'Do you mind if we go into my bedroom for this?' I asked and he shook his head. I took his hand in mine loving the way the fit together perfectly. 'Whatever makes you feel comfortable with me' he soothed as I dragged him upstairs. If only it was in different circumstances.

I was glad all I did was sleep and research in here. It was clean, the white carpet spotless apart from some walls was painted a creamy white, and there was 2 large oak bookcases lining the walls. My big bed with black bedding was in the middle. 'Jasper take a seat' I said pointing to the bed.

I watched as he hesitantly sat down. I quickly searched through the bookcase. Finally finding the book I wanted I pulled it out. 'Nobody knows I have this, not even Emmett' I told him. He nodded and I opened the book, it was a scrap book, paper cuttings and pictures littered the pages.

'Me and Emmett aren't the only children. I have a baby sister' I informed him. He nodded letting me continue, I love him more because of it. 'When I was 15 and she was 13, I met Gabriel for the first time. Oh Jasper I wanted to tell you for ages' I gushed out. I pulled him downstairs to my garage.

This was the moment that I told him everything. 'This is where I practise, it helps me calm down as well. Gabriel cannot come within 200 yards when I'm in here. Otherwise I would kill him' I told him pushing open the door. There was my shooting range and on the wall my collection of guns.

I gauged his reaction, he stared at it wide eyed. I couldn't blame him, his girlfriend had just showed him her shooting range. 'I'm a spy' I whispered softly in his ear. He looked at me before looking around again. 'I... I' he stuttered.

'If you don't believe me then I'll show you' I said quickly taking my top off. I knew they would be there, the scars would stay with me forever. I quickly pulled my trousers off as well. He might as well see them all, 'baby you don't have to show them me' he breathed tracing a scar on my side. I showed him my inner thigh, the damage done by Gabriel. It was still pink and ran down my inner thigh for 5 cm.

'Gabriel done it when I attacked him' I explained taking him into my bedroom. 'Gabriel done that to you' he said angrily. I nodded 'I was in the hospital for a week' I told him, relaxing back onto my bed. 'Both me and Gabriel are spies. We was on our first mission together, we were new and got captured by the enemy' I whispered to Jasper. He nodded coming to rest behind me. 'They separated us and he must have given in to them. He was a double agent and because I was the best credited female spy. They looked into me' I gasped.

'Hey baby' Jasper soothed wiping the tears away. I nodded I needed to say this. 'Well Gabriel found my address and passed it on. I came back from the hotel to find them in my house. There was a fight Gabriel and the people he worked for. Obviously I was supposed to be there' I breathed flicking a page over to show him my sister. 'She was beautiful' I whispered. The brown flowing curly locks was just past her shoulders. Green eyes similar to our grandmother's. 'Her name was Natalie' I smiled remembering her.

What happened then honey?' he asked quietly. I sighed curling into him burying my face in his chest. I remembered everything, Gabriel pulling Natalie. The gun shooting, the fire, everything, it still remained lurking in my mind. It was all that mother fucker's fault. I wanted him dead.

'Well they started to shoot at each other. I got hit' I said showing him the gun shot wound scar. It was above my right hip and I let his fingers trace it. 'Anyway Gabriel had no shield, Natalie was right in front of him. If only I had moved quicker, to grab her. But I didn't, he did. I childishly thought he was saving her. I was wrong' I retold him. 'Gabriel put her in front of him like a human shield. The blood just poured out of her Jazz. I remember it so clearly Jazz, please make the pain stop' I begged.

Jasper sighed clutching me tighter. 'Baby if I had known I would have killed him right there' he whispered, running his fingers up and down my sides. 'I held her as she died Jasper, I saw the life leave her body. Afterwards I went to kill him, I got the knife and tried to stab him, instead he stabbed my leg. The orginisation I work for burned my house to the ground' I cried straddling him in his lap. 'You should have never been put through that' he breathed harshly. I nodded agreeing with him. No one should ever have to live like this.

'Afterwards my mother blamed me for her death. I was wrong, and tonight she even said that I should of died. Natalie was the wrong child that died, I should have been' I sighed wrapping my arms round his neck. 'She doesn't mean it Issy' he assured. I shook my head 'you don't know her Jasper, she did mean it.' I wish I could show Jasper what she really is like!

'Jasper I'm a murderer well attempted' I smiled evilly. 'I met up with Gabriel and I went for a drive. I was only 15 still, and I gave him some drink. It was to knock him out, I drove straight into a river and made it look like an accident. By that time he was knocked out. I was so relieved he was dead that I cried' I whispered. Jasper nodded kissing my shoulder and sucking lightly. 'Unfourtunately there was a couple walking past, they rescued him from the car, while I swam out free, those pissing meddlers ruined my plan' I growled out.

I stared at him, waiting for his revulsion, to run away screaming from me. 'I'm not leaving you Bella, I never could' he whispered nipping my jaw. Again with the name, did he know or was I just hearing things? So many questions that needed to be answered between me and him. I sighed as he licked up my throat, 'Jasper' I moaned gripping onto his hair.

'I thought the idea of sex is actually taking your clothes off' a smug voice said in my doorway. I was thrown off Jasper's lap as he rushed to the door. 'What the fuck do you want you bastard?' he growled grabbing his shirt. 'My little Bee' he replied smiling, oblivious as to what we was discussing. Jasper snarled going to push him. 'Jasper he isn't worth it' I whispered into his ear.

'Eyes up' he told Gabriel. Gabriel smirked 'it's nothing I haven't seen before, the meeting doesn't wait for us' he said. I pulled Jasper away from him, scared he would kill Gabriel. Really I didn't want to explain this to Mr Peterson. Jasper wrapped his arms round my waist kissing my shoulder. 'I'm going to have a shower be good' I told them looking at Gabriel, he bowed smirking.

After doing all that stuff, I grabbed my hair dryer and started to blow dry my hair. I sighed both me and Jasper had no secrets now. We was equals in this. Well nearly. I glanced at the clock, shit half an hour was long enough for them to kill someone and hide the body. Quickly getting dressed I walked into the room, to see Gabriel holding a bleeding nose. Bloody brilliant!