The first thing I noticed when I regained conciousness was that a heavy weight was pressed on my side. I groaned, opening my eyes to the dark room. I panicked, thinking I was back in the cellar again. I heard a quick sessions of beeps and I covered my ears.
"Bella. Bella!" a voice said calmly, holding onto my wrist. I opened my eyes to see Carlisle standing there, looking at me with concern. "Carlisle" I rasped and he nodded. "You're in hospital, you were out for seven days and that thing beside you is Jasper" he informed me, pouring me a glass of water.
I greedily gulped it down, having a couple of more glasses. "How you feeling?" he asked, helping me to sit up. I gasped as my stomach protested heavily. "I was supposed to die!" I told him angrily. "No you weren't Bella. The wound is healing up nicely. But I'm afraid you'll still have to be here for a couple more weeks. Just to makes sure your ribs, bones and of course stomach is healing properly without infection" he told me.
I nodded, resting my head back. "Carlisle? What was down the cellar?" I asked softly. Carlisle frowned and grabbed my hand. "There was nothing down there Bella, maybe a few rats but nothing was there" he explained, rubbing my hand with his thumb.
I shook my head and he sighed. "I saw it! I heard it!" I cried. "Bella calm. I promise you, as your father, there was nothing there. You had what is known as a CEV, a closed-eye vizualasitions. A sort of hallucination. You had the serious kind. Level 5- Overriding physical perception. Bella, your fear in that cellar reached a critical level. Your internal CEV perceptions and think-it/feel-it perceptions became stronger than physical perceptions, and completely replaced open-eye physical perceptions. That means your brain was making all this stuff up, because to the brain it was dark and your eye, though open, couldn't see" he explained.
"So I was imagining it?" I breathed, hardly able to believe it. Carlisle nodded and kissed my forehead. "It seemed so real though" I muttered. "It would to you, because you were making it up" he smiled gently. "But Jasper, he started to protest when Antonio said to take me down to stay with his friends" I pointed out. "Yes Bella, he probably should have reacted calmer but those little friends. As I said before, are rats" he soothed, taking my pulse.
"Has Jasper been treated?" I questioned, hand going to the wound on my stomach. "Yes, he's had the basic treatment but he refused anything that would make him leave you for more than 10 minutes" Carlisle smiled. I tutted, stroking his blond hair. "How long has he been here?" I wondered, staring at his dirty clothes. "Same as you, he won't leave your side. I had to literally push him out the door just to get him washed and some clean clothes from home" Carlisle told me.
I sighed, smiling down at him. He was meant to follow me, but I'm glad he didn't. If he died and I survived then I would just try and die agian anyway. My life was nothing without Jasper in it. A true Romeo and Juliet story.
"Bella, there's something I need to tell you" Carlisle sighed, rubbing his forehead, tiredly. I looked at the clock beside my bed. 4:23 am in the morning. "What is it?" I breathed, looking at him with concern. "When you was stabbed in the stomach. Well... there was signs that you won't be able to have children" he mumbled.
I gasped, eyes widening at the thought. No children? "...I didn't know to tell him or not. So I sent Jasper out the room" Carlisle rambled. "You said there was signs but not for definate. No children? I can't do it. So no we don't tell Jasper, he would be beside himself with guilt and self loathing" I said firmly. I could tell that Carlisle greatly disaproved of this. "We don't tell him Carlisle" I hissed, moving my broken arm. He nodded and frowned at the paper work.
"Bella, it's alright. You rest now" he ordered me. I nodded, slowly falling asleep as he made to walk out the room. "Oh and Bella, don't be too hard on him" Carlisle reminded me. I nodded, hand curled in Jasper's hair.
It was 5 o'clock when I next woke up. Jasper was awake this time though. "Bella, how do you feel?" he breathed, hand gripping my own. "Fine, Carlisle told me everything when I woke up before" I smiled, groggily. Jasper nodded, pressing a kiss to my lips.
I cupped his face, still a bit high from the drugs. I watched as his face crumpled up and he buried his face into his hands. "I'm so sorry, it was all my fault. You could have died Bella and it would have been me. I'm supposed to be your boyfriend, but instead I'm your murderer" he sobbed.
I stroked through his curls, calming the young man down. I knew I shouldn't have agreed to him killing me. I didn't think of the concequences that it would have on Jasper. I had only allowed him to give me a quick and slightly painless death.
"Jazz, sshhh. It's not your fault. I'm still here, I'm not going anywhere" I soothed, placing a kiss on his head. "No! Don't forgive me! I don't want you to forgive me" he protested. "I can't help it, I already have" I muttered, trying to soothe him. "But I nearly killed you!" he yelled. "Jazz sshh the nurses will come in" I quietened him.
"If anything Jasper you was saving me. I could have easily died in there Jasper. I didn't want to die a slow and painful death. So I, Isabella McCarty, forgive you Jasper Whitlock-Hale" I said slowly. "But I don't think I can forgive myself" he muttered.
"Jasper, I still love you. You were trying to save me Jazz" she tried to force in his head. "I should have known better than to do that. I let my emotions over come my training" he breathed. I shook my head, remembering he gave me the same reaction.
"That happened to me as well. Fuck it happened the first time I met you" I cursed. "What do you mean?" he frowned, looking at me properly. "Well, when I met you there was attraction. I shouldn't have allowed myself to become distracted but I did. We started dating while I was supposed to solve this. Then when we were kidnapped, I could have escaped Jasper. I was so close, you don't know how close I was. I could literally taste freedom on my tongue. But I couldn't because that would mean leaving you at the hands of them. See Jasper? Don't feel guilty Jasper" I explained.
"Okay" he agreed, resting his head on my hand. "You look terrible, go and get sorted out" I ordered him as the nurse walked in. "I'm fine I was" he assured. "No I mean properly, have scans on your ribs and everything. Make sure you get better" I said firmly. "Fine but then I'm coming straight back" he bargained. I nodded but before he walked out I called to him, "tell Emmett to stop giving you a hard time as well."
The nurse beside me chuckled. "Giving your orders already?" she smiled. "Of course, for his own sake" I giggled, letting her check my vitals. "That's how you take care of men love, tell them what to do" she advised me. "You're obviously married" I grinned. "That obvious?" she sighed. "No, the skin is a slightly different colour to the others on your ring finger, from where you take it off for work. You talk with experience, and you've still got that little glint in your eye from how much you love him" I pointed out. She gaped at me "how did you kno-" before she was interrupted.
"How is the patient this evening?" Carlisle asked walking in. "Please tell me you've had a break?" I sighed. "Of course, I've only just got on. Esme is of course out of her mind. But no one apart from Jasper and Emmett has been allowed to see you so far" he informed me. "What not even my own mom? Then why are you here?" I frowned. "I'm a doctor" he smirked, kissing her head.
"Where's Jazz?" he questioned, speaking quietly to the nurse. "I sent him out for food" I told the pair. Carlisle smiled slightly, obvious not used to people listening into his conversations. "Sorry, habit" I shrugged. "Understandable" Carlisle nodded, before he dismissed the nurse.
"Bella, Mr Peterson has been wanting to speak with you for days" Carlisle sighed. I sighed and shook my head. "Please Carlisle, can't you just say I'm not up to it" I begged. "I'm sorry baby, but he's waiting outside" Carlisle sympathetically. I nodded and closed my head in acceptance.
"Is she asleep again?" I heard a timid voice ask Carlisle. "No son, she's just heard about Mr Peterson" Carlisle informed someone. I opened my eyes to see Jasper with a hand full of food. "Have you got checked out?" I asked him. He blushed and busied himself tidying up.
"Jasper!" I groaned and he rolled his eyes. "I'm perfectly fine" he assured. I narrowed my eyes and ushered him closer. There I pulled up his shirt. I gritted my teeth as Jasper hurriedly pulled it down. The bones under his skin was in an awkward shape. "I'm no doctor but those look either broken or fractured" I raised an eyebrow.
But before he could answer, he was interrupted by Mr Peterson. "Ah, glad to see you are awake. How are you feeling?" he asked. I tried to sit up but my body protested. "I'm fine Sir" I lied, putting on a small smile. "That's good, I'm here to inform you that you have two months off before training begins. This is without pay" he told me.
"What!" I gasped, sitting up now. My body was on fire but to hell with that. "I have put blood, sweat and tears into this mission and you're not paying me!" I shouted. Mr Peterson raised an eyebrow. "We are paying you for the mission, but not the leave" he explained. "I'm in hospital! It's the least you can fucking do! I almost died!" I cried, panting with all the energy I was taking up.
My broken arm screamed at me for holding my body up, but I couldn't care less. I was being treated unfairly. "I think you should remember who you are speaking to. I won't stand for your cheek anymore" he reminded me. I bit my tongue as I nodded.
"I'm sorry Sir, it won't happen again" I apologised. "That's ridiculous, she is your top spy and you're not even giving her sick leave with pay. And you called me a snake in the grass" Jasper yelled, standing up. "Jasper" Carlisle snapped but Jasper ignored him. "Baby, please calm down. It's alright" I soothed, laying a hand on his arm. He let out a small huff and lay beside me on the bed.
"Well, looks like this is going to be fun!" I muttered, shaking my head.
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