A/N: You guys might noticed a few lines from This Lullaby so that's not mine,

62 wonderful days

8 unbelievable weeks'

2 of the best and worst months of my life.

i said two months ago i fell for Christian in the hotel room, now i was completely in love with him. it was getting harder to control my feelings for him when we were around other people. i always felt bad because Lissa was my best friend and Christian was her boyfriend, and this was the worst kind of betrayal. Lissa was my main excuse to be around Christian, we were always finding reason to be together with others or alone, and when we were alone it was hard not to keep my hands off him, but it was hard when i had to look around to make sure we were alone before i kissed him, or watching him and Lissa together that killed me. it wasn't a want for Christian anymore it was a need-- he was my Oxygen.

"hey Rose" a voice pulled me out of my thoughts, as i walking back to my room, classes had just finished. "what's up with Lissa" it was a girl in Lissa classes, i couldn't remember her name, but i know I've seen her around before.

"not sure, having had time to see her today" i nodded at her.

"oh well she just walked off to her room, she looked really upset, crying even" the girl told, "she was talking to Christian before that so maybe something happen" and as sick as it made me feel, happiness and hope shot through my body.

"okay thanks i will go see her now" she nodded and walked away. I changed my course and headed for Lissa's room.

when i finally got there, i let myself in, i saw her on her bed, crying, i felt even sicker, and the happiness and Joy vanished.

"Liss" i sat on the bed next to her. "whats wrong" i asked her quietly.

"Christian..he...." she broke into sobs. i pulled her into a hug and let her cry on my shoulder, i never felt so disgusted with myself then right at that moment.

"i haven't seen him much at all lately" she whispered after all her tears were gone, "his always busy, then when we are together he wont actually touch me, he's been so distant and when i confronted him about it, it turned into this huge fight, i think he wants to break up Rose" she started to cry again and held her silently. this time she fell asleep and i laid her down and left, i felt horrible her she was crying because of what i was doing to her, she might not know it was me, but i did.

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"hey Little Dhampir" Adrian stepped in front of my door, his breath stinking of a mixture between alcohol and cigarettes.

"what" i snapped,

"whats wrong with you beautiful" he slurred.

"i'm having a bad day, and really need a drink" i snapped glaring up at him, i suppose they weren't the smartest words to say to Adrian because next thing i know he was pulling me along to a bar. an hour later, i was completely trashed, and alone, Adrian had taken off with some short hoe, not that i minded, i was stumbling back up to the Academy, finally making it to the grounds.

"Rose" a voice barked, looking up i saw Christian rushing towards me. "where have you been. everyone has been looking for you, there was an attack here, everyone is fine but you were missing... are you drunk" he demanded, an attack, ? wow i always miss all the action.

"Christian baby I've missed you" i slurred.

"you are drunk, what on earth Rose do you know how worried, I've been" he yelled at me.

"do you know how miserable I've been" i shot back. he grabbed me arm and was half pulling half dragging me up to the building. "ouch Christian let go" he ignored my protest. "Damn it Christian your hurting me" i yanked my arm back. he whirled around, looking ready to murder, but his eyes softened.

"look i'm sorry if i was hurting you, i was just so worried Rose, that they'd taken you or you'd been killed, i..." he hesitated. "i love you Rose" suddenly i was sober, he just said he loves me, wow, did i love him too, well of course i did, i smiled and kissed him, not really caring if anyone saw, but the halls were deserted anyway. he continued to walk me to Kirova office, apparently i was instructed to go there as soon as i was found.

"what is it?" i asked him.

"what"

"what do you like about me exactly, what are you attracted to?"

"Rose?" he groaned.

"please Chrissy" i begged.

"okay fine but don't call me Chrissy ever again" he laughed. "well obviously your beautiful" he said after a while "unbelievably sexy, i admit that's what i first noticed about you, the very first time i saw you actually. But it's your confidence that gets me, you know so many girls these days are always thinking their too fat or something, but you, you walk around like you don't give a shit, when we first started talking, you acted like you didn't give a shit wether i talked to you or not"

"acted' i teased.

"see that's what i mean" he smiled wolfishly.

i frowned, "so your attracted to the fact that i'm a bitch"

"No" he protested, "no that's not it, what i mean i like that it was a challenge, to get to know you, to wiggle through, Most people are easy to read but not you, you have layers" he stopped and looked around, and kissed me on the nose, i giggled. "Now you" he grinned

"what?" i was confused.

"Now tell me why you like me" he said.

"who says i do" i grinned.

"Rosie Posy" he taunted.

"ok. ok fine don't call me that though" i mocked him, "ever, i'm not making any promises, i suck at this when i'm completely sober"

"well you make me laugh" i concluded.

he nodded, "And?"

"you're pretty nice to look at"

"what, pretty nice to look at, i called you beautiful missy"

"a drunken mind, speaks a sober heart" i grinned, he just laughed.

"okay, you don't have to tell me, it doesn't matter anyway"

"no?" he shook his head, as we reached Kirova's door.

"nope, just that you do" he whispered into my ear, kissing my lips before pushing open the door and walking in, i tried to decrease my heart rate as i entered, Kirova sat at the desk, as well as Lissa, Eddie and....... holy cow Dimitri, what was he doing here, i felt Christian stiffen beside me.

"Rose" Lissa jumped from her chair, and hugged me.

"hey blondey" i chuckled, "miss me?" Christian sighed underneath his breath, i guess he thought the walked had sobered me up, not quite.

"Rose are you drunk" Lissa sniffed me, "why have been drinking i can smell it" she scolded.

"Rosemarie is this true" Kirova barked. i shrugged. "this is a serious matter, you no alcohol isn't allowed on the grounds, AND WHAT ON EARTH WERE YOU DOING DRINKING WHILE WE WERE BEENING ATTACKED" she roared, everyone in the room jumped at the sudden sound increase.

"well that's good, lucky i wasn't drinking on the grounds, Adrian dragged me off to some bar, when i said i had a bad day"

"are you telling me that Adrian, dragged you off involuntary" she raised her eyebrows.

"exactly" i grinned.

she sighed, "get out all of you, come back and see me tomorrow when your sobered up Rosemarie" the others started filing out. i just stood there. "PUT NOW" Kirova screamed, i jumped giggling and ran out the door, shutting it behind me, i ran into a solid force, looking up i saw a very unimpressed Dimitri.

"Whats up Comrade" i smirked.

A/N: so there it is, Dimitri is back, I know this is boring or whatever but I couldn't think of anything else to write….. STILL IN NEED OF A TITLE????

You know what to do……………

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