A/N: Hello people. Sorry I havent updated in a while. I have been rather busy with school related shenanigans etc etc. here is a big juicy chapter for you. Also I probably should have some sex scenes or at least some sexy time in here some time and I am SHIT at writing or so if you want to write some for me I will gladly give you all the credit you want and more. Just PM me. Yay. Anyway, on with the chapter.

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*Logan*

Why was Logan so nervous? It's not like he hasn't been on a date before – actually he had definitely dated his fair share of girls. He had been talking to Lou for a while now and he really liked her, much more than he had liked any of his previous girlfriends. They weren't really girlfriends, they were kind of like…fuck buddies. The girls he dated were fine with that, actually they liked that more than an actual relationship. He was a bit tired of it though, sure it was fun but he wanted a long term relationship with someone he really liked and he was going to give it a shot with Lou. Logan pulled up on the curb outside what he was pretty sure was Lou's house. He retrieved his phone out of his pocket and double checked the text he got from Lou with her address. 10 Upper Earle St he said to himself as he looked up from his phone, out the window at the house in front of him. It was huge, holy shit. He couldn't believe that there was actually a house in his area that was that big and beautiful. He opened the car door and got out onto the freshly cut grass on the nature strip on the sidewalk. He walked up to the gothic style iron gate and opened it with a creak. Walking up the small footpath to the front door, a distressed blue door covered with iron metal designs over the top. Logan was amazed at how cool it was, but it also resembled her personality which was a bit different but very creative. He knocked on the door and waited for someone to come and open it. Not long after he knocked, a tall man with brown curly hair and a welcoming smile opened the door.

"Hi Mr. Gillespie, is Lou home?" Logan said a bit intimidated.

"Yes, hi, you must be Logan. I'm Rod, come in and I'll get Lou" he said smiling making Logan feel at ease as he stepped into their house. It smelled of vanilla incense and felt cozy. The first thing logan noticed was the white brick walls were scattered with all different pieces of art as well as other odd things, like old newspapers, pressed flowers and pieces of metal deigned like the ones on the door, only smaller. The house didn't have matching furniture except for the dining table but apart from that all the chairs were different from each other and while most people probably found this weird and distasteful, Logan found it interesting. Rod had left Logan in the living room while he went to get Lou and came back a couple of minutes later with Lou coming up behind him.

Lou was a few inches shorter than Logan, and was quite petite in both height and stature. She had dark blue eyes and long eyelashes. She had quite fair skin with freckles spread across her nose and cheeks. Although Logan was nice, he was still a guy, so he wasn't going to pretend that he had never noticed that she had quite a large chestal region. She was wearing a tight, electric blue shirt and dark skinny jeans. The most noticeable feature Lou had was her trademark red hair. Logan still remembered the first time she had dyed it, back in the 8th grade. It had previously been a light brown colour, but red looked so great on her you could've sworn it was her natural colour. Logan couldn't help but get sidetracked on how gorgeous Lou was, and he soon realized that he had been wordlessly staring at her for quite some time. Logan quickly brought himself out of the daze he was in and came back to reality.

"Hey Lou, you ready to go?" Logan managed to stumble the words out of his mouth like an idiot. Lou smiled sweetly and nodded.

"Sure. Bye dad I'll be home later." she said giving her dad a quick peck on the cheek and headed for the front door with Logan following her. They walked out the front door and were met by another man a bit taller than Logan with black, curly hair, ridiculously tanned skin and wearing a suit.

"Logan this is my other dad

Terry" she said introducing the stranger. He smiled at Logan and outstretched a hand for him to shake.

"It's nice to finally meet you Logan, we have heard lots about you." Terry said, giving Logan a firm handshake with a warm smile. Logan was a bit shocked that Lou's parents were gay but it honestly didn't phase him, he had plenty of gay friends that were great people.

"Nice to meet you too sir." Logan replied retracting his hand only to have it taken by Lou's hand, leading them to the front gate.

"Bye. Be home later, love you." Lou called out to them, clearly wanting to get away to avoid further embarrassment. Her and Logan hopped into Logan's old pickup truck - he knew it wasn't fancy but it was all he could afford with his savings.

"Ah, shit." Lou said under her breath but loud enough for Logan to here.

"You ok?" Logan asked

"Yeah, sorry can you hold on one second, I forgot my bag. I'll be two seconds." She said getting out of the car. Logan smiled and nodded

"It's fine, go ahead." he said as she scurried off back into the house. Logan felt a buzzing in his pocket, he fished out his phone and looked at the caller ID. Kendall? Wasn't he at James' place? Logan answered his phone only to hear heavy breathing and words muffled into the phone.

"LOGAN, THANK GOD YOU ANSWERED YOUR PHONE!" Kendall said in a rushed manner.

"Kendall, what's up I'm about to take Lou out remember?" Logan said with slight annoyance in his voice. This better be important.

"ROSE...SHE'SINTHEHOSPITALANDICAN'TSEEHERANDIDON'TKNOWWHYSHEDIDIT!" Kendall said loudly and quickly into the phone.

"What the fuck Kendall, slow down and tell me again. What's happened with Rose?" Logan said worried

"SHE'S IN HOSPITAL MAN! We had a fight and I went to apologize and I found her on the floor with blood all over her and I called 911. She was cutting herself man and it's all my fault!" Kendall said in tears with his breathing still taking over the silence when no one was speaking. Logan couldn't believe this, had Rose seriously done this? Why? Logan was so worried and they were only close friends so he could not imagine what Kendall was feeling right now.

"What hospital are you at?" Logan said determinedly to Kendall.

"St Lucifer's, I've texted and called the others but they won't answer." said a still sobbing Kendall.

"Ok buddy stay calm I'll be there as soon as I can." Logan said hanging up the phone and quickly putting it back in his pocket while getting out of the car. He walked briskly up to Lou's front door only to meet her there. She saw Logan was distressed and her facial expression changed from upbeat to worried in a second.

"Logan what's wrong?" She said confused.

"You know Rose Sullivan? Well she is Kendall's girlfriend and she is in the hospital and Kendall wants me there with him so I am so so sorry but we will have to do this another time. I'm so sorry!" Logan said quickly.

"It's ok, quickly go! Kendall would. Need you there. Let me know how things go" She said still worried but fine with the fact Logan had to take a raincheck on their date. Logan grabbed both sides of Lou's head and gave her a quick kiss on the lips before rushing back to his car.

Logan arrived at the hospital about 5 minutes later and walked through the automatic sliding doors into the main office with the front desk. Logan quickly walked up to the reception desk and spoke to a middle aged black woman with bright pink lipstick on, who was aimlessly typing away on her computer.

"Hi, excuse me. I'm looking for a patient that came in not long ago, Rose Sullivan?"

"Are you a friend or family member?" She said with a thick, friendly New York accent.

"Friend" Logan said, just wanting to go up and see Kendall and Rose.

"She's on the 3rd floor and there is a waiting room up there." She said with a smile and a few clicks her her mouse.

"Thank you very much." Logan said nodding before walking quickly over to the elevator and pushing the "up" button repeatedly with impatience, until the elevator doors opened. He stepped in and pressed 3. As the doors were closing he heard a familiar voice.

"HOLD THE DOORS!" It was Carlos. He had clearly been running because his face was red and sweaty and he was puffing. Logan held the elevator doors before they closed so Carlos could come in.

"Hey man, so I guess you got Kendall's message. Poor Rose." Logan said solemnly and Carlos nodded.

"Yeah I was working out and I didn't hear my phone. I ran here dude. My dad was going to pick me up at 6 but I needed to get here. Fuck it's a long run" he said talking between puffing. They arrived on the third floor and walked into the waiting room. Logan and Carlos saw Kendall curled up on the floor with his knees tucked into his chest and his head down. He hated to see anyone like this, especially one of his best friends. The two went over and say by Kendall and gently patted him on the back.

"How is she man?" Logan said quietly to Kendall. Kendall lifted his head. He wasn't crying anymore but you could tell he had been by his tear stained cheeks.

"She's ok. She didn't loose too much blood but they found a lot of old scars and they were deep. She has depression so they said it isn't uncommon for people like her to injure themselves. But this was my fault, I got angry at her and made her upset. It's my fault she did this. What if I hadn't found her? What if..." Kendall said with desperation in his voice before breaking down in tears. Carlos rubbed circles on his back while Logan tried to calm him down verbally.

"This is not your fault Kendall. It's something she did because of her depression. Like the doctors said, it's common. The main thing is that she is ok, she's still with us. It's ok" Logan said with sincerity in his voice. Carlos and Logan looked up as they heard the ding of the elevator. Out of the doors stepped a flustered James, with no shirt on and sweatpants. He came over quickly when he saw Logan sitting with Kendall and Carlos.

"I'm so sorry I wasn't here sooner. I was having a run and my music was too loud. How is Rose?" He said apologetically while bending down to Kendall's height. Kendall just nodded without speaking so Logan stepped in.

"She's fine, she's just resting now." He said.

They all sat there with Kendall until he calmed down enough to get up and sit on one of the plastic chairs in the waiting room. Logan was relieved Rose was ok and he thought Kendall would be overjoyed that she was alright but he was the opposite. He was still upset, had been sitting staring at the wall for 2 hours now, only shifting in his chair when he became uncomfortable. Nothing like this ever happened with Logan, he had a close knit group of friends and family, all of which usually didn't have interesting things happen to them normally. The most exciting thing that had happened lately was Logan asking Lou out, and that wasn't very exciting. 10 minutes passed before a doctor came out, she was a middle aged Egyptian looking woman with long dark hair pulled into a ponytail. She approached Logan and the others and they all stood up. Kendall looked extremely anxious as he waited for the doctor to speak.

"Hi boys, I'm Dr. Mulveny. Rose is fine, she is resting and you can go see her but she is a bit loopy from the anesthetic we gave her, but go ahead. Also boys, we tried contacting her parents but her mother wouldn't answer and her father said he was out of the country and to call her mother. So we will try again later, but we will need an adult to sign a consent form to have her stay over night." the doctor explained. Logan saw Kendall look up and speak.

"Her parents aren't around too much, I'll call my mum and she'll come down." Kendall said to Dr. Mulveny and she nodded. The four boys went into The room Rose was in, she looked pale but still alive. Thank god.

"You guys can go if you want, I'm going to stay the night. Thank you so much for coming, your great." Kendall said as they entered the room and he sat down on the chair next to Rose's bed. The nodded and said goodbye leaving Kendall sitting in his chair holding Rose's hand. Logan hoped things would only get better but he knew there would be trouble when Rose woke up and her and Kendall talked.

"I'm gonna stay for a bit longer. I'll see you later guys." James said as he said goodbye to Logan and Carlos, clearly wanting to talk to Kendall alone. The two nodded and headed to the elevator, it had been a long day.