Title: Don't worry, Got it Memorized?
Author: Izzy-Lawliet (Rin)
Disclaimer: Let's go over this slowly so you can understand what I'm saying. I do not own this. If I did, do you seriously think that I would be typing a poorly written story like this?
Pairings: Axel/Sora
Rating: M
Warnings: AU, yaoi and whatever comes along with it.

Summary: They met online, met in person, and became friends, what's stopping them from becoming more?

Author's Note: I didn't think this would become an actual story. But it's all thanks to Starry-Nights88 for giving me ideas and helping and beta-ing and all. She's a god! And, hey people I'm looking to be a beta, I'm bored and I need something else to do besides writing and reading. So anyone want one? Warning in this chapter, I won't say what, but just that there's a warning.

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"Axel, get your fucking ass up for school!" I heard someone yell on the opposite side of the door. I nudged Axel to get him up and looked at the alarm clock that sat on the in table next to his bed. He didn't move, he didn't even grunt like he usually does when I try to wake him. I turned around to get a good look at him. When I did finally look at him I couldn't help but feel even worse about last night. Axel's face was red and his cheeks were tear-stained. I cant't believe that last night actually happened; that we actually fucked…I mentally cursed Axel's parents to hell. If it wasn't for them then we wouldn't of had sex like that, we would've made love like every other couple who was in love…damn them!

"Axel! I said – what the fuck?!" Then his dad walked in, his hair just as spiky and red as Axel's but looking like it was spiked my gel, when Axel's was all natural. "You fucker!" I gaped at the man who had barged in; his yelling caused Axel to wake up, holding me behind his body, in an attempt to hide me.

"Dad!" Axel didn't move from his spot as his dad stomped over to us, and ended up slapping my boyfriend across the face. I gasped and held onto his arm, afraid for him. "Please…let me explain…"

"No, you fag! Wait till your mother hears about this!" I take it that Axel was scared, because I saw him flinch at the tone of his father's voice. "You stupid queer!" I flinched when he was hit again, slightly backing away, afraid that I'd be the next target. After a third hit, his father left the room, mumbling something about, 'wait till your mother hears about this' and 'you and your stupid fag.'

When I looked over to Axel, his eyes were very close to crying. I just couldn't look at him; it was too heartbreaking to see. I turned my head for only a moment, knowing that he would need me any second. And he did… Axel's parents eventually gave him a choice. Either he broke it off with me, and never sees me again, or he moves out. Guess which on he chose? Me. I smiled inwardly when he told them, but then flinched when he was slapped again. We were in the middle of getting dressed; sharing brief kisses between each other while he packed up a couple bags. I saw the door handle move slightly, before opening to reveal Kairi, the little girl who looked like her brother. "Axey!" Axel stopped packing and lifted his sister in his arms when she ran to him, arms open. "Mommy said you have to leave! Is that true?" He nodded solemnly; I could see the hurt in his eyes as he told his little sister this. "Take me with you?" He shook his head this time, causing her to cry even more.

Her sobbing brought on the attention of her parents, causing them to come in and physically rip her from Axel's arms. No matter how much Axel and Kairi yelled, their parents wouldn't let them be near each other. I guess I could kinda feel for him. I bet I'd feel that way if that happened between Roxas and me. I stood up and walked over to Axel, and even though his parents were still in the room, I pressed my lips to his, just trying to get him to calm down. I heard his parents yell even more and someone pull me away from my lover. When I was shoved on the floor, it took me a few seconds to comprehend what was going on.

I saw lights before my eyes and a small light in front of my eyes. When my eyesight went back to normal, I saw Axel's dad take a swing at him, causing me to flinch. But what surprised me the most was Axel took it. He didn't move, he didn't say anything, he just stood there. And just when his dad thought he had won, Axel shoved him up against the wall, held his shirt collar, and lifted his fist as though he was going to punch him. But he didn't. "Don't ever fucking touch him again!" Axel growled through his. When he let go of his dad's shirt, he then came over to me with soft eyes and a gentle smile on his face, and kissing my cheek, he helped me stand. I fell into his arms, and when his parents left, his hands went down to caress my butt. I lurched forward, not expecting the touch. He laughed at me causing me to pout in turn.

"Come on, we need to get you to school." I nodded and let Axel finish packing. When he was done, he looked over his room, looking at everything that meant something to him. He packed only a couple bags, leaving the large, unnecessary things. I pulled on his hand slightly, trying to coax him into coming with me. When he looked over to me with unshed tears, I couldn't help but pull him into a hug. His head rest on my shoulder, his face turned into my neck. I felt his tears fall onto my neck, making it itch at the wetness of the contact. I held him in my arms, knowing that this was one of few moments that this would happen, and I wanted to take full well advantage of it. I ran my hand up and down his back in a comforting manner. Axel sighed against my neck, kissing it once before pulling away. "I'm sorry; I didn't mean to cry all over you."

I shook my head, desperately trying to get it through to him that I didn't mind and he could cry all over me anytime he wanted. "What is it baby?" I sighed and huffed, crossing my arms over my chest. I shook my head again, this time slowly. "Okay," He sniffed. "Let's get going." I nodded and took his hand firmly in mine, causing him to smile down at me.

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Axel dropped me off at school, leaving me with a goodbye kiss and a warning that he wouldn't visit me during lunch today. I nodded, already knowing that he wasn't going to school at all. When he left, I sighed sorrowfully. I couldn't help it, Axel just seemed so…depressed. It wasn't that I didn't know why, I knew perfectly why, it just…I couldn't stand to see him like this. I was forced to think about other things when arms were wrapped around my waist and then my eyes were covered by a pair of hands. I didn't even have time to make a move as I was pulled into the school and what I'm expecting is the same bathroom that I was in a couple days ago. I heard the faint click of the door, and then the sounds of some laughter. I felt my back hit a wall and my eyes were then uncovered.

I was in the bathroom, alone, with a bunch of guys, seniors that picked on me constantly. I didn't really know any of them, not even by name; I just knew some of them hung out with…Hayner, my brother's date from last night and my so-called friend. "Well, lookie here? What've you got today?" the guy that was bothering me last time, said. "Aren't you gonna say something?" I didn't answer, not because I couldn't, but because I didn't want to. "Well that's a shame." He raised his hand, and then brought it down across my cheek. I flinched and then started struggling, but found that impossible with this guy's body flush against mine. "Now, are you gonna say something or not!?" I shook my head again, and crouched forward as much as I could when he lifted his knee into my stomach.

He backed up and another guy came forward. He was bigger and, from what I heard, was the most vicious. His fist grabbed my hair, tugging on it to the point I reached up to try and pry it from my head. He laughed at my attempt and just pulled tighter. I flinched again and tried to scream when he threw me against the tiled wall. I couldn't move, all the air was knocked out of me. Two guys came up to me, each holding one of my arms up. They dragged me to the main leader guy and let him punch me. He hit me once in the stomach, once in the chest, and then in the face. The last punch caused my nose to bleed; I knew it because I could feel the blood trail down my face. He laid his hands on my shoulders, smiled viciously, and then kneed me in a very sensitive place. I couldn't help but double over. He kept his knee up in the air, causing my face to hit it. I heard a small crack on my nose, and tears started to shed from my eyes. God…what will they do next? I mentally prepared myself for another hit. But it never came. I opened my eyes and carefully looked up.

When I looked up, I saw the leader guy pressed up against the sink, bracing himself with his hands as someone was towering over him. I knew automatically who it was by the large red spikes that adorned the person's head. His fist was raised and his breath was uneven as though he was seriously pissed off.

I ran to my savior's side and tugged on the arm that was raised, trying to keep him from getting in a fight, I knew that Axel could take care of himself, especially in a fight, but I didn't know if he could keep from getting hurt. He looked over to me with an evil glint in his eye, causing me to back up slightly in fear. When he saw it was me, his eyes took on a more gentle tone like they had earlier and his let go of the senior. He took my hand, kissed my bloody nose tenderly and led me out of the bathroom.

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I leaned against his firm frame, wrapping my arms around his torso. "Lucky you left your book in Charlotte, right? Are you gonna be okay now?" I nodded and gripped Axel tighter, willing him to stay. "Okay, well don't leave your brother's side. You got that?" I nodded again, holding him even tighter. "I'll pick you up from school, and I'll take you somewhere nice." I shook my head that time. "Why not?" I took out my phone and started typing like mad. 'You dont have to do something like that. I just want to spend time with u. "Okay, I'll pick you up, and then we'll head over to your house." I nodded once more and Axel turned to walk away. I pulled on his arm to turn him back around, and pressed my lips to his, engaging him in a passionate kiss. He kissed back gently, careful not to touch my sensitive nose, which fortunately wasn't broken.

Just as Axel walked back to his sexy red sports car, my twin came up with his boyfriend following behind, holding his hand. "Who was it Sora?! I'll kill them!" Roxas all but shouted. Hayner, fortunately, calmed him down. They then started a quiet heated discussion, voices staying at a whisper. Since they were at a little distance, I didn't catch anything, but at the end of the conversation they hugged and gave each other a light peck on the cheek.

"Now, Sora, who was it?" Hayner asked me in a soft, inquiring voice. I shrugged and mouthed 'seniors'. Hayner nodded then walked away. He walked past Roxas, held his hand at arms length until neither could reach any further. I shook my head at their cheesiness and prayed to god that Axel and I didn't look like that.

"And if you're wondering, you and Axel look worse." I pouted at Roxas' comment. "But, are you okay? Where does it hurt?" He asked. I pointed to my nose, which was a dead give-away. I pointed to my stomach and then my head. "Okay, come on, we need to get you cleaned up." Nodding, I followed Roxas to the now empty bathroom, avoiding all teachers. He grabbed a few paper towels, got them wet, and dabbed it along my face, wiping off the quick drying blood. I flinched a couple times, not being able to help the grimaces of pain. He always apologized after the fact though.

Hayner walked in a few minutes later, cracking his knuckles. He had this hard, stern expression on his face, looking as if he was seriously pissed, but accomplished. "I took care of it for you, Sor." I smiled at the fact he called me by a nickname and nodded my head in a type of thanks. "Now, the bell's about to ring, I'll walk you both to class." Roxas threw the last of the bloody paper towels in the trash before taking his hand in mine, and the other in Hayner's.

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I waited outside the school, by the pick up spot. Axel said he'd be here, right here. I adjusted my backpack slightly; the shoulder strap was digging into my shoulder. I shifted my feet, flipping open my phone, checking for any messages, then closed it when there was nothing. I looked down the street, both ways appearing empty of any red sports cars. I sighed and blinked back unshed tears. I couldn't believe this, Axel stood me up. He's never stood me up before. So there had to be something wrong, right?

I opened my phone and opened a text, sending it to my brother. Hey, roxy…can you come pick me up??? It was only moments before he had replied back. Yeah, wher r u? I felt a tear cascade down my face, at skool… He replied saying he'd be right there with Hayner. That's great! I not only had to deal with Roxas, but now his overly-nice boyfriend – not that I'm complaining.

Hayner's black Ferrari sped down the street. When it pulled to a stop in front of me, my brother was already stepping out, gathering me in his arms. I collapsed exactly when his arms wrapped around me. Hayner slowly stepped out of car – from what I could tell – and walked over to rub soothing circles on my back. I really appreciated the help they both were supplying me with, but I just wanted to go home, maybe Axel would be there. And then just the thought that he had lied to me sunk in, caused me to cry even harder. "Hey, hey, hey, Sor-Sor, what happened? Did Axel stand you up?" He asked without moving me from his arms. I nodded, and caused his embrace to tighten. "Come on, let's get you home. Hayner?"

Next thing I know, Roxas and Hayner are getting in the car, leaving me outside. "Come on, this is only a two-seater so you have to sit on your brother's lap." Hayner said, leaning over so he could talk to me. I nodded and climbed in, trying to find a spot comfortable enough to sit,

"Shit! That. Was. Not. Pleasant." Roxas groaned out in pain. I bit my lip and mouthed sorry, which he just waved off. "It's okay, just sit between my legs and don't, I repeat, don't move." I nodded and sat as he told me to. I leaned my head against Roxas' shoulder and closed my eyes, wanting to sleep all of a sudden. "Hey, Hayner?"

"Yeah?"

"Sorry about our date. It's just I couldn't leave him." My brother whispered, seeing as my ear was right by his face.

"Don't worry about it. I like your brother, so I don't mind helping him when he needs it."

"Thank you. And remind me to kiss you when we get to my house." I could hear the smirk in my brother's voice.

"That's all I get?!" Hayner mocked yelled. "After everything I did for you and Sora!" I heard his hand hit his chest. "I'm appalled."

"Oh shut up and drive." Roxas laughed. I'm happy for him, he's actually happy, with another guy. I mean, I kind of always knew it would be a guy, he never dated anyone, but maybe that was because he was with me twenty-four seven. But anyways, I like Hayner, and I approve of him, plus, he's nice.

I felt the car stop and shut off, signaling that we were home. "Wait." I heard Hayner say before a seatbelt unbuckle and a shift in weight. Then I heard something I never thought I would hear so close to me. They were kissing, slobber going every, teeth clashing together, it was gross. I opened my eyes and sat back, reaching to open the door. And as I did, they didn't even notice it. I huffed and walked to the door, opening it with my keys. I shut the door behind me and set my stuff down by the door.

"Hey, Roxas! Is that you?" I heard mom call from the kitchen, her usual spot at this time. I walked to her and when she turned she asked, "Where's your brother?" I made a kissing motion with my hands, causing her to laugh. "Hey, Axel called, he said he's sorry he wasn't there to pick you up, but something came up." I nodded slowly, trying to comprehend what she told me. If Axel was busy, then why didn't he just tell me? I wasn't really able to think on it much as Roxas came in.

"Sor!" I walked to where he was and smiled knowingly, but with a hint of disgust. "Oh, uhm, yeah. Sorry about that, but it wasn't my fault," I raised my eyebrows expectantly. "Okay, it was partly my fault…" I smiled and shrugged, meaning that I didn't particularly care that they kissed, but as long as they didn't do it when I was right there. "We won't do that again, kay?" I nodded and smiled big, looking behind him for Hayner. "He said he had to call someone." I nodded suspiciously before turning and heading up my room, ready to text Axel.

When I got up to my room, I took out my cell and started a text message. I didn't say anything in particular, only that I was mad at him, and that he better text back soon or I would be very pissed. Guess what he said…nothing, he didn't reply for hours, not even when I went to bed.

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One week. I stopped emailing him.

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Two weeks. I stopped texting.

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A month. I stopped crying.

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And now I was on the brink of two months. I had had enough. I was done with him, he left me, he fucking left me, without an explanation! And now I guess it's time for me to move on. I don't really want to though. I thought Axel was the one for me, no matter how girly that sounds, I thought he was. We were together for only two and some months, but it seemed like years.

My brother and Hayner were on their one month anniversary, and then they were going to head over to Hayner's place to 'hang out'. It was so obvious that they were going to do it. And again, when they left I told Roxas I wanted details. Lots of them.

Since they left, I've been in my room, putting together this 650 piece puzzle for the third time. See how bored I was? I was half way done already when I got a text. I didn't get excited like I did the first week, especially since I knew it wouldn't be who I hoped it would. Like I said, it wasn't him; it was another guy, one that I mean the first week. His name's Riku. He's really nice, straightforward, but nice. He has this silver-ish hair, and this beautiful blue eyes, they're not as blue as mine, but not any less bright.

Hey, are u busy? I looked at my puzzle for only a moment, before replying to his message, not really. Y? I went back to my puzzle for only a minute before he text back. Cuz im outside and im bored. I jumped up when I heard a honk then went to my window to see that he was outside in his silver Porsche. God! People had nice cars these days. I text him quickly before running to my closet in something to change. I picked out a tight band tee; some faded tight jeans and just some of my favorite shoes. No, I wasn't dressing up; I was just…changing out of my school clothes. Yeah, that's right. I ran downstairs, not bothering saying good-bye to my napping mother, just deciding to text her later.

I ran outside and opened Riku's car door. I hopped in and just as I closed the door, he took off. I'm not sure where he was headed, but I really didn't care, I just kind of wanted to hang out with someone, anyone, to distract me. My mind was still on Axel, thinking of him, remembering him, wanting him…so hanging with Riku was enough. "Have you gotten anything from Axel?" Yes, he knew about Axel, I told him everything, and he completely agrees with me, I should get over him, I don't know why he agrees with me, but I'm glad someone does. In answer to his question, I shook my head. "That's too bad. But, I guess you'll have to deal with me." He laughed. I smiled a little.

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Riku took me to a secluded area. I'm not sure how to explain it, and I definitely didn't know where we were. We stepped outside the car and walked around to the front hood, sitting on the top. Riku was like this close to me. I wasn't really complaining though, it was cold outside, and it was nice having a warm body close enough to feel. It wasn't as nice as having Axel next to me, but it was good enough. I felt his hand touch mine and pull it into his.

"Sora, you know I like you, right?" I nodded slowly, not knowing where he was going with this. "And you like me, right?" I thought about it. I guess I didn't kind of like him. It wasn't like I was in love with him, like Axel, but I guess I could admit that I had some feelings for Riku. I nodded once more. "Good." I looked over him to question his words, but instead he kissed me. I tried to push him off, but my attempt was futile – yes, futile – as I fell into the kiss, actually enjoying it. The only reason that I was enjoying it was because – or I told myself – was because it was a rare feeling, a rare completeness.

Riku pulled away from the kiss and smirked at me before pushing me back on the small hood, lying somewhat on top of me. His lips went back to mine, and his hands started to work on my pants. And I know I went fast with Axel, but this is different, I was not going to be easy. I started to wiggle, trying to get away from his prying hands. Instead one came up and held mine in a vise grip. That caused me to struggle even more. I wanted to get away, I didn't want this, but I guess that didn't matter to him, for he opened up my pants and snaked his hand down them, and inside my boxers. His mouth traveled to my neck, biting furiously as I felt his hand touch me in unwanted places. I wanted to scream so badly, I wish I could, I wished I could scream for Axel, my savior to help me. But, of course I couldn't, and like usual that caused me to cry. Riku removed my pants easily, along with my boxers, once those were gone, I stopped struggling. There was no reason to, it was all over, and he had what he wanted.

Riku didn't bother with my shirt as he pulled down his pants far enough to where his thing stuck out. He wasn't even hard, but he soon fixed that by jerking himself off. I cringed in disgust as I laid there, not even attempting to get away since he let me go. When he was 'hard enough' he climbed back on me, spreading my legs to lay in between them. I started shaking in fear as I felt him near my entrance. I wasn't even stretched, he could tear me! But, I guess he didn't care as he slowly started to press into me. I could feel myself stretch and clench around him. I shut my eyes in pain, tightening my hands in fists, wanting to grasp something, anything. He pressed in further muttering something about 'tight' and 'virgin' and I just wanted to scream. I didn't want him to take my virginity, I wanted Axel to!

That gave me a new reason to fight. I started to hit his chest, move around as much as possible, but with every hit I did to him, he would dig his nails, that were on my hips, further into my skin, and I'm pretty sure he already broke the skin. I stopped struggling after a while and sat there as he slowly pulled out then back into me, once, twice and three times. I started to prey that something would save me.

'I'm everything you know
You wonder friend of foe
I'm the burning in your throat when you swallow
But you spit me out
Your stomach full of doubt
And still you're faking every word out of your mouth
But you won't let go
It's all about control
Understand I'm born to lead you will follow
I don't wanna stay
I'm running away
Don't you hear me when i say'

His phone started to ring. He looked over to his pants, then back to me, crying and breathing erratically. "You're lucky." And with that he quickly pulled out of me and answered his cell on the last ring. "Hello?...Hi, Roxas…Yeah I have your brother…Him and I are…oh…well then I'll get him home right away…okay…bye." And he hung up the phone. He walked back over to me and climbed on top of me again. And this time, instead of going slowly, he thrust back into me, causing something to tear. I could feel blood trailing down my legs, grossing me out completely. "Well, guess what?" He asked, thrusting harder and harder with each word he said. "Guess who's home?" He punctuated each word with a hard thrust. I thought about the question…'Axel?' "Yep, lucky I got to you tonight, huh? Isn't that right, Angel." I shivered in disgust as he mocked Axel's voice perfectly.

A couple minutes later and his thrusts continued to drive into me. His phone started to ring again. He didn't answer this time, he must have been close. His moans were getting louder, his breathing was labored, and his eyes were tightly shut, much like mine, but in pleasure. He pulled out once he came. Not giving himself time to really enjoy it, much to my pleasure. He picked me up gently, laid me on the floor, propped up against a tree, threw my clothes at me, and then started to wipe off his car that was stained with blood after he put himself away. Once he was satisfied, he called someone.

"Tell sweet Axel to get his Angel. He's at the usual spot. I know he knows where that is." And he shut the phone. He walked over to me, bent down and pressed a soft, gentle kiss to my lips. I cried when he did, not believing that it had actually happened. I had been raped. By Riku. By someone I had trusted, and actually liked. It made me sick…