Okay so im gunna attempt to update once a week from now on till thi stoy is done, it shopuld be probably another 5-10 chappies so, please enjoy

Jez: mhm... cuz that worked so well last time...

Me: Please leave me alone Redfern, I've had enough of you.

Jez: ... well i have plans with Morgead, so just this once, I`ll be nice, and do as yu ask sister

Me: Thanks...

Chapter 13- Dead or Alive

Rashel POV

I felt horrible, I don't know why, he deserved it but... I knew I wanted it stopped. I started walking towards Quinn's room to warn him, when the yelling started.

"QUINN! GET THIERRY GET HIM NOW." That was David, he was supposed to be watching Quinn. Oh goddess, don't let it be too late.

"WHAT HAPPENED?" I heard Delos's voice and it was scared. My heart clenched in my chest and I knew something was wrong

"DOES IT MATTER GO GET THIERRY?" My fears were confirmed and I knew I missed my chance. I took off running trying to get there as fast as I could. I felt the tears start falling down my face. I rounded the corner and saw Thierry and David bent over him Quinn, my soulmate. Oh god, why had I let this happen. I'm so stupid.

"I love you so much" I heard Quinn's voice in my head and something inside me broke. I ran to him, and knelt beside him pushing Thierry out of the way.

"John, you come back, you come back to me now. JOHN! This isn't funny. You aren't allowed to die, you're a vampire. For goddess' sake Quinn, please."

"JOHN!" I reverted to calling through our soulmate connection, and for the first time I can remember since the time I was five, I was crying. And not just crying, sobbing. I couldn't believe I'd let this happen, all because of my stupid insecurity. God, I knew he thought I was better than Dove, but I just had to go and mess with things.

"Rashel?" The voice was weak but it was there, in my head.

"QUINN! DON'T YOU DARE DIE!"

"But Rashel it hurts."

"For goddess' sake, you are a vampire you can deal with the pain. Please, please don't leave me. Please." The voice got stronger, as mine went into hysterics.

"I won't Rashel. I'm right here," My eyes fluttered open and I saw Quinn's eyes looking at me, and his hand reaching out gently to take mine. I grabbed it in mine, never wanting to let go again. I smiled radiantly at him, glad he had come back for me. I leaned down and kissed him hard. He kissed back but only slightly, I knew he didn't have the energy.

"Don't you ever scare me like that again." I voiced it out loud this time

"It wasn't his fault, now was it. You set him up for it." I turned to see Galen, for the first time in his life, he sounded cold and hateful, and it was to me. I felt fresh tears fall from my eyes.

"I didn't know"

"Of course you didn't" Eric's voice was harsh too,

"Yeah, someone else just set him up." Delos was glaring at me too

"I swear I didn't know, Blaise set me up. We asked her for help, but I specifically told her I didn't want him dead." I broke into sobs, and felt a hand on my back.

"Really? Why do I find that hard to believe?" I looked up and James was there too

"All the other girls seem to think you want him dead," Morgead's voice was hateful, vengeful. It scared me to my core.

"I don't, I would never want my soulmate dead I was just mad and... Blaise she set me up" I turned to face Quinn "Don't you believe me?" He nodded slightly and that was all I cared. I kissed him gently one more time, and stood up. "I'll be back, I have to murder Blaise." Quinn laughed, and I noticed that he was already healing, most of the wounds were gone. I took off down the hall, how dare she spread rumours about me! Well, I'd teach her a thing or two. When I walked past the games room I saw something that stopped me where I stood, Quinn was just standing there, looking at me. And there was a woman, witting on the couch.

"Quinn?" I walked into the room, and he turned to face me with cold, hate-filled eyes.

"What do you want?" A flash of pain worked it's way through me but my mind was stuck on confused.

"What do you mean? Do you not want me here or something?"

"No, who are you to think you could ever compare with Dove? She was so much more than you will ever be. Kind, gentle, beautiful. And then there's you. Fierce, cruel, and a murderer. You are nothing to me." I felt my heart break in my chest, and Quinn turned leaving the room. I looked to the woman on the couch wondering who had just witnessed the most embarrassing and hurtful thing in my life. I looked at the black-haired green-eyed woman on the couch. I hadn't seen her in years... I'd always thought she was dead. But... well Jez had died, and Morgead pulled her back. And Gillian had resurrected Angel, so who's to say she wasn't really here.

"Mommy?" It was almost too good to be true. But she stood up and faced me, emotionless.

"Hello Kitten." I wanted so badly to fly into her arms and cry, but something in her eyes stopped me.

"What's wrong Mommy?"

"You call yourself my daughter. Ugh, my daughter would never do the things you've done. My other daughter obviously cares about me more. She searched for a way to bring me back, to save me. But you just left me there."

"Your... other... daughter?"

"Keller of course." I was trying so hard not to cry, first Quinn now my mother. They both preferred someone else.

"But... you never met her."

"I did too. She was the most beautiful baby in the world. Her cat tail and ears just made her adorable. But your father didn't want you, so he took Keller and I got left with you" she said it as if it was a bad thing, and I couldn't stand it "and, look at what you became. You went cold and turned into a murderer. My daughter, psh. The day I died, I saw Keller, I saw how wonderful she was. It was then that I wished I had gotten her, instead of you." I couldn't listen to this. I turned and fled the room, sobbing. I ran to my room on the second floor and collided with Keller.

"I've been looking everywhere for you," I didn't want to see her, and that was when she seemed to notice the tears, the bloodshot eyes, "What's wrong?"

"Stay away from me." I saw the hurt flash across her face.

"Rashel, what hap-"

"STAY AWAY FROM ME!" I ran into my room, and flopped down on my bed. For the first time in my life, I cried myself to sleep.

I woke up the next morning, still feeling broken inside. I hated it, this feeling of helplessness. I knew I had to talk to Quinn, see if it was true. I disappeared stealthily out of my room, not wanting to talk to Keller. I walked quietly to the infirmary, and saw Quinn lying on the bed, just staring at the ceiling.

"Hey," I whispered it gently, not sure anymore if I wanted to know the answer. But he looked up and smiled, till he caught sight of my eyes.

"What's wrong?" But I couldn`t speak, it was too painful, so instead I projected to him what had happened last night. I watched him carefully, and saw him flinch.

"So it is true," I whispered and went to slip out the door.

"NO RASHEL COME BACK," I couldn't help it, I was a gluten for torture apparently, so I walked over to his bed, tears welling in my eyes. "It wasn't real, it was all a projection made by Gisele. She is James's friend. She made the hallucination, and she drew it from my memory. It was almost lifelike. It looked it but if you touched it your hand would have gone through. I told her what to make them say that would get to you the most."

"Why?"

"For revenge."

"John Quinn," I whispered it, I didn't have the strength to yell anymore, "I-I I didn't do anything that would-"

"Ash," he said it simply and I couldn't deny it.

"I didn't bring your father back and tell you he preferred you dead." Quinn flinched "If it had just been you, I would've understood. But you know how I feel about my mom, and you abused it anyway. Stay away from me John Quinn." I turned and fled the room, ignoring him calling my name. I ran back to my corridor, and started pounding on Keller's door. I needed her, I was sobbing when she opened the door. She looked surprised but she let me in. I made a beeline for the bed. I threw myself down on it and sobbed into her pillow. I heard the door close, and felt Keller sit beside me. Her hand was rubbing soothing circles in my back.

"What happened?" I looked into her caring eyes, and condemned John, as I spilled my heart and told her everything.

Answer questions in review :)

Will Rashel and Quin ever get back together?

What will Phase 3 be? Will they even go through with it?

What will the girls have to say?

How does Timmy react?