Title: I'm back, Got it Memorized?
Author: Izzy-Lawliet (Rin)
Disclaimer: Let's go over this slowly so you can understand what I'm saying. I do not own this. If I did, do you seriously think that I would be typing a poorly written story like this?
Pairings: Axel/Sora
Rating: M
Warnings: AU, yaoi and whatever comes along with it.

Summary: They met online, met in person, and became friends, what's stopping them from becoming more?

Author's Note: BLAH! Comments PLEASE!

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I sat curled up into a ball, crying non stop. I couldn't help it. I just…I don't know. It was just too much to handle. With everything that's happened; Axel leaving, Riku coming into my life and then him doing this…I just…can't handle it. It's…Oh fuck it! I don't care anymore! I just want Axel…

And maybe God answered my prayers, because headlights appeared and shined on me. I covered my eyes by weakly lifting one of my tired arms. I squinted to see someone get out of the car and run to me. I looked with hope, still praying that it was Axel. Instead the guy had less spiky hair and was too small to be Axel. I sighed and started to cry more. "Sora?!" Roxas bent down reaching his hand out. I didn't mean to, but I flinched at the contact. "Sora…what happened?" Before I could even mouth something, I heard a voice, a voice that I have been dying to hear for two months.

"Sora!? Roxas move!" And my brother did as he was told, revealing my tall boyfriend. I flung myself into his arms, happy to feel him catch me. "Roxy, go get a blanket from the car." He nodded and then left to retrieve the item. "Sora, Angel, you're okay now, don't worry. I got you. I won't leave again. I promise." I nodded into his chest.

"Here," Roxas said, not looking at me. Axel took the blanket from him and then wrapped it around me, making sure to cover me completely. He then picked me up, bridal style, and carried me to his sports car…or Hayner's car. I looked up for an explanation but all Axel did was shake his head solemnly... What happened to her?

I was in Axel's lap this time, Roxas driving very carefully down the road, seeing since he didn't have his license yet. "God, Roxas. Drive any slower will ya? The speed limits sixty through here." Axel said, telling him to hurry up as politely as possible.

"Well, sorry I don't want to get in an accident." Roxas defended, but pressing on the gas a tiny bit, seeing as too much would thrust us forward big time.

"Dude! There's no one out here, you dolt!" Axel said, but smiled when Roxas then hit sixty-three. He looked over to me and whispered in my ear. "Did you miss me?" I nodded. "Are you mad at me?" I nodded furiously. "But, do you still love me?" I nodded again, with a small pathetic smile on my face. "Good, because I still love you." He smiled one of his trademark loving smiles that meant so much to me. I'm glad he found me, I don't know what I would do if he hadn't come back. "Hey, Sor-Sor…" He continued to whisper in my ear, "Can I kiss you?" My eyes widened in surprise. What was I supposed to say? I wanted to kiss him so bad; I've wanted to kiss him for almost two months now, but not when I was like this, not when I was filthy and when my mouth still had Riku's kisses. But, if I said no now, then wouldn't he think that I didn't want it, and then he'd never ask me again…so I said…yes…

Axel smiled and slowly leant towards me, gently pressing his lips against mine. It was a simple kiss, no tongue, just the moving of our lips. It was nice, but it was too nice, especially since what had happened and how I felt. So, I started crying, again. That caused Axel to pull back immediately and apologize up a storm. He wiped away my tears with his thumb, and then brought it to his lips to kiss. I smiled through my tears. He smiled back.

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When we got home, Axel took me straight upstairs, not leaving any room for Mom or Hayner to ask questions. Roxas didn't even know what happened. Only Axel, but I'm not sure how he knew, but he did. He locked us inside my bathroom, sitting me on the toilet. He turned on the shower and then started to undress me. I didn't care. Once my shirt was off and the blanket wasn't covering me anymore, his eyes trailed over my body in pity. I looked away and blinked back my tears. "Hey, Angel, it's okay." I shivered when he called me Angel. "Hey, baby, what's wrong?" I shook my head and carefully stood up, leaning on Axel for support. He helped me in the shower. I had to lean on the wall, I'd fall otherwise. "Do you want some help?" I nodded slowly, not really wanting help, but appreciating it either way. "Okay, I'm gonna have to get in with you." I nodded once more. He shut the curtain so the water wouldn't spray out and – what I'm assuming – started to undress.

He stepped into the shower with me, and once he did he pulled me to him. The sudden action caused me to react in an irrational way. I started to hit Axel. And with every hit that I did, he only pulled me tighter against him, not caring that I did. He backed us up into the water after I got over my panic attack. The water was warm, on the verge of hot, just like I liked it. The water washed away everything, my doubts, fears, everything. I didn't really feel after that. And I needed something, I'm not sure what, I'm not sure how, but I just needed to be fulfilled, to be whole again.

So once I was clean enough for my standards, I pressed my lips to his. He kissed back softly, totally contradicting the kiss I was giving. The love and passion he put into the kiss was enough to make me think about what I was actually doing. I didn't want Axel to make me feel better, it wouldn't be right. But, I did need something to help me get through this. "Hey, Sora…" I backed away from the kiss and opened my eyes. "You want sex, don't you?" I nodded, ashamed that he had caught me. "Okay." And he kissed me hard, but still managing to put some feeling into it.

Axel pushed me against the wall, his hands gently touching everywhere he could reach. It kind of made me disgusted. I mean, I was just raped, and here I was, wanting sex. But I don't think that it was sex that I wanted, it was feeling, the feeling of love that I wanted. "I love you Sora, and I promise I'll never leave you again." He whispered against my lips in between a kiss.

I turned him around, having his back to the wall. Then I was brave enough to explore his body with my hands, already knowing every dip, every curve, and every dimple. When my hands moved lower, I felt him shiver against me and moan into my mouth. I couldn't help but smile against his lips, wanting to hear him make that sound again. And I succeeded. My hand wrapped around his penis and tugged gently, not wanting to cause too much pain. Of course that was like physically impossible for Axel. "One question. Do you want me to do it this time?" He panted out. I…what did I want? I didn't want him to do me, right? That would hurt too much. So, I was going to do him…so I shook my head. "Okay. You choose how, baby. I'm all yours." He growled. I pressed him harder against the wall and kissed him with as much passion as I could muster. I heard him moan over the continuous pour of the steaming water.

"Sora…" He moaned against my mouth, surprising me. Even though we were doing this only because I wanted to, he still received pleasure out of this. And I was hoping he would receive much pleasure.

XxxxXxxxx

Axel and I walked downstairs carefully, both of us having a slight limp. Axel was able to walk it off though, making it look kind of normal, well, normal enough for him. I clung to his side, afraid to face anyone right now. I told him at least twice, that I didn't want to go downstairs, it wouldn't be fun. When we got downstairs, Roxas started yelling at Axel, pushing him into another room while Hayner and mom pulled me into another to harass me with questions. I faintly heard Roxas whisper/yell at Axel, asking for answers. "Hey, Sora," Hayner called in a very soft voice. "You were ra…uhm, raped…y'know?" I nodded and looked away, hearing my mother start to cry. "And you just took a shower…didn't you…?" I nodded, not understanding what he was getting at. "Dammit!" He yelled and drove his fist into the top of the table, then called Roxas into the room. Roxas entered the room with Axel looking down. "Roxy, he took a fucking shower!" Roxas turned to glare at Axel and then started yelling at him. For some reason it fell upon deaf ears. I couldn't concentrate; I didn't really hear what was going on. It was than that it actually sunk in.

I was raped…and now we couldn't go to the police… I had taken a shower, wiping away all proof of the encounter. But, Axel said a shower would make me feel better, would make me feel clean and not as filthy. He didn't even think…or he did and this was the outcome of his actions. Maybe he didn't want us to go the police and maybe he didn't want Riku to go to jail…wait, why am I questioning Axel again, he only wants the best for me, no doubt. Right. Right?

"I only did what would make him happy. You should have seen him! I wasn't going to let some fucking cops, or whatever, prod at him like him some fucking animal," Axel yelled at the top of his lugs, making me cringe. "I know what I did, I know what that means, but I highly doubt he wanted to go to the cops anyways. So, Roxas, Hayner, before you start yelling at me like I was the one who raped him, get your facts straight, got it memorized?!" I sighed and felt tears prick at my eyes. Although he said that whole thing in anger, he was still able to add his line into it, causing me to smile in true happiness that I haven't felt since he left.

I had to walk over to him and hug him, wrapping my arms around his neck tightly, relishing in the fact he wrapped his around my waist. Oh Axel! I sighed against his chest. "Axel, you don't know what you did. How are we supposed to get Riku arrested, if all was washed down the drain, literally!" Hayner said, he responded in a more relaxed tone than my brother would have, making it easier for Axel to calm down too.

"I'm sorry, I truly am, but I don't think you should be telling me this, Sora didn't want to go either way, and I was sure in hell not going to let you guys force him to. Now, we're leaving, we'll be back later." I looked up with questioning eyes, but with trust mixed in with it. "You trust me, right?" I nodded slowly, barely telling the truth. "Then come with me." We walked towards the front door, or limped, and then were forced to stop by Hayner and Roxas in our way, holding hands as if to strengthen their defense. "What now?" Axel growled.

"You were gone a two fucking months." Hayner growled back, now seriously pissed off. "And now you expect us to let you walk off with Sora, and might never come back!? I'd be damned to hell if I let that happen, we already lost Sora once, we had to pick up the pieces once you left, and I refuse to do the same to Roxas if he lost his one and only brother." Hayner's voice was low, and I strained to hear it. His eyes were furious, and I cowered from them. His words were dangerous, and I flinched from the viciousness of them. "So, you leave, Sora stays."

It was silent, really silent. It kind of made me like really nervous. I looked up at the same time Axel looked at me; his face was as blank as mine. I take it he didn't know what to do. He then turned to Hayner and said, also in a low, scary, and dangerous voice, "I'm taking him with me, and I'll bring him back, I promise."

This time Roxas spoke up. "That's what you promised last time, am I right? And you never did come back. You can take Sora over my dead body." God, everything was so dramatic.

"That can be arranged." I rolled my eyes at what happened next. Axel let go of me, slightly pushing me behind him and stepped towards my brother. Hayner did the same to Roxas, his eyes just as determined as Axel's.

"Stop it!" My mother shouted from the other side of the room. "This isn't about you or Hayner, guys, or even Roxas! It's up to Sora!" She walked over to me and looked into my eyes with tear-stained ones. "Sora, honey, I really don't want you to leave, let alone never come back, but if you want, go ahead and leave with Axel. Just keep in mind, that if you don't keep in touch, I'll hunt down your boyfriend and kill him myself." I nodded and smiled at her, then wrapped my arms around her. I mouthed to her when we separated, I'll come back. "Good, 'cause I don't know what I'd do if I lost my baby."

I then turned to Axel, who had calmed down during my mother's speech. I'll go. He nodded then took my hand, leading me past Hayner and Roxas, both stunned by my choice. I waved good-bye when we shut the door behind us. I automatically looked around, looking for Charlotte, Axel's sexy sports car. When I didn't see her, he pulled my hand in another direction, taking us down the sidewalk. I pursed my lips together in pain, trying desperately to think of something else. But when the pain was too much, I stopped walking, tugging on Axel's hand. He looked around at me, and questioned what was wrong. I shuffled my feet and bit my lip. He made an 'ohhh' sound then turned around, crouching slightly, and motioned for me to get on his back.

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We were in a hotel room on the other side of town. Axel carried me all the way here, on his back, and somehow didn't break a sweat. When he paid for our room, he used a credit card and asked for a king-sized, which in turn earned us a weird look from the guy at the counter. I was on his back again when he carried me to the room, and opening the door with ease, he walked over to set me on the bed, then went to shut the door. I laid on the cheap sheets that smelt of sex, and scratched the crap out of my sensitive skin. I shuffled under them, cold from the cheap heater in the room. "You must be cold, huh?" I nodded and patted the sot next to me from under the blanket. He smiled and started to strip down to his boxers.

I gazed at the sight before me, still as shocked as I was the first time I saw it. But two months had made it so everything was different and more profound. The only thing that was different was that his ribs were protruding through his skin slightly, making me almost nauseous. I held back the nausea and smiled as he climbed into bed with me. He replied with a sexy grin before roughly kissing me with raw passion. I immediately tensed, memories flooding back to me. Axel noticed this and backed away. "Angel, I'm sorry, I didn't mean to…I mean I forgot…sort of." I cringed at the word Angel, but waved away his apology. The word still haunted me. Why was it that it bothered me so much, was it because he called me that? Well either way, I didn't want him to call me that…ever again. "What is it? What's wrong?" I shook my head. I may not have wanted him to call me that, but I don't want to hurt his feelings just because of him. "If you say so…but, anyways, let's go to sleep, you had a long night."

That was easier said than done. I stared at the stupid ceiling while stupid Axel slept peacefully. It wasn't possible for me to sleep, every time I closed my eyes, I saw it over and over again. And it wasn't fun. I could still feel the dull throb in my lower regions. I could still hear his words and moans echo through my head as he fucked me. And I could still see his cruel smile when he kissed me the last time. It made me shiver and my stomach churn.

I turned on my side carefully, careful not to put myself in any more unnecessary pain. I faced Axel who was also facing me. His eyes were closed and his breathing was even, signaling that he was asleep, obviously. I reached out my hand tentatively and brushed my fingers on the side of his face. He twitched slightly in his sleep, but other than that, he didn't move. My hand cupped his cheek, rubbing my thumb along his chapped lips. I sighed heavily, accidentally blowing air on his face, causing him to turn away from me, my hand sliding off of his face. His back was now turned. I silently started to cry as I got this wave of feeling unwanted wash through me. I couldn't help it. Him turning away from me made me feel like I was nothing, but it wasn't like it was his fault, he just turned to get comfier.

The bed shook with my sobs as I tried to control them. But to no avail, the shaking caused Axel to wake up, eyes lazily opening and his voice drowned with sleep, turning over and facing me. "Hey, Angel. What are you still doing up?" I shrugged and tried to wipe away the tears inconspicuously. "Baby, what's wrong?" I shook my head, looking away from him. "Come here." He gathered me in his arms, kissing my head and whispering in my ear. "Don't cry. It's okay, I got you. I won't leave again." He continued that for a while, well up until he started snoring in my ear, like really loud. I smiled and then tried to scoot down in his arms so I wasn't right there with his loud snoring.

The crying finally wore me out, since I fell asleep right after that.

XxxxXxxxx

When I woke up, Axel was in the makeshift kitchen, making cereal. I sat up, stretched and yawned. I was in the middle of scratching my head when he turned around. He smiled and carried a bowl of cereal over, handing it to me. "Good morning, Angel." I smiled back as best as I could. I looked at the cereal and smiled wider, it was fruity pebbles! My favorite! "I went out before you woke up, and bought some stuff I thought you might need." I looked over to him and mouthed, 'thanks' and kissed him on the cheek before digging into my fruity pebbles.

"So, babe, when do you want to head home?" I shrugged while shoveling the cereal in my mouth. "It's not like I'm rushing you, I just don't want your mom hunting me down if I don't have you home before ten." He said sarcastically. I giggled silently and finished my cereal quickly, not remembering the last time I ate. "Whoa, slow down there. I knew you were hungry, but seriously." He chuckled, another thing that I had missed while he was gone. That one laugh, made butterflies flutter in my stomach and caused me to smile. "Why you smilin'?" I shrugged and sat my now empty bowl on he side table that had a phone, a pad, and a hotel pen. I picked up the last two items and started writing on them.

'Where'd you go? What'd you do? Why didn't you text me? "Okay, babe, slow down, you always right about fifty questions at once. So, let's start with the first one. 'Where'd I go?' I went to my brother's house in Midgar." 'You have a brother?' "Yes, he's older by four years. Before you ask another question, 'What'd I do?' Well, I wanted to stay with Reno, but originally I wanted to get out of town, away from everyone."

I stared up at him with a hurt expression and tried not to cry. "Oh, no, Angel, not you of course, I meant my parents." I nodded and started to wipe away the few tears that fell. "Okay, so 'Why didn't I text you?' Well, I had my phone cut off and…well; I didn't want to get your hopes up if I never came back…OW!" He yelled in reply to the hard punch I gave to his arm.

'If you never came back?!'

"Yeah…sorry, Angel." I sighed and shrugged. I guess if he did text me, I would have been anxious to him coming home, and I'd end up having to wait two months either way. "So, anymore questions before we head out?" I put my finger up to my chin, tilted my head, and feigned thinking. I really had tons more questions to ask, but I know Axel meant is there a particular question I would like to ask…yeah. 'What happened to Charlotte?'

Silence, again. He didn't look like he wanted to answer my question, but I knew that with enough prying I would be able to get it out of him. When he looked away, I took his chin in my hand, and forced him to look over at me. 'What happened?' I mouthed as best as I could. "I had to sell her…" He choked, causing me to gape. Not at the fact that he was about ready to cry, but at the fact that he had to sell his baby. Charlotte. "I had to, it was too expensive to keep her, and Reno could only help so much…" He trailed off, eyes glistening with unshed tears.

I couldn't help reaching forward to hug him, making sure to hold him tight.

A few minutes later, he backed away, wiping away his tears. "Sorry…" I shook off his apology and then stood and succeeded in completing a full body stretch.

XxxxXxxxx

I was once again on Axel's back, this time going back home. I told him that I was able to walk, but he actually refused to let me, so I let him carry me. As we were walking, he was describing the time he was away; right now he was talking about his brother.

"He looks just like me, except his hair – which is as red as mine, by the way – is pulled back into a ponytail and his tattoos on like cooler than mine, they're like red and are on the corner of his eyes. I wanted to get mine just like his, but then it'd be like I was copying him, so I got them under. I don't know what he does, but he gets a lot of money, and he loves me to death, so when I told him what happened, he told me to come live with him. So I was going to come and say bye to you, but then I thought it would be harder to leave, and I knew I needed to.

"Then when I got there, I literally broke down. I told Reno about you and he punched me, in the face. I had a bloody nose and a huge bruise on my face. But I wasn't mad." He paused and took a breath, readjusting me on his back. "I stayed with him and got a job. I was saving up…to buy something. And when I had enough for a down payment, because Reno volunteered – more like demanded – to pay half. I'm not going to tell you what I bought, but maybe in a couple weeks during Christmas I'll take you down to meet Reno…"

And he just kept on rambling, and talking, and smiling, and laughing as he recounted his times with his brother. "Then he was like, 'oh no you did't!' and then I was like 'oh yes I did!' then we like tackled each other on the floor and ended up breaking his lamp and in-table." I smiled at his enthusiasm and tightened my arms around his neck in a way to signal that I was listening. "Yeah, then when I was on my way home the other night, he was like 'When you get home, I want full details on the make-up sex between you and this Sora guy.'" I smiled wider, but then frowned when I saw my house coming into view. I really didn't want to go home; I had tons of fun spending alone time with Axel.

When we got to the door he let go of me with one hand, balancing me by my butt with one hand. It kind of hurt, but I know he didn't mean it. He reached for the doorbell and unlocked the door.

Roxas answered the door, hair all disheveled, breathing all hard, and clothes half-way off.

"Did we interrupt something?" Axel asked, and I could tell he was smirking.

"No, not at all." He panted out. "Come in." Axel stepped in and after the door was shut, set me down on my feet.

"Hey, Roxy." Hayner walked in, shirt off, and pants all the way undone, falling off his hips. I have to admit, he looks sexy as hell. If I wasn't with Axel… "Where'd you go…Oh hey Sora…" Hayner greeted, completely ignoring Axel.

"Yeah, Sora's home. Isn't that freakin' great?" Roxas asked, slipping on his tee that he had in his hand.

"Uhm…you guys. I can take Sora out for a while. And you could give us a call when you guys are done. I wouldn't mind spending some ti-" Axel was cut off hastily by Hayner and Roxas both saying: "No!"

"I mean," Roxas corrected, in a calmer, but still as tense, voice. "He can stay. Just let us pick up a little…"

"Pick up? What'd you guys do, trash the living room?" At Axel's question, Hayner and Roxas shared a kind of look that just screamed 'Kinky!'