Disclaimer: I own none of the Twilight characters or anything related to Twilight.

A/N: hey guys, I know you are not all happy with the last chapter but I feel that it had to happen in order for the plot to progress, also that it why I name the chapter lover are lunatics because they sometimes do stupid things. I am also sorry that this chapter took so long, I had some things going on.

Anyway on with the show!

Chapter 8 – Life is a tragedy for those who feel and a comedy for those who think.

Edward POV

Running my hands through my hair I walked back into my bedroom, laying down on the bed which was still warm from my activities with Jacob, at that moment my phone rang. It was in the back pocket of my jeans, which had been discarded on the floor by the door. Grabbing the phone as it rang frantically I answered it without looking at the screen, sitting down at the edge of my bed.

"Hello?"

"Hi Edward, its Bella. I just wanted to remind you that tomorrow we have that meeting with the caterer"

"Yeah, sure don't worry I'll be there"

"Good it's at 12, see you tomorrow. Love you" for some reason I felt insanely guilty when she said that, I could have gone about by life if she hadn't said those last two words. But knowing that she loved me made me realise what a stupid, selfish asshole I was being.

"Love you too" she hung up and I dropped my phone onto the bed beside me, I can't believe that I didn't even consider my fiancé. Shit, what was I going to do now? Standing up and pacing round the room restlessly, I turned over the situation in my mind over and over not seeing another way around it. I would have to talk to Jacob again, to tell him it couldn't happen again that it never should have happened in the first place. Yes that's what I would do, no point putting it off I would go round after this catering thing Bella had set up, I would go and I would tell him straight.

Sighing and running my hands through my hair as I stopped pacing, I cleared my bed and attempted to go to sleep without thinking about Jacob or what we did or how I wanted to see him again so badly.

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"Edward...Edward" I shook my head as I looked back at Bella, her eyebrows raised in a silent question her legs crossed as she waited for an answer.

"Yeah?" she sighed and crossed her arms over her chest before glancing at the caterer a short plump brunette, with an apologetic look.

"I asked you, if we should go for the salmon or the lamb dish for the main course"

"Um...I don't know...er...both?" she rolled her eyes and turned back to her ignoring my comment.

"I think the lamb dish would be best" she nodded and took away the dishes, returning a few moments later with a tray with different types of cakes. For the next half an hour I sat mostly quiet, bored out of my mind occasionally nodding and just agreeing with whatever Bella said or asked me. Tapping my foot the time dragged on, I wanted this to be over already, but then I remembered what I was supposed to be doing later and then I just wanted to put it off and deal with it all later.

So when it was all over and done with we walked to my car as I had picked Bella up from her place, her phone started ringing loudly. Rummaging round in her bag she found it at the bottom of her bag and answered the call a slight frown on her lips as she did so.

"Hello?" after listening to the person on the other end, her frown became more pronounced and when she hung up she did not look pleased. Rubbing her shoulder she looked up at me as she slid her phone back into her handbag.

"What's wrong?"

"The new intern messed up the planning of Lauren Mallory's launch party, so we have no venue and she has a whole new list of demands for us now" scratching her elbow as she did when she was annoyed or angry, she shook her head again. "they are calling me in to sort it out and I don't have time for this I still haven't finished editing Mike's final draft, then I have to send a copy of it to the printers by Wednesday, I can't deal with this..." as she started rambling I put my hands on her shoulders, turning her so she faced me.

"Hey, hey calm down, okay. First of all you are brilliant at your job - hence why they're calling you on a Saturday - secondly here is what we will do. I'll take you home and you can get what you need and then I'll give you a ride to work. Give my mom a call and she'll find you a place she knows lots of people. It will all be sorted, alright?" she breathed deeply and smiled at me nodding her head in agreement.

"I don't know what I'd do without you, Edward" letting go of her I kissed her on the forehead and opened the passenger side door for her then walked round and climbed in my own seat. Before I started up the engine she held my hand and pulled it to her lips, leaving a kiss on the back of my hand and smiling at me again he released my hand and I pulled my car out of where I was parked.

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Taking a deep breath I stood in front of Jacob's door, slowly raising my hand to knock and then pausing. Sighing deeply I mentally braced myself as I lowered my hand to gently knock on the door twice, waiting for only a few moments before Jacob answered the door. He came to the door wearing a pair of distressed light blue jeans that sat low on his hips with nothing else on, his hair wet with water droplets dripping down his bare torso.

"Oh hey Edward, come in" grinning as he took a step to the side to let me enter, shutting the door behind me and walking into the kitchen and opening the fridge. "Do you want a drink?"

"No thanks, I'm not staying for long"

"Okay then" shutting the fridge after getting himself a can of beer he popped the top taking a deep mouthful as he walked to the couch grabbing the towel that was draped over the back of the sofa. Considering how...close we got last time I found my eyes lingering on his sculpted abs and the way they flexed as he moved. I had a hard time looking away as he dried of his body and hair roughly, a droplet of water rolled down his chest slowly and my eyes were almost glued to his body.

"What were you saying, Edward?" shaking my head I cleared my throat.

"We...er...we need...we need to...er...talk..." I found it very hard to think and talk coherently around him and he could easily sense that.

"Does my being half naked bother you?" he had a sexy half smirk on his face that made me want to wipe the smile of his face. He continued to grin at me whilst walking towards me slowly, raising an eyebrow as I continued to stutter nervously.

"No...I...er...I...um..."he stopped when he was standing only a couple of paces away from me.

"Do we really need to talk?" hooking his fingers into the belt loops on my jeans he pulled me so our chests were touching.

"Yes, we do...er...I don't we should do this" leaning his head down he put his lips on my lips then trailing kisses down to my Adam's apple, sucking lightly and eliciting a deep moan from me. He then brushed his lips against my earlobe his voice low and oh so alluring as he removed his hands from my waist, placing one on my shoulder with his other hand tracing circles on my lower back.

"Do you really think that or have you been feeling guilty?" my eyes closing as he took my earlobe between his teeth, I found it increasingly hard to even contemplate breaking away from him.

"I'm engaged, Jake...we...shouldn't"

"Why not?" his hand on my back stilled and he moved away so that I could see his face, the smile was gone but he wasn't angry he looked strangely calm.

"It's not...it's not right" he moved closer to me capturing my lips with his in a deep kiss.

"we...we should stop...this" he smiled as my voice lost its conviction, biting my bottom lip he sucked on it and it felt so good I thought my legs were going to give out at any moment.

"I...I'm...I'm all out of excuses" he chuckled as I kissed his jaw, kissing down his neck to his shoulder with my hands roaming over his bare torso.

"Good, I thought you would never shut up" placing his hands on the sides of my face he pulled me in for a proper kiss, moving my lips against his I felt his lips curl up into a smile. Not breaking away he started backed up, leading me into his bedroom with me not complaining as long as he kept his lips on mine.

My senses were on overload, I could feel Jacob's hands sliding down my body and stopping at my waist, pulling off my shirt in one swift motion, his nails lightly scratching against my back. I could smell that sensual woody musky scent that was so damn irresistible, as I ran my nose down the side of his neck. I could hear his groans as we made it to his bed, kicking the door shut behind me his groans and moans were sexy as fuck and had me virtually ripping his clothes off.

We fell onto his bed with me on top of him and only a few thin layers of clothing separating us from what we wanted. He lowered his hands to my ass, thrusting his hips upwards so our clothed dicks rubbed against each other. Then moving his hands to my waist he flipped us over so that he was straddling me.

"you know you look very sexy underneath me" kissing him again he grabbed my hands and held them above my head with one hand, with his other hand sliding down my bare chest to palm my hard on through my jeans. Smiling wickedly as I groaned into his lips I proceeded to kiss him with much greater urgency.

"Fucking hell Jake, stop teasing me" I growled out as he moved his hand back up my torso, chuckling as how eager I was he released my hands and oh so slowly pulled off my jeans down. Moving his lips away from mine he smirked at me as he threw my jeans over his shoulder, then tugged off my boxers a little quicker. Sitting up a little I wasted no time in pulling off the remainder of his clothes, my hands wrapping round his cock as our lips met again.

Pushing me back down on my back roughly our kisses were more frenzied and excited, biting lips and tongues meeting in intense encounter. Jake was dominating and it was such a turn on as he lowered his hand to my dick that twitched in anticipation, a grin on his face as he watched me.

An hour and a half later we fell back on to the bed sweaty and spent, breathing heavily as we came down from our high. My leg was draped over his waist and his arm was wrapped round the top of my chest with his head on my shoulder. Raising my head to peer at the clock on his bedside table I sighed deeply.

"What's wrong?" he said as we untangled our limbs.

"It's late and I have a class in the morning" he sat up as did I, reaching for my boxers and pulling them on and standing up. He looked at me and pressed his lips together as if to prevent himself from laughing. "What's so funny?"

"You might want to look in the mirror" he said as a snigger escaped his lips, frowning and walking to the mirror by the cupboard to see my hair sticking up in all directions. It looked like I had been dragged through a hedge backwards, trying to flatten my unruly hair I turned round and grabbed my shirt and jeans. Jacob got up and pulled on a pair of shorts choosing to commando and forgoing a shirt, totally self-confident as he walked past me and into the living room, as I pulled my clothes on.

"Jake?" I called out as I followed him, he went to kitchen and got himself a bottle of water.

"Yeah, what's up?" he was so casual about what had happened, it reminded me of the reason I had come here in the first place.

"I think we should stop. We should stop now before anyone finds out" nodding he put the bottle down on the countertop and crossing his arms.

"Someone like Bella?" he raised an eyebrow at me.

"Yeah, like Bella. I love her and this is really confusing me" looking away from him and getting my phone from my pocket I saw that I had 3 missed calls from Bella and 2 from my mom.

"I see"

"You do?"

"Yeah, you're always in control and you hate not have any when something doesn't follow any of your rules" he smiled a little half smile at me. "I know you Edward, don't think I don't. So if it makes you feel better I won't say anything to Bella or anyone else"

"Thanks Jake" he was still smiling as he approached me, only stopping when we were standing very close to each other. So close that I could feel the heat coming off of his body, as he tilted his head so our lips were almost touching but not quite.

"But, I think that you don't really want to stop this, whatever this is. Secretly I think you enjoy not always being so damn uptight"

"No, that's not true, we should stop this" he brushed his lips against mine like before and I was a goner, my argument getting weaker.

"Be a bit reckless for once in your life Edward. Don't worry...it can be our little secret"

A/N: thanks for reading guys sorry it was so short!

Won't be updating for a couple of weeks as I am going to Leeds and I won't be able to take my laptop with me.

See you guys in a few weeks! xx