Title: We're Okay, Got it Memorized?
Author: Izzy-Lawliet (Rin)
Disclaimer: Let's go over this slowly so you can understand what I'm saying. I do not own this. If I did, do you seriously think that I would be typing a poorly written story like this?
Pairings: Axel/Sora
Rating: M
Warnings: AU, yaoi and whatever comes along with it.

Summary: They met online, met in person, and became friends, what's stopping them from becoming more?

Author's Note: Yeah, I had it ready a few days ago but the stupid login wasn't working. So, here, enjoy, and you better review because I worked hard on it.

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Reno walked me home; I didn't speak to him though. I really didn't want to. I was rather pissed at him. I mean, I know he's trying to do good, but I don't think that him doing that is enough. Now I have to tell Roxas and Hayner where I was, and that will no doubt piss them off.

"Ya know, we don't have to tell your brother…" Reno started when we entered my neighborhood.

I took my hand from his and started to sign when he looked my way. Yes we do, I can't lie to my brother, especially with Hayner there. Because, say I do get back with Axel, then they would be even more pissed because I didn't tell them to start out with.

But they'd be pissed either way. Reno signed back.

Yeah, but they won't be as pissed.

I highly doubt that.

I sighed and walked away. He caught up and took my hand in his once more. I looked up at him and smiled pitifully. It wasn't a real smile so that's why I say pitifully. Reno did the same, but I swear he looked to my lips and licked his own. I didn't move, and I didn't move my hand from his, even when he tightened the grip on it.

He started to lean forward, and I have to admit, I'm pretty sure I leaned in to. Before I even knew what was happening, our lips touched. It was a simple pressing of our lips. But I swear, he pressed harder against me, and I guess…I did too.

It wouldn't get any further than that, I couldn't let it. But, it did…

His hands lay on my hips while I raised mine to rest on his shoulders, much like I did with Axel. But for some reason, I felt safe in Axel's brother's arms. I wasn't really regretting that I was kissing him, even when I just told Axel I would give him another chance. I guess it's just because Reno gave me something that I haven't had in almost three months, and even then, it didn't feel this good. And now I feel bad.

Okay, now that's enough, I said to myself and turned my head, breaking the wonderful kiss with Reno that sent shivers up and down my spine.

"Shit." He muttered, still not backing away. "I'm so sorry Sora. I…don't know what happened." I shook my head and then I buried it into his chest. "I'm sorry, I'm so very sorry." I shook my head against his broad chest and felt tears fall down my cheeks. But, I wasn't crying.

I looked up and noticed that it was Reno that was crying. I lifted my hand and started to brush away his tears.

"Sora, please, don't be mad. I'm sorry." He said.

Now that makes me wonder. Isn't this the part where he's supposed to say that he didn't mean to kiss me, that it just happened?

I smiled at the thought and moved my hands to form words. Don't be sorry.

"Why not?" He asked, completely confused.

Just don't, please don't be sorry. I said, feeling my own tears start to fall. I don't know why, but the feeling of him kissing me was great. I kind of wanted it to happen again, but I just couldn't, not when the one I truly wanted was Axel. Not his brother. But now that I think about it, Reno was just a replacement for Axel. I was using him…

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I lay in my bed, staring at the ceiling. I decided not to tell my brother and his boyfriend about Axel getting another chance. I know what would happen, Reno and I played it out while finishing the walk home.

The walk home…wow.

Reno and I kissed, like actually kiss, no tongue but yeah…

But, maybe I shouldn't have kissed him back. It just led him on, and made him wanting more right? I knew he wanted more, much more. And I couldn't give him that. I was, for one, too young, and second of all I was undoubtedly in love with his brother, and lastly…okay, there wasn't a lastly.

I heard my phone vibrate on the dresser, the sound being off. I jumped up and grabbed it, unlocking it to check my text message. Open the front door. I looked at it oddly, it was from an unknown number. I slowly walked out of my room and down the stairs, heading towards the front door. I ignored Roxas calling for me and opened the door.

Looking around, I didn't see anyone, but I had this urge to look down. There, on the floor, was a long white box. I picked the box that had a red bow in the middle, and took in to the kitchen to where I looked at the tag. Roxas and Hayner were now behind me, reading over my shoulder.

To my beautiful Angel.

Your one and only,

Axel.

It said, in a beautiful cursive writing that I only knew Axel to have.

"That bastard!" Hayner yelled, taking the note from the box and crumpling it up in a ball. "Sora, don't open it." I ignored him, untied the bow, and lifted the lid, smiling widely when I saw six white roses laying neatly on a black velvet piece.

"Why six?" Roxas asked, also ignoring his fuming boyfriend.

I turned and signed to Roxas. One for every first. First conversation, first meeting, first kiss, first touch, first 'I love you', and first fight. I really didn't know why I knew all those firsts. I guess, it just came to me out of nowhere…

"What'd he say?" Hayner asked, nodding when Roxas repeated what I told him. "I really need to learn sign language," He muttered, walking back to the living room.

"Wait, first fight?" Roxas asked.

About Charlotte.

"Oh right." He said, chuckling slightly and then looked at the roses once more before heading towards the living room behind Hayner. I turned back around, picked up the box and the crumpled up note and went up the stairs, planning on texting Axel thank you.

In my room, I text him. All I said was a simple thank you. He didn't text back, but Reno did.

'How r u doin sexi???' I replied back like two seconds later and said, 'I'm good, just got the roses axel sent me.' I laid my phone down on my desk while I took out a rose from the box and laid it on my windowsill. One I put in one of my textbooks, then I squished the book under a couple other textbooks. I put the others in a vase after I emptied the dead ones out of it.

'Roses?!'

'Yeah, didnt you know?'

'No.'

'Yeah, theyre white roses.'

'Y wite?'

'White roses are my fav flower.'

'O,how sweet.'

'Yeah. Hey, i have a question.'

'go head'

'those bruises on axel. Did u do that???'

It was a while before he text back, I'd say, like three minutes. '…yah…'

'so you really did beat him up everytime u went back to the hotel???'

'yah. He desrved it…'

This time it took me a couple of minutes to reply. 'okay. I gtg, dinner time.'

'kay, ttyl.'

Once I got that I threw my phone against my bean bag chair. It wasn't dinner time, it was only four. And I knew that Reno knew that too. I just…I can't believe that Reno actually beat Axel up every day for the past…what, two weeks? That must be why the bruises stopped when they did on his skin, clothes could cover up the parts that were discolored.

There was a knock on my door before it was opened and Hayner stood there. "Hey, I just wanted to apologize for earlier." I nodded and reached for my notebook to speak to him with. It's fine, I know you just are overprotective. "Well hell yeah I'm overprotective. I care about you and Roxas. I just don't want you to be hurt, okay?" I nodded once again and smiled weakly at him before he left the room.

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I got another text from an unknown number. It was Axel, and he told me to not to make any plans for the day after Thanksgiving. Which was next Friday. I mean, I think it was a little too soon to be having a date, but I really did want to give Axel another chance. Like really bad. So I guess I wouldn't mind going on a date with him.

I was heading outside to go for a walk in the park and maybe climb the tree by myself before the sun set, when I got a text from an unknown number again, telling me to meet at the park. I shrugged and thought, I was going there anyways, so what does it matter.

On my way out, I signed to Roxas that I was heading out, he said he was too. He was going out to see Hayner obviously. But he didn't have to tell me for me to know it. Who else would he go see? No one I hope. I really like Hayner, he's like a brother to me. I think I'd be heartbroken if they broke up.

Well anyways, I started to walk to the park and my stomach started to knot. I had a bad feeling about something, but I don't know what. Just something was going to go wrong. But, it could have just been my twin-sense tingling. But that hasn't happened to me since Roxas got into that one fight at our other school that landed him in the hospital. And Roxas sensed it last when Riku…did that one thing.

I don't know why, but I just can't say it.

I reached the park just as the sun set into the horizon, and Axel wasn't there. I walked towards the big tree in the middle and started to climb it, I felt hands on my hips and at first I thought it was Axel, but then the person pulled me down. A hand was wrapped around my stomach, holding down one arm in the process while the other was gripping my left forearm tightly.

"Miss me, Angel?" Riku's voice echoed in my ear. I started to struggle forcefully, but with the way he was holding me, I couldn't do much. He pushed me over to the tree that I was headed to and turned me so my back was to it. "Wanna have some fun?" He whispered in my ear, starting to nibble it slightly. And I couldn't help but shudder. I mean, it felt kind of good…

What, what the hell?! What am I saying? It didn't feel good. No, not at all…

But what did feel good was when he started to trail his lips down my jaw to my neck, sucking in different places. I still struggled against him, but I couldn't help the feelings I got when he did what he did, I mean I'm a horny teenager, what do you expect?

"I knew you would like it, and you liked it before, too, huh?" I tried to shake my head, but my body wasn't compliant to anything I wanted to do. "You're just a pathetic whore aren't you? Aren't you Sora, come on, say it." He said, biting harshly on my neck to emphasize what he was saying. "Oh wait, you can't, can you?" Riku bit my neck once more before backing up and slamming his lips against mine. I kept my mouth closed, I may not have any control over my body but I did when I came to kissing, and I definitely didn't want to kiss Riku, especially since he - did that one thing to me.

But when he bit my lip I gasped out and his tongue immediately went in.

I felt his body start to rub against mine and I felt his erection brush against my crotch. I gasped once more at the friction and almost cried in the way my body responded.

I started to grind back.

I tried desperately to stop myself, but I just couldn't. It felt so good, not as good as it did with Axel – not nearly.

"You sonofabitch!" I heard and Riku was pulled away from me – finally – causing me to fall from the lack of him holding me up. I looked up and tired to get my eyes to focus in the dark. It was either Axel or Reno, I could tell that by the bright red hair and the glowing green eyes that held such anger that I cowered away.

"Axel!" Riku screamed and was thrown on the ground.

"Leave him, go to Sora." I heard Reno demand. I heard some footsteps and saw a figure standing over me. When he bent down I was able to see him clearly.

"Sora, Angel, are you okay?" I shook my head and leapt into his arms. "It's okay, I'm here. I won't let him touch you again, okay?" I nodded, easily believing him. I pressed myself tighter to him but gasped out as I felt him accidentally rub against my erection. I backed up immediately and pulled my knees to my chest. "Are you…hard?" I started to cry and looked away from him, turning my head to look at the dark green grass beside me.

I felt Axel's warm hand on my chin, turning it to look back at me.

I faintly heard Riku being beaten up. I didn't bother to look though, for I was only interested in looking at Axel and his gorgeous green eyes.

"Don't be ashamed." He whispered, and I jumped back into his arms. Axel caught me easily and started to stroke my back, rubbing lightly with his fingers, causing me to silently moan. That was always a type of turn on for me, don't ask why.

A few minutes later, I was still in Axel's arms, but Reno was now over here. He had a couple cuts and a busted lip. He said that Riku had run away with many bruises to show for it. "Hey, Sora, hun, let's get you home." I shook my head and pulled myself closer to Axel. "Do you want to come back with us?" I nodded furiously.

"I'll call your mom then." Reno said, standing up and dialing my house phone.

"Angel, let go so we can stand." I shook my head. "Reno…?" I felt hands start to pry me from Axel and I started to fuss before I realized it was only Reno.

I fell back into his arms while Axel stood, but once he did I was back in his, holding him tightly around the neck. He bent down slightly to hook his arms under my knees and lifted me up bridal style.

Before I knew it, we were back at the hotel and I was laying in Axel's bed, pressed against his warm body. I heard Reno say something about going out for a while before I fell asleep.

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I woke up and I wasn't home. I don't know why, but I automatically started to freak out. I didn't know where I was, what was I supposed to do?

"Sora! Calm down, Angel." I winced at the word, but did as Axel said. "What's wrong, Angel?" I winced again and looked at him with a pitiful smile. "Is it about me calling you Angel?" I nodded. "Why?" I looked around for a paper and pen, but when I turned back to Axel he already had one in his hands for me.

Riku…called me Angel while he

"Oh, I'm sorry. I won't call you it again. Okay, Ang-my love?" I smiled at him and laid the notebook down on the side table. "I have a question for you…" I nodded. "A couple of weeks ago, when Hayner and I got into the first fight, he said…that you cut yourself," I looked away ashamed. "You did, didn't you?" I nodded. "Oh, my love, I'm sorry." I was enveloped in a hug and I sobbed into his chest. "Where?" I showed him my lightly scarred wrist.

He lifted my wrist to his lips and lightly kissed it. "Is that it?" I shook my head. I stood up and undid my pants, ignoring Axel's gasp when they and my boxers fell to the floor, showing the real damage to my skin. Not only did I cut on my ankle, but the inside of my thighs were badly cut.

"I'm so sorry." He stood and wrapped me in his arms again. I lifted my head and brought my lips to his in a much needed kiss. After we briefly kissed, he dropped to his knees, looked up at me and then parted my legs to kiss my thighs. I gasped at the sensation and clenched my hands into fists. He kissed each scar and then kissed my legs until he got down to my ankles and kissed each one before sitting back on his legs. "I love you."

I fell into his arms and pressed another kiss to his lips. I kissed him fully, opening my mouth almost immediately when he asked. "Sora...wait." He mumbled against my lips and started to press me back.

This situation seemed so familar, just like before, after the time I was...nevermind.

"We can't, I promised Reno and you that I would do it like I did the first time. Slowly." I shook my head and laid him on the floor, laying on top of him. "No, So-mmph!" I kissed him and forced his mouth open and sighed when there was no more arguring or resistance. We kissed for minutes, his hands running along the length of my back while mine stayed gripping on his shoulders. I felt his hands go under my shirt and I keened into him, loving the feel of his soft hands on my skin.

My shirt came off in no time, leaving me completely naked. I was about to work on his shirt but was stopped when he flipped us over and kissed every part of my body that he could reach. I held him close to me and naively tried to press myself against him.

"Axel Henry Jones!" I turned my head and saw Reno standing near the door, literally fuming. Axel jumped off of me while pulling the blanket off the hotel bed to replace him. "What the hell do you think you're doing?!"

"Uhm..." I sat up and tried to get Reno's attention so I could sign to him. "I'm sorry, I don't have any excuse for what I did, Sir." I stopped motioning and just stared at my ex-boyfriend(?). Did he really just say 'sir'?

"Get out. Don't come back until I call you." And Axel walked walked out of the hotel without even looking at me. Was he that afraid of his brother? "Sora..." Reno started and picked up my clothes off the floor. "Do you mind telling me what that was?"

Don't blame Axel, I did it. I wanted it.

"Well, I'm going to blame him, I told him to wait and not do anything, even if you were ready and he didn't listen to me."

Just don't hurt him anymore, please.

"Fine." And with that he turned away.

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I don't know when Reno called Axel, or when he came back in. I just know that when I woke up Axel was laying next to me, I was curled up in his warm arms. My back was pressed against his warm bare chest. I knew he didn't have a shirt on because I only pulled on my pants when Reno handed them to me. I didn't want to stay in boxers because there was a chance that he could've seen my cut up skin.

"Sora?" I jumped slightly and that caused Axel to chuckle in my ear, making me shudder. "You awake, my love?" I nodded and turned in his arms, something that I was a pro at. "I love you." I smiled and pecked his lips gently. I love you, too. I mouthed back. "I need to tell you some things, but I think you already know." I looked at him patiently, I think I do know what he was talking about. "I couldn't live without you, no matter what. I needed to see you, your smile, your beautiful eyes, and the pout that you always got when you didn't get your way. So I came back. I went to your house and you weren't there, once your brother said you were out with Riku, I started to flip.

"See, there was something else that I never told you. You weren't my first. Riku was. I used to date him, but when I didn't want to have sex with him...he raped me. So, I know how you felt that night. I know that you wanted to be clean, and by someone who loves you. After Riku...did that to me, he forced me in the shower and cleaned me up so I couldn't go to the police. When I went home and told Reno, he was furious, my parents even more pissed, them because I was with a guy. Reno took me to the police, but they couldn't do a damn thing. When I got back home, my parents beat me so bad I couldn't go to school for a month, the first week because I was in so much pain from the raping. Reno left after that, he was eighteen, but he couldn't take me away because mom and dad wouldn't allow it, and I refused to leave Kairi - seeing as she was just born.

"When I found out you were raped, I should have taken you to the police. But I wasn't thinking straight. I just knew that you would want to be clean, want to be and feel safe. But I regret that I did that, if I took you to the police, Riku would never bother us again." By now, Axel was crying. This wasn't exactly what I was expecting when he said he had things to tell me. But I'm glad he did. It makes me feel closer to him.

"The only reason I said you took my virginity was because Reno told me that I was still a virgin when it happened all those years ago - if you're wondering, I was only thirteen. I started to believe it myself, but when the time came and I surprised you, I was literally freaking out until you came into the room with that shocked expression of yours." I smiled at the remembrance of it.

"While I was in Midgar, I didn't do much of anything, all I did was sit at Reno's and go to work at a cafe that paid for performances. I sang every night, hours at a time. I'm sorry I never told you I could sing, I didn't like anyone knowing. But I raised enough money to pay for a downpayment on a house. I wasn't planning on telling you for a while, but I don't think I should lie to you anymore about anything. I paid the downpayment, and I kept on working until I could buy the house, Reno paid for half because he didn't want me doing it all by myself.

"There's one more thing." He took a deep breath. "I cheated on you, with..." He took one more deep breath before continuing. "One of my ex's." I nodded my head. "His name's Zack Fair. I've known him since I was little, he's Reno's age.

"I didn't do it with him. We did everything but that. I almost did though. I was so tempted to, just to get that feeling that I got with you, back. I needed it. But right at the last moment, before I could enter him...I stopped. He completely understood, having already known about you from Reno. He said that he wouldn't have left me continue anyways, he would have stopped me whether I wanted to or not.

"That was the night before I came back." I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled him to me to where his head was laying on my chest. I pet his red hair.

I heard some rustling of sheets from the bed next to ours before Reno sat up. "Sora? Ax? You two okay?"

"Yeah, I think we are." Axel lifted his head to look at me, smiling when he saw I was. "I really do."