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A/N: hi everyone, I've realized that most of you really dislike Bella, that wasn't my intention at all! She is being cheated on and Edward is withdrawing from her, she is hurt and she is just reacting to how uninvolved Edward is. I do dislike how some stories represent her as a bitch, she is the (partly) innocent party here.

Anyway with my little rant aside, here we go people the moment of truth! What will Edward do now?

Chapter 14 ~ Here we go again

Edward POV

There it went another chance slipped by, I could have said anything or done something. He tried to hide it, but I saw the look in his eyes as he walked down the road away from me yet again. That look was the same heartbreaking look he had in his eyes the night that he broke up with Paul, the night that now seemed a lifetime ago rather than just two months ago.

Emmett walked out of the living room, raising an eyebrow as I closed the door. "Who was it, Ed?"

"It was Jacob, dropping off his car" handing him the keys, I grabbed my jacket from where it was hanging by the door. "I have to go, I'll talk you later"

"You only got here a few minutes ago!" complained my brother petulantly as I got my cars keys out of my jacket pocket.

"Yeah, I know...something has come up. See you later Emmett" not sticking around long enough to hear the halfhearted goodbye, I strode over to my car quickly sliding in and driving in the direction Jacob had headed. I saw him a little way ahead of me, I soon caught up with him, Slowing my car to a crawl beside him. He turned and saw me, then he looked straight ahead doing his best to ignore me.

"Jake, when are you leaving?" he pretended that he didn't hear me but I saw his lip involuntarily twitch as he kept walking. "Jacob, c'mon just talk to me please"

"Soon"

"What?"

"I'm leaving soon" what was with all the evasiveness?

"Yeah, I gathered as much. But when, a few days earlier or a week earlier, how soon?" he turned his head to glance at me.

"I'm leaving as soon as I can, so you don't have to worry about me fucking up any more of your plans" with that he looked away again.

"Jacob, you...er...let me give you a lift at least...please?" stubbornly he refused, shaking his head and refusing to look at me, his hands clenching and unclenching as he walked faster.

After a few more attempts to persuade him to get in the car, I gave up. Eventually turning round to go to Bella's apartment, I had made a decision and if Jacob wouldn't talk to me then I would go to Bella. When I arrived there I knocked on the door, but there was no answer looking round I saw Bella's truck so she must be in. Knocking again I got no reply, so using the key that she had given me a while ago I let myself in.

"Bella?" at that moment she walked out of the bathroom, with what looked a lot like a pregnancy test. She looked surprised to see me in her apartment, for a while we stared at each other in an oppressive silence.

"Are you...p-pregnant?"

"I just took it, we have to wait for two minutes" she sat down at the dining table and put the test on the table, staring at it like it would disappear or multiply if she blinked too soon. Sitting opposite her we lapsed into silence, as we awaited the result. "Why did you come here?"

"Because, we need to talk"

"I thought so...can I tell you something first?" nodding my head, she took a shaky breath and closed her eyes. "A while ago, before Jacob helped with the night at the park I went out with Rosalie and Alice. We went to a club and….and….I" opening her eyes, she took another breath and looked up at me. "I slept with someone else"

"You cheated on me?" I wasn't angry or upset, the thought that she had slept with someone else wasn't as repulsive as the thought of Jacob with someone else. I had merely asked the question because it seemed implausible that moral, sweet Bella could have it in her to have sex with someone else.

"It was only the once and I felt so guilty afterwards, also I was so out of it we didn't use protection….so if I am pregnant….it might not be yours" nodding I felt strangely detached from her, nodding again and leaning my elbows on the table I told her the truth.

"I have something to say as well….I have not been entirely truthful with you. I have been having an….affair for a while now" her mouth dropped open, she was stunned. After a moment she regained her composure, biting her lip as she thought it over.

"It make sense….how….er….who….is she? Or do I not want to know?" of course she never would have guessed that I would cheat, much less that it would not be another woman but a man, one whom she knew very well. Shaking my head she looked shocked, hurt and confused all at the same time.

"It is Jake"

"What is Jake?" she said more confused than before, I was not really doing a great job of telling her the truth.

"Jacob….is who I have been having an affair with" for a moment I thought she hadn't heard me properly, she froze and the look of confusion morphed into a look of hurt then rage.

"Jacob, as in your best friend Jacob….who is gay?" I knew what she was thinking that I was gay too, why else would I sleep with a man. I didn't respond I knew she didn't really want an answer yet, instead I sat there stoically as she continued.

"How long?"

"A while"

"How long has it been going on, Edward?"

"Nearly two months" I kept my answers short, in an attempt to try and diffuse her anger, although it was not helping much.

"Two months! Fuck, that's as long as we've been engaged!" she stood up from her chair and started pacing, crossing her arms and biting her lip. After another moment of silence she shot me a glare, before turning round and picking up the pregnancy test, looking at it very intently.

"Bella….are you pregnant?" at first she didn't answer, so I tried again as she looked at it. "If you are, I want you to know that I'm here for you, I'll help you out if this other guy won't" blinking rapidly, she put a hand over her mouth and whispered two words only.

"I'm pregnant" she lifted her head and looked so lost, walking round I attempted to put an arm round her shoulder. But as soon as I tried to she took a step back, dropping the test and giving me an angry glare. "Don't even, just….just don't come near me!"

"Bella"

"No, I trusted you. I love….I loved you. Do you have any idea how much this ate me up inside!" her voice raised and I shrunk away from it, yet again I was the one in the wrong.

"I'm sorry, I ju-"

"You're sorry! You should do things to be sorry about! I thought that all this" she waved to the space between us frantically "was my fault, but it wasn't, was it?" she shook her head and a tear rolled down her cheek, putting her hands over her face she sobbed loudly, collapsing back into the chair behind her. I kneeled down and picked up the test looking at the little cross that said that she was pregnant, placing it on the table in front of her, she uncovered her face but didn't look at me.

She looked at the test again whilst wiping away the tears streaming down her face, reaching for the tissue box I slid it across the table to her. Still not looking at me she took the box, pulling out a tissue and lightly dabbing at her eyes.

"We were meant to get married….have kids….have the perfect life" as she spoke she glanced down and saw the ring on her left hand, her words trailed off as she looked at it. "I shouldn't have listened to Jake, I should have told you as soon as. I know that. I know I made a mistake but you….you, you propose to me then you start an affair. I was going out of my mind thinking that this…distance was because of me, of what I had done" she shook her head as more tears fell down her face.

"When did you tell Jacob?"

"The day before the whole day in the park, I was ashamed and I couldn't Rose or Alice. He was who I thought of, because I stupidly thought he was my friend" why would he help her, why would he not have told her he had the opportunity, many times in fact. So why didn't he?

Pushing this aside for the time being I sat down next to her, as she played with the tissue in hre hands stubbornly not looking at me.

"There is more"

"What else is there?" was her bitter reply, as she scowled and started tearing the tissue into little bits.

"I love him" I stated simply, admitting it for the first time to her and to myself. She nodded more to herself than to me, then she looked down at the ring on her finger.

"Right, then" taking off the ring I gave to her, she put it down on the table and slid it across the table to me, moving her hand away from mine quickly. "I'd like it if you left Edward" for a moment her eyes flickered towards me as I stood up, without arguing with her I took the ring and walked to the door, stopping with my hand on the handle.

"I know it doesn't mean much, but I honestly never meant to hurt you" she didn't say anything she just turned her head away, so I continued to talk. "I hate the fact that you are hurting and it's my fault. I stand by what I said earlier, I will be here for you if you decide to forgive me, I will help you with whatever you need"

She still didn't say anything, she sat there in silence looking at the window her shoulders shaking slightly. Leaving her apartment and shutting the door I walked to my car slowly, when I got inside I leaned my forehead against the steering wheel and sighed in frustration. I knew I was in love with Jacob, but what was I supposed to do?

He wouldn't talk to me, so how the hell would I tell him?

I went to school and did my lessons, afterwards I dragged myself home and into my apartment. As soon as I did I went to my little piano and started to play Clair De Lune. My current state of mind made for very bad piano playing, I hit the keys with more force than was necessary the notes slightly muddled, the piece I played only vaguely resembling Debussy.

When I came to end of the piece, I felt restless I needed to do something, but what could I do? Frustrated and angry at myself, I spent the rest of the night murdering more classical pieces in an effort to ease my tension.

Even though I felt so bad for hurting Bella when all she did was love me, I did feel a little relived now that she knew. Now all I had to do was make it right with Jacob, somehow.

~X~X~X~X~X~

Waking up dazed and half asleep, for a moment or two I did not realize what had woken me up but then I heard the ring of my phone again. I lay on my back, sitting up and rubbing my eye with one hand I reached over to get my phone.

"Hello?" my voice was all croaky due to being half awake, as I answered the phone.

"Were you asleep?" spoke the slightly irritable voice of Leah as I got out of bed and went into the kitchen for a glass of water.

"No I'm always awake at seven thirty in the morning"

"yeah well, I don't think I should even be telling you this but Jacob had a little confrontation with your fiancé or should I say ex fiancé, last night" this was news to me, but she had a bit of a temper on her when she was really upset so it shouldn't surprise me.

"What happened?"

"There was a lot of shouting from Bella and a lot of swearing from Jacob, it wasn't pretty, anyway I haven't got time for a blow by blow account and neither have you"

"What do you mean by that?"

"Jake is leaving today" for a moment I was shocked.

"What?"

"He has already left for the airport, so here is your last chance. I wasn't sure I should tell you, so far the decisions you've made have been really stupid, but I'm hoping you will prove me wrong"

"Leah, has he just left?" I interjected, just wanting her to get to the point.

"He's nearly there, his plane leaves in an hour and a half…..wh-" she was cut off as, I dropped the phone and swiftly ran into my room, rummaging around for a clean pair of jeans. In barley ten minutes I was out of the door and in my car, driving towards the airport, on a good day it would take me an hour to get there and I had a feeling it wasn't gonna be one of those days.

Pushing my Volvo to fifty and watching at the speed crept higher, I took a left turn and my heart dropped into my stomach at what I saw ahead of me. One lane of the road was blocked off for some reason and the other lane was currently at a standstill. Coming to a stop I poked my head out of the window to see what the holdup was, at that looking at the time I realized I had a little under an hour to get there.

Tooting my horn the sweaty, fat, bald man in the white van in front lazily hung out of the window and flipped me the bird. For the next fifteen to twenty minutes the traffic moved incredibly slowly, I was running out of time with a little over half an hour left now. Taking out my phone I tried calling Jacob, but his phone went straight to voicemail.

Shouts and more car horns blaring very loudly around me, I looked for another way around the block, seeing that the lane on the other side of the road was clear I looked round. Once I was certain I had enough space, I reversed a bit then made a sharp U-turn driving way above the speed limit as I looked for the right road to take.

As I got onto the right road, I lowered my speed the last thing I needed was to be stopped the police, no I had to get there. I had to. However, as the time slipped by I unconsciously started driving faster, repeating a single phrase over and over again.

Please don't go.

Please don't go.

Please don't go.

Somehow I made it there, but I only had fifteen minutes until he was due to leave. Parking the car and virtually sprinting inside, I had no idea what to do now. Glancing at the departures board, I quickly found his flight it was the only one going to London in fifteen minutes, it said they were boarding and looking round I soon spotted the signs for the right gate.

Jacob POV

Looking down at my ticket then up as the line in front of me slowly moved as we boarded the plane, looking up a part of me had hoped Edward would have come. I had hoped that he would have at least tried to fight for me, but it was obvious that he didn't love me. He didn't want me, I would just have to deal with it

The line moved way too slowly for my liking, I wanted to go already, I needed a new start away from here and all of the memories. The good and bad ones.

For a moment I thought someone called out my name, looking up I tried to find out who it was. I couldn't see who it was, so I put it down to my imagination, even though I was pretty sure that it sounded a lot like Edward.

Edward POV

I now had ten minutes and the gate was right on the other side of the airport, I'll need a fucking miracle now. Running as fast as I could and earning many odd looks in the process, all I was thinking about was Jacob, I needed to tell him how I felt.

I got to security and had to pass through the metal detector. Sticking my things in the plastic box as quick as I could I passed though the metal detector without setting it off. I resumed my frantic search after I had grabbed my things but then I got to passport control where things go tricky.

"Passport, sir?" said a thin, weedy man.

"I don't have it" he raised an eyebrow and shook his head.

"Then I can't let you through" sighing I looked round quickly then I pointed to my right.

"What's that?" he turned to look and sprinted past him, when he took the bait. I heard his call behind me but I didn't care I ran as fast as I could, my breath coming in short pants.

I saw the gate, but I couldn't see Jacob so I called out his name to no avail. I saw a security guard behind me and I continued to run till I reached the gate.

"Jacob!" I called out as I saw him, he froze as he was about to hand his ticket to the stewardess. He slowly turned to see me a look of confusion and shock on his face as he stared at me. "Jake I-" at that very moment I was tacked by the security guard, falling to floor with a sickening crunch coming from my left arm and pain shooting up to my shoulder.

Glancing up at him he looked back at me, the stewardess said something and he looked from her to me a look of concern flitting across his features as he handed her the ticket. She ripped in into two parts handing in back to him, he gave me a fleeting look before shaking his head and walking away.

Jacob POV

Two days later….

Walking into my new apartment, I unloaded the groceries putting everything away neatly before sitting down at the dining table and looking round.

It was nice enough the flat, the kitchen was an open plan one which lead into the combined dining/living room, it was slightly smaller than my previous place but that was because it was only a one bedroom apartment. It was too quiet in the flat, so I played a CD, resisting the urge to smoke another cigarette or go for the bottle of vodka in the cupboard.

The internal fight did not last long, I soon grabbed my pack of cigarettes and lit one taking a deep breath and sighing in relief, as the nicotine rushed into my system. At that moment the doorbell rang loudly, stubbing out the half smoked cigarette on the ashtray I moved it into the kitchen by the sink, as I wasn't really meant to smoke in the building.

Going to the door I slowly opened it to see, Edward. He frankly looked a bit of a mess, his normally messy hair stuck up in all directions, circles under his eyes and his pale skin looked even paler, if that was possible. My eyes fell onto his left arm which was wrapped in a cast from the elbow down, I saw that it had been signed in some places, but a huge picture of the London eye and famous other landmarks had been painstakingly drawn on, Alice's work most likely.

"How did you know I lived here?" was the first thing I said to him, he shifted his weight from one foot to the other as he looked at me, his face tired looking.

"I know some people" he waved he hand casually. Raising an eyebrow he backtracked, letting his arm drop by his side. "Leah told me"

"Why would she do that?"

"I can be very convincing when I want to be" I gave him a skeptical look. "Leah knows about us and I told her that I made a mistake….yet again"

"Shame you didn't realize that sooner, it would have saved you a trip here and back" he shook head.

"Well it doesn't matter now, can I come in?" I let him in, with slight apprehension as he walked by and that familiar sweet and musky smell invaded my senses. It took all of my willpower not to just kiss him but I held back…barely. He sat down on the sofa, wincing slightly as he accidentally jostled his arm, I wanted to reach out to him but I didn't I remained standing by the other side of the room so that he would not tempt me as much.

"Why are you here, Edward?"

"I'm here because I love you" his words were too much, turning away I closed my eyes not daring to hope that he really meant it. Bella had given the impression that he had told her about our 'situation' and she had broken it off, so I was probably the second choice now that he couldn't have Bella anymore.

"You don't have to say that?"

"Why not? I mean it, I know I have hurt you and Bella and I have made stupid choices but you, you're not one of them" I didn't say anything I could sense that he was getting frustrated with me. "I raced to the airport, I was going to tell you but you walked away, I am here. I came all this way, what do I have to do to prove it to you?"

"There is nothing you can do, Bella told me what happened. I know that I'm not your first choice. I can deal with that" I turned to look at him, his expression determined. "What I can't deal with is you telling me you love me, when I know that you want someone else"

"I don't want anyone else, I want you my best friend and the man that I am insanely in love with. I only understood was this was when I realized that I was going to lose you, if I didn't do anything" I shook my head and looked away from his piercing gaze, my hands curling into fists.

"How can I trust you? After all of the times that you denied you felt anything and went back to her, after I said that I loved you and you…you said nothing?" my voice became strained as my eyes started to prickle and I turned away again, so he wouldn't see how hurt I really was.

"Jacob" he crooned in his silky smooth voice, as he was suddenly standing next to me. "Jacob, look at me….please" it was the last part that he whispered almost pleadingly, that had me looking at him. He was standing with his chest pressed to my back and as I turned he wrapped his arms around me, pulling me closer. I closed my eyes enjoying the feel of his body next to mine, his cooler body against my warmer one.

Our lips met and for a moment it was pure bliss, our mouths moved in sync knowing exactly what to do to get a response. His hand moved to the back of my neck and my hands wound themselves in his silky bronze locks. He pushed me back so I was pressed against the wall, pinned there by his chest against mine and I couldn't find it in me to complain.

Whilst all of our sexual encounters before had been rough and fast, this was unlike any other kiss we had shared. It was slower and more tender, yet still very passionate as our tongue met and entwined. We took our time and it was like we were trying to savour each moment, remember each caress and each moan elicited from us. When we broke away there was silence between us, he kissed my cheek and leaned his forehead against mine.

"Gosh, I could kiss you all day. Don't you feel that Jake, that spark every time we touch, the butterflies when we look at each other. Because that's what I feel, every time and even though it would so incredibly hard if you want me to I'll stop, if you want I'll leave and never come back. Though it would kill me, because you mean so much to me, so please….please don't tell me to stop" I didn't know what to say, I knew what I really wanted, I wanted to kiss him again and to hear him say it again and again.

"I don't know, if I should"

"If the world ended tomorrow the one I want standing next to me is you, no doubt. Someone very clever once told I care too much about what everyone else thinks, you were the one to push that notion I had. I act like I am not a part of that world that my parents belong to, but I have been just as ignorant and prejudiced as all of them" his gaze didn't waver or stall at all, he had complete confidence in the words he spoke.

"I don't deserve you, you are by far a better person than me but I want to try…for you. So will you give me another chance, I know that it would be too much to ask for forgiveness , but I will spend the rest of my life trying to be the type of person that deserves someone as wonderful as you"

I looked into his dazzling green eyes and my stomach flipped, his hand was still on my neck and could feel the sparks like I was a live wire, moving my hands away from his hair he frowned looking so disappointed.

"Say it again"

"I love you" he stated with no hesitation, no apprehension at all. Looking deep into his eyes I knew he meant it, every word. I crashed my lips to his again, in a kiss that said everything I couldn't express in words, how much I loved this man.

He spent way too much time on his hair in the mornings.

He was stubborn and the majority of the time he was very angsty, especially when he didn't get his way or when there was a big mess.

Though he didn't like to admit it, he could be very stuck up at times.

But he was the only person, who knew exactly what I was thinking and whatever I needed.

He was also fiercely independent, he never asked his parents for any handouts, even when he has been in a few situations where he could have used a little extra money.

And he was also my best friend, whom I could tell anything no matter how trivial.

Because of all these things and more I love him, he eagerly kissed me back and I broke away for a moment the dismayed look on face was just too cute. "I love you" he smiled and he looked so ecstatic at the three small words I had uttered.

"I love you, too" if it was possible his smile widened so much it looked like it hurt a little. "I love saying that, I love hearing that. I love you"

"I love you, too" I promptly kissed him again. This time when we broke away I smiled at him cheekily before slowly unbuttoning his shirt, turning round so it was now him pinned against the wall.

"Jake…" he said in a warning tone but trailed off with a low moan, as I kissed every bit of flesh exposed as his shirt came off, pushing it over his shoulders and letting it drop to the floor.

"I don't want this to be about sex….you mean more than that to me" stopping in my tracks, I smiled and straightened up giving him a quick peck on the cheeks he raised his eyebrows. "What was that for?"

"To shut you up" with our bodies pressed together I could feel his growing erection against my thigh, smiling wickedly at him I ground my crotch against him and he groaned out his eyes darkening with lust. I was too far gone to care that I was essentially dry humping him, like a dog in heat.

Taking in each moment I let him leisurely pulled off my shirt, giving me that sexy crooked grin before whispering in my ear, his voice low and husky. "Where's the bedroom?" almost melting when he nibbled my earlobe, I took a step back and led to him to the bedroom by the hand, feeling insanely happy.

A/N: I think this is my longest chapter to date! Well since it's been a while since I last updated, it's a bit of a treat.

The next chapter will definitely be the last folks, I'm actually a little sad to be finishing this anyhoo, there will be a lemon in the next chapter, for all of you who like our boys having a little fun under the sheets :P

Bye for now! xx