I do not own glee

I couldn't breath. My world came to a halt. Maybe Kate was wrong. Maybe it wasn't mine. Should I call it an it I groaned. After Nick had dropped me off last night I was having a battle of thoughts. She was cheating on me so there was a chance it...the baby wasn't mine, but she said I was the only guy she had sex with. I didn't want to be a dad. I acted like I was 5 almost all the time especially with Nick. Nick. He had looked heartbroken last night. My heart ached as I remembered how he reacted. It was like his world had crashed down on him and I was the one with the problem. I grabbed my phone from its night stand and sent him a quick text.

'Hey 3 you busy? Wanna hang? -6 ' I waited anxiously for a response. Lately I had been having feelings for my best friend. I was in love with Nick and now any chance I had at being with him had gone down the drain. He wouldn't want me now that I was gonna have a baby. I never saw myself as a dad. When I pictured my future I always saw myself as I am now. Acting insane when I wanted and dancing for a career. I also saw Nick with me the whole way. We planned on moving to California after high school, become famous and then travel around the world. It was nice to dream but I knew Nick never leave. He was home and he couldn't leave his family.

'Sorry dude I'm at the zoo with Seb and Justin. Maybe later. -3' I sighed. Of course Nick would be with Sebastian. They were best friends since birth, and Justin was only five but he already considered Nick his brother too. Justin Smythe was replica of his brother. The only difference was the eyes. Justin's were blue instead of green. I grabbed my hoodie and left the house needing some air. I walked to the park. Bad idea. All around I could see couples with their kids and some new parents head over heels for their baby. I loved little kids and had a babysitting job but it was different. At the end of the day they weren't mine and I could go back to being a teenager and having fun. My phone beeped and I looked at it.

'we need to talk'. It was from Kate and while I just wanted to go home, she was more important now. I would never Get to put myself first again.

Kate's house was big, not as big as Sebastian's but it was up there. I went up to the second floor to Kate's room. She looked at me and patted the spot next to her on the bed. I sat and we stayed silent for awhile.

"I have an ultra sound tomorrow if you wanna come." I just nodded and she signed."I'm sorry I never wanted to hurt you but...you were becoming different like you didn't want me anymore. You don't you know. I see the way you look at Nick and he looks at you the same way. So go get him before you lose him."

"I already did. He'll never want me now that I have a kid."

"just talk to him."

I stood and left. I didn't need her to make my life even more hard.

Later that night nick came over. We were sitting in my room eating red vines and watching Harry Potter

"Jeff can I ask you something?"

"Anything Nickybear."

"Are you and Kate...are you two keeping the baby?"

I froze. "I don't know..." he nods and looks back at the movie. I smuggled up to him and he froze before relaxing and holding me. I feel asleep in his arms that night.

The next day I went with Kate. The doctor explained everything which was more than I wanted to know. Finally he took us into the ultrasound room and did the ultrasound. He pointed out the baby and I couldn't look. I didn't want to look. It would make things worse. I had told my parents last night and they were supportive but I still felt like I let them down. After the appointment I went to Sebastian's where he and nick were in a headed discussion of who was hotter. Paul Wesley or Ian Somerhalder. I obviously missed the Vampire Diaries marathon.

"Paul is so much hotter plus he has a nice body." Nick was clearly trying not to laugh.

"Nick you have no eyes. His body is hot but not his face. Ian is so much hotter plus have you seen his eyes." Sebastian crossed his arms across his chest down with the argument. I laughed "he has you there Nicky. Ian has nice eyes." I was met by two pair of shocked eyes. Crap I hadn't told anyone that I might bi if not gay.

"I'm bi guys. No big deal. " I sat on the floor while Seb flipped through the tv channels finally leaving it on Pirates of the Caribbean. Justin came running down and flung himself on Sebastian then settled down to watch the movie.

I handed nick the ultrasound picture. "Shes giving it up for adoption." I heard him sigh and then sat down next to me.

"For fucks sake just make out already." I glared at Sebastian and he smirked. I looked at Nick and he was blushing. Before I could stop myself I kissed him. My whole body got and electric shock and it felt amazing. Our lips moved in sync until I pulled away. I looked at my best friend who had the dorkiest grin on his face. I smiled and pulled him close. Maybe my life wasn't ruined. Maybe just maybe it would go back to normal once Kate gave the baby up.

So who do you think is hotter Paul or Ian. Put it a review.