Yeah! I'm back! Okay, wow… I am SO sorry for my ridiculously long absence… But, huh, it seems Munez is the only one that missed me (but thank you for your concern and support XD… btw, if I'm being lame and taking forever in the future, feel free to PM me and tell me to hurry up; I'm telling ya, motivation and enthusiasm go a long way for me). As I said before, I will absolutely not ever abandon this story, even if I don't update for a while (I'm trying to get better with my procrastination… ^.^'). Anyway, see the end author's note for a full explanation, but for now enjoy the story!
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Wrapped in a towel, Sasuke reentered Itachi's room warily. I don't need to fuck myself over even more by pissing him off... Again. He glanced around quickly, his eyes ultimately coming to rest on the Akatsuki. Shit.
The raven's eyes widened almost imperceptibly as he shut the door behind him quietly to stand in front of it; he wasn't expecting anyone to be in the room. He can't really be afraid, can he? No… I don't detect fear in his gaze; it is merely uncertainty. "Are you silent because you think I'm still angry?" When Sasuke merely stared back, his look of indifference a mask for his thoughts, Itachi couldn't take it anymore. Fuck this… The more I'm with him, the more I want him; I'm sick of resisting. In an instant he was in front of him, holding his shoulders against the door.
Is he finally going to do it? It's about time… And it isn't like I'm not horny enough. A hand reached down to caress his hip bone, forcing him to drop the towel. "Itachi…" The raven moaned out his brother's name as if it was the curse he'd been longing to cast. His heart sped up as the hand lingered, then moved up to feel his ribs and more defined muscles. God… He's barely touching me and my composure is already slipping…
"Sasuke." I love you… I love you so goddamn much… The older Uchiha longed to tell him so, but he feared the returning statement, or, more likely, the lack thereof. He is mine now… And though I'll have to fight the world to keep him, he is worth it a million times over. He pulled the other closer to him and dove in for a kiss; the first real meeting of souls that they had experienced in years.
Their tongues danced slowly at first, each savoring the taste of the other until they could not breathe; and then they lived on the thriving life force for a second longer. The brothers parted reluctantly, their pants beckoning goose bumps on each other's flesh; smoldering gazes intermixed, and both were still trembling from the shared intensity. I'd forgotten… I've never felt this with anyone else.
Both sets of sharingan eyes were now evident as Itachi tried to make the moment last forever and memorize every part of it. And I know it will only get better… He leaned in to trace his otouto's jawbone with kisses, silently apologizing for his earlier cruelty. I fear I just love you too much, Sasuke.
The raven moaned as the other's lips moved down his neck and ghosted over the curse seal, but never really touched it; the reminder of his past was far too freshly painful for both of them. Sasuke turned his head to the side and froze as he beheld a figure in the doorway. Who the fuck…? His emotionless mask returned as he tried to place the characteristics with the brief descriptions he had once tried to memorize.
After several seconds of tasting flesh and playful nipping, the older Uchiha stopped as well. What, isn't he enjoying this anymore? Just as he was about to ask, he felt the presence of their visitor. I swear to god… He whirled his head around to glare at the man standing there, not surprised to find that it was Madara. "What the fuck do you want?"
The Akatsuki smiled behind his mask and visibly turned his head to watch Sasuke more. "I was just stopping by to see how things went with your reconnaissance mission; it seems you were quite successful." Mmmm… Little Sasu-chan always was my favorite nephew… His tireless shuuriken training was always a pleasure to watch; he tried so hard. Sensing the lecherous intent, Itachi pressed himself against Sasuke and opened his cloak to cover him as well. "Ahh.. Now what did you have to do that for? I was only looking…" For now, anyway… By the look in the raven's eyes he could tell how curious he was, how much he wanted to ask about him. He studied every movement with a cold, calculating stare, instantly forming a basic hypothesis of his ability.
"Get out." Itachi was ravenous with lust, and there was no way his long awaited release would go unsatisfied. Don't even think about it… I will dismember you piece by piece and force your soul into a dimension of utmost hell. The masked man remained immobile; his gaze was locked with Sasuke's.
Who could he be? His chakra almost seems familiar, like I knew him in my youth; though I know that's impossible… He could feel his brother's grip tighten on him; he didn't like the wordless exchange of curiosity. Instantly the younger Uchiha turned to stare at the wide expanse of floor over his aniki's shoulder; I refuse to anger him… Not after such pure feeling.
"Perhaps you didn't hear me, Tobi; get out."
He hasn't told him… How interesting; perhaps he fears the competition. "I wasn't aware that I was intruding… He seems to welcome my presence, you know; I doubt he wants to be raped by you again."
Too far. Sasuke's assessment was complete; the man was loathsome, an enemy. Without hesitation he summoned the chidori to his palm, treating them all to the chirping rays of blue light. Itachi stiffened against him momentarily, but recognized the raven's perfectly controlled isolation of the destructive lightning. "Do not pretend to understand. Leave now."
Such power! And his reflexes are fantastic… Oh, how I want to explore him further. The other Akatsuki shivered at the magnificence before him; the anger laced the younger Uchiha's features perfectly, making him more beautiful and all the more striking. He nodded quickly, "As you wish, Sasuke-kun."
The older Uchiha's eyes narrowed as Madara retreated to the hallway, shutting the door once again behind him. I didn't think he would dare to interfere; he knows how I feel. His attention returned to the beauty in his arms, the chidori now gone. But better yet… He actually defended us; he offered to take care of the problematic interruption… He wants this as well.
As if in an affirmative response, Sasuke caught him off guard and smashed their lips together again. The mood had effectively returned as their need for oxygen rose, compelling them to part again. "Aniki… I missed you." No more interruptions… I may 'accidentally' deal a killing blow to the next asinine fool that walks through that door.
"Ah, otouto… You have no idea how long I've waited for this moment…" I know you didn't always think of me, but not a minute passes that I don't wonder of you. He flipped around as Sasuke's legs encircled his waist so he could carry him to the bed. The older laid the younger down, then removed his cloak and proceeded to straddle him after a none-too-brief moment of admiring the sight before him. How did I get so lucky? Just seeing him again seemed too good to be true, and now this?
I've been counting down the days since the last occurrence… Instead of stating so, he merely smiled in response; his eyes were still a bit saddened by the constant burdens of his mind. Itachi saw this and cocked his head in confusion. No, it isn't you… It isn't this… I've been holding on for you alone. The raven leaned up to draw the other down to lay over him as he removed the dark shirt. Silently, he captured the moist lips and opened his mouth wide to suck on the invading tongue that instantly responded to his touches.
Is he just pretending? I cannot bear the sorrow he fails to hide. The older Uchiha helped Sasuke with his task at hand and removed his pants so they could have flesh on flesh contact at last. As they moaned in unison, he reluctantly forced himself to pull back and perch himself over the younger Uchiha at eye level. "Sasuke… Do you really want this?" The strained words were a mere whisper, begging to be ignored.
Sasuke grinned and reached down to grasp the swollen member digging into this thigh. "You do." The look on his nii-san's face was priceless, a mix between indignant anger, attempted seriousness, and purest forbidden pleasure. "… That's all that matters." With his free hand, the raven yanked the long hair free from its usual tie and twirled the locks between his fingers. It's so clean… Even covered in blood and sweat his hair felt clean. The snake's was always greasy without a cause.
Itachi smiled sadly and planted a chaste kiss on the perfect pale lips. "No; you matter. Tell me what you think, how you feel… What do you want, Sasuke?" I hate to ruin the mood, but I have to know once and for all… I don't want to go through the disappointment and misery of losing him, of learning he doesn't want to be with me after having him like this again.
He just had to ask… Even I don't know the exact answer to that. He slid back slightly to prop himself up on his elbows, "Right now I want you." The raven traced a line down the carved abdomen before him, feeling the muscles tense and shudder as Itachi forced himself to hold back; he still wanted an answer, a real one. I can't tell you the truth, nii-san; I don't know it. There are too many that I refuse to feel for; too many that I refuse to miss.
The Akatsuki member's eyes rolled back into his head at the repressed expression of feeling as his eyelids fluttered; his mind was so focused on not acting on his wishes that he didn't notice what his dear otouto was up to. I wish he'd stop giving the cryptic answers that don't really tell me anything or get us anywhere.
"Please, nii-san; don't ask questions... There's plenty of time for that later." Or at least it will be easier to avoid later. Dark eyes looked into red ones, begging him to let their actions continue. After receiving a stiff nod to convey his reluctance and promise of confrontation, he slid his arms around his brother's neck and pulled him down for another searing kiss.
Fine, otouto, but I'll be forcing everything out of you later… I know you need this now just as much as I do. "Mnmm… Sasuke…" His tongue flicked the pale jaw repeatedly, then ultimately dropped down to tease a stiff nipple. See, my love? No matter how much you feign indifference, there are some emotions you can never escape from…
The raven smiled as a flicker of worry spread across his countenance. Later… Is it possible to drive him so insane with lust that he forgets completely? Calloused hands brushed gently over his sides as if he were a sacred object with hell to pay if broken. No… This isn't just lust anymore. Sasuke shivered slightly at the thought; had it ever really been 'just lust'? "Itachi… I need you, I need to feel."
The Akatsuki member smirked, his desire pushing away all evidence of lingering doubt. "Your wish is my command, Otouto." He dove forward to steal a feral kiss that left them both breathless and craving more. Mnmm… I need him to know that I care, that I'm not just using him. "I love you, Sasuke." The other's eyes widened as he froze, clearly not knowing what to say.
Why did he…? I'm not sure if I can say it back... I refuse to deceive him; even if I have feelings for him I might not actually… And I don't want to crush him later… "Itachi, I-"
"Shh." Warm lips claimed the raven's again, forcing him to listen as the other drew back to speak. "I don't expect you to respond now; I just needed you to know without a doubt, Otouto, that I truly, deeply, love you." Sasuke's eyes softened and he gave a dazed nod before their mouths crashed together again, this time parting and rejoining smoothly for several minutes.
Wow… I haven't been kissed like that since… No; not now… I refuse to think of anything other than him. The raven lay panting heavily as his back arched rhythmically to his brother's caresses above him. "Ah, god, nii-san…"
The older Uchiha pulled back to kneel and stare at the beauty before him in pure awe. I could cum just looking at him… He's covered in emotion now, too; not like when he was with Orochimaru. He's feeling again… He wants this, he can't be that great of an actor. "Sasuke, my love, I don't think I can last much longer with you looking so goddamn sexy."
Sasuke grinned euphorically in response, "Then fuck me, Aniki; fuck me so hard I can taste it." He moaned loudly at the sight of the dripping cock before him, wanting desperately for it to be inside him already. I didn't think sex could be so wonderful… With Orochimaru my actions were always forced, and even if I enjoyed it with the others it was nothing compared to this. He let another loud moan slide past his throat as Itachi leaned over him again and put his fingers shakily against his lips. "No… I want you now." The younger Uchiha grabbed a fistful of hair and pulled the other into another kiss as he thrust his hips against those above him. I've lost all control of my emotions… I feel free.
"But, Otouto, I don't want to hurt-" He was wrenched into another kiss as a hand stroked his throbbing member, coating it with both of their precum.
"I think we've got plenty of lube, Itachi…" The raven cut in silkily as he brought his hand up to be cleaned by his soft tongue. "So take me; make yours once more."
The Akatsuki member didn't need to be told twice and immediately grabbed the pale thighs, kissing each one gently before he aligned himself with the tight entrance and slid inslowly, savoring the tense heat as it massaged every inch of his cock. He groaned his brother's name as he became fully encased in the perfect warmth, "Ah, fuck, Otouto… You feel even tighter than before…"
Sasuke was panting heavily as his lust filled eyes focused on the man above him. I am complete… I finally know what was missing. "Aniki… Move!" The pain was minimal compared to the exponential pleasure he felt as he wrapped his legs around the other's waist, trying to pull him deeper.
"Mnmm… Be patient, Sasuke." I doubt either of us can last too long in this condition. The limbs around his waist loosened slightly as he pulled out only to slam back in.
"Ah!" Stars exploded before the raven's eyes as his prostate was hit dead on by the long thrust. Oh, fuck… "Nii-san… Harder… Faster." They were both panting now, the trickles of sweat adding a luminous sheen to their flesh as it collided again and again in a perfect motion of fulfillment. I don't think I've ever experienced anything like this...
Itachi complied with the requests and let out a low growl, "With pleasure." He sped up the smooth motions and kissed the trembling knees on his shoulders, "You're… so beautiful…" He was trying to memorize every moment with the help of the sharingan; the way his little brother's eyes were half closed, savoring the pleasure as he arched his back and cried out every time a well aimed thrust grazed his prostate. Nothing can get better than this… He's my everything.
I'm giving myself over completely… It's so strange to be without restrictions, without barriers that can't be crossed or emotions that can't be expressed. "Ani- Aniki… I can't… Hold on…" A hand began to pump his straining erection as he orgasmed with a scream of his brother's name. "Ita-chi!"
The Akatsuki member came soon afterward, near-screaming as well. "God, Sasuke!" The mere sight of the raven as he climaxed, cumming hard onto both of their chests as his ass muscles contracted was enough to die for. Too perfect… The brothers' groans filled the room as Sasuke's tight ass continued to milk every drop of cum from the older Uchiha's aching member.
Sasuke lay flat on the bed, his ragged breaths music to his brother's ears as he shook with every exhale, trying to recover from the concentrated pleasure. "Nii-san…" The nickname came out as a gasp as Itachi pulled out and collapsed next to him, automatically taking the young male into his arms. Such care, compassion, tenderness… He fills the shell of myself that I've been somehow surviving with for these past few years. "I… Love you."
… Did he really just say it?! The older Uchiha was overwhelmed with childish glee at the statement that he'd longed to hear, but decided he was too tired to have any sort of deep thought about the implications. "I've always loved you, Otouto… Nothing… Nothing you ever do or say can change that."
Are you sure? You still don't know all you think. The raven forced a soft smile as he ignored the thoughts pestering his mind and snuggled closer to the warmth beside him. I think I'll just enjoy the moment… I'll tolerate no more guilt to scar this ultimate paradise. "Itachi… You make me feel so alive."
The male before him lay beautifully, his hair splayed about his head to create a dark halo. My sinful angel, my forbidden fruit… You don't know how great you are… But, do you really need me or am I simply convenient? Something dark in the young male's gaze had been bothering him; there was still doubt when he had spoken the words Itachi so longed to hear, and he couldn't help but be bitter about it. "Didn't the snake make you feel, Sasuke-kun?" The other's contented haze was instantly destroyed by the harsh comment. I can't forget… There were too many years, too much betrayal laced with cries of pleasure. I'm not even sure if I can trust any of the emotions he supposedly lets slip through to be genuine.
"No. He didn't." Sasuke sat up, quickly shoving his brother off him to hug his knees to his chest. I knew it; he still hates me. He could feel the red eyes staring at him, analyzing his movements as a hunter examines prey. Stop… I know I am forever tainted; I know I can't ever really be good enough for you. When his gaze never wavered, the raven snapped his head to the side, effectively making eye contact and catching the attention of his brother while noticing the already complete arousal. "What, do you want me to suck you off?" He finally whispered darkly, I should die for all the disloyal acts I have committed.
Shit… His defenses are more intricately placed than I imagined; I was hoping to break him, to force him to let me in. "… Otouto, forgive me…" He paused and slid closer to touch a quivering shoulder. "But, sometimes, my love, you must break in order to be fixed." The younger Uchiha flinched at the gentle touch and unwelcome words. No, don't fear me… Hate me, curse me, but never fear my presence… I want only to help you.
The blood red eyes had turned to liquid as he gazed at his younger brother, making the silence between them seem more pronounced. He caught me off guard… That can't happen again. Sasuke snickered humorlessly, "You want to break me?" The Akatsuki was taken aback by the change in the raven; his grin was poisoned with a smirk as he shifted to his knees and pushed the other to lie down. "Then use me, fuck me, discard me… I don't care anymore so do as you please; make me suffer."
What the fuck? Is this his defense? He doesn't want to let me truly know him so he turns to seduction? Well I can't help my reactions; it seems his plan is working. Itachi held back a moan as he was straddled and roughly ground against. "Otouto, stop." He grabbed the fragile shoulders and yanked him down to lie on his chest. "I will not hurt you the way you think I should, the way you think you deserve." Sasuke shifted, trying to slip away from the tender arms now encircling his back. I'm not letting you go again. "I truly love you; now stop struggling against me."
The younger Uchiha stiffened momentarily, making Itachi fear cold alienation once again. "You love me? Even after all I've done? That cannot be possible." He still doesn't know… Forcing himself to relax, the raven leaned further into the binding touch as he closed his eyes. I'm sick of fighting everyone; submission is simply easier. Besides, giving in to him isn't so bad… I hate deceiving him like this constantly, but it seems to be for the best until I feel I can trust him again.
Finally… He seems to be settling down. Before the Akatsuki member could respond to words of such conviction, his raven was asleep. "I do love you, Sasuke-kun, no matter what." The boy snuggled close as if in pure, unbiased response. Despite your recent actions, you've never been more beautiful. He ran his fingers through the dark locks and smiled as the other moved toward the touch. Only in sleep is he free from burden… I'm going to change that.
Sasuke's breathing slowed as he fell further into the first relaxed sleep he had experienced for far too long; at last he could truly rest in peace.
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A few hours later, both brothers lay comfortably entwined, with Itachi hugging the raven to his chest and lying partially on top of him as if afraid he would disappear. A soft knock at the door sounded like an explosion as the older Uchiha refused to stir for a few seconds. No. I'm not in the mood to go off on some bullshit mission. He could feel the hesitation before Kisame poked his head through the door, trying to adjust his eyes to the darkness of early morning.
"Pein-sama wants to see you." The shark nin had lowered his voice automatically in case Sasuke still slept. He turned away at the sight of a red glare. "Sorry… I delayed as long as possible, but after six hours he wouldn't have any more of it."
The Uchiha sighed, "I was expecting it." With one last longing look at the sleeping raven he sat up as Kisame shut the door. I would give anything but you not to leave, but that would be his demand.
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A/N
So? What did you think of my LONGEST CHAPTER SO FAR?! I really enjoyed writing it… Again, sorry it took so long; hopefully some of the material makes up for it XD (hell yes on the non-snakey/pedophilic lemon, yeah?)
I could feed you a ton of useless excuses as to why I didn't update, but by far the best one is that my grandpa had a heart-attack. He's okay now, but it was really awkward for a while when I was thinking about him watching me write erotic stories from the afterlife if he were to die (if you believe in that kind of thing; I don't exactly, but it effectively creeps me out every time)
Anyway, PLEASE REVIEW! The next chapter won't be this long, but it'll have Hidan in it!!! (I LOVE Hidan! XD XD XD Anyone with me?)
Half the reason that I took so long in posting was because I had the sudden urge to work on a couple other fics (yours included, Kira; sometime soon! … I'm just waaayyyy too much of a perfectionist, though I know all my work is far from perfect)
Thanks for reading!!! :) … The next update really will come in a couple of days as a wonderful reward for you all, and in deep honor of this glorious month (St. Patrick's Day is my favorite holiday… I honestly have no remote idea why O.O)!!!
Much Love,
Violet