Chapter four

The pair sat in silence as they began eating their dinner neither sure how to start this conversation and so ended up playing with their food.

"You should probably start from the beginning" Marissa broke the silence Bianca laughed and nodded.

"Well I suppose I should start with my childhood" Bianca began.

"Just the big stuff we will need something to talk about in bed" Marissa grinned Bianca laughed and nodded.

"Well when I was fourteen I was diagnosed with anorexia" Bianca began Marissa looked at her in shock almost dropping her fork "I went away to new England where I met Sarah my first girlfriend"

"I can't believe you had anorexia" Marissa whispered Bianca shrugged and put her fork down suddenly not that hungry anymore.

"I know but it made me stronger in a way so I'm glad I went through it" Bianca replied "obviously you know about the rape and me killing him so I don't need to go through that" Bianca brushed over the rape subject hoping Marissa didn't want to talk about it

"It must have been hard" Marissa whispered Bianca sort of shrugged like it didn't matter but it did Michael cannbias changed her and she wasn't sure if it was for the better.

"I had Maggie and my family so it wasn't so bad" Bianca began "then of course I found out I was pregnant with Miranda she was the only good thing to come out of that night" she had a small smile on her face when it came to thinking about her eldest.

"She is an angel" Marissa agreed Bianca looked up to see Marissa seemed to have forgotten about the food.

"Do you want to sit in the other room it will be more comfortable?" Bianca suggested Marissa nodded and helped clear the table leaving the dishes in the sink for later once this talk was over.

"What happened to your father?" Marissa asked as they settled down moving closer to Bianca and held her hand.

"I lived with him for a while but then I came back when my mother was arrested" Bianca sighed running her hand through her hair as she remembered her past. Marissa sensed it was beginning to get difficult for Bianca so she pulled Bianca towards her.

Bianca lay her head on Marissa's chest as she began stroking her hair softly.

"What happened then?" Marissa whispered kissing Bianca's temple.

"My dad came and threatened my mother by telling her she would never see me again, I was then put in hospital with anorexia" Bianca continued holding Marissa a little tighter.

"I'm really sorry about you having anorexia" Marissa strained she could feel herself getting upset at the thought of what this wonderful woman had been through.

"Its fine it's made me stronger" Bianca replied.

"Then what happened?"

"I was sent to a rehab centre in new England where I met Sarah" Bianca carried on smiling slightly as she remembered her first girlfriend "she was my first girlfriend it was the first time I fell in love I told my mother and everything" Bianca sighed Marissa sensed something happened that hurt Bianca.

"Safe to say her family didn't approve and she was engaged to a man" Marissa wanted to slap this Sarah girl silly for letting someone like Bianca go "I did make one really good friend out of all that"

Marissa smiled "who was it?"

"His name was Leo he and Greenlee were an item, he soon became my best friend and was there when I came out publicly well it wasn't exactly a good way to come out but it got the job done" she chuckled.

"Why?" Marissa asked as she rested her head against Bianca's taking in Bianca's shampoo which smelt of apples.

"Leo was with a girl called Laura and Greenlee hated it anyway she hated me so she told some reporter about me being gay, then he basically asked me about it in front of everyone"

"Bet that pleased your mum" Marissa chuckled Bianca looked at her smiling then leaning up to give her a peck on the lips before settling down again.

"She wasn't she told me to say it wasn't true and well this girl Rein she gave me the courage to say yes it was true" Bianca sighed "needless to say my mother wasn't best pleased in fact she struggled with it a lot"

"I suppose it must have been difficult for her being such a public figure" Marisa pointed out she felt Bianca nod against her.

"Then I met Frankie and Maggie and well it was a rollercoaster" Bianca yawned.

"Were they the reason that you were worried about me and you?" Marissa asked Bianca didn't want to say yes but she found herself nodding.

"They were both straight and then they both cheated on me" Marissa frowned "Frankie cheated on me with JR" she chuckled "seems I can't get away from him"

"What about Maggie?" Marissa asked.

"She came to Paris with me but then she cheated with some girl she was at university with I came back to pine valley and Maggie followed me here and asked for another chance"

"I hope you told her to get lost" Marissa growled Bianca laughed Marissa frowned and moved so she could get a better look at Bianca "what?"

"I did but are you jealous?" Bianca asked smirking Marissa blushed and shook her head quickly "don't worry I love you"

"You must have a thing for our family" Marissa quirked Bianca glared at her playfully.

"Yeah well you're the only one for me now" Marissa smiled softly and leant down and kissed her, taking her bottom in her mouth and sucking on it softly.

"I love you Bianca so much" she whispered against her lips.

AN: Right there you go I finally got this chapter written its not brilliant but it's up so enjoy and review!