Castiel stood in front of the mirror in front of his room and blinked feeling unfocused and confused. He looked down at his naked chest and pants wondering how he got this way when arms wrapped around his waist and a chin leaned on his shoulder.

"I'm in your thoughts and now your dreams"

"Dean?" Castiel whispered shocked turning his head to look at him. "This is a dream?"

"Yeah" Dean murmured pressing a kiss to his shoulder. "But it doesn't have to be"

Castiel inhaled shakily when his lips travelled upwards to his neck and his hands splayed up his chest stroking down his ribs softly.

"Dean, we can't…"

"Why not? I'm in your dreams, Cas, I'm in those thoughts when you're desperately trying to think of Rachel and not me...I see those thoughts inside that head…all those rather naughty thoughts that you want me to do to you…and I can do them" Dean murmured sucking on the pressure point in his neck.

Castiel moaned helplessly leaning back into his touch shutting his eyes feeling Dean's mouth and nose press into his hair and down his neck.

"I barely know you"

"Liar, I think we know each other very well"

"Dean, please"

"Cas, let me in" Dean whispered twirling him around and cupping his cheek. "Why shouldn't we? I see everything in your eyes"

"I'm an engaged man, I'm supposed to marry a woman, I…" Castiel said and was cut off when Dean kissed him softly pressing his lips against his and pulling back to see Castiel open his eyes slowly.

"I can give you so much more" Dean murmured pressing him closer tilting his chin up. Castiel whimpered pressing closer to him and matching his kiss when he leaned in kissing him firmly. Everything inside of Castiel exploded and he moaned helplessly falling completely under Dean's spell.

"Open your eyes" Dean whispered. Castiel opened them and gasped when he saw darkness and pulled back seeing the cushion in front of him, he exhaled looking around the empty room and touched his neck feeling nothing but the dryness of his own skin.

Disappoint flooded inside him and he moaned dropping his head into the pillow. A timid knock startled him and he sat up covering his modesty.

"Yes?"

The door opened to reveal Ruby who curtsied. "Breakfast is ready sir"

"Thank you, Ruby, I will be there momentarily" he said rubbing a hand into his hair. The door clicked close and he swallowed shakily climbing out of the warmth of the bed and dressed quickly. Without a thought, Castiel walked out of the bedroom, their parlour, and headed down the corridor towards one destination.

Dean lay back on the bed humming softly staring up at the bright white ceiling waiting for Sam's return. It was early morning and Dean could smell the sea already.

Castiel found the right corridor and frowned not knowing where Dean could be. There were hundreds of different doors leading to cabins and he noticed a small woman holding a child.

"Excuse me, madam" he said walking towards her and ignoring her wide frightened eyes.

"Would you happen to know where Dean Winchester is? Two gentlemen, one with brown hair and green eyes, the other with long hair" he said and saw recognition in her eyes.

"Oh yes! They are in that door there" she said pointing down the corridor. Castiel looked and smiled softly at the woman who watched him leave and take off down the corridor.

Castiel hesitated outside of the door before knocking and stepping back pushing his hands into his pockets. Dean frowned pushing off the bed and opening it up blinking in surprise.

"Cas? What-what are you doing here?"

"I…I, um, may I come in?"

"Sure" Dean said stepping aside a little to let him come in. Castiel looked around confused and looked at Dean who smirked.

"Third class, we're not equipped as you" Dean said sitting down on the bed. "What can I do for you this beautiful morning?"

"I..." Castiel said trailing off and closing his eyes in despair. Dean noticed his struggle and stood up placing two hands on his elbows, Castiel jumped under his touch staring across at him.

"Cas, you look ten seconds from crying or something worse…what's going on?" Dean murmured concerned.

"I had a weird dream" he said softly.

"Like a nightmare?"

"No" he said shaking his head. "You were in it"

Dean raised his head and closed his mouth in suspicion.

"What happened in this dream?" Dean murmured moving closer to him and feeling Castiel's breath quicken and smirked.

"You…you were in my room"

"And…"

"You came up behind me and wrapped your arms around my waist…I don't know why…I just…" he said desperately and exhaled slowly when Dean pressed his forehead against his and hovering his lips over his.

"Is there a reason you're dreaming about me?" Dean whispered.

"I don't know"

"Liar"

Castiel felt his dream rushing back and shut his eyes for a moment and felt his hands move down and rest on the small of his back.

"All this tension, all this acting, all these lies to yourself…let it go" Dean murmured and seeing his chance moved in kissing him softly. Castiel moaned helplessly when he drew away and stared at him with knowing eyes.

"I think yesterday affected us both"

Desire pooled inside of him causing Castiel to dive straight in as Dean moved towards him claiming his lips as his own. Dean pressed him against the metal of the bed sweeping his tongue into his mouth and feeling no resistance as Castiel opened his mouth placing his hands either side of his neck.

"Hey, Dean, I…Oh" Sam said opening the door and staring at them both with wide eyes. Dean glared at him furiously and looked at Castiel who was touching his lips afraid and pushed Dean away gently before running out of the room and down the corridor. Sam watched after him before facing Dean who was leaning against the bed staring at the wall breathing hard.

"Okay, um, what the hell?" Sam said stepping inside and looking at Dean who licked his bottom lip thoughtfully.

"I kissed him"

"I see that, but he's engaged, Dean"

"For status" Dean argued grabbing his shirt and pulling it on. Sam shook his head at him when he collected his sketch book and straightened up.

"How's Gabriel, Sammy?" Dean said turning to face him noticing Sam's cheek flush pink. "Exactly"

"Gabe is not engaged"

"No, but he's exactly like Cas who needs a woman to marry one day"

"He doesn't care about that"

"Sure he doesn't" Dean said moving to the door and stopping. "I've never felt this way about someone before, Sam, and you know this…in two days we dock in New York and I need to know if there is something there"

"He'll choose her"

"Maybe" Dean murmured walking out of the room and heading down the corridor with purpose in his eyes.

~0~

Castiel was staring down at the amber coloured whiskey in his glass not noticing when Gabriel nudged him and sat down.

"Drinking in the early morning?" Gabriel teased. "The scandal!"

"Leave me alone, Gabriel"

"That is a hard task since we have church to go to in ten minutes, you know how I love a good sing song" Gabriel murmured poking him gently in the arm.

Castiel swallowed back the burning liquid and placed the glass down on the marble table gently. Rachel entered the room and frowned fixing the shawl around her shoulders.

"Why is the air in here so stifling?"

"Because you entered, Rachel" Gabriel said and received a smack on the arm.

"Don't be rude, Gabriel, are you ready, my dear?" Castiel said stepping up and smiling softly when the fury in her eyes faded and she nodded holding out her hand. The three of them walked down to the chapel and Castiel walked inside with his own sin echoing in his mind wanting and craving for more. The taste of Dean's lips lingered in his mouth despite the whiskey he had consumed in the last twenty minutes, he stood obediently at Rachel's side as they listened to the captain of the ship start to read from the bible.

Dean walked down the stairs seeing it empty and looked around searching for anyone who would know where he was when he saw two men standing near glass doors.

"Chapel" he murmured and noticed the man last night who greeted him yesterday.

"Hey, I just need to speak with someone…"

"I'm afraid that is not possible, sir, so if you can go back to…"

"Five minutes! I just need to speak to Castiel… you saw me last night! You said good evening to me"

"I'm sorry, sir, but I must insist…"

"Don't worry, gents, I'll handle this" Zachariah said to the two men and walking out towards Dean who narrowed his eyes at him.

"I need to speak to him"

"Miss St Clair and Mr Milton are currently busy at the moment and you are not welcome here, I should suggest you return back to your own deck and stay there" Zachariah said with cold grey eyes.

Dean looked through the glass hearing a chorus of singing erupt suddenly and he glared at Zachariah who watched him walk away with a vindictive smile.

Castiel who had saw the confrontation looked down at his hymn book feeling a little sick. Rachel sang clearly and softly next to him without a care in the world, her diamond engagement ring settled comfortably on her finger, and the prospect of a wedding in a few weeks' time heavily on her mind.

Gabriel flashed a concerned look over to Castiel who seemed paler than usual. Chapel ended swiftly after that and Castiel ignored Gabriel's questioning eyes as he exited the room leaving Rachel with Ellen.

Gabriel bowed his head to them and hurried after Castiel.

"Whoa there, kiddo, what the hell is going on with you?"

"Nothing, I just needed a moment"

"From what?"

"It is nothing, Gabriel" Castiel said with a nervous chuckle. "Come, we have a walk with Mr Singer"

Gabriel raised his eyes to the heavens and watched him walk away, his head held up high and his posture unbreakable. His hand rose raking into his hair and he decided against a walk down the deck and went seeking out the one person he wanted to spend time with.

Sam was peering down into the water, his hair ruffling and being blown furiously in the wind as he watched the waves and jumped when he felt two hands on his back.

"Your life is in my hands" Gabriel murmured with a smile when he straightened.

"You scared me" Sam said startled rubbing his chest nervously.

"You look nervous, Sam"

"You have that affect"

Gabriel laughed and eyed him carefully. "There is something hidden in those eyes, what's wrong?"

"I don't how to explain" Sam said closing his eyes and leaning against the rail.

"Well I can't read your mind, Sam, so tell me what's troubling you"

"I walked in on my brother…kissing your brother" Sam said avoiding his eye contact. Gabriel felt his mouth drop in an almost comical way before snapping it shut and nodding.

"That would explain his mysterious mood"

"I apologise on Dean's behalf! He doesn't think at all, he just takes" Sam murmured rubbing his forehead.

"Oh don't apologise for him! He's done well"

"What?"

Gabriel cocked his head looking out at the clouds gathering in the distance.

"I love my brother, I love him no matter what he says or does because he's my family but his decisions are wrong. Castiel is marrying not for love but for status that will keep our own mother happy. Our own mother arranged this marriage under the idea that Rachel's money will save us…our father left many years ago leaving us in debit and a second marriage is to no avail with his gambling" Gabriel said bitterly. "Can you imagine giving up every happiness to appease your mother? Castiel hides his own feelings under a barrier which needs to be knocked down and if your brother can do that in only a matter of days…then there is something there"

Sam stood next to him gripping the rail tight. "What about you?"

"Me?"

"What about your feelings?"

Gabriel turned leaning back against the rail. "This is 1912, Samuel, in the eyes of every first class citizen on here I am meant to become a banker, marry a rich woman and impregnate this woman to have children. It's the natural way, it's the rules, and I say…fuck the rules"

"So what are your rules?" Sam said breathless and faintly amused.

"Find a nice, tall, handsome, gentleman who somehow makes my heart beat a little faster than it should" Gabriel murmured up to him. Sam closed his eyes looking away from him and struggled with his words.

"Can I be honest?"

"Of course"

"I've never felt this way about…anyone before"

"Anyone?"

"We never stay in one place…it's difficult and Dean is always the one because I never get the chance because I like to get to know people and…" he said and was cut off when Gabriel gripped his shirt pulling him towards him and kissing him broadly. Sam pulled away with a gasp staring at him shocked whilst Gabriel smirked at him.

"I wanted you to shut up" Gabriel murmured with a shrug.

"Okay" Sam breathed and bit his lip gently before moving towards him and pressing his lips against his in a timid fashion till Gabriel deepened it gripped his wrist.

"I think we better move somewhere quieter before we're shot" Gabriel whispered tugging his hand hard and walking him back to his suite.

~0~

Dean climbed up the railing and swung over landing heavily on the first class deck and narrowed his eyes looking around. He hung his head low walking past and noticed a coat on one of the deck chairs left behind and swiped it pulling it on.

Dean kept his head low as he searched the deck looking out for Castiel.

Castiel walked down the deck with Rachel, Mr Singer, Bela, Pamela, and Rufus as he talked about the ship.

"How many lifeboats?" Castiel said placing a hand on one of them.

"Why would you put lifeboats on an unsinkable ship?" Rachel said laughing. "Waste of money and space, but would it take all the people off this ship?"

"About half actually" Mr Singer said with a chuckle and looked over to Castiel's alarmed expression.

"Don't worry, Castiel, I made you a safe ship, strong and true, she'll sail perfectly and unharmed"

Castiel frowned and gasped when a hand wrapped around his wrist and he turned to see Dean pulling him into the door leading to one of the gymnasiums.

"Dean, I can't do this, not now, Rachel is just outside"

"Well we are" Dean said shutting over the door and facing him. "I've been looking for you all morning"

"I have been busy with my fiancée"

"You don't love her"

"Yes, yes I do, Dean, and you have to accept that and leave me alone"

Dean shifted staring into his eyes with fierce determination in his eyes. "Cas, you are the biggest pain in the ass and like a child, but despite that you're beautiful, you're smart, and you're funny…you are the most incredible man I have ever met"

"Dean, please…"

"No, you gotta let me get this out because I know okay? I know I'm not right in anyone else's eyes because I'm a man, I'm poor, and I have no money, no home, nothing to give you. I understand that. But I'm too involved now and I need to know you're going to be all right, I can't turn my back on you without knowing that"

"I'll be okay…really…I'm always okay"

"No you're not and I don't think you ever will be, Cas, because you're trapped, you're stuck in a cage and you'll die if you're not set free!"

"It's not up to you to save me"

"So I have to watch the man that I've fallen in love with wither away? Because it will happen, Cas, that little spark in your eyes will eventually fade over time to become an empty shell of a man"

Castiel closed his eyes when he touched his cheek gently caressing it softly with his thumb.

"It's not up to you to save me" he repeated.

"Yeah, you're the only one who can do that"

Castiel looked back to the window behind him and looked up to him.

"This morning was a mistake, I'm marrying, Rachel, because I have to and…I love her so stay away from me, Dean" he said shoving his hand away and moving towards the door.

"You're making a mistake, Cas" Dean murmured looking over to him feeling pain erupt in his chest and he watched as Castiel stopped at the door to look back at him.

"I made my mistake this morning, Dean, I'm sorry" he whispered and walked out of the door. Dean watched the shadow of him walk by and pressed his hand to the cool glass leaning against it with a sigh. It was only 2pm and the day wasn't over yet for neither of them and Dean prayed Castiel would see sense but with a hopeless defeat lit inside him and deep down he knew it was false hope.

A/N: Thank you for the response, you all seem to be enjoying it! Which is surprising because I had my doubts.

I will be writing this one and my brand new fic, Twinkle, Twinkle, at the same time so both updates will be slow. So if you would be my angels read the other one and give me some feedback as well? It would be highly appreciated!