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Sasuke leaned into the kiss and allowed the intruding tongue to explore. When I'm with him I feel like he's the only one I've ever loved… He bit gently on the other's lips and wove his fingers into the silver hair, allowing himself the guilty pleasure one last time. But when I'm with Itachi I know he's the only one I could ever love forever; I know it has to be over after this, but I owe him so much more. The raven caught himself thinking fondly of all of their time together; how Kakashi had held him for hours after the massacre until he fell into an exhausted sleep, how he had always been there when he wanted to train, how he had insisted that they be together at every opportunity… And our relationship was genuinely innocent until I told him that I thought I might still love my brother… Sasuke could remember their first night together perfectly.
FLASHBACK
The Uchiha closed the door behind him with a loud click, locking out the pouring rain and crashing thunder. He almost hoped his sensei would hear him and come to greet him with a warm dry towel and ask him how his day had gone; it had been awkward and awful. I can't believe Naruto fell onto my lips… What are the chances? But at least that wasn't my first kiss… He shuddered as he thought of Itachi's dominating bites and lust-filled tongue, remembering exactly how they felt on his flesh. I don't know why I liked it so much… And then Kakashi last night; I practically threw myself at him...
Sasuke blinked slowly as he looked down at his soaked shoes to finally notice the dark red rose petals on the floor; in the dim light they looked black. What the hell…? Not wanting to track water through the house, he began removing his wet clothing as he wondered how they could have gotten there. It must have been Kakashi, but… Oh shit; does he have someone over? That would be the perfect way to tell me he wasn't interested after I kissed him.
"Sasuke, could you come here please?" The copy nin's voice rang through the quiet house and comforted the raven's fears of rejection.
Well at least he doesn't have anyone else here. Still, I'm sure he'll just scold me for being late; I was supposed to be back here three hours ago. After the incident with Naruto, he had felt a sudden urge to return to the Uchiha compound. He had gone into his old house and visited every room, leaving Itachi's for last. I don't even know why I went there... He had even fooled himself into thinking he could feel someone watching him, as if his dead ancestors were frowning upon all that he'd let happen. And Itachi seemed to be there too, except it felt more like he was smiling. More like smirking… Nevertheless, I was smiling back… I'm insane for thinking about it so much; no one was there… Still, his mind jumped right back on subject. I hate how much I want him, even after everything he has done.
"Sasuke?" Kakashi's voice jarred him from his entranced recollection and he realized that he was still standing by the door, now clothed only in his boxers.
"Coming." He padded down the hall in his bare feet, awkwardly following the rose petals to his sensei's voice. What could he be up to? The path ended at the bathroom and he couldn't help but quirk an eyebrow in question. Right… I'm not sure if I even want to know now… He attempted to knock, but the door sprang open easily as his fist came into contact with the wood.
"There you are… I wasn't sure you would ever come back." Kakashi was standing just inside the door with a towel wrapped around his waist. "It's a good thing I anticipated your tardiness and didn't get into the bath; I'd be beyond pruned by now." The man smiled openly at the raven's shocked expression.
"… You were… Waiting for me?" The Uchiha took in the rose petals floating in the large tub behind him, the dark room illuminated only by the flickering candlelight. Does this mean he isn't rejecting me after all?
The copy nin strode forward and slid an arm around Sasuke's waist. "Of course… I'm sorry if I reacted strangely to your kiss last night; I was just so surprised… I've wanted you ever since I met you, and I never thought that my affections would be returned so eagerly." He smiled again as the genin gaped at him. "Come on now; I thought we could both use a bath after all the rain and mud on the training grounds."
Both? Does that mean he wants to… Obviously. He mentally smacked himself at his stupidity; his sensei was looking at him expectantly, clearly wanting him to remove the rest of his clothing so they could begin their bath. "Maybe this won't be such a terrible day after all…" Sasuke slipped the boxers down his legs and grinned as Kakashi eyed him hungrily. I can't believe he feels the same way… But at least I understand why he was reluctant at first; this isn't the kind of teacher-student relationship that's generally acceptable.
"I certainly hope it's looking up…" The jounin removed his own towel quickly and bent down to kiss the beautiful raven as he took him into his arms and pulled them both into the bath with Sasuke straddling his lap. "Listen…" He began hesitantly, clearly not wanting to say what he felt he must. "If you don't want to do this, I understand completely; I'll stop whenever you want me to."
The Uchiha narrowed his eyes, fully aware of why he was being cautious. He's too considerate... But it's not like I can tell him that even as I was sobbing from the pain, I was moaning and screaming from the pleasure. "I'm fine." He pressed his lips against the older man's as if to make his point. "I trust you."
Kakashi seized his lips in a passionate kiss, finally relinquishing his last inhibitions. "I'm glad… I love you, Sasuke; I always have." His hands ran up and down the smooth chest, feeling the muscles jump in response to his touch as he focused on a stiffening nipple.
"Ah, Sensei…" The raven gasped and arched into the touch, his young body already experiencing the overstimulation of his senses; he felt better than ever before. Itachi seemed like he was just satisfying his lust, but this feels real… Even as he thought it, he knew he was making it too simple; Itachi was in a much more difficult position, and he himself had been too young to understand all that was happening.
"Fuck, Sasuke… You're too perfect; I can't believe I've kept my hands off of you for so long." His head was swimming with conflict, and it was shown all too obviously as he forced himself to back off. "If you don't stop moaning like that I'm not sure I'll be able to help myself." Kakashi pulled away a bit to look into the Uchiha's eyes, and blinked, surprised at the genuine want he saw there; Sasuke rarely showed any emotion if he could help it.
The raven grinned in return, enjoying the shock his lack of indifference was causing. "Now you can see that I'm not so heartless after all, Sensei… But, more importantly," He kissed the other forcefully, trying to convey his need even as he confessed it. "I don't want you to hold back." I need him to show me the difference… I want to know what it feels like to have a considerate lover.
"But… You're so young-" The copy nin halted the protestation as he realized how ridiculous it must have sounded to his student after what Itachi had done. "But, I think that, perhaps, in your situation it isn't as big of an issue; you are certainly wise far beyond your years. Still, you need to convince me that this is what you really want and not just my lust running away with me."
Sasuke smirked and darted forward to graze the other's lips with his tongue. "I think I can do that…" He slid himself back down Kakashi's body until he was kneeling between his legs. "Do you want me to begin my convincing now, Sensei?" Without waiting for a response he dove down to capture the swollen cock in his mouth; it was submerged just enough so that he could still breathe with his nose above the water of the tub. Hmmm… The sensation of near-suffocation is every bit as exciting as they claim…
The jounin's eyes widened and he gasped as the seemingly experienced tongue traced along the underside of his cock and lapped at the head. "… Ah, that isn't exactly what I meant…" The Uchiha responded by taking the entire length in his mouth and humming slightly, almost as if he too was purring in pleasure. "Oh god… Where did you learn-" He was cut off as another moan left his lips. Sasuke suckled the head of his erection and tongued the slit, then took the whole of it into his mouth again and followed the thick veins with his tongue. Kakashi gasped with some difficulty and fought to get the next words out, "It's not exactly easy to hold back when you're this good…" Teeth grazed his member as if gently chastising him before he continued, "So, unless you don't want me pounding heartily into that tight, sweet little ass of yours, you had better stop."
The raven came up licking his lips. "Fine… But I don't think I can hold on much longer, either…" He knelt in the water, waiting for his sensei's next move. At least he seemed to enjoy it… But what I crave is the intimacy of love making; I hope that's what he considers this to be.
Kakashi smiled at the willing boy, trying to comprehend how it had all suddenly worked out. "Well then, I guess we'd better get to it, hmm?" A gentle shove had Sasuke lying on his back in the warm water of the large tub. "You're sure you're okay with this?"
"Of course… Please, Kakashi; I need you." Not that you could resist at this point, anyway; still, his consideration is a nice gesture. The raven grabbed the muscular shoulders above him and drew the other so that he was hovering over his chest.
"You're too perfect…" The copy nin breathed in Sasuke's ear with a contented sigh as he inhaled the scent deeply, thoroughly enjoying the position they were in as he rubbed his cock against his student's, earning a moan as he tried to make sense of what was finally happening. He stopped staring as the Uchiha raised an eyebrow in question of whether he would ever begin. "This may hurt a bit at first, but I promise it will get better."
Two fingers found their way to Sasuke's entrance and began massaging around the tight muscle there. "I trust you." I remember… Itachi at least tried to ease the pain. "Mnmm…" The digits thrust inside, instantly beginning the scissoring motions meant to make penetration more comfortable. Soon another finger was added. Well he isn't wasting any time. The raven gritted his teeth and forced himself to relax just as the digits withdrew. I know it won't be anything close to the agony of before, but I can't help being a little nervous… Besides, the water surrounding them was bound to make for easier passage.
"Sasuke, don't worry; I promise to be gentle." Kakashi must have known exactly what the guarded expression meant about the Uchiha's thoughts. The boy took a deep breath and nodded, his eyes clenched shut in anticipation of the pain. "Look at me, love." The gentle request was easily obeyed as the jounin took hold of the other's chin to force him to look up.
Their gazes met and the raven knew instantly that his sensei would never allow him to be hurt; he would protect him at all costs, even if it meant giving up his life. I think that notion is the most frightening thing of all. Though he would continue to deny it for the next six years, Sasuke found himself thinking of Itachi as his sensei entered him slowly, gently; just as he had promised. "Fuck…" Twinges of pain shivered up his spine, their only cause that of pleasure.
Kakashi paused when he was fully encased in the tight heat. "You feel so good… I've dreamt of this moment, of being so close to you…"
You mean having me like Itachi did… Sasuke immediately recounted his first thought. No; there's something different about the way he strokes my hair and kisses my neck. He wants me to feel the pleasure he's feeling, not like Itachi; he just wanted to be the one to claim my virginity so he could gain the sick satisfaction. "I've dreamt of you too, 'Kashi…" His breath was coming in short gasps now as a wave of pure feeling hit him full force and he arched his back to moan and attempt to get more of it. "Move… I need you tonight more than I've ever needed anyone else." Even as the words left his lips, he knew they were false. I needed Itachi to stay with me after… I needed him to care and be with me forever.
Still, Kakashi didn't seem to notice his turmoil as he obeyed the request and pulled back before plunging back in to steal a kiss. It was quick and chaste, but conveyed more meaning than any make out session ever could. "I… Love you… I always have…" The Uchiha didn't seem to hear him as he cried out in pleasure as the cock buried deep inside him stroked a sensitive bundle of nerves.
They continued their dance of moans, pants, and sighs touched with hints of love and regret. The latter coming only from the beautiful raven who couldn't help but feel as if he was betraying the man that plagued his dreams. Itachi… It's your fault; you left me here, you left me to deceive him. "Sensei… I-" Sasuke voiced a muffled scream as he climaxed just before Kakashi, who sought his lips in a searing kiss of monumental meaning; there was no going back now.
END FLASHBACK
I really did love him then… Even if I had doubts, he sent them away. The worst nights were when Kakashi had to be away from him. I would lay awake staring at the ceiling, hoping for Itachi to come and show me he cared. Eager lips soon captured his own, bringing him forcefully back to the present. Hell, I don't know what I want anymore. Before he realized what was happening, Sasuke found himself wholeheartedly returning the kiss; he forced back his thoughts of betrayal and turned his attentions to nothing but the sensation being dealt to him by a body as equally needy as his own.
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As predicted, morning came too soon.
It's a damn good thing I put up that sound barrier… The perfect raven was beginning to stir next to Kakashi as he sat up slowly, trying to recall every second of their long night together. If only this could last forever.
Sasuke opened his eyes and willed himself to rise. I have to get out of here before I get too comfortable. He began looking for his clothes as he struggled to get his bearings on where exactly they were in relation to the Akatsuki lair. I need to explain things to Itachi as soon as possible… I shouldn't have stayed here last night. "I'll always remember last night when I think of you. Now I have to go."
The copy nin blinked in response and hid the other's pants further behind him. "No, you don't… Besides, you can't exactly waltz through the forest without any clothes on." In an instant he was standing behind the Uchiha, breathing into his ear as he spoke. "Someone as pretty as you is bound to get raped." His hands moved up and down the lithe chest to rest on pale hips. I can't let him leave me… Not yet. I won't stop him from doing so eventually, but I'll keep him while my conscience is on break. "You're welcome to stay here, you know… No one can see or hear us until I take down the barrier."
"I've been avoiding him for far too long. I have to tell him the truth about what I feel; that I love him more than I love anyone else." That's what it comes down to, in the end. I can't get past it; I've been in love with my own brother from the start, and I don't care if I'm damned because it's forbidden.
The statement pierced his heart with more fury than any weapon ever could, and his hopes shattered into too many pieces to put back together. But he can heal anything for me… If only he would this time. "I see… Do you expect me to let you get away, especially after knowing that? You're in even more danger than I thought if you actually love him." Someone else's jealousy could easily get them both killed… "I won't let you sacrifice yourself for him."
Before the Uchiha could respond, their tongues were twisting together again; Kakashi was forcing him to remember what he would lose if he left. I know how much I have to let go… I just wish you could see that I'm perfectly willing to do it.
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Deep red eyes blazed angrily, picking up the inflamed chakra signatures of the lovers behind the barrier. I'll get in, one way or another… I'm coming to save you, Otouto, as always. His ears strained to hear what was being said, but only his sharingan allowed him any hint as to their actions. He said he loved me back… Did he mean it? It seems not… Itachi swallowed his disappointment and turned away to think of a way to get in.
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A/N
There's your KakaSasu lemon XD
I hope you liked this chapter… I know that Sasuke has serious issues (okay, so he's practically suffering from multiple personality disorder) with his opinions constantly changing, but I kind of did that on purpose to convey how indecisive and utterly confused he is as to what (or who) he should do and who (or what) he loves.
Anyway, please review… I promise that Itachi will be in the next chapter for far more than a paragraph :)
Thanks again for all of your lovely comments!!! They keep me going so well… Without them it would have taken me much longer to post this (if you can comprehend me procrastinating any more), and I doubt I would have thrown in some action… So, in other words, reviews=lemons
The next chapter may be a ways away, but it shall be long and worth it; I promise.
Much Love,
Violet