Chapter 11
Hey guys, sorry its late but ive been busy and having family problems. Hope you all had a great Christmas and a happy new year. I hope 2012 will be a happy year and that this year will be the year that you all shine through in whatever you do in life, never take anything for granted and get rid of the people who want to knock you down in what you want to achieve in life, they are just jealous because they know that you can do it, thank you for believing in me last yr. in 2011 and I hope you carry that through to 2012 and so on, thank you. Please review, favourite and enjoy this story.
Bella's pov
He did what? No, he didn't, he wouldn't, he planned a weekend away for us?
"Edward you didn't really plan a weekend for us did you?" I asked as I started to walk up to his room again.
"yes, I hope youre ok with that?" he asked as we lay back down on his bed.
"yes, im ok with it, I'm just surprised that you actually did that for us, I mean you went to all the planning just to have a weekend away with me? I mean that's just so romantic and I just, I cant even explain it, I mean I'm so happy that you did this for us but you shouldn't have went through all this trouble and-" I knew I was babbling so when he kissed me it just worked to shut me up.
"shut up bella, I love you, and I'll go to the ends of the earth to be with you and to make you happy" he whispered as he kissed me again. And the tears started. They were just flowing down my face as I kissed him. He felt them. He pulled away and looked in my eyes.
"why are you crying?" he asked as he gently wiped my tears away. I don't know what to say to him. I'm just so happy and in love with him.
"I just love you and im so excited to go away with you" I said as I kissed him. I have an idea for the weekend myself.
We ended up falling asleep on his bed.
Two days later
Bella's pov
I was in school walking down the hall when I saw jess.
"hey jess, whats up?" she looked oddly happy.
"ahhh bella, mike asked me out, he actually did it!" she started to gush as soon as she was in earshot. I smiled.
I got a call from my best friend sarah who lives in Arizona, she said to go down to the assembly hall in my school, that is so weird but then so is sarah. I walked in to find that the whole school was there and there was a stage set up. I saw sarah going about asking questions so I ran up to her.
"hey, whats up? Why are you here?" I asked as I hugged her.
"finally I found you! Come on!" she said as she dragged me down, I ran past Edward and his family and over to the stage.
"how do we get up?2 sarah whispered. I rolled my eyes and took a few steps back and ran and jumped up.
"show off" sarah said to me. I just laughed and sat on the edge until she found steps to get up and come over to me.
"is there a reason you're here?" I asked as I looked at her, the whole school was watching us.
"yes, we are doing a performance, and you are joining us" sarah said as she got up and ran off the back side of the stage to everyone else. What? I haven't done a performance since I got here. I got up and ran back to everyone else, they all cheered and gave me a hug. I missed this. I saw our principal come back.
"ready everyone?" mr brown asked us.
We all nodded our heads, this is just going to be a normal performance from us so I know exactly what we are going to do.
Mr brown walked on stage and up to the microphone.
"ok guys, I have a surprise for you, there is a performing arts group from arizona is here and I asked them to perform for us, they will have a special guest, one of our own students, miss bella swan, is there lead performer and will therefore be performing today with them, please welcome miss bella swan on to the stage" mr brown walked off just as I was walking on, he gave me a hug and whispered good luck. I walked up to the microphone as everyone was cheering my name.
"hey guys, uh, this was a surprise for me too, I thought that when I left arizona that I would have left the group too but as you will probably see today, we are all basically a family and support each other in everyway we can, I hope you all enjoy our performances today, afterwards if you want to speak with any of the group then you can just walk up to us and ask us any questions, how about we get this started? First off is a dance performance from the whole group" I say as I walk of the stage.
*the dance is demi lovato's 17th birthday dance*
After that I go and get changed and listen to sarah speaking.
"all of this group and most of arizona will know that bella is a great performer, amazing dancer, exceptional actress and a phenomenal singer, so with a couple of songs that she wrote her self, here is bella swan."
I walk on the stage, everyone is cheering again.
I picked up my guitar.
"ok guys, this song is called if I die young" I said as I started to strum my guitar.
If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song
Uh oh, uh oh
Lord make me a rainbow, I'll shine down on my mother
She'll know I'm safe with you when she stands under my colors, oh and
Life ain't always what you think it ought to be, no
Ain't even grey, but she buries her baby
The sharp knife of a short life, well
I've had, just enough time
If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song
The sharp knife of a short life, oh well
I've had just enough time
And I'll be wearing white when I come into Your Kingdom
I'm as green as the ring on my little cold finger,
I've never known the loving of a man
But it sure felt nice when he was holdin' my hand
there's a boy here in town says that he'll love me forever
Who would have thought forever could be severed by
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The sharp knife of a short life oh Well,
I've had just enough time
So put on your best boys and I'll wear my pearls
what I never did is done
A penny for my thoughts,
Oh no,
I'll sell em' for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
and maybe then you'll hear the words I've been singing
funny when you're dead how people start listenin'
If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song
Uh oh (uh, oh)
The ballad of a dove (uh, oh)
Go with peace and love
Gather up your tears, keep 'em in your pocket
Save them for a time when you're really gonna need 'em, oh
The sharp knife of a short life, oh well
I've had just enough time
So put on your best boys and I'll wear my pearls.
Everyone stood up and gave me a standing ovation, I mean an actual standing ovation, that's awesome!
"This next one is called who says" I said softly into the mic.
I wouldn't wanna be anybody else
hey
You made me insecure,
Told me I wasn't good enough.
But who are you to judge
When you're a diamond in the rough?
I'm sure you got some things
You'd like to change about yourself.
But when it comes to me
I wouldn't want to be anybody else.
Na na na na na na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na na na na na na na
I'm no beauty queen
I'm just beautiful me
Na na na na na na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na na na na na na na
You've got every right
To a beautiful life
C'mon
Who says, who says you're not perfect?
Who says you're not worth it?
Who says you're the only one that's hurtin'?
Trust me, that's the price of beauty
Who says you're not pretty?
Who says you're not beautiful?
Who says?
It's such a funny thing
How nothing's funny when it's you
You tell 'em what you mean
But they keep whiting out the truth
It's like a work of art
That never gets to see the light
Keep you beneath the stars
Won't let you touch the sky
Na na na na na na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na na na na na na na
I'm no beauty queen
I'm just beautiful me
Na na na na na na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na na na na na na na
You've got every right
To a beautiful life
C'mon
Who says, who says you're not perfect?
Who says you're not worth it?
Who says you're the only one that's hurtin'?
Trust me, that's the price of beauty
Who says you're not pretty?
Who says you're not beautiful?
Who says?
Who says you're not star potential?
Who says you're not presidential?
Who says you can't be in movies?
Listen to me, listen to me
Who says you don't pass the test?
Who says you can't be the best?
Who said, who said?
Won't you tell me who said that?
Yeah, who said?
Who says, who says you're not perfect? (Yeah)
Who says you're not worth it? (Yeah yeah)
Who says you're the only one that's hurtin'? (Ooooh)
Trust me, that's the price of beauty (Hey yeah, beauty)
Who says you're not pretty? (Who said?)
Who says you're not beautiful? (I'm just beautiful me)
Who says?
Who says, Who says, you're not perfect?
Who says you're not worth it?
Who says you're the only one that's hurtin'?
Who says, who says you're not perfect?
Who says you're not worth it?
Who says you're the only one that's hurtin'?
Trust me, that's the price of beauty
Who says you're not pretty?
Who says you're not beautiful?
Who says?
Who says you're not perfect?
Who says you're not worth it?
Who says you're the only one that's hurtin'?
Trust me, (yeah) that's the price of beauty
Who says you're not pretty? (Who says you're not beautiful?)
Who says?
"ok guys, you've seen me sing my soft songs, how about we get to the attitude songs?" I asked, the whole crowd cheered.
"ok, this song is called undo it" I said as I put my guitar away and my dancers came on stage.
I should have known by the way you passed me by
There was something in your eyes and it wasn't right
I should have walked but I never had the chance
Everything got out of hand and I let it slide
Now I only have myself to blame for falling for your stupid games
I wish my life could be the way it was before I saw your face
You stole my happy, you made me cry
Took the lonely and took me for a ride
And I wanna uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-undo it
You had my heart, now I want it back
I'm starting to see everything you lack
Boy, you blew it, you put me through it
I wanna uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-undo it
Na, na, na, na, na
Na, na, na, na, na
Na, na, na, na, na, na
Now your photos don't have a picture frame
And I never say your name and I never will
And all your things, well I threw them in the trash
And I'm not even sad
Now you only have yourself to blame for playing all those stupid games
You're always gonna be the same and, oh no, you'll never change
You stole my happy, you made me cry
Took the lonely and took me for a ride
And I wanna uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-undo it
You had my heart, now I want it back
I'm starting to see everything you lack
Boy, you blew it, you put me through it
I wanna uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-undo it
Na, na, na, na, na
Na, na, na, na, na
Na, na, na, na, na, na
You want my future, you can't have it
I'm still trying to erase you from my past
I need you gone so fast
You stole my happy, you made me cry
Took the lonely and took me for a ride
And I wanna uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-undo it
You had my heart, now I want it back
I'm starting to see everything you lack
Boy, you blew it, you put me through it
I wanna uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-undo it
You stole my happy, you made me cry
Took the lonely and took me for a ride
Boy, you blew it, you put me through it
I wanna uh-uh-uh-uh-uh-undo it
The rest of the performance went by really quickly, I was asked on stage to do a filmed Q and A.
"ok, question number one please" Sharon, our manager, asked the crowd. A girl I didn't know came up to the mic.
"hi, my name is tara, my question is that, your songs are all really amazing songs, did you write them yourself? And if so how did you do it?" she asked. I always get that question.
"hi tara, yes, my songs are all wrote by me, and my inspiration for writing them is just to take life experiences and use them to channel my emotions to make a song, the one rule that I have about my song writing is that it has to be truthful, I cant write about something that I didn't go through, or I didn't see someone go through, a lot of my songs are about me but there are the few which are about my friends' lives and what they go through" I told her truthfully.
"ok, next question" Sharon said. Another girl came up to the mic.
"hi, my name is chloe and im just wondering, have you ever been bullied and what advice would you give to someones that's being bullied" she said in a soft voice. She is soo cute!
"hi chloe, truthfully yes I was bullied in younger school and the start of high school because I wasn't the skinniest person around, and everyone bullied me for that and they thought I couldn't change, so I did, I worked hard and I changed my body image and then they started to be really superficial with me, pretending to be my friend because I was skinny and I did this group. And advice that I would give someone to being bullied is that don't stand there and let it go on, you could tell someone about it, or if you yourself are unhappy about your body or anything that your being bullied for, you can change your ways, just don't do it to make them happy, as you heard me say in my song who says, nothing is stopping you from doing anything, I wrote that song for me and a friend, we both got bullied for the way we were and what we wanted to do and it got us both in these really depressing ways so one day I just looked at myself and said you know what? They don't get to rule my life anymore, once high school is over, I wont ever see them again, so why let them get to me now and ruin my life, when they wont be there to see it themselves." Really long explanation!
The rest of the Q and A went by really quickly, I guess people really liked it, they got to see the people that we really were. There was a Q and A with just me, then me and sarah, then the whole cast, it was really something special.
Ok guys, really long chapter for you there since I was away for so long, I hope you enjoyed the chapter, if there is anything you would like to ask me then go ahead, im happy to do it.
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Until next time,
Shannon xox