Anything italic is thoughts just so you know...though some say I thought as others just sit there unloved by I thought...

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*I don't know if the other font will show up so I will bold and italic it and that shall be the flash backs or memories*

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Now that I think about it, now that I taste this, this fear this tainted love Bakura has always given me. I know now that this man is: No he is not a monster, not horrible; he is a broken soul and a sorry excuse for a lover though I love my sorry excuse for a lover so dearly. I want to be his, I want to be loved by him but Bakura can't love. Is my Bakura capable of love? Capable of feeling the emotion love? Does he have the ability to love? Does he have the chemicals in his brains that allow him to love me and want to be with me forever?

But Bakura's eyes are a mystery to me they say that they love, that Bakura loves me so dearly yet Bakura can't show it...

I wonder what my boy is; is he human? Is he a robot? Is my boy a psychopath? Well I hope to Ra that Bakura is not a psychopath!

I realize now I am terrified of the man I love so dearly; the man that owns this cracked, beaten down, bruised heart. I could never fully tell myself that I was frightened of him, that I did not want to be a victim of his. I wanted to be his everything not is stress reliever. Is that what I am to Bakura a stress reliever?

I was blinded by my love for Bakura that I never wanted to confess to the fact that I am scared shitless of my lover!

I am still blinded by it though since I can't confess fully since my heart beat every minute for him and him only.

My fear for him is my mind and body protecting me from Bakura and his ways. Those ways scare me the most! His body against mine in a way I don't want, those delicate hands that should have never left my cheek that he caresses so gentle and loving hurt me in ways I can never be repaired.

I am blind to the pain my lover causes me since I never want to see or think of the ways Bakura has hurt me.

I have erased them from my mind but they still haunt me every day!

Memories haunt me; viscously attacking my mental stability

That dream, that horrible dream when Bakura had those red eyes and he was after me that was no dream it's a memory a horrible, horrible memory in which he stole my life. He wanted me to be his and I refused I stood up to Bakura told him "NO!"

Bakura was more deranged than usual. He spoke such violence my parents did not like Bakura so they also had an opinion in my relationship with Bakura.

Bakura do not like that one bit so he killed my parents. He tried a couple times to light the house on fire and kill my family in a fire but that didn't work the fire always got put out. So he pushed my mother out the window making it look like a suicide. I was twelve. I use to look out and he would pull me away from the window telling me "You could fall like your mother did" or "Don't fret precious I'm here, step away from window and Go back to sleep"

He killed my father by lacing his food, smokes anything with poison. My father died when I was sixteen which left my grandma to look after me but all she does was sleep.

One cold chilly night he came into my bedroom as I turned around I saw him and tried to run away. I tripped over a car then I began to crawl backwards, Bakura's followed me as I scooted back. His shadow came to life and crept closer to my feet as I felt my back made contact with the wall. I heard his footsteps and I felt them hit the floor as my eyes slammed shut. I felt his feet hit my feet and I felt his body against my body as I turned my head to the side.

"Ryou sweetie I am sorry" Bakura angelic whispered into my ear as...he drove the knife into my stomach. I screamed in pain as Bakura kissed my lips hushing. I felt him wrap my hands around the knife then stab it into his stomach. I began to cry.

"Don't cry my darling now we can be together forever"

Kura. It's a pet name I came up with randomly and I liked it. "Kura" it just rolls off my tongue so nicely.

Kura, Kura, Kura

I love the name I gave my boy though to me when Bakura did something mean and unlovable I use to say Kura as a way to make Bakura seem soft and loveable which he is. Bakura is a giant softy at time so why can't he be like that 24/7. I would love it if my boy could be a soft loveable and gentle all the time instead of being this rude, cold, violent person. I don't like that Kura at all.

All I want is to be Bakura's be loved by him. I want Bakura no matter what! I will always love Bakura

I know I am hopeless right?

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"Hello?" Yugi stated as he waved his hand in front of my face. I shook my head then looked at him as he smiled and then went back to sitting straight in the car.

"Sorry" I whispered as Yami parked the car then span around and ruffled my hair like what an older brother would do to you.

"You have been in your head for sometime Ryou ever since you entered our car. What were you think about?"

"I was thinking about the string theory and how-" I lied

"We get it genius" Yugi laughed as we exit Yami's Maserati GranTurismo S. Yami is packed with money and the only reason he has this car is because it makes him seem big when really it makes him look like he has a small penis but don't tell him I told you that.

We began to walk through the museum I attached myself to Yugi's arm at which he smiled at. He has no idea that the man who I meet last night scares me since he knows my name and a lot about me but I know nothing about him!

I have a horrible feeling about being here and meeting this man but I don't know why.

"Good evening Ryou, Yugi and Atem- I mean Yami"

"Good Evening great God Ra-Atum" Yami stated as he and Yugi got on their knees and bowed down to the God. Their face was to the floor so the head was an inch from the ground that kind of bowing before a God. I stood there and stared at them then I waved at the man that they called Ra-Atum and he waved back. I don't bow for creepy men who know my name...Well he is a God but still I won't bow down for this God.

"So now you know who I am" Ra-Atum smiled as I nodded. Yugi and Yami stood up again and glared at me slightly.

"Yah I just didn't see you as a God since you look human with your black hair and black and white suit though the yellow eyes could have been a dead giveaway" I shrugged as I scratched my head.

Ra smiled at me as he walk through a wall I stopped at the wall but then his hand came through the wall and pulled me in which I yelp at. He pulled me into another room as Yugi and Yami followed behind me and him. This room was dark except for a couple bright lights that shone down into this wide giant dirt ring that was a good couple feet deep. It would be hard to get out of if you fell down there. We were standing above that giant ring. The ring had a railing all the way around it I am guess so no one falls in to the ring.

"Ryou how is your relationship with Bakura going and don't lie" Ra asked as he looked angry.

I looked down at the ground and kicked some dirt. "Ummm honestly Mr. Ra sir it has been going horrible. I do love Bakura in fact I love him a lot but he...hurts me at times and I believe I don't deserve that kind of love but I know he loves me"

"So you're saying he has not learned to love you?" Ra asked

"Well I do believe he loves me"

"That's not what I asked he does not know how to love someone right?" Ra asked again with tension in his voice

"Yes sir"

"So he is guilty of harming you?" Ra asked again with an angry look in his yellow eye

"Yes I believe he is guilty"

Ra waved his hand as I saw Bakura get dragged into the room by the air.

"It's rude to spy Bakura" Ra smiled as Bakura growled and glared at the God Ra.

"Whatever bird man. Now Ry-OU!" Bakura yelled as he was dragged again by Ra's powers to the railing that he bumped into. He went to push himself up but a skeletal hand popped up from the dirt edge of the ring and grabbed his ankle then pulled him in; he disappeared without a sound.

I ran to the railing then looked down to see Bakura laying their eyes closed in the ring.

Oh NO! I thought as something moved in the dirt around him.

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I really believe the second half of the chapter sucks especially the describing of the ring. I tried my best to describer something that I see yet don't know how to describe.

Hope you like it. I will try to get the other chapter up soon