Lopez Cottage - Two weeks later
Santana's friends had come and gone and she was now upstairs taking a nap. She hadn't talked to Brittany much since Rachel was still around but that wasn't the reason why. Brittany had stayed clear of Santana since she got home from the hospital, turned out that when the doctor told her Santana might not remember things he wasn't kidding. More than half the conversation Brittany and Santana had had that day the other girl didn't remember and it broke Brittany's heart.
All she wanted was to hold the other girl and do the things that they always did when it came to the summer but it was hard to do when her heart was breaking because the girl didn't remember that the blonde had in her own way asked her back out. For her part Santana had stayed clear of the blonde not being able to deal with the looks and having her so close yet so far away.
She sat lying on the boat like she always did when she needed to get away when she felt the presence of someone beside her, opening one eye and using her hand to block out the sun she seen Jodie standing beside her.
"What is it Rachel? Here to lecture me again?"
Sitting down next to her Rachel looked out at the water then at her. "She loves you, a lot I shouldn't be telling you this but I'm going to anyways. Look Santana she asked her you out when you were in the hospital, for a brief moment you two were back together and you not remembering has broken her heart into a million little pieces. Try and talk to her, get your girl back, don't sit here and waste time pondering about everything that's happened. The past is the past leave it there and move forward, spend what time you have left together, actually together."
Santana now had both eyes open and was staring blankly at the other girl. "Did you just say she asked me out? No she didn't I think I'd remember her asking me out?"
Rachel nodded. "She did, she didn't want you two to break up in the first place, you know how stubborn she is though. Make it right or at least try, what left do you have to lose, and if you say pride, I don't care I will seriously smack you. You and her need to get over it all, not being with her kills me but I've realised I just want her to be happy and you make her happy." With that Rachel got up and left Santana to think about everything she had just heard.
That Night
Later that night Santana was laying in bed when her mother walked into her room without knocking, like normal.
"Come on San, it's time for the fire and your father is already singing, and we got lots of chocolate so get your butt up. I think Brittany is already down there to with her guitar, I haven't heard her sing in so long." Her mother tried to pull her out of bed.
"Yeah yeah mom I'll meet you down there in a minute, let me just, grab my sweater and freshen up."
"I'll wait for you in the kitchen then we can head over." Santana nodded and Sofia went to wait for her daughter in the kitchen.
Looking at herself in the mirror the girl sighed and brushed her teeth quickly before brushing her hair out and putting it up in a loose pony tail. Putting on her sweater she walked out of her room and towards the kitchen where her mother was waiting. They walked down the back along the dock and back up to the Pierce's cottage where the fire was going and people already singing, bottles of beer in their hands.
There was an empty seat next to Brittany, and an empty seat next to her father and one next to her mother, she opted for the one next to her mother shocking everyone except Brittany. As Santana sat down Steve Pierce came out with his guitar and Brittany's. "Any requests," he asked as the two girls avoided each others gazes. Santana had always loved their annual bon fires if for no other than to tune everyone else out and listen to Brittany play, something about it made her smile and it had always seemed like every word, every note was being played for her. So as the two Pierce's started to play it was hard for Santana not to look at Brittany and for everyone else to disappear so instead she opted for closing her eyes just after her mother handed her a stick for her marsh mellows.
"Hey Brittany why don't you play us a few things we all have heard great things about that band of yours but what do you say you treat us before you get so famous you won't want to sing at our little fires anymore."
Brittany smiled at Will Shuester who's cottage was on the other side of the lake. "I suppose I could do that for you all." Smiles appeared on the faces of those around the fire except for Santana's.
"Hey." Sofia nudged her. "Hey, wake up Brittany is going to sing." Santana opened her eyes, still stuck in her own dream world though. A world where her and Brittany were together. Deciding to try and take her mind off it she put a marsh mellow on the end of the stick and held it just above the fire.
Another women whispered something in Brittany's ear where the empty seat had once been and she nodded back and started to strum her guitar.
"Desperate for changing
Starving for truth
I'm closer to where I started
Chasing after you
I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you
Forgetting all I'm lacking
Completely incomplete
I'll take your invitation
You take all of me now...
I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you
I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and not quite sure where to go
And I don't know what I'm diving into
Just hanging by a moment here with you
There's nothing else to lose
There's nothing else to find
There's nothing in the world
That can change my mind
There is nothing else
There is nothing else
There is nothing else
Desperate for changing
Starving for truth
I'm closer to where I started
Chasing after you...
I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you
I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and not quite sure where to go
And I don't know what I'm diving into
Just hanging by a moment here with you
Just hanging by a moment (here with you)
Hanging by a moment (here with you)"
She paused for a second strumming the last few chords on her guitar. "Hanging by a moment here with you." She wasn't looking at her but she could feel the other girls eyes on her as she sang the last line. Looking up only for a second their gazes met before both quickly looked away.
"Brittany do you think you could play that song I always hear you singing?" Sofia asked her.
"I'm not sure if now is a good time for it." She answered honestly knowing what song Sofia was talking about.
Laughing a little Sofia looked at her. "Dear now is as good a time as any, so come on get to rocking out."
"Mom!" Both Santana said.
"What I rocked out back in the day." She smiled as her daughter sunk down in their chairs.
Feeling like Santana needed her, to at the very least get her mother to be quiet and stop embarrassing her Brittany started to play.
"Could you whisper in my ear
The things you want to feel
I'll give you anything
To feel it comin'
Do you wake up on your own
And wonder where you are
You live with all your faults
I wanna wake up where you are
I won't say anything at all
So why don't you slide
Yeah we're gonna let is slide
Don't you love the life you killed
The priest is on the phone
Your father hit the wall
Your ma disowned you
Don't suppose I'll ever know
What it means to be a man
Something I can't change
I'll live around it
I wanna wake up where you are
I won't say anything at all
So why don't you slide
Mmmmm slide
And I'll do anything you ever
Dreamed to be complete
Little pieces of the nothing that, fall
May put your arms around me
What you feel is what you are
And what you are is beautiful
May do you manna get married
Or run away
And I'll do anything you ever
Dreamed to be complete
Little pieces of the nothing that, fall
May put your arms around me
What you feel is what you are
And what you are is beautiful
May do you wanna get married
Or run away
I wanna wake up where you are
I won't say anything at all
Yeah slide
And I'll do anything you ever
Dreamed to be complete
Little pieces of the nothing that, fall
And I'll do anything you ever
Dreamed to be complete
Little pieces of the nothing that, fall
Oh Oh Oh slide
(Just slide between the sheets of all the beds you never knew)
Yeah slide
Why don't you slide into my room
Just slide into my room
Oh, we'll run away, run away, run away"
By the time she finished she could feel Santana's eye averting hers. It was their song, something that meant the world to them both. Before either of them had a moment to process anything Steve spoke up. "Oh girls before I forget Eric and I set the tent up in the Lopez back yard for you two, and your mothers brought all you need down for you so it's ready to go." Both girls gulped and looked down then up at their fathers and said thanks. It was tradition, how could they forget after the fire they slept in the tent, well they stayed up talking in the tent.
"Well I guess this party is winding down once again." Will slurred a little as people yawned and finished their beers. "What do you say to one last one kiddo."
Brittany nodded. "I'm cool with that what shall it be."
"Oh, I know." Her mother piped up. "What about that one I've been hearing you work on, you've been singing it and humming it and playing it around the house so let's hear it." Not normally one to be nervous Brittany nodded, definitely feeling the butterflies in her stomach as she glanced over at Santana and figured she had nothing to lose.
"So maybe I've got a lot to learn.
Or maybe I'm just hangin' on my words.
Maybe it's not a big concern.
But, if I raise my hand will I understand why
I'm better with you?
So maybe there's not a lot to say
Or maybe i've grown doin' things my way (Yeah)
Or maybe things will be okay.
But if I get it together and do something clever,
I'll make it better with you
So tell me, where did I go wrong before you?
Before you came along, well it seems like i was lost.
You showed me how to do things right, now I'm,
so glad that now you're mine.
So let me say it all again.
So maybe there's not a lot to do.
or maybe I'm just makin myself confused.
Or maybe i've got nothin' to lose.
But if I get out of line, just tell me you're mine, and how
I'm better with you.
So tell me, where did I go wrong before you?
Before you came along, well it seems like I was lost.
You showed me how to do things right, now I'm, so glad that now you're mine.
So use me, don't let me screw it up.
I believe you lord, I need your touch.
Just a little spice of you could never be too much
I believe you lord, I need you now
to make it better all somehow.
To make it better all somehow.
So tell me, where did I go wrong before you?
Before you came along, well it seems like I was lost.
You showed me how to do things right,
now I'm, so glad that now you're mine.
So use me, don't let me screw it up.
I believe you lord, I need your touch.
Just a little spice of you could never be too much.
I believe you lord, I need you now
to make it better all somehow.
To make it better all somehow"
By the time she finished both girls were looking directly at each other and it was if they were the only two around and there was no one else in the world. They stayed that way staring at each other, the song long since over as people started saying goodnight and getting up and going back to their own places. Even as Sofia tried to say something to her but Santana stayed focused on those blue eyes she loved so much, scared to breathe in fear of breaking the moment.
Finally the two girls looked away as Sofia tried again to say something to Santana this time causing her to nod and get up. As she walked off she looked back over at Brittany who was now being hugged by her tipsy mother. Once back at their cottage Santana went upstairs to change before grabbing an extra blanket and her pillow and going downstairs to the tent.
Laying down on the air mattress that was in there and looking around at all the candy and cookies she was fully prepared to be sleeping in the tent alone. Laying on her back she heard rustling outside and instinctively brought the blanket up over her head and laid still, letting out a small scream as she heard someone or something open the tent.
"Relax Lopez I'm not a bear, or deer or an evil rabbit. I really don't think they can undo tent zippers but hey these days you never know. Well move over I'm not sleeping out in the rain."
Still a little shocked the brunette moved over as Brittany closed the tent up and laid down her pillow, before lying down next to Santana. Both girls stayed quiet as they heard the wind start to pick up and the rain that had just started start to get a little heavier.
For a few minutes that seemed like forever there was an awkward silence with neither girl knowing exactly what to say.
"How are you doing? Healing okay?" Unable to find her voice Santana nodded. "How are you?" She finally asked.
"Oh you know I've been a lot better." Santana nodded.
The girls fell back into an awkward silence before one of them did something the other wasn't exactly expecting.