Haley was having trouble sleeping. Having Logan back was great, of course. But it also brought back a lot of unwanted memories that she tried so hard to keep buried.

*Flashback/Dream*

"Logan drive faster ! This baby is coming, and there is no slowing it down. Screw the speed limit."

Logan sighed looking back at his girlfriend and cousin.

"Haley calm down."

"Don't tell me to calm down unless its your hand she's squeezing to death. I knew letting you guys get together was a bad idea."

"Letting us get togetger?"

"Yes, now shut up and drive."

Logan did as he was told, knowing that an angry Haley wasn't a pretty Haley.

No one was paying much attention to the road, and therfore didn't notice the car coming their way, in the wrong lane by the way.

"Logan drive fast- Oh my God Logan watch ou-" Haley said looking up and getting cut off as the two cars made impact and their car went flying and they all lost conciousness.

*end Flashback/dream*

Haley shot up out of bed. As soon as she was able to realize what the dream was about she let out a heartbreaking scream and collapsed on her bed in tears.

"Haley? Hey what's wrong?" Brooke asked walking into Haley's room followed by Peyton. They would only get Logan if it was neccessary.

"I...dream...Alex.." This caught the girls attention. They don't talk about Alex or Alyssa.

"What about Alex Hay?"

"That night, my dream it was about the car crash." Haley said before once again collapsing into tears.

The two girls didn't know what to do. They wanted to help their best friend but the only person who could help her wasn't here. The only one who knew what to say about this kind of thing was gone. Alex was brutally killed while the other driver walked away unscathed. How is that even possible. How is it fair that a baby lost their mother while some douche got to walk around free. It wasn't fair that they all lost someone that night, no two someones because Logan didn't want Alyssa to grow up without a mom.

"Peyton go get your brother." Peyton just nodded.

Logan and Peyton walked into the room about five minutes later.

"Sunshine what's wrong?" He asked rubbing his eyes and yawning.

"She had a dream about the car crash."

Logan shook his head.

"I'm not talking about this."

"You're the only one who knows what she's going through. You're the only other one that was there!"

"I'm not going to talk about it, we all agreed on that. We all said that we wouldn't have to talk about. So I'm not talking about it." He said without looking at Haley. He knew that if he looked at her he would cave in.

"Logan don't be that way."

He just shook his head, but sat down on the bed anyway. He sighed deeply.

"Hey, Haley babe, c'mere. Calm down. I know its hard to think about and I know that me being here isn't helping matters, which is why it was so hard for me to come back, because seeing that look on your face, would break me. Just like it is now. But it was time for me to come back. I just I want to be able to be here and not drudge up all those memories. But maybe it's time to talk about it. Not today, or tomorrow, but I mean it's been three years and us burying it down like that will just continue to make it worse."

Haley looked at him. Really looked at him. He had aged a lot, but I guess making the decision to give your daughter up, and having to live with that choice would do that to you. Maybe he was right. Maybe. She guessed she would find out.

But I want you all to know something before I go any furthur. This story is about life. This story is real. This isn't made up. This is real life and I hope it impacts you, because to write this story I had to dig up memories that were buried so deep down, they forgot they were there. Keep that in mind while listening to their story. Keep in mind that these are real people that live right here in Tree Hill. Don't think this is some awesome made up story. Because its not made up and it's not awesome. Its cold, its hard, and its the truth.

"You're right. But it's just so hard. She was there and then she wasn't, in the blink of an eye. I was holding her hand, I was right there, and she died. Not me, her. She had a daughter she had to take care of. Why was it her? Why not me? I have no point in this life."

"Haley don't say that. Yeah it sucks that's she's gone. But don't you ever think like that. You got that? Never. You have so much to live for. You have Nate."

"No I don't."

The three looked at her. She looked so broken, so lost. They didn't know how to help her. The only person who could help her, wanted nothing to do with her. She was so close to breaking. She was in mid-crash and soon she would hit the bottom and shatter and there would be nothing anyone could do.

"Haley..."

"Just don't"

*One week later.*

"Nate!"

Lucas called out. There was no answer.

"Yo Nate!" Jake called.

They heard a groan coming from his room. They headed back that way and were surprised when they opened the door.

"What do you guys want?"

They looked around at his room which was littered with trash and alcohol bottles.

"Nate man, you haven't been to school all week and your room is, quite frankly, disgusting."

Nathan rolled his eyes and layed back down on his bed.

"If you came here to give me a lecture you can leave."

He didn't want to deal with them. He just wanted to wallow in seld-pity at his stupidity. He missed her, he missed her so much. But his pride wouldn't let him let her win.

"Nate you're coming to school today. It'll do you both some good."

"Both?"

"You and Haley. She's a mess dude. Let's just go to school."

Jake said while Luke got him out of bed.

"Fine fine. Let's go." Nathan said getting motivated.

When they arrived to school they saw the girls and Logan sitting down at their normal table.

"Come on Nate, let's go over there."

"I don't know.."

Luke shook his head.

"You're coming." Jake said.

They walked over there.

"Hey guys."

They all looked up, and Nate took a step back, shocked at how...a mess Haley looked. She looked so normal from behind.

Brooke and Peyton glared at Nathan before turning there attention back to Haley.

"Haley you need to eat something."

"I'm not hungry."

"You haven't been hungry all week bear."

"Yeah well- Oh God. I'll be right back" Haley said getting up and running to the bathroom.

"Is she okay?" Nathan asked.

"I don't see why you care." Brooke snapped.

"Brooke...She has the flu or something and won't let us take her to the docotor." Luke said.

"I don't see what she could be throwing up, She hasn't eaten all week." Peyton said.

She came back out, sat down, looked around and said, in barely a whisper,

"I think I'm pregnant..."

Everyone took in a collective gasp.

"Then you need to eat bear." Logan said.

"Dude, Logan? What are you doing here?" Nathan asked realizing that the stranger was his old friend Haley.

"I'm Haley's cousin and Peyton's brother." Nathan nodded in understanding, feeling even more like a dick now.

"Okay now that, that's setteled back to Haley. You have to eat. And you need to go to the docotor so we can be sure."

Haley nodded her head.

"But I'm not hungry."

Everyone sighed.

"That's it. Let's go." Nathan said.

"Excuse me?" Haley said standing up.

"We're taking you to the hospital." He said.

Haley shook her head.

"No." She said stomping away, beore suddenly fainting.

"HALEY!" Everyone shouted.

"Get the car ready!" Brooke demanded.

And that was the start of Haley's ever lasting downward spiral.