we've been through.

"It'll all be ok"Carlos said walking me over to my chair I just shook my head.

"Not after everything we've been through"

I hate crying all I wanted was to wake up in James' arms . Him telling me it was all just a crazy him wipe away the tears and kiss away the pain . But I know that when I go to sleep He wont be there when I wake up. Everything wont be okay .No everything is never going to be okay again.

A/N Yep so there we go(: Im gonna try to get back into the habit of writing this but idk yet ill try So tell me what you think(:

Do you think James should try to fix things with Kendall?OR go be with Freddie?And just to clear this up now haha James is NOT Shane I repeat JAMES is NOT SHANE ! haha just so we all know(: