Chapter 5: Apologies

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Edward POV:

'Edward, you want to come and watch a film with me Emmet, rose and Jasper?' alice asked me, jumping on my back. god she was annoying sometimes.

'no Alice, im tired im going to bed.' I told her, lifting her off my back and running up the stairs, going to into my room.

I stripped off and got into the shower, I washed my hair and the hot water relaxed my tense muscles.

I dried off and put on some pants, hopping into bed and putting my tv on the news channel.

For some reason, all I could think about was bella, and I didn't know why. Whenever I saw her, she would be all tense, but after a while, she would relax and be herself, and then if I said one wrong word, her walls would come back down and she would snap at me. creepy how I knew this, after knowing her all of one day.

she was interesting, and I think that's what drew me too her. she was different from all the other girls, she wasn't fake and plastic, she was real. I didnt think I actually felt anything for her, yet I wanted to be friends with her, get too know her. She seemed like she was in pain, and I wanted to fix that.

Whenever I mentioned her old life, she would get upset, something had happened to her, and I wasn't usually nosey, but for some reason I wanted to know, to help her feel better.

She thought I was a player, but the truth was the complete opposite of that. I have had all of one girlfriend, and I didn't even like her. my siblings had forced me to go out with her, because I was the only one without a girlfriend. I had wanted to end it with her, but I didn't know how, without hurting her, but luckily we were moving to forks, so I could easily end it. she was all for a long distance relationship, but we all know that would never have happened. I eventually told her I didn't return the feelings she had to me.

Bella only thought I was a player because I had said she was pretty, but I didn't mean to say that, I had thought it, but the words just came out. And then, when coach came up to me and asked me to join the track team, like he did every week, I said yes. I didn't want to be on the team, but he told me the people who had joined, and one of them was bella, so I immediately said yes, without even thinking about it.

And now, all I wanted was to see her, and I didn't know why. Maybe I did feel something for bella, but I was so confused right now. how could I like someone after one day? it was impossible, unless you where in a completely unrealistic teen movie, but this was different. I didn't know what I felt right now.

I eventually fell into a deep sleep, and for some reason, bella was there.

All we were doing was sitting in biology, talking and getting to know each other properly. then the scene changed, and we were in this beautiful colourful meadow. I didn't know where it was. we were sitting together. we didn't appear to be saying anything, and then for some odd reason, I pressed my lips to hers.

I woke up to the sound of my alarm clock.

great, now I could probably be clast as a stalker. having dreams about a girl I had just met, and then in those dreams I was kissing her.

I was so confused.

I got up, got into the shower and put on some black jeans and a grey t-shirt. I went downstairs and walked straight out of the door, and into the forest. I walked to this big tree that you could sit in. I usually came here when I needed space, or I needed to think.

so I joined the track team without even thinking about it, just to be close to her, for some reason I couldn't stay away from her, and now I was having dreams about kissing her. Maybe I did like bella, more than a friend. but its not possible to like someone after one day. Maybe if I spent more time with bella, I could see how I really felt about her, for all I knew, this could just be some testosterone fuelled phase and bella was just the girl I happened to be think of.

then I heard my cell ring. it was alice.

'hello?' I said to her.

'edward, where the hell are you! were going to be late, if you're not home in 5 minutes we are going to have to leave without you!' she snapped, ending the call. guess they were going without me then, I didn't really feel like going to school today, I just wanted to walk around the woods and clear my head.

I jumped down from the tree and walked deeper into the forest. I don't know why my family like to leave so early, we still had an hour till we needed to be at school, I could walk there in the time we had left.

as I was walking down the trail, I thought about the lessons I had today. nothing of interest. art, bio and gym. I had biology today. with bella.

I was going to miss a chance to get to know her better, to see how I really felt about her. whether I actually liked her or if It was just a high school crush.

crap. I ran back through the forest. about 10 minutes later, I emerged from the edge of the trees and into my drive. great, they had already left, guess I was walking to school today.

alice had my car keys, which also had my house keys on them, and everyone was out so I couldn't even go in and get a jacket.

I walked down our very long drive, thinking of how stupid I was. I was going to miss a chance to get to know bella more.

as I came out onto the main road. it started raining. it was just a drizzle at first, but then It got really heavy and soon I was drenched. I think this could be the making of a horrible day. I was cold, wet and I had to walk all the way to school, and to round it all of, I was confused.

people from school were all passing by in there cars, some were waving, some were laughing. not one of them even thought of offering me a ride. I kept my head down, looking at the sidewalk, so the water wouldn't go in my eyes.

I heard yet another car passing by, but I didn't look up this time. this day was just getting better and better. god why did alice have to be so annoying.

'need a ride?' someone chuckled. was that who I thought it was? I looked up. it was of course. she smiled and I nodded, shivering slightly.

I opened the door and slid in.

'so why did you decide to walk to school in the pouring rain?' what was I meant to say, I had decided that I was going to miss school, but then I remembered I had class with you and I wanted to come again? she would just call me a player again.

'my siblings left without me, my parents were gone and I couldn't get in the house to get the keys to another car, so I had to walk' I shivered again more violently now.

'do you want the heater on?' she giggled. She'ssocute! right where the hell did that come from? I needed to get my head straight.

'yeah, that would be nice' I smiled to her. she reached over and turned it on and started the engine again. she pulled out onto the road again.

'thanks for this bella' she smiled, intending for me not to see it, but I did.

'your welcome' she was being weirdly nice to me.

'so how was your night?' I asked her, bet it couldn't be any worse than mine.

Her face fell and her eyes glistened with tears. great I had put my foot in it again.

'you okay?' damn why did I always have to say the wrong things?

'yeah i-im fine, it was good how was yours?' she wasn't a good liar.

'yeah, I watched a movie with my brothers' I on the other hand was. having four adopted brothers and sisters has its advantages.

'oh what was it?'

'the hangover, its good' it was a good film, but of course I hadn't watched it.

'I havnt seen it' she replied, I was about to say we should watch it sometime, but I held my tongue. why on earth would I ask her that?

I seemed to be having these involuntary responses just pouring out of my mouth.

we pulled into the parking lot and she parked in a space, cut the engine and turned to face me. I could see it in her eyes again, the hurt. I didn't know what had caused it. she seemed happy most of the time, but then I would say something and the hurt would come back. it was actually never truly gone, but when we were just chatting normally, the pain didn't seem so strong.

'thanks for the ride' I said to her.

'do you want a shirt, I bought some for charlies birthday, you can have one if you'd like' I shivered again and she smiled.

'no im good' I said. this time it was a big shiver.

'you're freezing! if you want you can just borrow it, and give it back to me tomorrow, okay?' she knew how to get her own way.

'okay' she climbed into the back of the car and got a shirt out from a paper bag. she handed it to me.

'well im going to go change' I told her.

'bye' she said to me, waving.

I got out of the car, into the drizzling rain. I waved to her and headed off to the boys locker room. I put the shirt on. she had a good sense of style.

most of my first classes went by slowly. I desperately wanted to get to biology, get to know bella better. when I was in the car with her for two minutes, the air felt like it had some sort of electricity in it.

after break, I sped off to biology. bella wasn't there yet so i sat down in my place and waited for her. finally after everyone had already come in, she came with angela and mike. she was chatting to them. she looked happy, no trace of pain in her eyes. then mike ruffled her damp hair. as soon as he did that, a wave of jealousy came over me, my hands balling into fists

wait, why was I doing this. bella wasn't mine, I didn't even know her that well, yet I was jealous of mike Newton, for touching her hair.

she saw me and smiled, walking over. she sat down, got out her books and fiddled with one of the corners of her notes.

'hey' I breathed out.

'hey' she said looking up, she looked almost guilty.

'look edward, im sorry. im really sorry im always being rude to you, but I don't know, I j-just…im sorry' she was apologizing, but she didn't want to tell me the reason she was being snappy. I wasn't going to force it out her, if she wanted to tell me she would. but that was unlikely.

'its fine bella, I know how stressful it can be moving to a new school, especially this one' I said, putting a hand on her shoulder. before I had even thought about it I had done it. again with these involuntary responses.

'thanks edward' she smiled and turned to the front where Mr. Banner now stood. I removed my hand from her shoulder. it was tingling, again with the electricity.

The next two weeks, me and bella were getting to know each other better. we would now chat easily together. once or twice I would out my foot in it, but after a while I learned what I should and shouldn't say to her. She got upset and angry when I mentioned her old life, her mom or her new husband, for some reason she didn't like me mentioning sleep or dreams. We had started hanging out together at break times. and sometimes I came by her locker and chatted to her for a bit before class. which confused me further. what I did find out though, was that I liked bella, I mean really liked her. but I knew she didn't like me back.

once again we were sitting in biology. Mr. Banner was talking about some project we had to do. I decided I had better listen.

'so you and your partner will be spending the next two months working on a project. it can have anything to do with biology. I have two scholarships to Harvard. all of you in here are capable of getting these scholarships, but only the best couple will get them. please don't take this lightly, this project could decide the rest of your life. so I suggest you start planning what your project is going to be on.' he sat down and the noise of the classroom rose.

Bella turned to look at me. I looked into her eyes and got lost. I had to blink a few times before got a hold on myself.

'so edward, do you want to start the project tonight?' she asked me blushing. why was she blushing? I want more than anything to be with her tonight. I liked bella, maybe a little too much, and it broke my heart to think that she only saw me as a friend.

'yeah, do you want to go to yours or mine?' I said, I hoped I could go to her house, i didn't want my siblings saying the wrong things and getting her upset.

'lets go to mine, my dad is out till like 3 in the morning, so we will have loads of time to get started. are you going to follow me or do you want a ride?' she asked me blushing again. why did she keep blushing!

'can I ride with you, I need to leave my brothers and sister a car.' as soon as I said that the bell went. bella looked at me, and she just stared, she did that a lot, but I didn't know why, did I have something wrong with my face? Angela came over and dragged bella off. as she went she was blushing yet again a deep red.

I lined up for dinner and bella and Angela were behind me.

'hey bella' I said. she looked up at me and blushed again, I don't think I had ever seen her blush as much as this past hour in my life.

'hi edward' she breathed out. it was my turn to order, I got a slice of pizza and I paid the lunch lady.

'well ill see you tonight then' I said waving at her. her blush went an even deeper red than I had ever seen it.

as I walked over to my family, I saw Tanya, Lauren and Jessica sitting with them. oh great, the sluts have come to join us.

I sat down, in a small space between alice and emmet, not really wanting to sit next to Tanya. I gave an apologetic look to jasper, as he was now sitting next to her.

Tanya tapped my shoulder as I was turned talking to emmet.

'yeah' I said before I actually realised it was her.

'eddie, I was thinking we should go out, if you got with me we would totally rule this place.' great she asked me out almost every week, and every week I told her I wasn't interested. you don't know how much I wanted to tell her to f**k off, but I was raised to be a gentleman, so I didn't.

'tanya, please don't do this again' I whined.

'aw come on baby' she pleaded. I looked over too bella, who was surprisingly staring at me, as soon as she saw me looking at her, she dropped her head to the table. I could almost hear that blush.

'eddie, you don't like bella swan do you?' she laughed. that did it, screw the way I was raised.

'tanya, when are you going to get it in to that little head of yours that I don't want to go out with you!' I said as I stormed out of the cafeteria. I decided to go to my car and listen to some music.

after the third song I saw Rosalie coming towards the car. great, of all people Rosalie. she sat down in the seat next to me and looked ahead.

'edward, look I know we don't get on as much with each other as the others do, but you're still my brother- she turned her head to look at me now- so do you like bella swan?' why was she asking me this?

'I don't know rose, all I know is that I don't want to go out with tanya' I said exasperated.

'don't worry edward, she now thinks you're a jerk, which should be a good thing because she will back off for a while, and the three witches wont be sitting with us anytime soon, I made use of your uneaten slice of pizza' she giggled at the memory.

'thanks rosalie, this might be the nicest thing you have ever done for me' and it was true, she never did anything for me.

'well don't get used to it, I was dying to give that blondie a slap' and with that she got out of the car.

I got out and followed her, feeling a whole lot better.

please tell me if you want anything else in the story, if you want more edward POV or anything like that.

We all know that they are going to get together, but I don't want it to be quite as simple as that, so if anyone had any ideas of any problems that could put obstacles between them then I would really appreciate it.

Ok so im thinking of updating daily, but it might not be everyday as I have a lot going on, with my GCSEs and trying to find a job, but I'll try to update as much as possible

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