Love & Truth
27. Too Much, Not Enough
(Sasuke's POV)
„I remember…" I heard Naruto repeat over and over, as he drenched my clothes with tears. I had him wrapped in my arms, however how to comfort him I was not sure. And so we stood like that for some time.
It was only after I raised one of my hands, petting his hair that Naruto seemed to come back to his senses.
He looked at me for a second then pulled away from me so he'd be free of my arms. Once he did so, new streams of tears came down his cheeks.
„Why?" he asked, almost inaudibly.
I only looked back at him, not being able to grasp the depth of that single word fast enough.
„WHY?" Naruto then screamed… and ran off.
Even the second that it took me to get from the shock seemed enough for Naruto to disappear from my sight.
I sighed and ran after dobe, or more like in the direction I expected him to go.
'I seriously screwed up this time.'
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'Just as I expected.'
Was what went through my head as I saw Naruto bent over the crib where our children slept peacefully. I wanted to call out to dobe, but seeing how sad he seemed I could not bring myself to do so.
„Ne-e, Yori…" I heard him whisper, as he reached his hand out to stroke the said baby's cheek. „…Why does this have to be so hard?"
„Why, indeed?" I asked, before I could stop myself. It caused Naruto to turn his gaze towards me, only to avert it once our eyes met for a split second.
„Go away…" He whispered. I could almost hear how tears started gathering in his eyes. Biting back an answer of any sort I decided to give up this time. I still wanted to keep hope that if Naruto felt so strongly about this whole thing that there was a possibility of turning back to what we were.
'I wish the time could just rewind back.'
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(Naruto's POV)
Only after seeing Sasuke-teme leave the room I let my tears run freely. I still could not get myself over the betrayal that came from the most unexpected direction.
'Are we really not meant to be together?' I thought. Thinking that was like ruining all my beliefs I had up till then.
„At least something good came out of it." I could not help but sniff to myself as I looked at our babies' faces. To me it felt like looking at them for the first time. The fact that I was not myself for the last two months, and completely out of it month before, did not help my confidence as a "mother" at all.
Just as I was musing over my messed up role, Yori woke up, screaming his need for attention to the world.
I picked the baby who I knew is going to grow up to be a spitting image of his father and took up to the task of nursing him.
As I was slowly rocking in the chair I looked down at the contentedly sucking child and had to smile sadly.
I was aware that maybe it would be better for me to just disappear into the thin air, not leaving a trace, never come back. Also was I aware just how many – 'Dozens really.' – people would welcome that.
However I also realized that whilst it would not be the only option, running would not solve a thing.
'To have two children to take care of while on the run would never end up good. Especially with how known my person is.'
The possibility of leaving Makoto and Yori behind and running away by myself I did not even consider. I would not be able to tear myself from my babies.
What however I knew as well was that I would not be able to tear myself from Sasuke also.
'Do I still mean something to Sasuke?' I asked myself bringing my left hand, where I once had a ring, within my eyesight.
'I guess no…'
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(Third Person's POV)
Sasuke felt as if he was going to get crazy.
He hoped that by getting the blonde agree to live in the Uchiha mansion they would be able to spend at least a bit more time together, but he severely underestimated the size of the whole Uchiha complex as well as Naruto's need to disappear in its insides.
For the raven it was even worse as whenever he woke up he would do so to a warm breakfast, whilst the maker seemed to be nowhere in sight.
Like that he pretty much spent the day without seeing the blonde at all.
Only once in the two weeks did Sasuke have a chance to see the blonde, to remind himself of how beautiful his dobe was to him, and that was when Naruto fell asleep in the twin's room while reading them a fairytale.
Sasuke had to smile when he found Naruto like that. It also made him miss their closeness even more so. It made him want to rebuild what they once had, even if he had to do it from the very start.
He however was not sure whether the blonde would even want that.
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As unhappy as the two were without the other, they both had doubts… they both feared the rejection which made them too stunned to do anything in the end.
They danced around each other… maybe in a hope to get to know what the other party was thinking. They closed off their minds however.
And like that days passed…
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(Naruto's POV)
I walked down the road to the Uchiha complex when an obviously happy Hinata caught my eye.
„What so-good-it-seems happened?" I asked.
„Dad finally allowed for me and Kiba-kun to marry! I'm going to get married!" The girl beamed. I could almost see hearts flying everywhere.
„That's great news…" I smiled softly, hugging the overjoyed girl. „I'm happy for you."
'At least someone's life does not suck…' I could not help but think. When I thought about it harder however I had to rephrase that. 'Just another of everyone else but me whose life does not suck.' I felt bad about not being able to share the girl's happiness fully, however in my mind state I could not really do anything about it.
„I'm glad I ran into you, actually, I wanted to invite you to a celebration that is to be held in the evening." She smiled.
„Count me in." I said, forcing a smile. It reminded me way too much of another event, of an event thanks to which my life changed drastically.
„It's strange to think that a year has passed already…" I sighed.
„What were you saying, Naruto-kun?" Hinata asked, as she was probably lost in her images of future.
„I just said that you're pretty much copying Sakura-chan and Lee." I could not help but point out.
„Ah, that's true… they announced their engagement around the same time of the year, didn't they?"
I could not look at all that happiness any longer.
„I'm sorry Hinata-chan, but I really need to go now… See you in the evening?" I asked, turning to the Hyuuga heiress.
„In the evening…" She smiled as she ran off, waving, probably to spread her happiness on more places.
I really felt down, seeing her like that.
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(Third Person's POV)
That evening a huge celebration was held. Hinata was not a Hyuuga heiress for nothing.
It went like any engagement party: the food, presents for the happy couple, drinks… For Naruto however it most of all seemed like a gathering of couples… and it saddened him greatly. The fact that Sasuke was not present, being the one who was taking care of the twins, did not help much… the blonde felt the lack of his presence even stronger.
With a mindset like that, after congratulating Hinata and Kiba, Naruto decided to drown his sorrows in drinks.
He drank a glass for every single happy couple that came into his field of view: Kiba and Hinata, Lee and a five-months-pregnant Sakura, Chouji and Ino, Kakashi and Iruka, Shikamaru and Temari, he also saw Sai in the arms of the green-eyed Jinchuuriki Mamoru, they truly seemed to catch each other's eye… and the list would go on and on.
Drinking in such an amount Naruto soon rivalled the Hokage, who did not miss the event also. However even Kyuubi's tolerance did not prevent Naruto from getting smashed a good deal and soon his legs gave out under him.
Seeing that, Kiba offered to take Naruto home, saying something about paying old debts. Hinata only agreed to that and soon the dog lover was carrying the depressed blonde to the Uchiha complex.
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Little did Naruto know that after taking care of twins' needs and tucking them into bed, Sasuke engaged himself in an activity quite similar to his.
Sasuke however did not have the time to get his interest so far, as he heard the heavy knocks on the main door, which were caused by no one other then Inuzuka Kiba who managed to somehow drag the drunken Naruto there.
Once the Inuzuka left Sasuke wanted to drag his very drunk love to the bed. He however soon found the said love quite uncooperative in the matter. Laden with the blonde's weight like that the raven soon stumbled and fell, sprawling all over the hall's floor, bringing Naruto down with him.
The Uchiha stood up, wanted to help Naruto to do the same, but found himself unable to complete the task, as he soon looked into the blue eyes that looked at him tear-eyed.
The raven groaned and went to get himself another glass of alcohol, not dealing with the sad eyes easily.
The Uchiha did not know that it was that one drink, the said last drop, that it took for the goblet to overflow. The said goblet of Sasuke's restrictions.
Like that when the raven returned to the hall to the drunk Naruto and the said blonde pulled him for a kiss it did not even cross the raven's mind to object. Quite the opposite, he was more than eager to return the kiss, even with interests.
Even when the blonde started crying didn't the raven stop.
„You promised me… you promised me not to leave again… yet you did…" Naruto cried only to be silenced with kisses seconds later.
„I'm so sorry… please forgive me…" Sasuke soothed his lover slowly easing the tension in the body under him, kissing the blonde's tears away. „I'm never going to leave you again…"
„Never?" Blue eyes shone with hesitation.
„Never. Not ever…"
The blonde eased up a bit and let himself be caressed skilfully.
„Promise?"
„Promise." The raven smiled, sealing the deal with a kiss.
Hearing that the blue eyes filled with absolute trust and the blonde let himself fall into the greatest bliss of his beloved's heat.
I'll leave it at this for now ;)
Sorry for the shorteness, but I thought it simply would be better to cut it here then somewhere later (^^;)
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