Chapter [16] Suffocating under words

Almost 2 weeks has gone by sense the pirate incident. Lilly has been acting very strange sense then. The hole in her stomach must be messing with her insides, she is continually sick, rarely talks, and has some what avoided me. She barely lets me snuggle up to her at night anymore. She spends a lot of time out on the pier alone.

"Ive been worried abou' 'er...maybe this island isn't such a good place fer 'er" I said to Hanna as we watched her from the study sitting on the pier.

"D...you want me to go talk to her" She said

"yeah"

Hanna left the room heading for the lift. I could see her walking down towards the pier where Lilly had been sitting for the past 2 hours alone. I watched as she sat next to her starting a conversation. It looked like Lilly was avoiding talking to her until she suddenly turned to Hanna with her face in her hands. Hanna hugged her looking up towards the window where I still watched. She had a worried look on her face as she watched me. They exchanged a few more words and Hanna got up walking away from her walking to the door. I heard the lift right as she came back up to the study. She avoided looking at me as she walked in to the room and went straight for the couch.

"Wha's goin on Hanna" I asked feeling more worried then I did before she went out there.

"I cant tell you D I'm sorry" she said avoiding looking at me

"Wha's wrong with her is she sick, is she mad at me, wha' happen' PLEASE Hanna I need ta know" I begged

"D I really cannot tell you I'm so sorry"

I turned around slamming my fist in to a photo on the wall smashing the glass. My hand was bleeding but I didn't even notice. I went to the lift pushing the button to go down to the front entrance to talk to her myself. What ever it was I could handle it. I'm an adult I don't need to be lied to, or ignored especially by her. I loved her and what ever it was we could work threw it. A million things went through my mind on the ride down...did Murdoc do something...did she want to leave me...

I walked up behind her on the pier sitting down next to her. I could see her eyes were hazy and filled with tears as she turned her face away from me trying to wipe them away.

" lov' please talk to me please tell me was' wrong. Its killing me tha' I can' comfort you. Did I do somefink wrong. Did Murdoc do somefink?" I asked with no response.

"What happend lov please is it Murdoc, I swear if he touched you..."

"ITS NOT MURDOC" she said turning to me. "Its...its you...its you and me." She said tears running down her face.

"Wha' do you mean? Do you wan' ta leave...I understand." I said lowering my head hoping that wasn't what she really wanted.

"Stuart...I...I'm..."

"wha lov' wha' is it?"

"your...gonna..." she paused trying to find the right words

"Lov' please tell me wha' ever it is we can work through it...please...don' leave me...I love you so much" I told her grabbing her face and kissing it. The taste of her tears lingered on her lips.

"Please don't leave me" I begged again looking in to her eyes " please I love you so much."

Her tears streamed down her face quicker as she pulled away from me looking down as her stomach.

"Stuart...I'm...pregnant" she said quietly. She hid her face in her hands as I sat there shocked by what she had just told me.

"oh...uh..." I mumbled still in shock.

I grabbed her face pulling it to mine wiping away her tears. "Please lov' please tell me is' mine" I said shaking nervously waiting for her response.

"D...its defiantly yours...I promise." she said as more tears ran down her cheeks on to my hands.

"Then why ah' you so sad lov' I'll take care a' you, I promise ill be 'ere for you threw everything" I told her bringing her lips to mine. I could feel a slight smile on her lips as I kissed her.

"you aren't mad at me" She asked looking back down at her stomach where I finally noticed a slight bump.

"wha' made you fink I would be mad ah' you I mean is' kinda my fault is'n it" I said reaching over to touch the little tiny bump on her belly that was my new baby growing inside her.

"How far ah' you anyway" I asked

"I think around 3 months" she told me looking down at my hand.

I sat thinking back to the first time we had sex in my room in London. We were both very drunk. I counted the months sense then in my head...I left the day after that...was gone for 2 months...we spent a few days in Chicago...then a week on the boat...and its been 2 weeks sense we've been here...makes sense I thought to myself.

"Lov' I promise i'll take care ah' you. I'll never leave you two, your my family now" I told her watching a slight smile move across her face as she wiped away the last of her tears.

"I love you Stuart." She told me leaning in against me as we watched the sun set on the water in front of us. I wrapped my arms around her a huge smile coming over my face as I kissed her hair pulling her closer to me.

"I'll ge' you off this island lov' I promise" I whispered in her ear. "Ill never let you go."

"I dreamed of a boy...he looks just like you" she told me snuggling up in to the curve of my neck.

All I thought about after that was my new possible son, How I would raise him, How I would never let him live this life that i've been dragged in to and how my new family deserved much better then my dungeon Murdoc had forced me back in to here. We have to escape this island. I wont let her live this life of constant danger from pirates. Its not like they are after me anyways

I sat with Lilly and my little tiny nugget of a child in her belly...watching as the sun went down over the horizon...plotting our escape from the hell of plastic beach.