Everyone in the world might as well be gay but unatainable. I can't have Axel, okay I got that now, but what about Riku? Or Kadaj? Or maybe even that creepy guy at work named Vincent? I could do my best to get with any of them, and maybe I'll even be happy... but standing in my room looking at a half naked Roxas crying about how amazing and perfect Axel is and how he just doesn't deserve him... is a bit much. Granted, this is Roxas, he wasn't literally crying or whining about such a girly thing. No, he was telling me about how I should hang out with Axel and how the redhead should meet their parents and how maybe Roxas will even get a job and make sure to go to college. It was little stuff, like that. The little stuff that let me know that my brother is in love.

I can't handle that.

I love Axel, I'll admit it, so that means I can't sit in a room and hear my brother cooing about his future with the guy I love. I just can't. So, leaving my room, I picked up my cellphone and checked my voicemails.

"Hey Soar! It's Yuffie! We should hang out sometime! I know this great park nearby where me, Cloud, Vincent, Reno, and Kadaj are going to play soda baseball and guess what? These won't be empty cans... oh no! they'll be full to the brim with pop! Want to play? It'll be fun dancing in the shower of soda! Join us! Join us! Join us! Okay bye~!" Yuffie chirped loudly throughout the entire message, sounding as though she was having monster almost as much as air. Calling her back, I told her yes and hung up, getting ready to go.

"Hey Sora! Do you want to have a movie night?" Roxas called from just outside my room. I shook my head and told him I'm going out, and I didn't look back once as I left.

By the end of it I was soaked through with a mixture of sprite, coke, orange fanta, and monster but I was not the worst by far. Sadly Yuffie had only a couple drops on her while Vincent was soaked through looking like a drowned cat. Grinning widely I crashed down onto the ground and stared up at the stars, sure there's school tomorrow but who fucking cares? I'm a teenager, I'm supposed to play till I die right? I'm supposed to get my heart broken and fall to pieces and then cry a little because it hurts, but then I'm supposed to have fun... live life... and forget. That's what I'm supposed to do.

"Sora? Is that you?" A voice called making me sit up slightly in a lazy way as Riku ran over to us. He looked pissed, beyond pissed actually. "What the hell are you doing here?" He demanded and shoved me to my feet with blazing eyes, no one bothered to come near us and for that I was glad. Riku punched me, but it wasn't as hard as he could have and all it really did was wake me up from my high. It wasn't like I was smoking pot, no... just having fun for the first time in ages. He has no right to force reality on me!

"Don't do this to me... just let me have some fun." I growled but he wasn't listening. Instead Riku just grabbed hold of my wrist and began to drag me in the direction of home. We walked in silence, and for some reason the ground felt harder than usual. It wasn't a solid place to stand on any longer, instead it was a form of punishment. When I finally neared my house I began to pull my wrist from his grip. His hand was soaked in sweat along with my arm but I didn't know who started sweating first.

"You've been acting weird... ever since you got this new job of yours." Riku said softly and slowly began to let go of my wrist. I looked up at him and for a moment I saw something different. He's changed. Riku's teal eyes are now darker then before. When did that happen? His face isn't as pudgy as it used to be, and he's become tall as well. Riku's style is more like a punk than the prep look he had going for him before. What happened? What changed? Where... where was I? "No, I think you've been acting weird even before that. Ever since your parents told you that you're gay." He explained with a frown and crossed his arms.

"W-what?" I asked with wide eyes and took a step towards my front door, not wanting to talk about this with Riku. How did he even know that's what my parents said? I don't remember telling him or Kairi anything... all I ever told them was that I have a new job! That's it! I made sure of it! So why the hell is he going off and doing these things?

"What is your new job like? You seem tired and distracted whenever you're at school and lately you've even seemed down." Riku's small vocabulary on this topic didn't bother me so much as what the words were and what they meant. My insides clenched as I looked up at his concerned features. He paid attention to me... and I didn't give a damn about him for the past few weeks. I'm not a good friend... and I'm not a good brother. I'm terrible... I have to be, because this is wrong. Everything I've done up until now is wrong.

"Do you want to know everything Riku?" I asked and saw to my surprise, a slight nod. "I work at a porn company and now I can't quit. I fell in love with my stalker but right as I did my brother fell in love too and he took him from me. I lost the guy I liked because I couldn't make up my mind before my brother became all starry eyed and I'm not a big enough ass to take what I want anyway... so this is it. That's the summary. You happy now?"

"No. I'm not."