If Only He Could Read My Mind
Chapter five: Epilogue
I woke up to the sun shining through the window. I sat up and smiled. Everyone was going home for the summer break today. Dumbledore hadn't yet found me a family to live with, so last week Remus had asked me to stay with him this summer. I had said yes. A whole summer with my Remus? That sounded amazing. We had just finished our OWLS and I felt I had done pretty well on them.
I climbed out of bed and went in the shower. As I was getting washed I saw the marks on my wrists again. They were only scars now, I hadn't cut since the day I got the letter from my parents, the day I tried to end my life. I was healthy now. Remus had been so supportive through all of it. If I had gone for a couple of weeks of eating without throwing up, then I threw up again, he just pulled me into his chest while I cried because I had done it again. He just kept telling me that I was so strong for holding back as long as I had.
It had been three months since the last time I threw up. I finally felt good. I had put it all behind me. I was never going to forget it, I knew that, but I also knew that I was never going to let it get to me again.
I climbed out the shower and dried myself off before getting ready. I dressed myself up nicely, for I was meeting Remus' parents today, and I wanted to make a good impression. I spent a long time on my outfit, that even though I had gotten up twenty minutes earlier, Alice and Lily were both ready by the time I was.
We packed up our stuff and headed down to the common room ready to head down to the train with the boys, who much to Alice and Lily's disgust, were sitting with us.
I walked towards Remus and wrapped my arms around his waist.
Remus chuckled at me lightly before kissing me on the head and saying "Morning beautiful, did you sleep well?"
I smiled back at him. "Yeah I did. I had a lovely dream about this gorgeous man, who looks a lot like you..."
He shook his head at me before turning to the rest of the group. "Shall we head down then?"
We left our trunks with the others for the house elves to take to the train before we all went down together. All around us students were loud, trying to find all of their friends so they could say good bye. All my friends were talking about something, but I just walked in silence my arms around Remus and his arm over my shoulder.
I couldn't help thinking about everything that had happened earlier this year. I regretted hurting myself, but at the same time, I didn't. I had grown so much as a person because of that happening and I was now happy with who I was. I would always have the marks on my wrists as a reminder to me. A reminder of the pain I had been through, but also a reminder of how strong I was to get through it.
My friends and I found a compartment, and I sat by the window, staring out of it. The compartment fell silent and I felt all eyes on me.
"What are you thinking about Brynlee?" Lily asked me.
"Everything that happened this year. What I did to myself. How I came through it with the help of all you guys. But mostly, how this is a new beginning for me." I said as the train began to pull away from the station.
My friends smiled, because what I had said was true, this was my new beginning, and I wasn't going to screw it up.