Title: I'm Sorry, Got it Memorized?
Author: Izzy-Lawliet (Rin)
Disclaimer: Let's go over this slowly so you can understand what I'm saying. I do not own this. If I did, do you seriously think that I would be typing a poorly written story like this?
Pairings: Axel/Sora
Rating: M
Warnings: AU, yaoi and whatever comes along with it.

Summary: They met online, met in person, and became friends, what's stopping them from becoming more?

Author's Note: I got an idea for this fic, from someone. And I think I can make a full fic out of this, but it will be random to how far apart it is updated. So yeah, on to the story, and thanks to Starry-Nights88 for beta-ing my story.

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So, after the whole embarrassing moment thing, Axel and I went back up to my room, not to do anything, but just to hang and go on the computer. I sat on the computer, while Axel lounged out on my bed texting god-knows who. I checked my Yahoo!, Myspace, and MSN, not getting any emails, obviously. Not having any friends beside my brother and my boyfriend right here, who else would email me? I don't even know why I have those accounts. They're completely pointless, right? I mean, why would a mute need all those accounts without any friends? Well, who cares, just in case, ya know?

"Hey babe?" I turned and cocked my head to the side in a, 'what' type of way. "I love you." I smiled and mouthed the same words to him with a great smile on my face. I couldn't help as I knew my eyes were shining and flickering with happiness. "Come 'ere." I spun in my chair twice before hopping out of it, walking over to him and lying down with him. "What do you want to do?" I made a yawn and stretched my arms and ended up wrapping them around his neck. "Sleep?" I nodded and cuddled into Axel's chest.

Of course I didn't really go to sleep, how could someone go to sleep on a Saturday morning after they slept all night and some the day before? After having sex? No one, that's who. I evened out my breath subconsciously, trying to feign sleep, even if it's just for a little while. I just wanted to lay close to Axel, I guess I didn't have to say I was sleeping, but it just seemed more conventional. As I lay in his arms, I felt his wrap around my back, one hand staying near my neck to play with the spikes that lay there. His other hand went to my back, under my shirt, to rub imaginary drawings into my skin. I sighed as his hands worked my skin and hair, lightly pulling on the strands, causing me to squirm. "I knew you were awake." I blushed, but looked at him either way, smiling big.

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I was walking close to Roxas as we headed toward our table outside for lunch. I sat down and pulled out the bag mom had packed me, Roxas did the same and started to chow down on his food. I, instead of 'chowing down', ate carefully, picking at my chips and taking small bites of my PB and J sandwich. I pulled my Capri Sun and attempted to get the straw into the little hole. I struggled with it twice before holding it out to my brother to help me. He stuck the straw in my drink and passed it back to me before standing up, "I gotta pee." I nodded and let him walk of without taking a second glance at him.

A couple moments later, I felt him sit down next to me, but too close for comfort. I turned the other way and reached into my bag, ignoring the personal space invader for now, and grabbed my notebook from my bag to tell Roxas to back off. I turned to look at him, just to give him a slight glare, and mentally shrieked with happiness. I wrapped my arms around the personal space invader and gave him a quick kiss on his neck.

I turned to the notebook and wrote, 'What the fucking hell are you doing here?!?!' He smiled and was about to speak when I got hit in the head with a paper ball. I flinched at the contact and closed my eyes shut, ignoring the laughs and sighing. I heard Axel growl deep in his throat, much different from the way he usually did when we were together. I turned and placed my hand on his arm, to keep him calm. I didn't want any problems, especially with the guys over there. "Who do they think they are?" He snapped under his breath.

'Just some guys. Don't worry about them.' "But…" I shook my head forcefully, succeeding in shutting him up. "Fine…" I smiled in triumph and leaned up to press a kiss to his lips. I heard the guys that had thrown something at me mutter to each other in disgust. I knew Axel heard them to, for he tensed up against me and tried to pull away. To get him to stay, I fisted my hands in his shirt, and pulled him close to me in an attempt to kiss him deeper. He bought into it and wrapped his arms tightly around me. He muttered something against my lips and then somehow pushed me away from him and stood up. I was about to do the same when Roxas came into view and jumped on Axel to give him a hug. While they were hugging he gave me a wink and mouthed, 'You owe me'. I nodded and mouthed a thanks in reply.

"Hey, Roxy." Axel said through gritted teeth, prying my brothers arms from around his neck.

"What are you doing here, Ax!" Roxas said, mock happiness. But of course, Axel couldn't tell.

"I came here to see my boyfriend and his bangable brother." He teased, his mood slowly returning to normal.

"Oh I know, I am oh-so-bangable." Roxas said, with a flick of his hips. Axel laughed, along with me, at my brother's stupid antics. I shook my head and stood, wrapping my arms around Axel's body and pulled him close, loving the warmth he gave off. I closed my eyes and sighed softly, but audibly against his chest, nuzzling my face into it, also getting a whiff of his wonderful smell.

"Hey, you two. I have to get back to school, I can't afford to miss more than one class." I nodded and wrapped my arms around him once more, this time tighter. His hand went under my chin to lift my gaze up to him to bring my lips to his in a slow, sensual kiss. Roxas eventually cleared his throat to separate us. "Sorry, Roxy, I just couldn't keep my hands off of him…" He kept looking at me, his hands sliding down to grab my butt. I jumped and accidentally threw myself closer into his body, causing him to stumble back slightly.

I backed away from Axel and let him kiss me chastely on the lips before turning and walking toward the gate that surrounded the school. I questioningly stared at him as he walked away towards the metal fence. He stopped a couple feet short from it and then ran to jump up and over the gate easily, impressing both my brother and I.

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Axel snuck into our school again. He was sitting with Roxas when I came up to him. He smiled widely, kissed me briefly on the cheek and then went to sit back down. Now, I wasn't happy with the kiss so I pulled on his shirt collar to pull him back down into a much deeper and loving kiss. Just as my tongue touched his lips, he pulled away, gently prying my hands from his shirt. I looked up at him questioningly but all he did in return was shrug. I huffed and walked away, going to the tree that sat not to far away from the table.

"She's so beautiful, I love her so much. She's like…I don't know." Axel started, all dreamy like. Who is he talking about?

"What does she look like? What's she like?" Roxas asked, all interested in what he was saying. "What's her name?" I crossed my arms and huffed again. I don't think the realized I was sitting so close to them.

"She's…I don't know how to describe her. She's fast, dangerous, and sexy as hell. Her name's Charlotte. I mean, I love running my hands down her frame, feeling every curve and whatnot. She's just so hot!" I gaped at them while they continued there stupid conversation about some stupid girl, who Axel was…doing what with! How…I can't believe it…I can't believe him…And Roxas, he's actually okay with this. I…I don't believe…

I felt tears prick at the corner of my eyes and my nose start to get that crying feeling. My eyebrows scrunched up, tears started to fall, and I stood up, running to the bathroom to hide. I faintly heard Axel and Roxas call after me. But I couldn't care less. They both betrayed me and that was fucking messed up.

I walked into the bathroom, ignoring the group of bullies that were in there talking and laughing. I walked into a stall and locked it behind me. I sat on the back of the toilet, with my feet on the seat. I heard a knock on the stall door, but didn't bother to look up or even open it. "Hey, Angel, why don't you come out here, we can help make you feel better." I kicked the door as my reply. They chuckled to each other before the 'leader' went back to patronizing me. "Feisty, I like it. Come on Sora, come out and play." I kicked the door harder this time, trying to get them to go away. They just kept laughing, much to my dismay.

I heard the main bathroom door open and heard two sets of footsteps. "Hey, jerks, leave my brother alone!" Roxas called, again to my dismay. I really didn't appreciate his help. Not after what he did to me.

"Or what Pretty boy," The bully commented.

"Or this," I heard Axel growl before I heard the bully fall to the floor. I saw him collapse to the floor, under the door. I heard a bunch of calls that they should go, and tell a teacher or something along the lines of that. "Hey, Angel. What's wrong?" I scowled at the door, mentally wishing that Axel and my brother would go away. Even though I knew they couldn't see me, I shook my head either way. "Please, tell me what's wrong." He backed away from the door, as he said this.

Roxas took over his spot. "Hey, baby bro. What happened? Did those guys do something to you?" I could hear the worry in his voice as his protective-brother-mode kicked in. Next thing I know, I see Axel sliding underneath the stall, a notebook and pen in hand as he pushed himself off the ground to stand in front of me. I crossed my arms and turned my head to look away defiantly.

"Hey, Roxy, do you think you could wait outside?" Axel asked, turning his head slightly, but his eyes not moving from mine. Roxas grunted in reply then left he bathroom. "Now, tell me Angel what's wrong?" One of his hands went to cup my cheek while the other held out the notebook that had teeth marks on the side. I slapped away his hand, glaring at him, staring straight into his eyes. His eyes turned from worry, to a look of hurt and confusion. He kept holding the journal out for me to grab, but he didn't make any motion to lay his hand on my cheek.

I took the notebook from him and opened to a random page, quickly writing down whatever I wanted, not caring how messy the writing was. 'Why the fuck do you think is wrong?! And who the FUCK is Charlotte?!' When he read it, he laughed. I scowled even harder because of it.

"Baby, Charlotte is my car. I got her yesterday."

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I sat by my computer, again IM-ing Axel. We were simply talking about nothing, sometimes not saying anything at all. We had our cams hooked up and on, being able to see each other. I was still fully dressed, in the clothes I wore to school. Axel was in his boxers, having undressed in front of me, saying it was hot or something along the lines of that. 'Hot is right.' I had typed, not being able to stop the panting that fell from my lips as he undressed, revealing his toned, orgasmic chest and sexy boxers with sexy flames.

Got-It-Memorized: hey, babe. my parnts r home. i gtg.

SilentxxScreamer: Okay, no problem. Will you IM or text me when you can?

I saw him nod in the little screen at the bottom of my monitor. I smiled back at him and blew him a kiss. He did the same before looking at his door worriedly and typing a quick, 'I love you, ttyl.' I didn't even have time to reply as he shut off the cam and logged out of chat. I silently said, 'I love you, too' and did the same as he did previously, just more slowly and less sure.

I walked downstairs, passing my brother's empty room on the way. I looked into it quickly, noticing the large mess that he had made with clothes. They were strewn across his whole room, with his closet door open and nothing hanging in there. I raised my eyebrows in confusion and continued my way down the stairs. When I got downstairs I heard my mother shrieking in that high voice that could make anyone cringe in distastefulness. Curiosity getting the best of me, I let my feet carry me to the kitchen, to where I heard the shriek, instead of the living room to watch TV.

I walked into the kitchen, I saw my mother jumping happily with a reluctant Roxas. I walked over to them and got in their view, waving my arms dramatically to get their attention. They stopped jumping and looked at me, Roxas holding down my arms. I raised my eyebrows in question to Roxas' outfit. He was wearing a really tight band tee, of a band that I didn't really like, his pants were a little on the girly-side and had cuts along the thighs, his shoes were black Converses (not that I could tell the difference) and his hair was in its usual sweep to the side.

I turned to grab one of the many notebooks that littered the house and wrote on it, 'Are you a transvestite???' Roxas laughed and shook his head. "No, I have a date…with someone." I raised my eyebrows and pursed my lips together. 'Who? What's her name?' "Uh, heh heh. Well, about that…" He laughed again, but this time it was fake, while he rubbed the back of his neck. Ohmygee!'It's a boy?!' "Yeah, you don't care do you?" 'What am I, a hypocrite?' "Well, I didn't know. And you don't know him…" He said in answer to the question I wrote down earlier. "His name is Hayner." 'Wait, isn't he the hot senior that everyone talks about?'

The doorbell rang, and everyone paused in their step and sentence. I looked at my mom and she nodded, understanding what I was wanting to do. She held his arms and let me run to the door to open it. I opened it and stared in awe at the guy who was going to date my brother. "Hey, is Roxas ready?" I nodded and let him step into our house, giving him my best mean look while I looked over him, "Uhm…your, Sora right? Roxas' brother?" I nodded, if he knew my name, then he must know that I'm a mute, all of Roxas' friends know. "Hey, I'm Hayner." I waved reluctantly as he turned out to be really nice. I guess I can't complain.

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I got a new friend. Hayner promised to hang out with us at lunch, and hangout with us out of school too, right before they left for their date. I jumped excitedly and hugged him, he whispered in my ear, "Friends?" I nodded and let go when I heard Roxas clear his throat behind us. I turned and blushed, walking to his side.

When they left, I made sure Roxas saw the word that passed my inaudible lips. 'Details.' He nodded once, then left to Hayner car, which was really nice. It was black. I liked it.

I shut the door and smiled at my mom, giving her the thumbs up in how I liked Roxas' boyfriend. She smiled and headed back to the kitchen, to what I'm assuming, to continue dinner for us. I sighed heavily before trudging up the stairs. I thought back on Axel's and my conversation, the end mainly. He seemed really scared, but he would call if there was something wrong, right? I shook my head and heard my phone going off, playing Axel's song. That either meant, he was calling or I got a text. I skipped the last two stairs, almost falling, and into my room, grabbing my phone.

The screen blinked as a voicemail came in. The third one, and a text was sent, the sixth one. I read all the texts, all saying 'I need u.' I tilted my head in confusion, usually if Axel was horny, he'd tell me once and wait for me to reply, also there would be a smiley face winking at me. I got onto the computer to see if he was on, and indeed he was. I sent him a message, hoping he wouldn't be mad. I mean, I didn't mean to leave my phone upstairs.

SilentxxScreamer: Hey, baby. What's wrong???

Got-It-Memorized: my stupid fucking parnts are fightin.

SilentxxScreamer: do you want to come over here for the night?

It was a while before he replied, but in the meantime I distracted myself with straightening up my desk. The papers ended up in a neat little pile, my CD's were back in there cases and in alphabetical order, and my homework was put into my bag that lay against the desk.

Got-It-Memorized: i cant. srry.

SilentxxScreamer: Ax, what's up? Is there something wrong?

Got-It-Memorized: nthin. im fine.

SilentxxScreamer: Fine, but…okay. Text me, I have to shut down, my computer's getting slow.

Got-It-Memorized: cant, my fone died

SilentxxScreamer: okay. Is there anything I can do.

Got-It-Memorized: yeah, theres 1 thng

SilentxxScreamer: We're not having cybersex this late, I have school.

Got-It-Memorized: lol, thats not wat i was gonna say. i was gonna say, maybe u can come over hre 2nite.

My hands hovered over the keyboard in hesitation. What was I supposed to say to that? He wanted me to come over…to his house? But, he's never wanted that. Maybe he trusts me now, not that he didn't before, maybe he trusts me more now. Not that that was possible.

SilentxxScreamer: I have to ask my mom. brb

I turned my chair to the side, and hopped out of it. I ran out of my room and down the stairs for the second time that night. I went into the kitchen to see my mom about to put the food on the table. "Hey, Sora, you're just in time. Dinner's ready." I sighed and then realized I promised my mom I would eat with her. She noticed my sigh and stopped setting the table. "Is there something up? Is it Axel?" She asked panicky, feeling for him as though he were one of her sons. I nodded slowly, looking around for my notebook, so I could ask her the question that Axel wanted me to ask. When I turned back to her she was holding out a red pen and the black notebook, my only means for communication. 'He wants me to spend the night…tonight.'

"Are you guys going to have sex?" I widened my eyes in shock. 'How could you insinuate something like that?' "I was just kidding. Now, go ahead. But, take all your stuff for tomorrow, and some food for both of you." Damn, my mom was so understanding. I smiled and huge hug before trailing back up the stairs, skipping two at a time. I went to my computer, hoping that Axel waited for me.

SilentxxScreamer: She said yes!

Got-It-Memorized: cool. ill b over in 10

SilentxxScreamer: kk. See you when you gethere. I love you.

Got-It-Memorized: i love u too. see ya.

He logged off after that, leaving me to pack. I took another bag from my closet, and started to shove clothes in it, making sure to pack the essentials that I would need to get ready for school with. I had my back with clothes and other things in it, and my backpack, all ready and set myself by the door waiting for Axel. I already had a couple plates wrapped in that clear wrap stuff, and I already said by to mom, who was in the living room watching some soap that she had recorded earlier. There was a honk outside, mom must have heard it, "Bye, baby, and tell Ax to come in next time." I banged on the wall to signal that I had heard her and then left the house, locking the door as I did.

I saw Axel sitting in Charlotte, looking straight ahead at nothing. I approached the car and heard him unlock the doors, opening the passenger side; I climbed in, tossing my bag to the back. Just as I did, I heard a slight shriek from back there. I jumped and turned around to see a little girl with red hair that wasn't nearly as bright as Axel's but looked just as soft. Then I looked over to Axel for an explanation. He didn't give me one; instead he started the car back up. I sighed, trying to get Axel to hear over the loud music.

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We had to climb through his window, for his parents didn't know he left. I still didn't know why he had brought the girl, who I'm assuming is his little sister, with him. His parents couldn't have been fighting that badly, right? When we successfully climbed through the widow, I heard the yelling from downstairs, and the occasional bang from something being thrown around. I sat my stuff by his bed, and waited patiently as Axel helped his sister through the window.

"Now, Kairi, 'member what I told you about Sora?" She nodded and then padded over to me in bunny slippers. I couldn't help but smile down at her, crouching down so I was looking her in the eye.

"Hi, Sor-Sor, I'm Kairi!" She said happily, but with a hint of sadness in her voice as she heard her parents yelling increase in sound. I smiled down at her, waving in 'hello' to the small girl. "You can't talk, you a moot. It's okay though, Axel told me not to tell anyone, so your secret's safe with me." She whispered, putting a finger over her mouth, in a way that meant she wouldn't tell anyone.

"Okay, now Kairi, let's get you to bed." Axel said, scooping the small girl up in his arms, taking her out the door, being careful to open the door as quietly as possible. I followed just as silently, watching him tuck Kairi into bed and kiss her goodnight. He turned on a nightlight then shut the door when he exited the room. Axel grabbed my hand and hurriedly dragged me back to his room. On our way in he shut the door, locked it, and shut off the light. I let him lead me to his bed, not knowing where anything was. "Sora…" I heard him whisper before pushing me down on the bed. His hands started to remove my clothes while his lips claimed mine as his own. I didn't have time to protest as his hands roamed my body, kinda roughly.

I pushed on Axel's still clothes chest and made us sit up. "Sora…please, I need this. I need something." Tears started to pour from his eyes. I started to freak then, why in hell was he crying, my boyfriend never cried, Axel never ever cried, why this time. I didn't have time to question as my lips were against his in a matter of moments. His body pressed against mine, his taking over my weak frame. "Please…help me…" I nodded deafly, feeling that feeling I get when I don't want something to happen, but it does anyway.

For some reason, I didn't want to do it with Axel. I mean, I knew he needed it, but I just couldn't give it to him. It didn't feel right, but on the other hand, I couldn't deny him. Like I said, he needed me, and when does he ever ask for anything from me. He doesn't, he's always so selfless when it comes to me. And now, this time, I have to be selfless. I have to give him what he wants. No matter how much I don't…

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I was inside of him, stretching his tightness once again. The warmth that it gave off was enough to make me forget all my doubts and sadness and let me pound into my lover. This wasn't sex or making love, this was fucking. There was no feeling put into this. It wasn't even a one-sided thing. Neither of us said a word as we both came, keeping quiet. I pulled out of him as soon as I could, laying next to him, my back to him. I couldn't look at him, not after that. Our first time was full of love and now our second, was something completely different. Nothing was said between us, no words of love, and no murmurs of comfort were passed between us.

I felt his arm wrap around me as I started to cry. "I'm sorry, I'm so sorry. Please forgive me. I didn't…I…Please, Angel, don't cry." I couldn't help it, with his apologies added to the equation, I couldn't help but cry more. "I'm sorry. I'll take you home." I turned and shook my head. I didn't want to go home, I just…I don't know what I wanted, but I know I didn't want to go home. "You want to stay?" I nodded and curled myself into him, feeling the heat from his body travel to mine. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to do any of that. I just…" I pressed my finger to his lips to shush him. He quieted, smiled weakly at me. "One more thing, though." He mumbled against my lips. I nodded, giving him permission to speak as my finger left his lips. "I still love you, do you love me?" I nodded fervently.